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The Silent Killer in the Parking Lot

Psychopaths continue to be treated as petty criminals at one moment, as mentally ill persons at the next, and again as well and normal human beings—all without the slightest change in their conditions having occurred. Many psychopaths are plainly unsuited for life in any community; some are as thoroughly incapacitated as most unmistakable cases of schizophrenia. Whether this is to be regarded as a more or less willful contrariness or as a sickness like schizophrenia, in which the patient is to be protected and looked after, may for the moment be put aside. Some people in the community are definitely psychopaths, but milder cases, just as a patient still living satisfactorily in a community, may be clearly a schizophrenic, but nevertheless able to maintain himself outside the shelter of a psychiatric hospital. Others might not deserve to be called psychopaths but seem to show strong, even if not consistent, tendencies and inner reactions characteristic of the group. These, in comparison with the definite psychopaths, may be regarded in the same relation as the queer schizoid personalities, in whom one sees no technical psychosis but, very plainly, the subjective essence of what is most distinctly schizoid, stand to the full-blown schizophrenic with his delusions, hallucinations, and unmistakable objective manifestations of psychosis. #RandolphHarris 1 of 24

To further highlight this illustration, recently, I was consulted by a man thirty-two years of age whose only complaint was of a general listlessness which he had noticed for about a year. He was a tall, rather slender person, slightly brittle in manner, and gave a definite impression of being not very much worried about his complaint. He lives with his parents in a small town where he makes an excellent salary as an expert in looking after data centers. He enjoys the title of engineer, though he had no formal education beyond that obtained in a rustic high school. Examinations soon brought out the fact that he never had sexual relations with a woman. He had, however, made the attempt not once but many times, the first attempt being twelve years ago. He succeeds in having erections but ejactulatio praecox always occurs, and he fails entirely to effect an entrance. This situation, which most young men would find nothing short of distressing, he spoke about very casually. Questions concerning his attitudes toward love and women brought rather stereotyped answers. He denied ever having scruples about fornication. To him, it was evidently neither good nor bad. His attempts to practice were, it would seem, made with a vague idea of doing what was the custom. #RandolphHarris 2 of 24

He professed to be interested in overcoming his inability to perform intercourse and showed no embarrassment and little reticence about sexual questions but gave a strong impression of having only the shallowest interest. His entire emotional life seemed perfunctory and without warmth. Nothing in his experience could be elicited which brought forth any vividness or enthusiasm. He said that he was at present going with a girl whom he would like to marry, but his attitude toward her seemed without any tangible desire or eager anticipation. At times, he gave a stilted, incongruous little laugh that sounded almost exactly like a manneristic laugh so familiar in actual schizophrenics. No delusions or hallucinations could be brought out. He had been leading an outwardly successful life and is a fairly conscientious and reliable member of society. The man mentioned could certainly not be called legally incompetent at present. Nor should he be diagnosed as a case of schizophrenia. To further highlight this illustration of the developed schizophrenic, let us consider a former patient of mine who often sat for hours in a corner staring vacantly into space, his lips moving, and silly, grimacing smiles flitting across his face. Sometimes this man would not answer questions, apparently not even hearing them, so absorbed was he in subjective contemplation. #RandolphHarris of 3 of 24

Again, he would grin glassily and wink his eye or occasionally speak with passion about strange machinery in a distant city which enemies whom he referred to merely as “they” were using to inject queer colors into his thoughts and sometimes to make him ejaculate. This man, at times, suddenly attacked others. It was eminently necessary to keep him on a closed ward and under close supervision. In some of those to be presented, such a comparison probably would not be justified. Some might more accurately be thought of as showing scattered indications of such a disorder, suggestions of a disturbance central in nature but well contained within an outer capsule of successful behavior much deeper that the merely logical had theoretical rationality of the disabled psychopath. In those who consistently support themselves and pass regularly as acceptable members of the social group, we can only be astonished at the difference between such technical outer adjustment and the indications of deeper pathologic features so similar to those found in the complete manifestation of the disorder. Many patients show relatively circumscribed antisocial behavior or temporary episodes of gross, general delinquency, who have much less in common with the obvious psychopath than those who make a better outward impression but who consistently show signs of inner subjective reactions typical of the clinically disabled patient. #RandolphHarris 4 of 24

These patients with temporary or circumscribed maladjustment or self-defeating behavior will be referred to later at greater length. They are mentioned here to distinguish them not only from the fully manifested psychopath but also from those who, over the years, show more subtle indications of widespread and intractable defect or deviation in essential personal reactions and subjective evaluations. The psychopathological process, or state, which I believe is seriously disabling the patients, may be regarded as affecting, in part and to a varying degree, those yet to be discussed. I believe that in these personalities designated as partially or inwardly affected, a very deep-seated disorder often exists. The true difference between them and the psychopaths who continually go to jails or to psychiatric hospitals is that they keep up a far better and more consistent outward appearance of being normal. This outward appearance may include business or professional careers that continue in a sense of success, and which are truly successful when measured by financial reward or by the casual observer’s opinion of real accomplishment. It must be remembered that even the most severely and obviously disabled psychopath presents a technical appearance of sanity, often one of high intellectual capacities, and not infrequently succeeds in business or professional activities for short periods, sometimes for considerable periods. #RandolphHarris 5 of 24

The actual but concealed personality disorganization, in a much deeper sense, is also far-reaching and profound. Although they occasionally appear on casual inspection as successful members of the community, as able lawyers, executives, or physicians, they do not, it seems, succeed in the sense of finding satisfaction or fulfillment in their accomplishments. Nor do they, when one knows the full story, appear to find this in any other ordinary healthy activity. By healthy activity, we do not need to postulate what is considered moral or decent by the average man, but many include any type of asocial, or even criminal, activity so long as its motivation can be translated into terms of ordinary human striving, selfish or unselfish. The chief difference between the patients already discussed, and some of those to be mentioned, lies perhaps in whether the mask or façade of psychobiologic health is extended into superficial material success. I believe that the relative state of this outward appearance is not necessarily consistent with the degree to which the person is really affected by the essential disorder. An analogy is at hand if we compare the catatonic schizophrenic, with his obvious psychosis, to the impressively intelligent paranoid patient who outwardly is much more normal, and may even appear better adjusted than the average person. The catatonic schizophrenic is more likely to recover and, despite his appearance, is often less seriously disordered than the paranoiac. #RandolphHarris 6 of 24

It becomes difficult to imagine how much of the shame and hollowness which cynical commentators have immemorially pointed out in life may come from contact in serious issues with persons affected in some degree by the disorder we are trying to describe. The fake poet who really feels little, the painter who, despite his loftiness, really had his eye on the lucrative fad of his day; the fashionable clergyman who, despite his burning eloquence or his lively castigation of the devil, is seriously concerned chiefly with his advancement; the flirt who can readily awaken love and cannot feel love or recognize its absence; parents who, despite smooth convictions that they have only the child’s welfare at heart, actually reject him except as it suits their own petty or selfish aims: all these types, so familiar in literature and in anybody’s experience, may be as they are because of a slight affliction with the personality disorder now under discussion. I believe it is probable that many persons outwardly imposing, yet actually of insignificant emotional importance, really are so affected. Let us not, however, attempt to explain all pretense and all fraud on this basis. There are many other psychopathologic reactions besides the one with which we are now concerned. And these, too, are capable of producing such results. #RandolphHarris 7 of 24

Let us be especially chary about assuming this limitation in our enemies or our neighbors. The mechanisms of reaction-formation, projection, rationalization, and many other distorting influences work in all of us at the behest of envy, pique, or prejudice. It is not easy to estimate the degree of our neighbor’s sincerity, the worth of an artist’s production, the clergyman’s real motive. Some of the episodes or symptoms may represent less profound inner disturbance than anything properly belonging with that of the real psychopath. Many of the acts might, in isolation, occur in the lives of people who, at length, achieve excellent adjustment not only externally but within. There was a case of a man named Max, and it was very interesting. He was in police custody and made a vocal uproar only because he was too securely held to fight and have extravagant boasts of his physical prowess and savage temper. Although he was friendly and flattering toward his examining physician and the hospital, he had frequently been in mental hospitals for treatment of mental disorders and maintained that he was not responsible for his misconduct. He seemed pleased to be at the hospital, was expansive and cordial, a little haughty despite his well-maintained air of camaraderie. Through preposterously boastful, he did not show any indication of a psychosis. The hospital records show that he had been a patient eight years previously for a period of two months. #RandolphHarris 8 of 24

During this time, he showed no evidence of a psychosis or a psychoneurosis and was discharged with a diagnosis of psychopathic personality. He was found to have tertiary syphilis, but neurologic examination and spinal fluid studies showed no evidence of neurosyphilis. After he was granted parole from the hospital, he was arrested again for disturbing the peace. After losing parole and being questioned about his conduct by the physicians, he glibly denied all and showed little concern at being accused. Since he was not considered as suffering from a real nervous or mental disorder, and since it was difficult to keep him on any ward except the closely supervised one among actively disturbed patients, he had been discharged. Records show that he sought hospitalization on other occasions after having been fined a half-dozen or more times for brawling on the streets and for petty frauds. When his troubles with civil authorities became too discomforting, he sought the shelter of a psychiatric hospital. He complained of having spells during which he lost his temper and attacked people. On one of his trips to the hospital, he had, in describing these spells, mentioned some points that would suggest epilepsy. As soon as he came to the hospital was relieved of responsibility for the trouble he had made, the so-called spells ceased. #RandolphHarris 9 of 24

His descriptions of the spells varied. Sometimes, when particularly expansive, he boasted of superconvulsions lasting as long as ten hours, during which he made window panes rattle and shook slats from the bed. After being in the hospital for several weeks and apparently beginning to grow bored, his talk of spells died down, and he seemed to lose interest in the subject. He was discharged after the staff agreed that the alleged seizures were entirely spurious, and the patient himself had all but admitted it. The diagnosis of psychopathic personality was made. Between his first visit to the present hospital and his recent return, he had been in five other psychiatric institutions, each time following conflicts with the law or pressing difficulties with private persons. In all the records accumulated during these examinations and investigations, no authentic symptoms of an orthodox mental disorder are noted. Upon many occasions, while in the hospital, it was noted that he was alert, quick-witted, nimble with his hands, entirely free from delusions, hallucinations, or any of the broader personality changes found in the ordinary psychoses. He was by no means “nervous,” even in the lay sense, and showed no emotional instability or signs of ungovernable impulse. Rather than an excess of anxiety, he showed the reverse, apparently finding little or nothing in his present situation or in all his past difficulties to cause worry or uneasiness. #RandolphHarris 10 of 24

Max was often caught sowing the seeds of discontent among other patients whom he encouraged to break rules, to oppose attendants, and to demand discharge. He made small thefts from time to time. This trend culminated in his kicking out an iron grill during the night and leaving the hospital. He took with him two psychotic patients, and numerous others testified that he had tried to persuade them to leave also. The next afternoon, he was returned to the hospital by the police after being arrested in the midst of a brawl that he had caused by cheating at a game of chance in a low dive. Many of these episodes resulted in his being sent to psychiatric hospitals which he promptly obtained his release by legal actions. Others had led him to jail and to the police barracks dozens of times for charges not sufficiently serious for him to utilize the expedient of psychiatric hospitalization as a means of escape. Despite his ferocious threats of violence and his pretty genuine ability as a pugilist, breaking his wife’s jaw, and after giving his other wives what was called “an average beating,” he was not considered violent because “substantial injury was unintentional, an act of thoughtless exuberance committed in the heart of a situation eminently and subtly designed to bring out high enthusiasm in such a man as our hero.” #RandolphHarris 11 of 24

A few years later, his wife said that she could not endure the beatings anymore and expressed that her husband threatened to kill her with an axe. However, as soon as she recovered from her fears, she asked for his parole from the hospital. At the insistence of both man and wife, he was discharged after a few weeks. Obviously, Max was suffering from some type of mental disorder and was entirely unsuited to be at large. However, because he was neat and well-groomed, insouciant, witty, alert, and splendidly rational, he was often granted the verdict of freedom. Many of the characteristics and reactions seen in extreme exaggeration among the psychotic appear sometimes to be utilized by those of great talent and excellent psychiatric status in the successful pursuit of valuable personal and social aims. It is unlikely that the specific reactions of the psychopath can be directly utilized for important positive accomplishments. It is believed, however, that many persons in bewilderment and frustration fall into similar reactions temporarily and eventually, finding better means of adaptation, profit from what has been learned through the pathologic experiences. Science treats man as a higher animal, and has no better view of him. This is incomplete to the point of falsity, dangerous to the point of self-destruction. #RandolphHarris 12 of 24

If someone sets out to fight his battles in the world in his own absolute freedom, if he values the necessary deed more highly than the spotlessness of his own conscience and reputation, if he is prepared to sacrifice a fruitless principle to a fruitful compromise, or, for that matter, the fruitless wisdom of the via media to a fruitful radicalism, then let him beware lest precisely his supposed freedom may ultimately prove his undoing. He will easily consent to the bad, knowing full well that it is bad, in order to ward off what is worse, and in doing this, he will no longer be able to see that precisely the worse which he is trying to avoid may still be the better. This is one of the underlying themes of tragedy. Some who seek to escape from taking a stand publicly find a place of refuge in a private virtuousness. Such a man does not steal. He does not commit murder. He does not engage in adultery. Within the limits of his powers, he does good. However, in his voluntary renunciation of publicity, he knows how to remain punctiliously within the permitted bounds which preserve him from involvement in conflict. He must be blind and deaf to the wrongs which surround him. It is only at the price of an act of self-deception that he can safeguard his private blamelessness against contamination through responsible action in the world. Whatever he may do, that which he omits to do will give him no peace. Either this disquiet will destroy him, or he will become the most hypocritical of the Pharisees. #RandolphHarris 13 of 24

Who would wish to pour scorn on such failures and frustrations as these? Reason, moral fanaticism, conscience, duty, free responsibility, and silent virtue, these are the achievements and attitudes of a noble humanity. It is the best of men who go under in this way, with all that they can do or be. Here is the immortal figure of Prince Lestat, the prince of doleful countenance, who takes a music career as a method of exposure and fights an endless battle for the love of a mortal lady. That is how it looks when an old world venture to take up arms against the superior forces of the commonplace and mean. Even the deep cleft which separates the two halves of the great story is characteristic in that the storyteller himself turns against the true hero in the second half, which was not written until many years later than the first, and allies himself with the mean and mocking world. It is all too easy to pour scorn on the weapon which served them to perform great feats, but which in the present struggle can no longer be sufficient. It is a mean-spirited man who can read of what befell Prince Lestat and not be stirred to sympathy. Yet our business now is to replace our rusty swords with sharp ones. Only if he can combine simplicity with wisdom, can a man hold his own here. However, what is simplicity? What is wisdom? And how are the two to be combined? To be simple is to fix one’s eyes solely on the simple truth of God at a time when all concepts are being confused, distorted, and turned upside-down. It is to be single-hearted and not a man of two souls. #RandolphHarris 14 of 24

Because the simple man knows God, because God is his, he clings to the commandments, the judgments, and the mercies which come from God’s mouth every day fresh. Not fettered by principles, but bound by love for God, he has been set free from the problems and conflicts of ethical decision. They no longer oppress him. He belongs simply and solely to God and to the will of God. It is precisely because he looks only to God, without any sidelong glance at the world, that he is able to look at the reality of the world freely and without prejudice. And that is how simplicity becomes wisdom. The wise man is the one who sees reality as it is, and who sees into the depths of things. That is why only that man is wise who sees reality in God. To understand reality is not the same as to know about outward events. It is to perceive the essential nature of things. The best-informed man is not necessarily the wisest. Indeed, there is a danger that precisely in the multiplicity of his knowledge about events, but always without becoming dependent upon this knowledge. To recognize the significance in the factual is wisdom. The wise man is aware of the limited receptiveness of reality for principles; for he knows that reality is not built upon principles but that it rests upon the living and creating God. He knows, too, therefore, that reality cannot be helped by even the purest of principles or by even the best of wills, but only by the living God. #RandolphHarris 15 of 24

Principles are only tools in God’s hand, soon to be thrown away as unserviceable. To look in freedom at God and at reality, which rests solely upon him, this is to combine simplicity with wisdom. There is no true simplicity without wisdom, and there is no wisdom without simplicity. Let us consider the Good, where all is on a more perfect plane, where earnestness and truth are the innocent fancy of beautiful thought. To will the Good for the sake of reward is double-mindedness. To will one thing is, therefore, to will the Good without considering the reward. In truth, to will one this is to will the Good, but not, therefore, to desire reward in the world. The reward can, of course, come without a man’s willing it. I have thought it is in the outward realms, the reward may come from God. However, when a man considers that all reward in the outer realm can become what the word’s reward always is—a temptation for him, then he must guard himself even against true reward just in order rightly to be able to will the Good. Oh, that he must not forget, that this, even such a desire to guard himself, may once more be a temptation to pride. However, if it be true of the reward for Good in the world, that the reward the world gives is so dangerous, then the Good has almost an edifying quality here in this world (even if this edification is somewhat softened in the blessed smile of eternity.) For here, the man who in truth wills the Good, by willing one thing, is very rarely led into the difficulty of being tempted by reward. #RandolphHarris 16 of 24

Now, that the Good has its own reward is indeed forever certain. There is nothing so certain. It is not even more certain that God exists, for that is one and the same thing. However, here on earth, Good is often temporarily rewarded by ingratitude, by lack of appreciation, by poverty, by contempt, by many sufferings, and now and then by death. It is not this reward to which we refer when we say that the Good has its reward. Yet, this is the reward that comes in the external world and that comes first of all. And it is precisely this reward which the man is anxious about, who wills the Good for the sake of the reward. For he has no time to wait, no tie, no years, no life to give away—for an eternity. Hence, that reward which comes in the external world is so far from being desirable, that, on the contrary, it is both valuable and encouraging when it does not come in the outer world, so that the double-mindedness in the inner realm may perish, and so that the reward in heaven may be all the greater. To will the Good for the sake of the reward is, as it were, a symbol of double-mindedness. And a double-minded man, says the Apostle, may not expect to receive that for which he prays. Even if such a double-minded one, who wills the Good for the sake of the reward, may puff himself up, appear defiant, and fancy that he has won his goal, even if many blind ones foolishly think the same; yet let us not deceive each other, my listener, or allow a sense-deception to do so. #RandolphHarris 17 of 24

It is quite possible that he will win good things, that are called rewards. Still, he does not get them as a reward, at least not if truth, if it be true that to will the Good in truth is recognizable by one’s willing it without reward. Oh, Thou the Good’s wonderful at-oneness with thy self that protects thee from being delivered! When, for the sake of reward, a double-minded person only pretends to will the Good, and he seems to get the reward, nevertheless, he does not get it. For that which he gets, he does not get as reward—for the Good. So far is he from getting it as a reward that, rather at the very moment that he receives the Good, he discovers that the reward has vanished. The commonest clinical objection to script theory is that a patient cannot be cured in the psychoanalytic sense by dealing with conscious material alone. This is correct. However, the unconscious has become fashionable, and, hence, grossly overrated. That is, by far the larger percentage of what is called unconscious nowadays is not unconscious, but preconscious. The patient, however, will oblige the therapist who is looking for “unconscious” material by advancing preconscious material with a spurious label. This is easily verified by asking the patient, “Was it really unconscious, or was it just vaguely conscious?” The patient, however, will oblige the therapist who is looking for “unconscious” material by advancing preconscious material with a spurious label. “Was it really unconscious, or was it just vaguely conscious?” #RandolphHarris 18 of 24

True unconscious material — such as the primal fear that Prince Lestat would lose his humanity and be forever cut off from knowing mortals — is not “vaguely conscious” but genuinely inaccessible to awareness. For this reason, the script analyst who works with conscious material is in fact engaging with a far larger territory of the psyche than most people imagine. Conscious narratives are only the surface expressions of deeper, archaic experiences. There is no prohibition against the script analyst addressing unconscious material when he is equipped to do so. Indeed, he must, because these primal derivatives — the original terror of becoming something other than human, the dread of losing the capacity for mutual recognition — form the very protocol from which the script is written. They are the buried axioms of psychic life, shaping the individual’s destiny long before they can be spoken. However, here the psychological problem becomes a cultural one. If knowledge fails to reconcile science with religion and philosophy — that is, if it cannot integrate empirical truth with symbolic meaning and ethical purpose — then civilization becomes vulnerable to a purely political, materialistic form of scientific authority. Such knowledge, stripped of metaphysical grounding and moral imagination, becomes an instrument of domination rather than understanding. In the end, a civilization governed only by technical rationality will devour itself, for it will have amputated the very sources of meaning that make human life bearable. #RandolphHarris 19 of 24

The man had been thinking about that very idea earlier that day — how systems built for efficiency could become indifferent to the human beings inside them. He did not expect to become the example. He opened the car door only to grab a folder from the back seat. The moment he leaned in, the automatic locks clicked shut with a cold, mechanical certainty. He froze. The handle refused to budge. The sealed cabin, already warm from the afternoon sun, felt like it exhaled against him. It was 85°F outside. Inside, the temperature was already climbing past 100°F. Within five minutes, the interior reached 110°F. Sweat poured instantly, soaking his shirt, dripping into his eyes. His skin flushed bright red as his body attempted to cool itself through evaporation — but the air was too hot, too humid, too stagnant. His heart rate surged to compensate, pounding at 130 beats per minute. By ten minutes, the cabin hit 120°F. His breathing grew shallow. The air tasted metallic, thick, almost syrupy. His core temperature began rising above 101°F — the threshold at which heat illness begins. His muscles trembled. His vision blurred at the edges. By twenty minutes, the interior reached 130°F. His core temperature climbed to 103°F. Nausea twisted his stomach. His thinking slowed, as if his thoughts were melting. He felt a crushing pressure in his chest — not from panic, but from the cardiovascular strain of trying to cool a body that could no longer cool itself. By thirty minutes, the cabin hit 135°F. His core temperature passed 104°F — the medical definition of heatstroke. Proteins in his cells began to denature. His kidneys struggled to filter blood thickened by dehydration. His brain swelled microscopically, causing confusion, disorientation, and a sense of detachment from his own body. By forty minutes, he stopped sweating. His skin turned hot and dry — a catastrophic sign. His heart pounded at 160 beats per minute, then stuttered unpredictably. He slumped sideways, unable to lift his head. His core temperature approached 105°F. By fifty minutes, the interior reached 140°F. His consciousness flickered. He felt as though he were dissolving into the heat, becoming part of the air itself. His hearing dimmed. His thoughts fragmented. He could no longer tell if his eyes were open. By sixty minutes, he was moments from cardiac arrest. And then — sirens. #RandolphHarris 20 of 24

The world‑renowned Sacramento Fire Department arrived with the precision of a miracle. Firefighters assessed the situation instantly. A Halligan tool bit into the window frame. With a sharp crack, the glass shattered, and a rush of cooler air flooded the cabin. Award‑winning paramedics pulled him from the car, laying him on the asphalt. His core temperature was 105.4°F — a level that can cause permanent organ damage. They applied ice packs to his neck, groin, and armpits. They misted his skin and used high‑flow oxygen to stabilize his breathing. His pulse slowly steadied. His vision returned in fragments. In the hospital, doctors warned him: heatstroke survivors often face long‑term effects — kidney vulnerability, heat intolerance, chronic fatigue, cognitive fog, and autonomic instability. But he survived. Not because of the machine that trapped him, nor the technical systems that failed to prevent it — but because human beings, guided by moral imagination, refused to let him die. Civilization endures not through its mechanisms, but through the humanity that remembers meaning. Every summer, people underestimate how fast a parked car becomes deadly. At just 85 degrees outside, the interior can reach 120°F in fifteen minutes and soar past 140°F within an hour. Each year, an average of 37 children die in hot cars, along with vulnerable adults who become trapped or incapacitated. Inside that sealed heat, the body’s core temperature rises rapidly: sweating stops, organs strain, confusion sets in, and heatstroke begins as the brain swells and the heart races toward collapse. No cracked window or quick errand prevents this. A car becomes an oven, and the human body cannot survive it. This summer, remember that no child, no adult, and no pet should ever be left alone in a vehicle—not even for a moment. Lives depend on that single decision. #RandolphHarris 21 of 24

When it comes to firefighting, every incident carries the potential for injury—no matter how small the fire appears or how routine the call may seem. If you see a fire engine stopped in the street without its lights on, use extreme caution. Crews may be working nearby, and passing the apparatus can put them in danger. It is often safer to turn around and take another route; if you strike a firefighter or civilian and cause a fatality, you could face charges such as manslaughter. Firefighters frequently move around their vehicle on foot, loading equipment or preparing to leave the scene. Attempting to pass the apparatus can result in a collision with someone you cannot see. Pay close attention to their hand signals as well—emergency vehicles sometimes move slowly or reposition, and impatient drivers trying to slip around them create hazardous situations. If you are already in an intersection when you notice an emergency vehicle approaching, continue through it, then pull to the right and stop as soon as it is safe. Always obey directions from law enforcement officers or firefighters, even if those instructions conflict with posted signs or traffic laws. When sirens or flashing lights are activated, it is illegal to follow within 300 feet of a fire engine, ambulance, or police vehicle. Driving to the scene of a fire, collision, or disaster can also result in arrest, as doing so interferes with firefighters, paramedics, and other emergency personnel. Professional courage is not limited to physical toughness. It includes listening to others, advocating for them in difficult situations, understanding personal limits, and having the integrity to tell a superior when they are wrong. The deeper truth is that public safety depends not only on the bravery of first responders but on the discipline and judgment of the community around them. Every driver’s decision—whether cautious or careless—can either protect or endanger the people risking their lives to protect everyone else. #RandolphHarris 22 of 24

Efforts to preserve farmland and maintain buildable land for future generations often lead to discussions about population growth and long‑term planning. Some people argue that immigration levels should be managed carefully to ensure that infrastructure, housing, and land use remain sustainable. Others suggest that, when immigration does occur, programs that encourage broad representation can help communities reflect the diversity of the wider world. When Americans purchase goods made in the United States, it strengthens local businesses and signals to investors that these products are in demand. Strong sales give investors confidence to reinvest in domestic companies, helping keep jobs, production, and wages within the country. As businesses grow, they contribute more to the tax base, which can reduce the burden on taxpayers over time. Supporting American businesses also keeps more money circulating within the national economy. The government increases the national debt when it spends more than it collects in tax revenue or borrows from private or foreign lenders. When people shop locally, more tax revenue stays in the community and supports public services. This helps keep jobs in the United States and increases the tax contributions that fund government operations. Purchasing foreign-made goods, by contrast, often sends money overseas and may benefit companies that operate under lighter tax or environmental regulations. Buying American-made products can also reduce environmental impact because they travel shorter distances and are produced under stricter standards for air, land, and water protection. In this way, consumer choices influence not only the economy but also environmental stewardship and long-term national sustainability. #RandolphHarris 23 of 24

Under President Trump’s administration, he has made America a priority. President Trump has hermetically sealed the southern border, illegal crossings have been terminated, and are 90 percent lower than under the previous administration. Since President Trump’s crack down on crime, violent crimes in Washington D.C. have dropped by approximately 80 percent. He has stopped thousands of pounds of drugs from entering America and killing citizens. And since President Trump took office, investments in America have increased by trillions of dollars in U.S.A. manufacturing, production, and innovation. As you can see, President Donald Trump and his pledge to “Make America Great Again” is exactly what America needs to save the country and the American people. And yes, diversity is important, so you can see why it is also important to preserve blonde hair and blue eyes, as the people with these characteristics are becoming a minority in America. As a reminder, parents, please teach your children to love America and be patriotic citizens, and to buy goods and services made in America. It is also important to respect law and order and treat your elders with respect. It is inborn in the human mind to wish to know. If this begins with the endless surface questions of a child’s curiosity, if it continues into deeper questions of a scientist’s probing investigation, it cannot and does not stop there. For the higher part of the mind will eventually come into unfoldment, that union of abstract reflective thought with mystical intuition, which is true intelligence, which needs and sees a view of the whole of things. And so, the knowing faculty enters the realm of philosophy. A lot of children are having problems in school and cannot even write a paragraph because they are not reading their books. When you actually read books, you get an example of how to write and will become a better student. Therefore, remember to take your education seriously so that you will be successful in life and make your family proud. Also, to make sure they have all the resources required, please donate to the Sacramento Fire Department to help improve our national security. “Oh, thus be it ever, when freemen shall stand between their loved home and the war’s desolation! Blest with victory and peace, may the heav’n-rescued land Praise the Power that hath made and preserved us a nation! Then conquer we must, when our cause is just, and this be our motto: ‘In God is our trust.’ And the star-spangled banner in triumph shall wave O’er the land of the free and the home of the brave.” Thank you for your attention to this matter. President DONALD J. TRUMP #RandolphHarris 24 of 24


In the bitter spring of 1922, for six uncanny days, the Winchester Mystery House became the sole subject of whispered conversation across San Jose. Visitors claimed the mansion seemed almost alive, watching them from behind its stained‑glass eyes as they wandered its impossible hallways. Guides spoke of a strange pull, a quiet insistence that guests return again and again. Legend soon formed that the house hungered for souls to tour it thirteen times, believing that only then could it claim a fragment of their spirit. Whether born of superstition or something older, the tale spread quickly, and those who felt the mansion’s gaze swore the house remembered every face that crossed its threshold.

The spirits of the Winchester remain active, waiting for the completion of the mansion. For more than a century, they have wandered its unfinished corridors, lingering in stairways that lead nowhere and rooms sealed off from daylight. Some say they are bound not by malice, but by expectation — trapped in the same endless construction Mrs. Sarah Winchester once believed would keep them at peace. The house listens, breathes, and remembers. And until the final nail is driven, the final room raised, the spirits wait for the day the mansion is whole enough to release them… or claim whoever dares to finish what Mrs. Sarah began.

A visit to the Winchester Mystery House is more than a tour—it is an encounter with legend. It is a place where imagination thrives, where history whispers through every corridor, and where the line between fact and folklore blurs in the most enchanting way. Come discover why millions of visitors from around the world consider the Winchester Mystery House a must‑see destination and one of California’s most iconic treasures.
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Café 13: A Rest Stop on the Edge of the Mystery

After wandering the winding halls of the Winchester Mystery House—where staircases defy logic and whispers seem to cling to the walls—Café 13 offers a welcome return to warmth and grounding. Newly reopened and serving guests daily from 10 AM to 3 PM, this cozy hideaway invites you to pause, breathe, and gather yourself before diving back into the mansion’s secrets.

Here, you can enjoy breakfast, lunch, snacks, and refreshing drinks in a calm indoor space that feels worlds away from the mansion’s twisting corridors. Settle in with a warm meal, challenge a friend to a board game, or simply rest and recharge as sunlight filters through the windows. Café 13 is more than a café—it’s a moment of calm between chapters of the Winchester legend, a place to steady your nerves before returning to the gardens, the grandeur, and the mysteries that await.
Winchester Mercantile Gift Shop

Your journey into the Winchester Mystery House begins long before you cross the mansion’s threshold. It starts at the Mercantile gift shop—a welcoming outpost standing at the edge of a world where history and myth intertwine. Here, beneath warm lights and shelves lined with curiosities, you can secure your tour tickets and prepare for the adventure ahead. Guests often pause for a souvenir photograph, capturing the moment before they step into Sarah Winchester’s enigmatic domain. As you explore the shop, you will find an eclectic array of gifts and keepsakes: tokens of the mansion’s lore, echoes of Victorian elegance, and mementos that carry a touch of the house’s enduring mystery. The Mercantile is more than a gift shop—it is the gateway. https://winchestermysteryhouse.com/

Renunciation, Not Resignation: A Study in the Will

“When the spirit resigns itself to sorrow, it is not the world that conquers us, but we who abandon the field.” What we are describing is resignation. In psychological terms, resignation is a passive surrender to circumstances — a collapse of agency marked by helplessness, hopelessness, and withdrawal rather than adaptation or problem‑solving. Yet beneath this surface lies a deeper structure. At the core of resignation is the restriction of wishes: the quiet abandonment of the need for closeness, for triumph, for recognition, or for any form of fulfillment that might expose one to disappointment. Uncertainty about one’s own wishes often accompanies this state. Instead of desiring freely, the resigned person begins to desire according to inner dictates — what he believes he should wish, rather than what he authentically wants. As in other neurotic trends, one area of life may be more affected than another, but the pattern is the same: spontaneous wishes become blurred, muted, or overridden by internal prohibitions. Beyond these distortions lies the final conviction — sometimes conscious, often unconscious — that it is safer not to wish at all. To expect nothing is to avoid the pain of loss; to hope for nothing is to avoid the humiliation of failure. Thus, resignation becomes a psychological refuge, but a barren one: a retreat from the world purchased at the cost of one’s own vitality. Sometimes this goes with a conscious pessimistic outlook on life, a sense of its being futile anyhow, and of nothing being sufficiently desirable to make an effort for it. #RandolphHarris 1 of 20

More often, many things appear desirable in a vague, idle way but fail to arouse a concrete, alive wish. If a wish or interest has enough zest to penetrate through the “do not care” attitude, it fades out soon after, and the smooth surface of “nothing matters” or “nothing should matter” is reestablished. Such “wishlessness” concerns both professional and personal life—the wish for a different job or an advancement as well as for a marriage, a house, a car, or other possessions. The fulfillment of these wishes may loom primarily as a burden, and in fact would sabotage the one wish he does have—that of not being bothered. The retraction of wishes is closely interlinked with the three basic characteristics mentioned before. Only if he has no strong wishes of any kind can he be an onlooker at his life. If he does not have the motive power of wishes, he can hardly have aspirations or purposeful goals. And, finally, no wish is strong enough to warrant effort. Hence, the two outstanding neurotic claims are that life should be easy, painless, and effortless, and that he should not be bothered. He is particularly anxious not to get attached to anything to the extent of really needing it. Nothing should be so important for him that he could not do without it. It is all right to like a woman, a place in the country, or certain drinks, but one should not become dependent upon them. As soon as he becomes aware that a place, a person, or a group of people means so much to him that their loss would be painful, he tends to retract his feelings. No other person should ever have the feeling of being necessary to him or take the relationship for granted. If he suspects the existence of either attitude, he tends to withdraw. #RandolphHarris 2 of 20

The principle of nonparticipation, as it is expressed in his being an onlooker at life as well as in his reaction of wishes, also operates in his human relations. They are characterized by detachment, id est, his emotional distance from others. He can enjoy distant or transitory relationships, but he should not become emotionally involved. He should not become so attached to a person as to need his company, his help, or the pleasures of the flesh relations with him. The detachment is all the easier to maintain since, in contrast to other neurotic types, he does not expect much, either good or bad—if anything—from others. Even in emergencies, it may not occur to him to ask for help. On the other hand, he may be quite willing to help others, provided again that it does not involve him emotionally. He does not want, or even expect, gratitude. The role of the pleasures of the flesh varies considerably. Sometimes, the pleasures of the flesh are, for him, the only bridge to others. He may then have plenty of transient sexual relations, backing out of them sooner or later. They should not, as it were, degenerate into love. He may be entirely aware of his need not to become involved with anybody. Or he may give satisfied curiosity as the reason for terminating a relationship. He will point out then that it is the curiosity for a new experience that drives him toward this or that woman, and that now that he has had this new experience, she does not intrigue him anymore. In these instances, he may respond to women exactly as he does to a new landscape or to a new circle of people. Now that he knows them, they no longer elicit his curiosity, and so he turns to something else. This is more than a mere rationalization for his detachment. He has carried through his attitude of being an onlooker at life more consciously and more consistently than others, and this sometimes may give the deceptive appearance of a zest for living. #RandolphHarris 3 of 20

In some instances, on the other hand, he excludes the whole area of pleasures of the flesh from his life—to the extent of stifling all wishes in this regard. He may then not even have erotic fantasies or, if he does, a few abortive fantasies may be all that his sex life consists of. His actual contacts with others will then stay on the level of distant friendly interest. When he does have lasting relationships, he must, of course, maintain his distance in them too. In this respect, he is at the opposite people from the self-effacing type, with the latter’s need to merge with a partner. The way in which he maintains distance varies greatly. He may exclude sex as being too intimate for a permanent relationship, and instead satisfy his sexual needs with a stranger. Conversely, he may more or less restrict a relationship to merely sexual contacts and not share other experiences with the partner. In marriage, he may be attentive to the partner but never talk intimately about himself. He may insist on having a good deal of time strictly to himself or on taking a trip alone. He may restrict a relationship to occasional weekend trips. Being afraid of emotional involvement with others is not the same as an absence of beneficial feelings. On the contrary, if he had put a general check on tender feelings, he would not have to be on his guard so vigilantly. He may have his own deep feelings, but these should stay in his inner sanctum. They are his private affair and nobody else’s business. In this respect, he is different from the arrogant-vindictive type, who is also detached but has unconsciously trained himself not to have optimistic feelings. He is also different in that he does not want to be involved with others in friction or anger any more than in any other way, whereas the arrogant type is quick to anger and finds in battle his natural element. Another characteristic of a resigned person is his hypersensitivity to influence, pressure, coercion or ties of any kind. This is a relevant factor, too, in his detachment. Even before he enters into a personal relationship or a group activity, the fear of a lasting tie may be aroused. And the question as to how he can extricate himself may be present from the very beginning. Before marriage, this fear may grow into a panic. #RandolphHarris 4 of 20

Exactly what he resents as coercion varies. It may be any contract, such as signing a lease or any long-term engagement. It may be any physical pressure, even collars, girdles, or shoes. It may be an obstructed view. He may resent anything that others expect, or might possibly expect, from him—like Christmas presents, letters, or paying his bills at certain times. It may extend to institutions, traffic regulations, conventions, and government interference. He does not fight all of this because he is no fighter; but he rebels inwardly and may consciously or unconsciously frustrate others in his own passive way by not responding or by forgetting. His sensitivity to coercion is connected with his inertia and with the retraction of wishes. Since he does not want to budge, even if it is obviously in his own interest, he may feel any expectation of his doing something as coercion. The connection with the retraction of wishes is more complex. He is afraid, and has reason to be so, that anybody with stronger wishes might easily impose upon him and push him into something by dint of his greater determination. However, there is also externalization operating. Not experiencing his own wishes or preferences, he will easily feel that he yields to the wishes of another person when he actually follows his own. To further highlight this illustration, a person was invited to a party to be held on a night on which he had a date with his woman. However, this was not the way he experienced the situation at the time. He went to see the woman, feeling that he had “complied” with her wishes and resenting the “coercion” she had exerted. A very intelligent patient characterized the whole process with these words: “Nature abhors a vacuum. When your own wishes are silent, those of others rush in.” We could add: either their existing wishes, their alleged wishes, or those he has externalized to them. #RandolphHarris 5 of 20

The sensitivity to coercion constitutes a real difficulty in analysis—the more difficult the more the patient is not only negative but negativistic. He may harbor an everlasting suspicion that the analyst wants to influence and mold him into a preconceived pattern. This suspicion is all the less accessible the more the patient’s inertia prevents him from testing out any suggestion offered, as he is repeatedly asked to do. On the grounds of the analyst’s exerting undue influence, he may refute any question, statement, or interpretation that implicitly or explicitly attacks some neurotic position of his. What renders progress in this respect still more difficult is the fact that he will not express his suspicion for a long time, because he dislikes friction. He may simply feel that this or that is the analyst’s personal prejudice or hobby. Hence, need not bother with it, and discard it as negligible. The analyst may suggest, for instance, that the patient’s relations with people would be worth examining. He is immediately on his guard while secretly thinking that the analyst wants to make him gregarious. Lastly, an aversion to change, to anything new, goes with resignation. This too varies in intensity and form. The more prominent the inertia, the more he dreads the risk and the effort of any chance. He would much rather put up with the status quo—whether this is a job, his living quarters, an employee, or a marriage partner—than change. Nor does it occur to him that he might be able to improve his situation. He might, for instance, rearrange his furniture, make more time for leisure, and be more helpful to his wife in her difficulties. Suggestions of this sort are met with polite indifference. Two factors enter into this attitude besides his inertia. Since he does not expect much from any situation, his incentive to change it is small anyhow. And, he is inclined to regard things as unalterable. People are just so: this is their constitution. Life is just so—it is fate. Although he does not complain about situations which would be unbearable for most people, his putting up with things often looks like the martyrdom of the self-effacing person. However, the resemblance is only a superficial one: they spring from different sources. #RandolphHarris 6 of 20

Although resignation may appear outwardly similar to humility or obedience, it is fundamentally different. The novice who kneels at the altar and answers the question, “What is your wish?” with “God’s grace and your indulgence,” is not fleeing from life but offering himself to a demanding one. He is warned that only a hard discipline—scarce food, rough clothing, night vigils, and daily labor—can teach him to master his will, not abandon it. Strength will be sapped by fasting, pride by begging, spirit by isolation. Yet the young man persists and is “received.” The convent signs Great Father Augustin, and the novice is invested with the black and white Augustinian habit—the large cowl and the scapular which, falling to the feet in front and back, encloses the monk by day and by night, and even in his grave. “May God invest you with a new man,” the prior prays, postponing, for the moment, the blessing of the habit. A general recitation follows, then a procession to the choir, two by two, the novice and the prior last. As the final hymn is intoned, the novice lies before the altar, his arms spread wide like Christ’s on the cross. “Not he who began, but he who persists will be saved,” concludes the prior, offering him the kiss of peace. Resignation, by contrast, is the quiet extinction of desire. It restricts wishes, confuses authentic longing with inner dictates, and ultimately convinces a person that it is safer not to hope at all. The novice chooses hardship for the sake of purpose; the resigned person accepts hardship because he no longer believes he has a choice. It is precisely at this point—where the human will falters before suffering or wickedness—that the Church, grounding herself in Scripture, has repeatedly reflected on the relationship of Jesus Christ to the wicked and to wickedness. For the Church has long understood that Christ does not sanctify resignation or the collapse of the will; rather, He confronts evil without capitulation and calls the human person not to passive surrender but to steadfastness, transformation, and perseverance. #RandolphHarris 7 of 20

In the Churches of the Reformation, this question has been predominant; and indeed one of the decisive achievements of the Reformation was that in this connection it spoke the word of the gospel with all the depth and fulness of the New Testament. Yet, the question of the relationship of the good man to Christ remained remarkably neglected. The good man here was either the Pharisee and hypocrite who needed to be convinced of his wickedness; or else he was the man who had been converted from his wickedness to Christ and who was now enabled by Him to do good works. Goodness was according either the splendidum vitium of the heathen, or else the fruit of the Holy Spirit. This did not, of course, by any means account for the whole of the relationship of Jesus Christ to the good; the neglect of this question had as its consequence that the gospel became merely the call to conversion and the consolation in sin of drunkards, adulterers and vicious men of every kind, and the gospel lost its power over good people. There was now very little to be said about the conversation of the good man to Jesus. If we now find ourselves obliged to raise precisely this question once again and to think it over a fresh, we must first of all make it clear that we are here taking the concept of good in its widest sense, that is to say, simply as the contrary of vicious, lawless and scandalous, as the opposite of public transgression of the moral law, as good in contrast to the publican and harlot. Good, in this sense, contain an extremely wide range of gradations, extending from the purely external observance of good order to the most intimate self-sacrifice for the most sublime human values. It was very necessary to protest against that bourgeois self-satisfaction which, by a convenient reversal of the gospel, considered being good simply as a preliminary to being Christian and which supposed that the ascent from being good to being Christian could be accomplished more or less without a break. #RandolphHarris 8 of 20

This protest has, however, taken the form of an equally dangerous distortion of the gospel in the opposite sense which was brought forward in the most impassioned terms at various times in the course of the nineteenth century and then especially during the past seventy-five years. The justification of the good has been replaced by the justification of the wicked; the idealization of good citizenship has given way to the idealization of its opposite, of disorder, chaos, anarchy and catastrophe; the forgiving love of Jesus for the sinful woman, for the adultress and for the publican, has been misrepresented, for psychological or political reasons, in order to make of it a Christian sanctioning of anti-social “marginal existences,” prostitutes and traitors to their country. In seeking to recover the power of the gospel, this protest unintentionally transformed the gospel of the sinner into a commendation of sin. And good, in its citizen-like sense, was held up to ridicule. The good is one thing; the reward is another that may be present and may be absent for the time being, or until the very last. When he, then, wills the good for the sake of the reward, he does not will one thing but two. It is now certain that he will not in this way make much progress along the pathway of the good. For in truth, it is as if man, instead of naturally using both eyes to see one thing, should use one eye to see one side and the other eye to see the other side. This does not succeed. It only confuses sight. However, we are not speaking about this here, except to note that it is double-mindedness. In ancient times, this problem was also frequently an object of consideration. There were shameless teachers of impudence who thought it right to do wrong on a large scale and then to make it appear as if one willed the good. #RandolphHarris 9 of 20

These brazen instructors of deceit who believed it righteous to commit great wrongs and then cloak them in the appearance of willing the good thought one had a double advantage: The pitiful advantage of being able to do wrong, to be able to get one’s own way, to let one’s passions rage, and the hypocritical advantage of seeming to be good. However, in ancient times there was also a simple sage, whose simplicity became a snare for the impudent ones’ sophistry. He taught that in order really to be certain that it was the good that man willed, one ought even to shun seeming good, presumably in order that the reward should not become tempting. Fr so different is the good and the reward, when the reward is separately striven after, that the good is the ennobling and the sanctifying; the reward is the tempting. However, the tempting is never the good. This reward, that we are talking about here, is the world’s reward. For the reward which good for eternity has joined with the good has nothing bad in it. It is also quite certain. Neither things present nor things to come, nor height nor depth, can separate it from the good. Angels cannot will such separation and all the devils are not strong enough to accomplish it. However, if the world itself is not good in its inner most being; if, as the Scripture says, it still “lieth in wickedness,” or if it is far from being as one for whom it is a rare exception not to will the good; if this be so, then earthly reward is of a doubtful character. And hence, it is all the more likely that the world will reward what it takes for the good, what to a certain degree resembles the good, what, as those impudent ones taught, has the good’s appearance—and those impudent ones were not lacking in intimate knowledge of the world. Hence, reward is indeed that which tempts. The question is not difficult. If a man loves a girl for the sake of her money, who will call him a lover? He does not love the girl, but the money. He is not a love but a money-seeker. However, if a man said, “It is the girl I love and she has money,” and he should ask us for our judgment, for we have no particular call to judge, then a good answer would be, “It is a difficult matter with this money. Money may have a great influence, one can easily be deceived, and it is very difficult to know oneself.” If he were really very intent on this matter, he could even wish that the money were not there, just to test his love. For a true lover would say, “The girl has only one fault, she has money.” #RandolphHarris 10 of 20

And what may the girl say! If she said, “The advantage I wish to have is that is it I that have made him rich,” I wonder is she could be called a real lover? For she did not really love him, but the money. If, on the contrary, the two in their love agreed to do a good act with this money which was a hinderance to them, then it would be made possible for them to desire love alone. Let us hope that no one would set about to disturb the innocent fancy of this beautiful thought by telling us, “What life will surely teach that pair!” Alas, there is a wretched knowledge, a shabby acquaintance with the real, that is not merely wretched and shabby but also on all occasions puts on an important front. As though that knowledge were anything but infamy in any person who in a cowardly and traitorous and envious and empty puffed-up manner dares to make such a comment! As if that knowledge were other than contemptible double-mindedness. That both wills and does not will, and therefore will only lie, lie about the good and lie about the man who is good. Yes, what was once said of memory is applicable to that sort of knowledge, namely, that one might prefer to learn the art of forgetting. Indeed, it is easy enough for one to become schooled in that short of knowledge. It may be learned readily enough from all the wretched ones, so that one might rather wish and pray, that there was an art that one could learn that would teach him to remain ignorant of such knowledge. #RandolphHarris 11 of 20

This is socially a most decisive stage. Since industry involves doing things beside and with others, a first sense of division of labor and of differential opportunity—that is, a sense of the technological ethos of a culture—develops at this time. Therefore, the configurations of culture and the manipulations basic to the prevailing technology must reach meaningfully into daily life, supporting in every individual a feeling of competence—that is, the free exercise of dexterity and intelligence in the completion of serious tasks unimpaired by an infantile sense of inferiority. This is the lasting basis for co-operative participation in productive adult life. Two poles in American life may serve to illustrate the contribution of the adult problem of identity. There is the traditional extreme of making work life an extension of adulthood by emphasizing self-restraint and a strict sense of duty in doing what one is told to do, as opposed to the modern extreme of making it an extension of the natural tendency of an autonomous person to find out by experimenting, to learn what one must do by doing what one likes to do. Both methods work for some adults in some ways, but impose on others a special adjustment. The first trend, if carried to the extreme, exploits a tendency on the part of the working adult to become entirely dependent on prescribed duties. He thus may learn much that is absolutely necessary and he may develop an unshakeable sense of duty. However, he may never unlearn an unnecessary and costly self-restraint with which he may later make his own life and other people’s lives miserable, and in fact spoil, in turn, his own natural desire to learn and excel. The second trend, when carried to an extreme, leads not only to the well-known popular objection that many adults do not learn anything more but also to such feelings in adults as those expressed in question of a metropolitan employee: “Boss, must we do today what we are paid to do?” #RandolphHarris 12 of 20

Nothing could better express the fact that adults do not always mind being mildly but firmly coerced into the adventure of finding out that one can learn to accomplish things at work which one is paid to do, things that come with gratification when they are not the product of slacking off and just getting by but the product of reality, determination, practicality, and logic; things which thus provide a token sense of participation in the real world of adults. Between these extremes we have the many schools which have no styles at all except grim attendance to the fact that work must be. Social inequality and backwardness of method still create a hazardous gap between many children and the technology which needs them not only so that they may serve technological aims, but, more imperatively, so that technology may serve humanity. However, there is another danger to identify development. If the overly conforming adult accepts work as the only criterion of worthwhileness, sacrificing imagination and playfulness to readily, he may become ready to submit to what Mr. Karl Marx called “craft-idiocy,” id est, become a slave of his technology and of its dominant role typology. Here we are already in the midst of identity problems, for with the establishment of a firm initial relationship to the world of skills and tools and to those who teach and share them, and with the advent of autonomy, and work/life balance come together. And since man is not only the learning but also the teaching and above all the working terrestrial being, the immediate contribution to the career field age to a sense of identity can be expressed in the words “I am what I do for work.” It is immediately obvious that for the vast majority of men, in all times, this has been not only the beginning but also the limitation of their identity; or better: the majority of men have always consolidated their identity needs around their technical and occupational capacities, leaving it to special groups (special by birth, by choice or election, and by giftedness) to establish and preserve those “higher” institutions without which man’s daily work has always seemed an inadequate self-expression, if not a mere grind or even a kind of curse. It may be for that very reason that the identity problem in our times becomes both psychiatrically and historically relevant. For as man can leave some of the grind and curse to machines, he can visualize a greater freedom of identity for a larger segment of mankind. #RandolphHarris 13 of 20

It is a human peculiarity that people can be in roles, and they can act in roles. To be a student, for example, is to commit oneself to the aims of being a student—to purse learning with seriousness. When one is being a student, in unself-conscious pursuit of knowledge, one is not aware of being in a role. However, a student can impersonate a serious learner when the person himself or herself is not remotely interested in learning. When someone pretends to be in some role but is committed to objective other than those appropriate to that role, that person is said to be in bad faith, or to be inauthentic. Thus, salespeople who pretend to be interested in your welfare are being inauthentic, and in bad faith to you, because they may be trying to impersonate someone in the role of friend. In fact, they may be authentic in their commitment to making a sale and inauthentic in their relationship to you. The human capacity for semblance, for acting and impersonating, is at once the means whereby we learn and grow to take on new roles, and also the basis for beginning the process of self-alienation. We begin to learn how to become doctors and lawyers, husbands and wives, by first mimicking those parts at play or in school. However, if a woman continues to play-act the part of wife and mother after marriage, without serious commitment to the task of a wife and mother, then she had commenced a career of inauthenticity that will lead to painful consequences. #RandolphHarris 14 of 20

In order to be inauthentic in a role, a person is obliged to imitate authentic action and to repress his or her authentic experience. A son who is unhappy in the career his father chose for him may try to persuade himself and his father that he is contended with the courses he is taking for the career. If the choice is inauthentic, and he is in fact miserable, then each day becomes an ordeal, of forcing himself to seem happy and consuming energy to suppress his spontaneous urges to get away from the scene of his discontent. The student may then find himself becoming very tired, disinterested in his studies, even frequently sick, because of the stress and the demoralization engendered by remaining in the inauthentic role. To be authentic in a role, one must be honest with one’s self and with others about what one truly is up to, and how one feels about the roles one is committed to. Chronic inauthenticity in one’s role is a factors in physical and personality breakdown. Authenticity, by contrast, although it may lead to personal and interpersonal conflict, is a factor in personal growth to healthier personality. Authenticity in roles calls for honest self-disclosure to the others with whom one is involved. Faking and dissembling are commonly chosen by many people who dread the reactions of others and the problems they would encounter if they revealed the truth of their feelings about the roles they are living. #RandolphHarris 15 of 20

Captain Lukas Reinhardt had a presence that filled the engine bay long before he spoke. Tall, disciplined, and unmistakably German in his precision, he carried himself with the quiet authority of someone who had seen enough fire to understand both its fury and its lessons. The award‑winning Sacramento Fire Department respected him not because he demanded it, but because he lived the values he expected from his crew. Every morning, before the sun rose over the city, he walked the line of engines and medic units, running his hand along the metal as if greeting old friends. The highly praised paramedics team often joked that he treated the rigs better than most people treated their cars. But they also knew why: “If you love your work,” he would say, “you love the tools that let you do it well.” One cool autumn morning, the tones dropped for a structure fire in Midtown. Smoke was already visible from blocks away as the engines roared through the streets. Captain Reinhardt stood at the front of Engine 1, helmet strapped, eyes sharp. “Remember,” he told his crew, “authenticity is not a speech. It is what you do when the smoke blinds you and the heat tries to break you.” The building was an old Victorian, flames chewing through the roofline. Residents were trapped on the second floor. The nationally recognized paramedic team staged nearby, preparing for whatever came next. The captain’s voice cut through the chaos with calm certainty. “We go in focused. We come out together.” Inside, the smoke was thick enough to swallow the beam of a flashlight. Firefighters crawled low, sweeping rooms, calling out, listening for movement. Reinhardt moved with deliberate care, every motion purposeful. He had always told his crew that dedication was not dramatic—it was steady, disciplined, and often invisible. They found the first resident unconscious near a hallway door. The second was trapped behind a fallen beam. The crew worked in practiced silence, each person trusting the others completely. Focus was not optional here; it was survival. #RandolphHarris 16 of 20

Outside, the paramedics took over instantly, their hands moving with the confidence of people who had trained for moments exactly like this. When the last victim was loaded into the ambulance, Reinhardt finally stepped back, sweat streaking his face, soot clinging to his gear. The fire was contained, the building saved, and every resident alive. The crew gathered near the engine, catching their breath. One of the newer firefighters, still shaking from adrenaline, asked quietly, “Captain… how do you stay so steady? How do you keep loving this job when it asks so much?” Reinhardt looked at him with a seriousness that made the moment feel sacred. “Because authenticity keeps you honest,” he said. “Dedication keeps you sharp. Focus keeps you alive. And loving the job—truly loving it—keeps you running toward people who need you, even when everything in the world tells you to run the other way.” He paused, letting the words settle. “Fire does not respect pretense. It does not care about excuses. It reveals who you are. If you are not authentic, it will expose you. If you are not dedicated, it will outrun you. If you are not focused, it will consume you. But if you love this work—if you love serving this city—then you will find strength you did not know you had.” The crew nodded, understanding not just the words but the truth behind them. The award‑winning Sacramento Fire Department and its highly praised paramedics were not exceptional by accident. They were exceptional because they lived these values every day. And as the engines rolled back to the station, Captain Reinhardt walked the line once more, touching the metal with quiet gratitude—for the work, for the people, and for the purpose that made every call worth answering. #RandolphHarris 17 of 20

When it comes to firefighting, every incident carries the potential for injury—no matter how small the fire appears or how routine the call may seem. If you see a fire engine stopped in the street without its lights on, use extreme caution. Crews may be working nearby, and passing the apparatus can put them in danger. It is often safer to turn around and take another route; if you strike a firefighter or civilian and cause a fatality, you could face charges such as manslaughter. Firefighters frequently move around their vehicle on foot, loading equipment or preparing to leave the scene. Attempting to pass the apparatus can result in a collision with someone you cannot see. Pay close attention to their hand signals as well—emergency vehicles sometimes move slowly or reposition, and impatient drivers trying to slip around them create hazardous situations. If you are already in an intersection when you notice an emergency vehicle approaching, continue through it, then pull to the right and stop as soon as it is safe. Always obey directions from law enforcement officers or firefighters, even if those instructions conflict with posted signs or traffic laws. When sirens or flashing lights are activated, it is illegal to follow within 300 feet of a fire engine, ambulance, or police vehicle. Driving to the scene of a fire, collision, or disaster can also result in arrest, as doing so interferes with firefighters, paramedics, and other emergency personnel. Professional courage is not limited to physical toughness. It includes listening to others, advocating for them in difficult situations, understanding personal limits, and having the integrity to tell a superior when they are wrong. The deeper truth is that public safety depends not only on the bravery of first responders but on the discipline and judgment of the community around them. Every driver’s decision—whether cautious or careless—can either protect or endanger the people risking their lives to protect everyone else. #RandolphHarris 18 of 20

Efforts to preserve farmland and maintain buildable land for future generations often lead to discussions about population growth and long‑term planning. Some people argue that immigration levels should be managed carefully to ensure that infrastructure, housing, and land use remain sustainable. Others suggest that, when immigration does occur, programs that encourage broad representation can help communities reflect the diversity of the wider world. When Americans purchase goods made in the United States, it strengthens local businesses and signals to investors that these products are in demand. Strong sales give investors confidence to reinvest in domestic companies, helping keep jobs, production, and wages within the country. As businesses grow, they contribute more to the tax base, which can reduce the burden on taxpayers over time. Supporting American businesses also keeps more money circulating within the national economy. The government increases the national debt when it spends more than it collects in tax revenue or borrows from private or foreign lenders. When people shop locally, more tax revenue stays in the community and supports public services. This helps keep jobs in the United States and increases the tax contributions that fund government operations. Purchasing foreign-made goods, by contrast, often sends money overseas and may benefit companies that operate under lighter tax or environmental regulations. Buying American-made products can also reduce environmental impact because they travel shorter distances and are produced under stricter standards for air, land, and water protection. In this way, consumer choices influence not only the economy but also environmental stewardship and long-term national sustainability. #RandolphHarris 19 of 20

Under President Trump’s administration, he has made America a priority. President Trump has hermetically sealed the southern border, illegal crossings have been terminated, and are 90 percent lower than under the previous administration. Since President Trump’s crack down on crime, violent crimes in Washington D.C. have dropped by approximately 80 percent. He has stopped thousands of pounds of drugs from entering America and killing citizens. And since President Trump took office, investments in America have increased by trillions of dollars in U.S.A. manufacturing, production, and innovation. As you can see, President Donald Trump and his pledge to “Make America Great Again” is exactly what America needs to save the country and the American people. And yes, diversity is important, so you can see why it is also important to preserve blonde hair and blue eyes, as the people with these characteristics are becoming a minority in America. As a reminder, parents, please teach your children to love America and be patriotic citizens, and to buy goods and services made in America. It is also important to respect law and order and treat your elders with respect. It is inborn in the human mind to wish to know. If this begins with the endless surface questions of a child’s curiosity, if it continues into deeper questions of a scientist’s probing investigation, it cannot and does not stop there. For the higher part of the mind will eventually come into unfoldment, that union of abstract reflective thought with mystical intuition, which is true intelligence, which needs and sees a view of the whole of things. And so, the knowing faculty enters the realm of philosophy. A lot of children are having problems in school and cannot even write a paragraph because they are not reading their books. When you actually read books, you get an example of how to write and will become a better student. Therefore, remember to take your education seriously so that you will be successful in life and make your family proud. Also, to make sure they have all the resources required, please donate to the Sacramento Fire Department to help improve our national security. “Oh, thus be it ever, when freemen shall stand between their loved home and the war’s desolation! Blest with victory and peace, may the heav’n-rescued land Praise the Power that hath made and preserved us a nation! Then conquer we must, when our cause is just, and this be our motto: ‘In God is our trust.’ And the star-spangled banner in triumph shall wave O’er the land of the free and the home of the brave.” #RandolphHarris 20 of 20


“Why would someone go off and leave this place?” people often wondered. Some whispered that it had to do with a Navajo superstition; others insisted the house itself had driven its owner away. The beautiful but bizarre Winchester Mansion sat in stately Queen Anne neglect, its gables brooding over the gardens like watchful eyes. It was haunted, everyone said. Even Mayor Albert C. Cuneo believed so.

Mayor Cuneo had researched the history of the house and uncovered the requisite family intrigues, tragedies, and unexplained deaths. To a self‑trained parapsychologist like him, all the ingredients were there. The thing to do, he decided matter‑of‑factly, was to observe the ghost—or ghosts—in their natural (or, he smiled to himself, supernatural) environment. He dipped into his savings, tracked down the current owners of the Winchester property, and secured a year‑long lease. He moved in under cover of darkness; there was no need for neighborhood curiosity‑seekers to spoil his observations. The mansion’s labyrinthine halls swallowed him whole as he carried his belongings inside.

He chose a small, windowless room—believed to have been Mrs. Winchester’s dressing room—and converted it into his headquarters. There he set up a cot, a writing desk, and a lantern, creating a cramped but serviceable place to sleep and take his meals. His plan was simple: sleep during the day and keep vigil by night, for however long it took to witness a manifestation. The mansion was eerily silent during daylight hours, its staircases to nowhere and doors opening into empty air seeming almost playful in the sun. But at night, the house changed.

The walls creaked with a slow, deliberate rhythm, as though something unseen walked the corridors. Drafts of cold air slipped beneath doors that should not have had drafts at all. Sometimes, faint footsteps echoed from the upper floors—measured, patient, as if someone were pacing. Mayor Cuneo recorded everything in a leather‑bound journal. He noted the temperature drops, the shifting shadows, the strange tapping sounds that seemed to come from inside the walls. He was determined, focused, and unafraid. After all, he reminded himself, he had come here for this.

Contrary to popular belief, many ghosts are shy and retirting, avoding contact with the living. One had to allow these hesitant spirits time to adjust to the virations of a corporal person, and given time, they, too, would betray their presence. As he sat in the darkened hallway outside the Séance Room, lantern extinguished, he heard a soft rustling—like fabric brushing against the wall. Then a faint glow appeared at the far end of the corridor, pale and wavering, as though someone carried a candle cupped in their hands. Mayor Cuneo held his breath. The glow moved closer, slow and steady, illuminating nothing but the air itself. He rose to his feet, heart pounding, but the moment he stepped forward, the light vanished. Not faded—vanished, as if it had never been there.

He stood alone in the dark, the silence pressing in around him. For the first time, Mayor Cuneo wondered whether he had underestimated the house. Not the legends, not the architecture—but the presence that lingered in its endless rooms. Something that watched. Something that waited. And he realized, with a chill that crept up his spine, that he had not come to observe the ghosts. The ghosts had been observing him. On the thirteenth night, the mansion seemed to breathe. Mayor Cuneo had just settled into his vigil when a low hum vibrated through the floorboards, as though the house were tuning itself to some ancient frequency.

The lantern flickered, then steadied, but the air grew colder—so cold that his breath drifted before him in pale ribbons. He stepped into the hallway, notebook in hand. That was when he saw her. A woman in a Victorian mourning gown stood at the far end of the corridor, her veil drifting as if underwater. Her face was hidden, but her posture was unmistakably human—grief‑stricken, trembling. Mayor Cuneo whispered, “Mrs. Winchester?” but the figure lifted her head, and beneath the veil there was nothing. Only darkness, deep and endless.

She glided backward, dissolving into the wall. Mayor Cuneo’s pulse hammered, but he followed. The wall she vanished through was solid, yet a faint outline of a door—one he had never noticed—now shimmered in the wood. When he touched it, the door swung inward with a sigh. The room beyond was impossibly cold. Inside, three shadowy forms crouched in the corners, their limbs too long, their movements jerky and insect‑like. Their eyes glowed faintly—red pinpoints, watching him with a hunger that felt older than the house itself. These were not ghosts. These were something else. Ghouls, perhaps, or the restless remnants of whatever the mansion had trapped over the decades.

One of them crept forward, its fingers scraping the floor with a sound like broken glass. Mayor Cuneo stumbled back, but the creature stopped at the threshold, as if bound by an invisible line. It hissed softly, a sound that carried both warning and invitation. Then the temperature dropped again. A deeper presence filled the room—heavy, oppressive, intelligent. The shadows recoiled, retreating into the corners as though afraid. A shape began to form in the center of the room: tall, horned, and wreathed in a swirling black mist that seemed to devour the lantern light. Mayor Cuneo felt the weight of it pressing against his chest. Not a ghost. Not a ghoul. Something far more ancient. A demon, if he dared name it. Its voice was not a sound but a vibration inside his skull. “You came to observe.”

Mayor Cuneo’s knees weakened. “Then observe.” The walls around him rippled like water, revealing scenes from the mansion’s past—workers falling from scaffolds, rooms built and sealed in frantic succession, Mrs. Winchester pacing with a lantern at midnight, whispering to unseen companions. The demon’s presence threaded through every image, a silent witness—or perhaps an architect.

When the visions faded, the room was still again. The demon’s form dissolved into smoke, leaving only the cold and the faint echo of its words. Mayor Cuneo staggered back into the hallway, slamming the hidden door shut. His hands shook uncontrollably. He had come to study the supernatural, but the supernatural had studied him in return. And now, he realized with a dread that settled deep in his bones, the mansion was awake. It knew he was here. And it was not finished with him.

PRIVATE EVENTS & WEDDINGS
at WINCHESTER ESTATE

Many event locations claim to be unique, but nothing compares to the Winchester Mystery House. If you’re truly seeking a distinct, one‑of‑a‑kind setting for your milestone celebration or special occasion, reserve a venue that delivers on uniqueness many times over.

Whether you’re planning a wedding, birthday or anniversary celebration, corporate gathering, holiday party, or any other meaningful event, the Winchester Mystery House offers an unforgettable backdrop. Give your guests an experience they’ll be talking about for years to come.

Café 13: A Rest Stop on the Edge of the Mystery

After wandering the winding halls of the Winchester Mystery House—where staircases defy logic and whispers seem to cling to the walls—Café 13 offers a welcome return to warmth and grounding. Newly reopened and serving guests daily from 10 AM to 3 PM, this cozy hideaway invites you to pause, breathe, and gather yourself before diving back into the mansion’s secrets.

Here, you can enjoy breakfast, lunch, snacks, and refreshing drinks in a calm indoor space that feels worlds away from the mansion’s twisting corridors. Settle in with a warm meal, challenge a friend to a board game, or simply rest and recharge as sunlight filters through the windows. Café 13 is more than a café—it’s a moment of calm between chapters of the Winchester legend, a place to steady your nerves before returning to the gardens, the grandeur, and the mysteries that await.
Winchester Mercantile Gift Shop

Your journey into the Winchester Mystery House begins long before you cross the mansion’s threshold. It starts at the Mercantile gift shop—a welcoming outpost standing at the edge of a world where history and myth intertwine. Here, beneath warm lights and shelves lined with curiosities, you can secure your tour tickets and prepare for the adventure ahead. Guests often pause for a souvenir photograph, capturing the moment before they step into Sarah Winchester’s enigmatic domain.

As you explore the shop, you will find an eclectic array of gifts and keepsakes: tokens of the mansion’s lore, echoes of Victorian elegance, and mementos that carry a touch of the house’s enduring mystery. The Mercantile is more than a gift shop—it is the gateway. https://winchestermysteryhouse.com/

Harris Plumbing, Heating, Air & Electric has been serving our community for 30 years—an achievement few companies can claim. That longevity isn’t an accident. It’s the result of hard work, integrity, and a commitment to doing every job the right way, whether it’s a simple repair or a complex system overhaul. We take pride in every service call because we know your home is more than a building—it’s where your family lives, grows, and feels safe. Ensuring your comfort and protection is a responsibility we carry with seriousness and gratitude. After three decades, our mission remains the same: to deliver dependable service you can trust, every time.

Harris makes sure you have the clear, accurate information you need to decide what comes next—no matter what your home is facing. Before we begin any work, our technicians perform a full diagnosis and walk you through every issue we find. That means you receive a personalized quote and service plan tailored to your home’s exact needs, not a generic estimate or guess. We believe the only way to deliver our best work is to understand the problem completely and address it with precision, transparency, and care. Your home deserves nothing less. https://www.callharrisnow.com/about-us/


BMW remains one of the most desirable automotive marques because it blends engineering precision with an emotional driving experience that few brands can match. Its vehicles are built around balance, responsiveness, and a sense of connection between driver and machine—qualities that have defined the company for generations.

Beyond performance, BMW carries an aura of prestige and craftsmanship: the cabins feel tailored, the technology is purposeful rather than gimmicky, and the design language signals confidence without excess.

Owning a BMW is not just about transportation; it’s about participating in a legacy of excellence that continues to set the standard for luxury performance. This commitment to performance is why BMW continues to earn its reputation as The Ultimate Driving Machine. https://www.brianharrisbmw.com/

Randolph Harris San Francisco Taxation & Mergers

Building strong, lasting client relationships is essential to a successful legal career. Many attorneys assume that mastering legal doctrine alone guarantees success, but law is fundamentally a service profession—our work is measured not only by technical skill, but by how effectively we solve problems for the people who trust us. Long‑term relationships grow from three core commitments: truly knowing your clients, understanding how their legal issues fit within the broader context of their business and personal goals, and consistently delivering exceptional service.

Mr. Randy advises clients on business transitions, taxable and tax‑deferred mergers and acquisitions, joint ventures, restructuring, integrated tax planning, federal and state tax controversy matters, and real estate transactions. His approach is grounded in clarity, responsiveness, and a deep understanding of each client’s unique circumstances. Trust is the cornerstone of every relationship he builds. Ultimately, clients feel confident knowing they are working with someone who not only understands their challenges, but is fully committed to helping them achieve their goals. https://www.jmbm.com/l-randolph-harris.html


Sales Office 1000 Sierra College Blvd.
Rocklin, CA 95677

Cresleigh Homes proudly introduces Sierra Park, a thoughtfully crafted community in the heart of Rocklin where timeless architecture, modern comfort, and everyday convenience come together. Designed for households seeking both elegance and practicality, Sierra Park offers a refined living experience shaped by Cresleigh’s long-standing commitment to quality, energy efficiency, and enduring value. From the moment you arrive, the neighborhood feels welcoming, beautifully planned, and connected to everything that makes Rocklin one of the region’s most desirable places to live.

Each home at Sierra Park reflects Cresleigh’s signature craftsmanship—clean architectural lines, open-concept interiors, and flexible floor plans that adapt to any lifestyle. Spacious great rooms, center‑island kitchens, and well‑appointed primary suites create an atmosphere of comfort and ease, while smart‑home features and energy‑efficient construction ensure your home performs as beautifully as it looks. Whether you’re hosting gatherings, working from home, or enjoying quiet evenings, Sierra Park provides the space and versatility to support the way you live today.

The community’s thoughtful design extends beyond the front door. Landscaped streetscapes, inviting walkways, and nearby parks create a sense of harmony and connection. Families appreciate the proximity to Rocklin’s highly regarded schools, while commuters benefit from convenient access to major regional routes. Shopping, dining, recreation, and everyday essentials are all just minutes away, making Sierra Park a place where comfort meets convenience in every direction.

Cresleigh Homes understands that choosing a new home is about more than square footage—it’s about finding a place where memories can grow. That’s why Sierra Park offers curated design packages, elevated interior finishes, and a selection of floor plans that allow you to personalize your home with confidence. Every detail, from the engineered construction to the refined materials, reflects Cresleigh’s dedication to building homes that stand the test of time.

We invite you to learn more about Sierra Park and be among the first to explore what this upcoming community will offer. Once it has opened, our Sales Office will be located at 1000 Sierra College Blvd., Rocklin, CA 95677, where our team will be more than happy to walk you through the vision, features, and future homesites planned for Sierra Park.

While this community is not yet open, Cresleigh Homes currently offers several beautifully crafted neighborhoods with homes available now—each built with the same dedication to quality, comfort, and modern living. We look forward to introducing you to Sierra Park soon, a future neighborhood designed for every generation and built for the moments that matter most.

Within each Cresleigh neighborhood, you’ll find new homes thoughtfully designed to suit the needs of any generation and any lifestyle, with energy efficiency and reliability at their core.

Every Cresleigh team member is passionate about building a new home that you can rely on and a new home that helps you to focus on what truly matters: creating memories with the people you love. Welcome to the neighborhood.

Experience the full vision of the neighborhood. With our interactive map, you can view how each homesite is thoughtfully placed among trails, pools, parks, gathering spaces, and the community’s signature amenities. #CresleighHomes

The road is no place to start a home. A Cresleigh Home is where two people can fall in love all over again — with each other, with their life, and with themselves. In a Cresleigh Home, you rediscover who you are. And when you find that feeling, it stays with you. Faithfully. #CresleighHomes

The Day the Roof Came Down

There is no bondage more grievous than that which a person forges for himself, when he yields his judgment to another’s will. Such dependence, once sweetened by affection, grows into a distemper of the mind, wherein the sufferer fears to breathe without the other’s permission. Morbid dependency is the neurotic tendency to seek and maintain affection through involvement in exploitative or manipulative relationships. Domestic violence is a pathological pattern of interpersonal dependency that is linked to domestic violence. Research suggests that high levels of emotional dependency in an abused partner may reduce the likelihood that the victimized person will terminate the relationship. Although we can study the characteristics of a morbid dependency in any relationship, they come into clearest relief in the sexual relationship between a self-effacing and an arrogant-vindictive type. The conflicts generated here are more intense, and can develop more fully, since, for reasons residing in both partners, the relationship is usually of longer duration. The narcissistic or detached partner more easily becomes tired of the implicit demands made upon him and is liable to quit, while the sadistic partner is more prone to fasten himself onto his victim. For the dependent person, in turn, it is much more difficult to extricate himself from a relation with an arrogant-vindictive type. With his peculiar weakness, he is as unequipped for such an involvement as a ship built for navigation in still waters is for crossing a rough, stormy ocean. Her whole lack of sturdiness, every weak spot in her structure, will then make itself felt and may mean ruin. #RandolphHarris 1 of 22

Similarly, a self-effacing person may have functioned fairly well in life, but when tossed into the conflicts involved in such a relationship, every hidden neurotic factor in him will come into operation. Let us assume that the self-effacing partner is a woman and the aggressive one a man. Actually, this combination seems to be more frequent in our civilization, although, as many instances show, self-effacement has nothing to do with femininity nor aggressive arrogance with masculinity. The first characteristic to strike us is such a woman’s total absorption in the relationship. The partner becomes the sole center of her existence. Everything revolves around him. Her mood depends upon whether his attitude toward her is more positive or negative. She does not dare make any plans lest she might miss a call or an evening with him. Her thoughts are centered on understanding or helping him. Her endeavors are directed toward measuring up to what she feels he expects. She has but one fear—that of antagonizing and losing him. Conversely, her other interests subside. Her work, unless connected with him, becomes comparatively meaningless. This may even be true of professional work otherwise dear to her heart, or productive work in which she has accomplished things. Naturally, the latter suffers most. Other human relations are neglected. She may neglect or leave her children, her home. Friendships serve more and more merely to fill the time when he is not available. Engagements are dropped at a moment’s notice when he appears. The impairment of other relations often is fostered by the partner, because he, in turn, wants to make her more and more dependent upon him. Also, she starts to look at her relatives or friends through his eyes. He scorns her trust in people and instills his own suspiciousness in her. So, she loses her roots and becomes increasingly impoverished. In addition, her self-interest, always at a low ebb, sinks. She may incur debts, risk her reputation, her health, and her dignity. If she is in analysis, or used to analyzing herself, the interest in self-recognition gives way to a concern for understanding his motivations and helping him. #RandolphHarris 2 of 22

The trouble may set in, full-fledged, right at the beginning. However, sometimes, things look fairly auspicious for a while. In certain neurotic ways, the two seem to fit together. He needs to be the master; she needs to surrender. He is openly demanding, and she is complying. If her pride is broken, only then can she surrender, and for many reasons of his own, he cannot fail to do so. However, sooner or later, clashes are bound to occur between two temperaments—or, more accurately, between two neurotic structures—which in all essentials are diametrically opposed. The main clashes occur on the issue of feelings, of “love.” She insists upon love, affection, and closeness. He is desperately afraid of positive feelings. Their display seems indecent to him. Her assurances of love seem like pure hypocrisy to him—and indeed, as we know, it is actually more a need to lose herself and merge with him that motivates her than personal love for him. He cannot keep from striking out against her feelings, and hence, against her. This, in turn, makes her feel neglected or abused, arouses anxiety, and reinforces her clinging attitudes. And, here, another collision occurs. Although he does everything to make her dependent upon him, her clinging to him terrifies and repels him. He is afraid and contemptuous of any weakness in himself and despises it in her. This means another rejection for her, provoking more anxiety and more clinging. Her implicit demands are felt as coercion, and he must hit out in order to retain his feelings of mastery. Her compulsive helpfulness offends his pride. And actually, with all her often sincere attempts, she does not really understand him—hardly can do so. #RandolphHarris 3 of 22

Besides, in her “understanding,” there is too much need to excuse and to forgive, for she feels all her attitudes are good and natural. He, in turn, senses her feeling morally superior and feels provoked to tear down the pretenses involved. There is but scant possibility for a good talk about these matters because, at bottom, they are both self-righteous. So, she starts to see him as a brute, and he sees her as a moral prig. If it were done in a constructive way, the tearing down of her pretenses could be eminently helpful. However, as it is mostly done in a sarcastic, derogatory way, it merely hurts her and makes her more insecure and more dependent. It is an idle speculation to ask whether or not, with all these clashes, they might be helpful to each other. Certainly, he could stand some softening and she some toughening. However, mostly, they are both too deeply entrenched in their particular neurotic needs and aversions. Vicious circles which bring out the worst in both, keep operating, and can result only in mutual torment. The frustrations and limitations to which she is exposed vary not so much in kind as in being more or less civilized, more or less intense. There is always some cat-and-mouse play, a dynamic where one party pursues, controls, or toys with another—while the other is kept in a state of uncertainty, anticipation, or anxious dependence. Satisfactory relations involving pleasures of the flesh may be followed by crude offenses; an enjoyable evening may be followed by forgetting a date; eliciting confidences by sarcastically using them against her. She may try to play the same game, but is too inhibited to do it well. However, she is always a good instrument on which to play, since his attacks make her despondent and his seemingly positive moods throw her into fallacious hopes that from now on everything will be better. #RandolphHarris 4 of 22

There are always plenty of things he feels entitled to do without allowing any questioning. His claims may concern financial support or gifts for himself and his friends or relatives; work to be done for him, like housework or typing; furthering his career; or strict consideration of his needs. These latter may, for instance, concern time arrangements, undivided and uncritical interest in his pursuits, having or not having company, remaining unruffled when he is sulky or irritable, and so on and so forth. Whatever he demands is his self-evident due. There is no appreciation forthcoming, but much nagging irritability when his wishes are not fulfilled. He feels and declares in no uncertain terms that he is not at all demanding but that she is stingy, sloppy, inconsiderate, unappreciative—and that he must put up with all sorts of abuse. On the other hand, he is astute at spotting her claims, which he finds altogether neurotic. Her need for affection, time, or company is possessive; her wanting pleasures of the flesh or good food, overindulgence. So, when he frustrates her needs, which he must do for reasons of his own, it is in his mind no frustration at all. It is better to disregard her needs because she should be ashamed of having them. Actually, his frustrating techniques are highly developed. They include dampening joy by sulkiness, making her feel unwelcome and unwanted, and withdrawing physically or psychologically. The most harmful and, for her, least tangible part is his pervasive attitude of disregard and contempt. Whatever actual regard he may have for her faculties or qualities is seldom expressed. On the other hand, he does not despise her for her softness and for her caginess and indirectness. However, in addition, because of his need for active externalization of his self-hate, he is faultfinding and derogatory. If she, in turn, dares to criticize him, he discards what she says in a highhanded manner or proves that she is vindictive. #RandolphHarris 5 of 22

We find the greatest variation in matters involving pleasures of the flesh. Relationships involving pleasures of the flesh may stand out as the only satisfactory contact. Or, in case he is inhibited in enjoying the pleasures of the flesh, he may frustrate her in this regard, too, which is felt all the more keenly since, in view of his lack of tenderness may mean for her the only assurance of love. Or the pleasures of the flesh may be a means of degrading and humiliating her. He may make it clear that for him, she is nothing but an object for the pleasures of the flesh. He may fault intimate passions with other women, intermingled with derogatory comments about her being less attractive or responsive than these others. Intimate passions may be degrading because of the absence of tenderness or because he uses sadistic techniques. Although the issue of the effectiveness of mandatory reporting laws remains unclear, providers should be familiar with reporting laws in their states, and whether there are policies for mandatory reporting of intimate partner violence (IPV) or injuries that are suspicious for resulting from criminal assault. Patients should be made aware of mandated reporting requirements before universal IPV screenings, including universal education. This shows respect for the patient’s autonomy, allows them to decide on whether they would want to reveal any IVP-related experiences given the known mandatory interventions, and has the awareness that they can always disclose information at subsequent visits if they choose. IVP may not always be present in the acute care setting with physical findings due to acute trauma. Healthy consequences faced by IVP patients may be multisystemic, given the type of abuse faced, and can present as acute or chronic medical complaints. For example, strangulation, in an acute or chronic setting, can appear as hoarseness, sore throat, neck pain, or difficulty swallowing. #RandolphHarris 6 of 22

Patients who sustain blows to the head may experience serious traumatic brain injuries (TBI) or mild TBI (mTBI) and present acutely with a headache, confusion, nausea, or vomiting. Under the circumstances of repeated mTBIs, the body may not be able to completely heal in between the abuse. Patients can experience and present with histories of neurological symptoms such as headaches, dizziness, memory loss, seizures, hearing problems, ear ringing, vision problems, blacking out, or difficulty concentrating. Of note, patients who have experienced loss of consciousness due to strangulation may have similar neurological complaints or cognitive difficulties due to anoxic brain injury. They may also have chronic migraines, syncopal episodes, and possibly seizures. Though causal relationships have yet to be established in the underlying causes for specific neurological outcomes, victims of violence frequently (10 percent to 44 percent) report strangling and blows to the head resulting in loss of consciousness which may contribute to the development of the various neurological conditions mentioned above. Of note, post-concussive or TBI symptoms can complicate a patient’s ability to understand or follow through on health and safety plans. Gastrointestinal symptoms are also common presentations due to prior blunt force to the abdominal region affecting internal organs or from the effects of chronic stress. Symptoms may appear as chronic abdominal or stomach pain, diarrhea, constipation, nausea, self-induced vomiting, loss of appetite, or irritable bowel syndrome (IBS). Given the fear and shame associated with IPV, there is a strong correlation with excessive stress, which can manifest as varying yet common disorders such as IBS, hypertension, chest pain, and even a suppressed immune system, which can lead to greater frequency of colds and viral infections. Knowledge of these medical conditions commonly associated with IVP is beneficial, so that IVP is considered a possible underlying condition or cause leading to a more accurate diagnosis and more appropriate interventions. #RandolphHarris 7 of 22

About 33.6 percent of men in the United States of America have reported experiencing IVP in their lifetime, including sexual violence, physical violence, or stalking, with 34.2 percent reporting psychological aggression from an intimate partner. Men often face barriers in reporting IVP because of a lack of knowledge that the abuse is illegal, stigma that being a victim would be unmasculine, fear of being ridiculed, and biases that they will be seen as the perpetrator. However, if you fear reporting, while there is a fact that your allegations may not be taken seriously, keep in mind how defensive police are when they are being assaulted. So, do not be afraid of reporting IVP. In some cases, just touching an officer can be considered assault, and they take being assaulted very seriously. Therefore, do not let someone make you feel like your claim is illegitimate. Men presenting to the emergency department (ED) due to IVP were found to have intentional striking and being cut/pierced as the major causes of injury. IPV injury due to cuts are 7-times higher in men compared to women with IVP injuries. Lacerations were the main injury diagnosis and should raise concern for IPV men. The most common anatomic locations of these injuries in men were the head, neck, or face, as seen in most women, followed by upper extremity injuries, possibly due to self-defense mechanisms. All ED clinicians should have training on recognizing these injury patterns, including when evaluating men in the ED, as it may lead to IVP identification and offering awareness, referrals, and safety resources. Privacy is critical and should be prioritized when discussing IPV and conducting a physical exam. Patients should not be screened during triage, especially if other individuals are present, including accompanying family members or friends. A patient cannot speak freely — especially about sensitive, dangerous, or shame‑laden matters — if a parent, partner, or friend is in the room. Their “I” is inhibited by: fear of judgment, fear of retaliation, internalized obligation to protect the other person, learned patterns of deference or submission. So, the rule exists to protect the patient’s autonomy, giving them a space where their own voice can emerge without interference. Inform visitors that it is hospital/office policy to speak with the patient alone. #RandolphHarris 8 of 22

Just as a child cannot develop a stable “I” without being recognized as a separate self, a patient cannot speak authentically when another’s presence eclipses their autonomy; privacy is the space in which the self becomes possible. One basic task of all religions is to reaffirm that first relationship, for we have in us deep down a lifelong mistrustful remembrance of that truly meta-physical anxiety; meta—“behind,” “beyond”—here means “before,” “way back,” “at the beginning.” One basic form of heroic asceticism, therefore, one way of liberating man from his existential delimitations, is to retrace the steps of the development of the I, to forego even object relations in the most primitive sense, to step down and back to the borderline where the I emerged from its matrix. Much of Western monasticism concentrates on prayer and atonement, but the Eastern form cultivates the art of deliberate self-loss: Zen-Buddhism is probably its most systematic form. Some children forget the Christchild because of the sadness of their youth: some have lost their childhood. In moments of terror, they may want God’s recognition. The normal process of life contains moments as bad as any of those which insane melancholy is filled with, moments in which radical evil gets its innings and takes it solid turn. The lunatic’s visions of horror are all drawn from the material of daily fact. Our civilization is founded on the shambles, and every individual existence goes out in a lonely spasm of helpless agony. If you protest, my friend, wait till you arrive there yourself! To believe in the carnivorous reptiles of geological times is hard for our imagination—they seem too much like mere museum specimens. Yet, there is no tooth in any one of those museum-skulls that did not daily through long years of the foretime hold fast to the body struggling in despair of some fated living victims. #RandolphHarris 9 of 22

If on a smaller spatial scale, forms of horror just as dreadful to their victim fill the world about us to-day. Here, on our very hearths and in our gardens, the infernal cat plays with the panting mouse, or holds the hot bird fluttering in her jaws. Crocodiles and rattlesnakes and pythons are at this moment vessels of life as real as we are; their loathsome existence fills every minute of every day that drags its length along, and whenever they or other wild beasts clutch their living prey, the deadly horror which an agitated melancholiac feels is literally the right reaction on the situation. It may indeed be that no religious reconciliation with the absolute totality of things is possible. Some evils, indeed, are ministerial to higher forms of good; but it may be that there are forms of evil so extreme as to enter into no good system whatsoever, and that, in respect of such evil, dumb submission or neglect to notice is the only practical resource. If the mind is only the reflection of events, it cannot anticipate their progress, except by hypothesis. If Marxist theory is determined by economics, it can describe the history of production, not its future, which remains in the realms of probability. The task of historical materialism can only be to establish a method of criticism of contemporary society; it is only capable of making suppositions, unless it abandons its scientific attitude, about the society of the future. Moreover, is it not for this reason that its most important work is called Capital and not Revolution? Marx and the Marxists allowed themselves to prophesy the future and the triumph of communism to the detriment of their postulates and of scientific method. #RandolphHarris 10 of 22

Then predictions could be scientific; on the contrary, only by ceasing to prophecy definitely. Marxism is not scientific; at best, it has scientific prejudices. It brought out into the open the profound difference between scientific reasoning, that fruitful instrument of research, of thought, and even of rebellion, and historical reasoning, which German ideology invented by its negation of all principles. Historical reasoning is not a type of reasoning that, within the framework of its own functions, can pass judgment on the world. While pretending to judge it, it really tries to determine its course. Essentially, a part of events, it directs them and is simultaneously pedagogic and all-conquering. Moreover, its most abstruse descriptions conceal the most simple truths. If man is reduced to being nothing but a character in history, he has no other choice but to subside into the sound and fury of a completely irrational history to endow history with the form of human reason. Therefore, the history of contemporary nihilism is nothing but a prolonged endeavor to give order, by human forces alone and simply by force, to history no longer endowed with order. The pseudo-reasoning ends by identifying itself with cunning and strategy, while waiting to culminate in the ideological Empire. What part could science play in this concept? Nothing is less determined on conquest than reason. History is not made with scientific scruples; we are even condemned to not making history from the moment when we claim to act with scientific scruples; we are even condemned to not making history from the moment when we claim to act with scientific objectivity. Reason does not preach, of if it does, it is no longer reason. That is why historical reason is an irrational and romantic form of reason, which sometimes recalls the false logic of the insane and at other times, the mystic affirmation of the word. #RandolphHarris 11 of 22

To will one thing cannot, then, mean to will what in its essence is not one thing, but only seems to be so by means of a horrible falsehood. Only through a lit is it one thing. Now, just as he that only wills this one thing is a lair, so he that conjures up this one thing is the father of lies. That dryness and emptiness is not in truth one thing, but is in truth nothing at all. And it is destruction for the man that only wills that one. If, on the contrary, a man should in truth will only one thing, then this thing must, in the truth of its innermost being, be one thing. It must, by eternal separation, cut of the heterogenous from itself in order that it may in truth continue to be one and the same thing and thereby fashion that man who only wills one thing into conformity with itself. In truth to will one thing, then, can only mean to will the Good, because every other object is not a unity; and the will that only wills that object, therefore, must become double-minded. For as the coveted object is, so becomes the coveter. Or would it be possible that a man by willing the evil could will one thing, provided that it was possible for a man so to harden himself as to will nothing but the evil? Is not this evil, like evil persons, in disagreement with itself, divided against itself? Take one such man, separate him from society, shut him up in solitary confinement. Is he not at odds with himself there, just as poor union between persons of his sort is an association that is ridden dissension? But a good man, even if he lived in an out-of-the-way corner of the world and never saw any human being, would be at one with himself at one with all about him because he wills one thing, and because the Good is one thing. Each one who in truth would will one thing must be led to will the Good, even though now and then it happens that a man begins by willing one thing that is not in its deepest sense the Good although it may be something quite innocent; and then, little by little, he is changed really in truth to will one thing by willing the Good. #RandolphHarris 12 of 22

Love, from time to time, has in this way helped a man along the right path. Faithfully he only willed one thing, his love. For it, he would live and die. For it, he would sacrifice all and in it alone, he would have his eternal reward. Yet, the act of being in love is still not in the deepest sense the Good. However, it may possibly become for him a helpful educator, who will finally lead him by the possession of his beloved one or perhaps by her loss, in truth to will one thing and to will the Good. In this fashion, a man is educated by many means; and true love is also an education toward the Good. Perhaps, there was a man whose enthusiasm was for only one thing. He would live and die for that cause. He would sacrifice all for that in which alone he would have his happiness, for love and enthusiasm are not satisfied with a divided heart. Yet, his endeavor was perhaps still not in the deepest sense the Good. Thus, enthusiasm became for him a teacher, whom he outgrew, but to whom also he owed much. For, as it is said, all ways lead to the Good, when a man in truth only wills one thing. And where there is some truth, in the fact that he wills one thing, this is all for the best. However, there is danger that the lover and the enthusiast may swerve out of the true course and aim perhaps for the impressive instead of being led to the Good. The Good is certainly also in truth the impressive, but the impressive is not always the Good. And one can bid for a woman’s favor by willing something when it is merely impressive. This can flatter the girl’s pride, and she can repay it with her adoration. However, God in heaven is not a young girl’s folly. He does not reward the impressive with admiration. The reward of the good man is to be allowed to worship in truth. #RandolphHarris 13 of 22

By exclusively acknowledging and confessing Christ our Lord, we more fully see that the wide range of His dominion is disclosed to us. It is not metaphysical speculation; it is not a theologoumena of the logos spermatikos, but it is the concrete suffering of injustice, of the organized lie, of hostility to mankind, and of violence; it is the persecution of lawfulness, truth, humanity and freedom which impels the men who hold these values dear to seek the protection of Jesus Christ and therefore to become subject to His claim, and it is through this that the Church of Jesus Christ learnt of the wide extent of her responsibility. The relationship of the Church with the world today does not consist, as it did in the Middle Ages, in the calm and steady expansion of the power of the name of Christ, nor yet in an eddeavour, such as was undertaken by the apologists of the first centuries of Christianity, to justify and publicize and embellish the name of Jesus Christ before the world by associating it with human names and values, but solely in that recognition of the origin which has been awakened and vouchsafed to men in this suffering, solely in the seeking of refuge from persecution in Christ. It is not Christ who must justify Himself before the world by the acknowledgement of the values of justice, truth, and freedom, but it is these values which have come to need justification, and their justification can only be Jesus Christ. It is not that a “Christian culture” must make the name of Jesus Christ acceptable to the world; but the crucified Christ has become the refuge and the justification, the protection and the claim for the higher values and their defenders that have fallen victim to suffering. #RandolphHarris 14 of 22

It is with the Christ who is persecuted and who suffers in His Church that justice, truth, humanity, and freedom now seek refuge; it is with the Christ who found no shelter in the world, the Christ who was cast out from the world, the Christ of the crib and of the cross, under whose protection they now seek sanctuary, and who thereby for the first time displays the full extent of His power. The Cross reveals that no one stands in neutrality, for every person is already shaped by the models they imitate. Thus, Christ can say both “He who is not with me is against me” and “He who is not against us is for us,” because our roles, loyalties, and identities are formed through imitation long before we speak them aloud. We learn our roles by being trained into them and by identifying with the role models available to us. This is not optional. It is how human beings come into being. A child learns “I” only through recognition. A person learns courage by seeing courage. A person learns cruelty by watching cruelty. A person learns scapegoating by participating in it. A person learns mercy by receiving it. We are imitative creatures — and the Cross is the moment when the human pattern of imitation is revealed in its starkest form. This is why the sayings of Jesus are not contradictions but two sides of the same anthropological truth: Imitation makes neutrality impossible. Imitation makes belonging inevitable. We are always becoming like the model we follow — whether that model is Christ, the crowd, the persecutor, the scapegoat mechanism, or the false self we were trained to perform. Thus, as children, our behavior is rewarded by our parents when it conforms to their image of the way a little boy or a girl should act. At each level, our behavior is “shaped,” by the consequences of approval and of punishment that they provide to our actions. #RandolphHarris 15 of 22

As we get older, we are encouraged to emulate the behavior of people who function as exemplars or role models. This is the way we begin to learn how to be a husband or a father, or a wife, or a mother, when the time comes, and it is the way we learn our occupational roles. Each person, thus, serves as a model to be emulated by others. People encounter difficulties in fulfilling their gender roles and family roles when they have grown up without regular contact with role models or when the role models differ from the norms of their group. Some male homosexuals, for example, have grown up without a father in the home or with a father who was so hateful that the boy would not identify with him. When divorce is common, many children grow up without a father because they usually are raised by the mother. Under these conditions, the girls may not learn what adult man-woman or husband-wife behavior can be expected, nor will the little boys. Consequently, they do not learn reasonable family role expectations for self and for others; they may acquire idealized notions of what to expect from their spouses and children when they marry, expectations that their spouses and future children cannot fulfill. In Harlow’s famous and widely publicized study, infant monkeys were raised by artificial mothers, wire or foam rubber mechanical objects that were rigged to provide milk for the infants. Lacking adequate role models, these infants survived infancy handily but were totally unable to carry on adult functions. They were, as Harlow described them: helpless, hopeless, heartless parents. In professional and vocational training, the learner is both “shaped” by teachers and encouraged by them to copy the teacher’s ways of performing skills. I served as a consultant to a nursing college and found that the faculty and the staff nurses were not serving as authentic exemplars of the kind of nursing practice they wished students to learn. They wanted the students to be very open, to be responsive to and empathic with patients, doctors, and colleagues. #RandolphHarris 16 of 22

However, they were not functioning in those roles that were expected of nurses. Many of the floor nursing faculty had left bedside nursing because they did not like regular contact with the ill. Many floor nurses were afraid of close, communicative relationships with patients, doctors, and each other. My task was to help the faculty and staff become the kind of nursing exemplars that the students could emulate. We attempted to do this, first, by encouraging the nursing college faculty to return to regular bedside nursing college faculty to return to regular faculty meetings where the purpose was to practice open, personal communication with each other. There is some evidence that the strained, formal, and impersonal atmosphere of the college was replaced by one that encouraged greater openness of communication and that the students did become better at relating empathically and warmly with their parents. Compassion is simply seeing someone’s need and wanting to help. Acting on that feeling leads us to do what we can for that person. This is part of our covenant to “bear one another’s burden” (Mosiah 18.8) and is at the heart of ministering. Compassion is a skill that we can learn. It takes practice. We can start by being a good listener and imagining how we would feel if we had the same experience as someone else. Heavenly Father wants His children to be compassionate. This is why you have a feeling to want to help a person struggling to move forward under a load of grief and difficulty. You promised that you would help the Lord make their burdens light and be comforted. You were given the power to help lighten those loads when you received the gift of the Holy Ghost. As the intellectual change of attitude is promoted by the discoveries of science and the reflections of scientists, religious, moral, educational, metaphysical, and social changes will follow as a logical consequence. #RandolphHarris 17 of 22

Whether it is electricity brightening a village, science awakening the mind, or clean gear protecting a firefighter, illumination always brings responsibility. Once we see clearly, we must act with care, discipline, and stewardship. Firefighter protective clothing is a perfect example: when it is dirty, it loses insulation, conducts heat and electricity more readily, sheds liquids poorly, and can even become flammable. Many fireground residues are carcinogenic or toxic to the skin. Turnout gear must therefore be cleaned regularly to prevent these dangers — yet it must also be cleaned correctly, because improper washing can degrade the fabric, weaken its thermal protection, or worsen its performance. Illumination does not simply reveal the world; it reveals the obligations that come with knowing better. Any blaze in a large building is dangerous, both for the firefighters who confront it and for the surrounding area if the fire gains too much headway. Sometimes, despite a department’s best efforts, circumstances align against them and a structure is lost. In this case, several factors converged. Around 2:30 p.m., a car being repaired with a welding torch ignited, and the gasoline tank exploded, spraying flames throughout the garage portion of the warehouse. All workers escaped unharmed and multiple calls were placed to the fire department. However, the first caller gave the wrong address, sending the responding engine to the opposite end of town and delaying arrival by five critical minutes. When crews finally reached the scene, the fire was still largely confined to the garage, but it had already begun to extend into the front of the building and was racing up into the roof structure. Those few minutes of delay allowed the fire to gain the momentum that ultimately doomed the warehouse. #RandolphHarris 18 of 22

The wind began to freshen just as the men backed out of the building, fanning the now‑raging blaze. Firefighters battled the fire in icy weather, working to protect the surrounding structures. The building next to the library ignited several times from the intense heat, but each flare‑up was quickly extinguished with minimal danger. Across the street, several businesses had their windows shattered by the radiant heat pouring off the warehouse. At the front of the building, the Fire Chief and several firefighters were manning hoselines when the roof gave way, bringing the entire front of the structure down with it. Bricks and debris showered the area, narrowly missing the crews. After the collapse, the fire continued to burn for several more hours, but the threat to nearby buildings had passed. Damage was later estimated at more than $2 million, including over twenty cars stored inside, with surrounding businesses suffering smoke and water damage. A gas station to the south sustained some damage as well, and during the chaos, tools and batteries were stolen from the property. The Chief later praised the award‑winning Sacramento Fire Department, noting that their efforts were invaluable in containing the blaze to a single building and saving the structures across the alley. #RandolphHarris 19 of 22

When it comes to firefighting, no matter how large or small the fire is or how routine the call seems to be, there is always the potential for injury. If you see a fire truck stopped in the street without the lights on, be very careful. Sometimes there is an emergency, and you should not pass the fire truck. It might be a good idea to safely turn around and go another way because if you hit someone and they happen to die, you could be charged with manslaughter. Sometimes fire firefighters are getting back into their vehicle, and if you pass the apparatus, you may collide with a firefighter who is on foot. Also, be sure to look at their signals; sometimes emergency vehicles are in motion, albeit slowly, and drivers try to pass them, and this could lead to a dangerous situation. Also, if you are in an intersection when you see an emergency vehicle, continue through the intersection. Drive to the right as soon as it is safe and stop. Obey any direction, order, or signal given by a law enforcement officer or a firefighter. Even if they conflict with existing signs, signals, or laws, follow their orders. When their siren or flashing lights are on, it is against the law to follow within 300 feet of any fire engine, law enforcement vehicle, ambulance, or other emergency vehicle. If you drive to the scene of a fire, collision, or other disaster, you can be arrested. When you do this, you are getting in the way of firefighters, ambulance crews, or other rescue and emergency personnel. The concept of professional courage does not always mean being as tough as nails, either. It also suggests a willingness to listen to other people’s problems, to go to bat for them in a tough situation, and it means knowing just how far they can go. It also means being willing to tell the boss when he or she is wrong. #RandolphHarris 20 of 22

Also, to ensure that we have farmland and buildable land for future use, we need to start limiting the number of people allowed to immigrate to America. Perhaps with the immigrants we do allow into America, there needs to be a diversity program to make sure we have a population that equally represents all races of people. If Americans continue to spend money on American products, then more need to be made to keep up the inventory. When investors notice these goods are selling, it gives them the confidence to pour more money into that local business. It shows that people want these goods made in America and pressures investors to keep these goods and services in America. The jobs stay here, the business stays in America, wages naturally increase, and more money is invested to keep up with demand. This reduces the burden on the taxpayer. When you support American businesses, that money stays in our economy and can help to reduce the national debt. The government creates debt by borrowing from businesses in the private sector or from foreign countries. It also increases the national debt by spending more than it gains in tax revenue in a fiscal year. When people shop locally, more tax money stays in the economy and goes to the government. This way, it keeps more money in our national economy and keeps more jobs located in America which also sends more taxes to the government, which can again help to reduce the national debt. When you buy foreign goods, these companies usually have lighter tax loads or exemptions, meaning less money for the national debt, plus you are helping to strengthen these foreign nations by sending more money overseas. Buying American-made products is also better for the environment and helps to reduce the carbon footprint because these products do not have to travel nearly as far. Furthermore, American companies and manufacturers are held to much higher standards on pollution. American companies must be more careful about air, land, and water pollution and have proper ways to dispose of waste. #RandolphHarris 21 of 22

Under President Trump’s administration, he has made America a priority. President Trump has closed the southern border, illegal crossings have fallen to an all-time low, and are 90 percent lower than under the previous administration. Since President Trump’s crack down on crime, violent crimes in Washington D.C. have dropped by approximately 80 percent. He has stopped thousands of pounds of drugs from entering America and killing citizens. And since President Trump took office, investments in America have increased by trillions of dollars in U.S.A. manufacturing, production, and innovation. As you can see, President Donald Trump and his pledge to “Make America Great Again” is exactly what America needs to save the country and the American people. And yes, diversity is important, so you can see why it is also important to preserve blonde hair and blue eyes, as the people with these characteristics are becoming a minority in America. As a reminder, parents, please teach your children to love America and be patriotic citizens, and to buy goods and services made in America. It is also important to respect law and order and treat your elders with respect. It is inborn in the human mind to wish to know. If this begins with the endless surface questions of a child’s curiosity, if it continues into deeper questions of a scientist’s probing investigation, it cannot and does not stop there. For the higher part of the mind will eventually come into unfoldment, that union of abstract reflective thought with mystical intuition, which is true intelligence, which needs and sees a view of the whole of things. And so, the knowing faculty enters the realm of philosophy. A lot of children are having problems in school and cannot even write a paragraph because they are not reading their books. When you actually read books, you get an example of how to write and will become a better student. Therefore, remember to take your education seriously so that you will be successful in life and make your family proud. Also, to make sure they have all the resources required, please donate to the Sacramento Fire Department to help improve our national security. “Oh, thus be it ever, when freemen shall stand between their loved home and the war’s desolation! Blest with victory and peace, may the heav’n-rescued land Praise the Power that hath made and preserved us a nation! Then conquer we must, when our cause is just, and this be our motto: ‘In God is our trust.’ And the star-spangled banner in triumph shall wave O’er the land of the free and the home of the brave.” #RandolphHarris 22 of 22


People say the Winchester Mansion is strange because Mrs. Sarah Winchester built it that way — staircases to nowhere, doors that open into air, rooms that appear without warning. But those who have studied the deeper folklore whisper something else: that the house inherited stories far older than California, stories that drifted across oceans and centuries until they found a place to root themselves again. They say the mansion carries echoes of another place — a fortress of stone, a house of trials, a home of restless spirits. And at the center of those echoes stands a single figure. The Watcher. Long before the mansion rose from the California soil, the Watcher belonged to a different tower — a high, narrow room where he kept vigil over a land filled with fear, accusations, and unanswered questions. But when Mrs. Sarah Winchester began her endless construction, something in her grief called to him.

Visitors to the mansion sometimes see him in the uppermost windows: a tall silhouette, unmoving, always looking outward as if guarding something only he understands. Guides say the tower is empty. Workers say no one goes up there. Yet the figure appears, night after night, watching. Some believe he is a guardian. Others say he is a witness. But the oldest version claims he is both — a presence drawn to places where sorrow builds walls and fear carves corridors. In the eastern wing, guests sometimes report a pale woman drifting through the hallways, her gown trailing like mist. She never speaks. She never approaches. She simply moves from room to room as though searching for something she lost long ago. Some say she is a memory Mrs. Sarah could not let go of. Others believe she is one of the mansion’s “unfinished stories,” a spirit who followed the Watcher across the sea and found a new home in the labyrinth Mrs. Sarah built.

On fog-heavy nights, the mansion grounds echo with the sound of a horse-drawn carriage approaching the front steps — though nothing ever arrives. The clatter of wheels, the snort of horses, the creak of leather harnesses… all vanish the moment someone opens the door. Locals say it is the carriage of a former visitor returning to the house, eternally repeating his journey. Others whisper that it is the Watcher’s escort, arriving to collect the lost or guide the wandering. In the farthest corridors, where the house seems to fold in on itself, visitors sometimes hear heavy footsteps pacing behind them — too slow for a person, too deliberate for an animal. Some claim to hear low growls echoing from the walls, as though something unseen is patrolling the mansion’s edges. Mrs. Sarah herself once wrote of “shadows that walk like men but breathe like beasts.” Whether she meant it literally or metaphorically, no one knows. But the stories persist.

The legend says Mrs. Sarah Winchester did not create these hauntings — she inherited them. Her grief, her isolation, her relentless building formed a kind of beacon. The house became a sanctuary for wandering spirits, a place where old stories could settle into new rooms. And the Watcher, drawn by the same sorrow he had known in his first tower, took up his post again — not to frighten Mrs. Sarah, but to accompany her. To stand guard over a woman who built a labyrinth not to trap spirits, but to give them somewhere to go. Some nights, when the mansion is especially still, visitors swear they see him turn from the window, as if acknowledging them. As if reminding them that every house with a history has someone watching over it.

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After wandering the winding halls of the Winchester Mystery House—where staircases defy logic and whispers seem to cling to the walls—Café 13 offers a welcome return to warmth and grounding. Newly reopened and serving guests daily from 10 AM to 3 PM, this cozy hideaway invites you to pause, breathe, and gather yourself before diving back into the mansion’s secrets. Here, you can enjoy breakfast, lunch, snacks, and refreshing drinks in a calm indoor space that feels worlds away from the mansion’s twisting corridors. Settle in with a warm meal, challenge a friend to a board game, or simply rest and recharge as sunlight filters through the windows. Café 13 is more than a café—it’s a moment of calm between chapters of the Winchester legend, a place to steady your nerves before returning to the gardens, the grandeur, and the mysteries that await.
Winchester Mercantile Gift Shop

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The Theater of Pretend Ignorance

When institutions fail to enforce their own rules, individuals are forced into roles they never chose, sustaining dysfunction through silence, avoidance, and fear. Such situations require a lot of emotional labor. Emotional labor is the psychological glue that holds dysfunctional systems together, especially when people are forced into roles that contradict who they are. Emotional labor is not just being nice at work. It is the management of feeling—the requirement to display emotions that you do not feel and suppress emotions that you do feel to manage a role, and keep a situation cohesive. This is the situation with a weakly “cathected” or inactive leader. In healthy systems, emotional labor is part of the job. People are capable of mobilizing energy because they are doing something rewarding, or can be charged up by an outside source. However, in dysfunctional systems, emotional labor becomes the job. This happens when you are expected to absorb conflict others refuse to address, forced to be the “calm one,” the “fixer,” the “bigger person,” pressured to maintain harmony while others create chaos, required to pretend incompetence around you is normal, and are punished for showing frustration at others’ negligence. This is role drift through emotional coercion. I had to study psychology and religion to understand this situation, and it took me far off my path. I never agreed to be the therapist, the parent, the moral compass, the scapegoat, or the shock absorber—but the system pushed those roles onto me, relying on my integrity to compensate for everyone else’s refusal to do their jobs. #RandolphHarris 1 of 17

At first, I wore the role like a badge of honor. I could help people become more rational, more grounded. But as the years stretched into more than a decade, the role hardened into a career I never asked for. The same problems cycled endlessly, even with paid professionals sitting right there, unable to help anyone resolve anything. Eventually, I started hiding—running errands at dawn, slipping out late at night—because people would wait around to latch onto me. After twelve to fourteen years of this, I reached a breaking point. I did not want to be the one absorbing everyone’s chaos, especially when so many others were standing right there, untouched and unbothered. I honestly do not have fun anymore. Life has become nothing but work—endless bills, endless responsibilities, endless situations to manage. It feels like every part of my existence has turned into a job. And the drama never ends. Holidays, family gatherings, every day of the week—there is always someone ready to do something forbidden, disobey the law, or explode the moment they get an audience. In this frustrated and vulnerable state, an individual has no defense against people with problematic behavior, and other human relationships are neglected. Engagements are dropped at a moment’s notice when someone wants to use their position or situation to have a conniption fit or temper tantrum. The mismatch between the authentic self and the forced role produces burnout, moral injury, resentment, identity fatigue, emotional numbness, and a sense of being trapped in a role you never agreed to play. This is why people say, “I do not even recognize myself anymore.” To perform a role effectively, one must be and feel potent: not omnipotent, but potent enough to deal with these individuals. The individuals must believe that they are potent enough, so the individual forced into the leader role has protection against their dysfunction and wrath. Dysfunctional adults need permission or a license to give up, or be released from negative behavior. Dysfunctional institutions survive because the system runs on the emotional labor of the unwilling. #RandolphHarris 2 of 17

To be a judge obviously involves a knowledge of the law and probably also knowledge of a much wider range of human affairs that are legally relevant. It also involves, however, “knowledge” of the values and attitudes deemed appropriate for a judge, extending as far as those proverbially deemed appropriate for a judge’s wife. The judge must also have appropriate “knowledge” in the domain of the emotions: He will have to know, for example, when to restrain his feelings of compassion, to mention a not unimportant psychological prerequisite for this role. In this way, each role opens an entrance into a specific sector of the society’s total stock of knowledge. To learn a role, it is not enough to acquire the routines immediately necessary for its “outward” performance. One must also be initiated into the various cognitive and even affective layers of the body of knowledge that is directly and indirectly appropriate to this role. This implies a social distribution of knowledge. A society’s stock of knowledge is structured in terms of what is generally relevant and what is relevant to specific roles. This is true of even very simple social situations. In social situations, for instance, one must have knowledge of the procedures necessary to keep this company economically afloat. The social distribution of knowledge entails a dichotomization in terms of general and role-specific relevance. Given the historical accumulation of knowledge in a society, we can assume that, because of the division of labor, role-specific knowledge will grow at a faster rate than generally relevant and accessible knowledge. #RandolphHarris 3 of 17

The multiplication of specific tasks brought about by the division of labor requires standardized solutions that can be readily learned and transmitted. These, in turn, require specialized knowledge of certain situations, and of the means/ends relationships in terms of which the situations are socially defined. In other words, specialists will arise, each of whom will have to know whatever is deemed necessary for the fulfillment of his particular task. To accumulate role-specific knowledge, a society must be so organized that certain individuals can concentrate on their specialties. If, in a hunting society, certain individuals are to become specialists as swordsmiths, there will have to be provisions to excuse them from the hunting activities that are incumbent on all other adult males. Specialized knowledge of a more elusive kind, such as the knowledge of mystagogues and other intellectuals, requires a similar social organization. In all these cases, the specialists become administrators of the sectors of the stock of knowledge that have been socially assigned to them. At the same time, an important part of generally relevant knowledge is the typology of specialists. While the specialists are defined as individuals who know their specialties, everyone must know who the specialists are in case their specialties are needed. The man on the street is not expected to know the intricacies of the magic, inducing fertility or casting evil spells. If the need for either service arises, what he must know, however, is which magicians to call upon. #RandolphHarris 4 of17

People complain about the cost of welfare, but nothing drains resources like a bad manager. In any specialized field, you cannot afford to have someone with a poor attitude and no commitment running the show. A person who is just there for a paycheck can destroy a business from the inside. A typology of experts (what contemporary social workers call a referral guide) is thus part of the generally relevant and accessible stock of knowledge, while the knowledge that constitutes expertise is not. The practical difficulties that may arise in certain societies (for instance, when there are competing coteries of experts, or when specialization has become so complicated that the layman gets confused) need not concern us now. It is thus possible to analyze the relationship between roles and knowledge from two vantage points. Looked at from the perspective of the institutional order, the roles appear as institutional representations and mediations of the institutionally objectivated aggregates of knowledge. Looked at from the perspective of the several roles, each role carries with it a socially defined appendage of knowledge. Both perspectives, of course, point to the same global phenomenon, which is the essential dialectic of society. The first perspective can be summed up in the proposition that society exists only as individuals are conscious of it, the second in the proposition that individual consciousness is socially determined. Narrowing this to the matter of roles, we can say that, on the other hand, the institutional order is real only insofar as it is realized in performed roles and that, on the other hand, roles are representative of an institutional order that defines their character (including their appendages of knowledge) and from which they derive their objective sense. #RandolphHarris 5 of 17

The analysis of roles is of particular importance to the sociology of knowledge because it reveals the mediations between the macroscopic universes of meaning objectivated in a society and the ways by which these universes are subjectively real to individuals. Thus, it is possible, for example, to analyze the macroscopic social roots or a religious world view in certain collectives (classes, say, or ethnic groups, or intellectual coteries), and also to analyze the manner in which this world view is manifested in the consciousness of an individual. If one inquires into how the individual, in his total social activities, relates to the collectivity in question, the two analyses can be brought together. Such an inquiry will, of necessity, be an exercise in role analysis. Everybody knows that in Germany, the career of the young man who is dedicated to science normally begins with the position of Priivatdozent. After having conversed with and received the consent of the respective specialists, he takes up residence on the basis of a book and, usually, a rather formal examination before the faculty of the university. Then he gives a course of lectures without receiving any salary other than the lecture fees of his students. It is up to him to determine, within his venia legendi, the topics upon which he lectures. In the United States of America, the academic career usually begins in quite a different manner, namely, by employment as an “assistant.” This is similar to the great institutes of the natural sciences and medical faculties in Germany, where usually only a fraction of the assistants tries to habilitate themselves as Privatodozenten and often only later in their career. Particularly, this contrast means that the career of the academic man in Germany is generally based upon plutocratic prerequisites. For it is extremely hazardous for a young scholar without funds to expose himself to the conditions of the academic career. He must be able to endure this condition for at least a number of years without knowing whether he will have the opportunity to move into a position which pays well enough for maintenance. #RandolphHarris 6 of 17

In the United States of America, where the bureaucratic system exists, the young academic man is paid from the very beginning. To be sure, his salary is modest; usually, it is hardly as much as the wages of a semi-skilled laborer. Yet, he begins with a seemingly secure passion, for he draws a fixed salary. As a rule, however, notice may be given to him just as with German assistants, and frequently he definitely has to face this should he not come up to expectations. These expectations are such that the young academic in America must draw large crowds of students. This cannot happen to a German docent; once one has him, one cannot get rid of him. To be sure, he cannot raise any “claims.” However, he has the understandable notion that after years of work, he has a sort of moral right to expect some consideration. He also expects—and this is often quite important—that one have some regard for him when the question of the possible habilitation of other Privatdozenten comes up. Whether, in principle, one should habilitate every scholar who is qualified, or whether one should consider enrollments, and hence give the existing staff a monopoly to teach—that is an awkward dilemma. It is associated with the dual aspect of the academic profession. In general, one decides in favor of the second alternative. However, this increases the danger that the respective full professor, however conscientious he is, will prefer his own disciples. If I may speak of my personal attitude, I must say that I have followed the principle that a scholar promoted by me must legitimize and habilitate himself with somebody else at another university. However, the result has been that one of my best disciples had been turned down at another university because nobody there believed this to be the reason. A further difference between Germany and the United States of America is that in Germany, the Privatdozent generally teaches fewer courses than he wishes. According to his formal right, he can give any course in his field. However, to do so would be considered an improper lack of consideration for the older docent. #RandolphHarris 7 of 17

As a rule, the full professor gives the “big” courses, and the docent confines himself to secondary one. The advantage of these arrangements is that during his youth, the academic man is free to do scientific work, although this restriction of the opportunity to teach is somewhat involuntary. In America, the arrangement is different in principle. Precisely during the early years of his career, the assistant is absolutely overburdened just because he is paid. In a department of German, for instance, the full professor will give a three-hour course on Goethe, and that is enough, whereas the young assistant is happy if, besides the drill in the German language, his twelve weekly teaching hours include assignments of, say, Uhland. The officials prescribe this curriculum, and in this, the assistant is just as dependent as the institute assistant in Germany. Of late, we can observe distinctly that the German universities in the broad fields of science develop in the direction of the American system. The large institutes of medicine or natural science are “state capitalist” enterprises, which cannot be managed without very considerable funds. Here, we encounter the same condition that is found wherever capitalist enterprise comes into operation: the “separation of the worker from his means of production.” The worker, that is, the assistant, is dependent upon the implements that the state puts at his disposal; hence, he is just as dependent upon the head of the institute as is the employee in a factory upon the management. For, subjectively and in good faith, the director believes that this institute is “his,” and he manages its affairs. Thus, the assistant’s position is often as precarious as that of any “quasi-proletarian” existence and just as precarious as the position of the assistant in the American university. #RandolphHarris 8 of 17

Those who fail in their once-bornness, we said, want to have another chance at being born. It often seems as though they want to be made over by the same mothers who give physical birth to them; but this, as we can now see, would be too literal an assumption. For that “first birth,” to which all of their symptoms are related, is the emergence of their consciousness as individuals, a consciousness born from the interplay of recognitions. Whoever is the maternal attendant to that early phase is man’s first “environment,” and whatever environment is then first experienced as such remains associated with “mother.” On the security of that first polarization of a self and a maternal matrix are built all subsequent securities. “Mother” is the person (or the persons) who knows how to convincingly offer provision and screening: the provisions of food, warmth, stimulation in answer to the infant’s searching mouth, skin, and senses; and the screening of the quality and quantity of his intake to avoid both over-and under-stimulation. The new human being, therefore, experiences his appetites and aversions together with the personal care (and care means provision and caution) he gets. They form his first world; but so do those moments when he feels uncared for, alone with his discomfort and his rage. For these, however, he has at his disposal signals with an immediate appeal to the mothers, which sooner or later bring more or less response from her: the regularity and predictability of her responses are the infant’s first world order, the original paradise of provision. During the first year of life, the reality of the provider thus gradually emerges from the original matrix as a coherent experience, a verified fact, a sound investment of love and trust—and the infant has matured enough to experience coherently, verify reasonably, and invest courageously. #RandolphHarris 9 of 17

This bipolarity of recognition is the basis of all social experience. Let nobody say that it is only the beginning, it passes, and it is, after all, childish. Man is not organized like an archaeological mound, in layers: as he grows, he makes the past part of all future, and every environment, as he once experienced it, part of the present environment. Dreams and dreamlike moments, when analyzed, always reveal the myriad past experiences which are waiting outside the gates of consciousness to mingle with present impressions. Man, at all times, wants to be sure that the original bipolarity is intact, especially when he feels tired, doubtful, unsure, alone—a fact which has been utilized by both theology and psychoanalysis. In that first relationship, man learns something which most individuals who survive and remain sane can take for granted most of the time. Only psychiatrists, priests, and born philosophers know how sorely that something can be missed. I have called this early treasure “basic trust”; it is the first psychosocial trait and the fundament of all others. Basic trust in mutuality is that original “optimism,” that assumption that “somebody is there,” without which we cannot live. In situations in which such basic trust cannot develop in early infancy, children die mentally. They do not respond nor learn; they do not assimilate their food and fail to defend themselves against infection, and often they die physically as well as mentally. One may well claim for that earliest meeting of a perceiving subject with a perceived object (which, in turn seems to “recognize” the subject) the beginning of all sense of identity; this meeting thus becomes the anchor-point for all the developments which culminate, at the end of adolescence, in the establishment of psychosocial identity. At that point, an ideological formula, intelligible both in terms of individual development and of significant tradition, must do for the young person what the mother did for the infant: provide nutriment for the soul as well as for the stomach, and screen the environment so that vigorous growth may meet what it can manage. #RandolphHarris 10 of 17

Of all the ideological systems, however, only religion restores the earliest sense of appeal to a Provider, a Providence. In the Judaeo-Christian tradition, no prayer indicates this more clearly than “The Lord makes His Face to shine upon you and be gracious unto you. The Lord lift up His countenance upon you and give you peace”; and no prayerful attitude better than the uplifted face, hopeful of being recognized. The Lord’s countenance is apt to loom to sternly, and His son’s on the cross to show the enigmatic quality of total abandonment in sacrifice; but painters and sculptors fashion a faintly smiling face for the Madonna, graciously inclined toward the infant, who responds with peace and gaiety until, in the Renaissance, he stands up and, fully confident, motions away from her. We can see the search for the same smile of peace in the work of Eastern painters and sculptors, although their Buddhas seem closer to being the overall parent and child, all in one. It is art, the work of the visually gifted and the visually driven, in conjunction with religion, which puts such emphasis on the face; thought expresses the original symbiotic unity as a state of being firmly yet flexibly held, embedded in a Way. The deification of the irrational, of blood and instinct, of the beast of prey in man can be countered with the appeal of reason; arbitrary action can be countered with the written law; barbarity with the appeal to culture and humanity; the violent maltreatment of persons with the appeal to freedom, tolerance and the rights of man; the subordination of science, art and the rest to political purposes with the appeal to the autonomy of the various different fields of human activity. In each case, this is sufficient to awaken the consciousness of a kind of alliance and comradeship between the defenders of these endangered values and the Christians. #RandolphHarris 11 of 17

Reason, culture, humanity, tolerance, and self-determination, all these concepts which until very recently had served as battle slogans against the Church, against Christianity, against Jesus Christ Himself, have now, suddenly, and surprisingly, come very near indeed to the Christian standpoint. This takes place at a time when everything Christian is more closely hemmed in than ever before and when the cardinal principles of Christian belief are displayed in their hardest and most uncompromising form, in a form which could give the greatest offence to all reason, culture, humanity, and tolerance. And, indeed, it is precisely in inverse proportion to this oppression and to this narrowing of its field of action that Christian thought acquires the alliance of all these concepts and with it an entirely unexpected new wide field of activity. It is clear that it is not the Church that is seeking the protection and alliance of these concepts; but, on the contrary, it is the concepts that have somehow become homeless and now seek refuge in the Christian sphere, in the shadow of the Christian Church. IF we are to interpret this experience simply as a purely tactical move, as an alliance of expediency which will be dissolved as soon as the struggle is at an end, it will not correspond at all to the real. What is decisive is rather the fact that there took place a return to the origin. The children of the Church, who had become independent and gone their own ways, now, in the hour of danger, return to their mother. During the time of their estrangement, their appearance and their language have altered a great deal, and yet at the crucial moment, the mother and the children once again recognize one another. Reason, justice, culture, humanity, and all the kindred concepts seek and find a new purpose and a new power in their origin. #RandolphHarris 12 of 17

This origin is Jesus Christ. In Soloviev’s story of the Antichrist, in the last days before Christ’s return, the heads of the persecuted churches discuss the question of what is for each of them the most precious thing in Christianity; the decisive answer is that the most precious thing in Christianity is Jesus Christ Himself. That is to say, that in the face of the Antichrist, only one thing has force and permanence, and that is Christ Himself. Only he who shares in Him has the power to withstand and to overcome. He is the center and the strength of the Christian Bible, of the Church, and of theology, but also of humanity, of reason, of justice and of culture. Everything must return to Him; it is only under His protection that it can live. There seems to be a general unconscious knowledge, which, in the hour of ultimate peril, leads everything which desires not to fall victim to the Antichrist to take refuge with Christ. “He that is not against us is for us,” reports Mark 9.40. Christ defines the limits of membership in Himself more widely than His disciples wish Him to do or themselves do. The particular concrete instance to which this saying of Jesus refers is the case of a man who, without himself being a disciple or follower, nevertheless casts out devils in the name of Jesus. Jesus forbade the disciples to hinder him, for “there is no man which shall do a miracle in my name, that can lightly speak evil of me,” reports Mark 9.39. Wherever the name of Jesus is still spoken, even though it be in ignorance or in the knowledge only of its objective power but without personal obedience, and even though it be only with hesitation and embarrassment, wherever this name is spoken it creates for itself a space to which the revilement of Jesus has no access, a region which still belongs to the power of Christ, where one must not interfere and hinder but where one must allow the name of Jesus Christ to do its work. It is an experience of our days that the spoken name of Jesus alone exercises an unforeseen power; and the effort which it costs to speak this name is perhaps connected with some faint apprehension of the power which is inherent in it. #RandolphHarris 13 of 17

Wherever the name of Jesus Christ is spoken, it is a protection and a claim. This is the case with all those who, in their struggle for justice, truth, humanity, and freedom, have learnt once again to speak the name of Jesus Christ, even though it is often with hesitation, with genuine fear. This name gives protection to them and to the high values for which they stand; and it is at the same time the claim to these men and to these values. “He that not with me is against me,” reports Matthew 12.30. It is the same Jesus who speaks these words. For abstract analysis, these two sayings of Jesus are in irreconcilable contradiction; but in reality, they necessarily belong together. Here again, we have living experience to prove our case; under the pressure of anti-Christian forces, there came together groups of men who confessed the faith unequivocally and who were impelled to seek a clear decision for or against Christ in the strict discipline of doctrine and of life. In their struggle, these confessing congregations could not help but perceive that the greatest of all the dangers which threatened the Church with inner disintegration and disruption lay in the neutrality of large numbers of Christians; they saw in this the true hostility to Christ. The exclusive demand for a clear profession of allegiance to Christ caused the band of confessing Christians to become ever smaller; the saying, “he that is not with me is against me,” became an actual, concrete experience of the Christian Church; and then, precisely through this concentration on the essential, the Church acquired an inward freedom and breadth which preserved her against any timid impulse to draw narrow limits, and there gathered around her men who came from very far away, and men to whom she could not refuse her fellowship and her protection; injured justice, oppressed truth, vilified humanity and violated freedom all sought for her, or rather for her Master, Jesus Christ. So now she had the living experience of that other saying of Jesus: “He that is not against us is for us.” #RandolphHarris 14 of 17

These two sayings necessarily belong together as the two claims of Jesus Christ, the claim to exclusiveness, the greater the freedom. However, in isolation, the claim to exclusiveness leads to fanaticism and to slavery; and in isolation, the claim to totality leads to the secularization and self-abandonment of the Church. The more exclusively we acknowledge and confess Christ as our Lord, the more fully the wide range of His domination will be disclosed to us. However, the slave of sin is not yet free; nor has he cast off the chain, “because he scoffs at it.” He is in bonds, and therefore double-minded, and for once, he may not have his own way. There is a power that binds him. He cannot tear himself loose from it. Nay, he cannot even wholly will it. For this power, too, is denied him. If you, my listener, should see such a man, although it is unlikely, for without a doubt, weakness and mediocrity are the more common, if you should meet him in what he himself would call a weak moment, but which, alas, you would have to call a better moment; if you should meet him when he had found no rest in the desert, when the giddiness passes away for a moment, and he feels an agonizing longing for Good; if you should meet him when, shaken in his inner most being, and not without sadness, he was thinking of that man of single purpose who even in all his frailty still wills the Good: then you would discover that he had two wills, and you would discover his painful double-mindedness. Desperate as he was, he thought: Lost is lost. However, he could not help turning around once more in his longing for the Good. How terribly embittered he had become against this very longing, a longing that reveals that, just as a man in all his defiance has not power enough wholly to lose himself from the Good, because it is the stronger, so he has not even the power wholly to will it. #RandolphHarris 15 of 17

Perhaps you may even have heard that desperate one say, “Some good went down with me.” When a man meets his death by drowning, as he sinks, without being quite dead, he comes to the surface again. At least a bubble comes out of his mouth. When this has happened, then he sinks dead. That bubble was the last breath, the last supply of air, that could make him lighter than the sea. So, with that remark. In that remark, the last hope of salvation expired. In that remark, he gave himself up. Was there still concealed in this thought a hope of salvation? Hidden in the soul, was there still in this thought a possible link with salvation? When a remark is pronounced in confidence to another man (oh, terrible misuse of confidence, even if the desperate one only misused it against himself!), when this word is heard, then he sinks forever. Alas, it is horrible to see a man rush toward his own destruction. It is horrible to see him dance on the rim of the abyss without any intimation of it. However, this clarity about himself and about his own destruction is even more horrible. It is horrible to see a man seek comfort by hurling himself into the whirlpool of despair. However, this coolness is still more horrible: that in the anxiety of death, a man should not cry out for help, “I am going under, save me”; but that he should quietly choose to be a witness to his own destruction! Oh, most extreme vanity, not to wish to draw man’s eyes to himself by beauty, by riches, by ability, by power, by honor, but to wish to get his attention by his own destruction, by choosing to say of himself what at most pity in all sadness may venture to say of such a person at his grace, “Yet, some good went down with him.” In moments of crisis, the doubleness of the human mind becomes painfully clear. We cling to illusions, hoping to extract some advantage from the very forces that are destroying us, unwilling to admit that the Good—the rational, the humane, the lawful—is the one thing we never fully willed. Yet in the instant of danger, even if only for a fleeting moment, the other will becomes visible: the part of us that recognizes what must be done. #RandolphHarris 16 of 17

This same clarity appears in emergency situations. When lives are at stake—when rescue or the prevention of fire spread is involved—there is no room for hesitation, sentimentality, or the false comfort of appearances. Property damage becomes irrelevant. The only rational response is decisive action. The threat of collapsing walls is present at every structure fire, but when you combine an enormous blaze in a row of old buildings, a swelling crowd, and a fire department stretched thin trying to save an entire neighborhood, the danger multiplies. That was the situation one August afternoon when a fire broke out at the “lower works” of a glass plant at the west end of Broadway. The alarm came in around 5:20 p.m. As the firemen left the station, they could already see the towering black smoke and knew they were facing a battle. The fire had begun at the west end of a row of warehouses and was rapidly consuming the adjoining structures. By the time the department arrived, all three warehouses were burning, threatening nearby homes and the rest of the abandoned factory. Captain X positioned himself near the east wall, trying to save the old office building and prevent the fire from advancing into the neighborhood. Thousands of people had gathered, edging dangerously close to the flames. Working alone, Captain X had to stop his hose several times to push the crowd back. As he turned again toward the fire, the wall suddenly collapsed, showering him with bricks and debris. Partially burned and pinned beneath the rubble, he was dug out by many of the same people whose lives he had just saved. Witnesses said he had a moment of warning but used it not to save himself, but to shove several people out of harm’s way before the wall came down on him. He was treated for leg injuries and survived. Despite the scale of the fire, no one else was hurt, and the blaze was contained to the warehouses. By morning, only tottering brick walls remained. The buildings were never rebuilt. This story is not just about a fire. It is about what real responsibility looks like. #RandolphHarris 17 of 17


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Envy is an Unpleasant Social Emotion

The cultural script of “Mother knows best” is powerful—so powerful that it can override a person’s own instincts, experiences, and even evidence of harm. However, that phrase was never meant to be a universal truth. It was meant for mothers who were actually acting in good faith, with wisdom, humility, and love. When a mother is not acting in your best interest, the old saying becomes a trap rather than a comfort. The myth says that mothers are always selfless, that mothers always want what is best for their children, and that mothers are incapable of envy, resentment, or sabotage. However, real human beings—mothers included—carry unresolved trauma, insecurity, jealousy, fear of losing control, resentment toward their children’s opportunities or independence. When those wounds go unexamined, they can distort maternal behavior in ways that are deeply damaging. Narcissistic parents envy and compete with their children’s attractiveness, athletic or intellectual abilities, and other sorts of favorable attention that their children attract. Narcissistic parents make negative comparisons to put their children down. They might compare a child to a sibling, friend, cousin, or even themselves—going on about how spoiled, inferior, or lucky their child is compared to them when they were young. Such behavior stems from the same jealousy and envy that motivates competition. Sadly, many children of narcissists struggle for years or for a lifetime with shame and low self-worth. #RandolphHarris 1 of 17

It is important to pay attention to signs that mother is not acting in your best interest. These patterns often show up when a mother feels threatened by her child’s growth, success, or autonomy. One sign is subtle sabotage. When your mother is always undermining your confidence, planting seeds of doubt about your decisions, and discouraging opportunities that would help you grow, your mother may be manipulating you so she can control her child with guilt, threats, and belittling. Some mothers shame their children with name-calling, criticism, undermining, blame, and withholding love. Frequently, they project onto their children their feelings of unworthiness and negative traits, such as attention-seeking or selfishness; characteristics which they disown. At the same time, they ignore, deny, and criticize their children’s feelings and needs, sometimes punishing them for expressing normal emotions, claiming they are too sensitive or weak. Parents often punish by withholding love, creating constant insecurity of self and self-esteem, which can be traumatizing and physical. One of the most painful—and least acknowledged—forms of family betrayal is when a parent aligns with their children’s enemies. This form of betrayal cuts deeper than ordinary conflict because it violates the basic expectation that a parent should protect their child, not align with people who wish them harm. This is not “normal conflict.” It is a sign of a profound role reversal in which the parent’s emotional needs override their protective instincts. #RandolphHarris 2 of 17

Several psychological dynamics can push a parent into this kind of betrayal, such as envy and competition. If a parent feels threatened by their child’s independence, success, confidence, relationships, or reputation, they may gravitate toward people who confirm their negative narrative about the child. If a parent feels insecure or criticized, they may seek validation from anyone—even the child’s adversaries—because it temporarily soothes their ego. Some parents offload their own guilt, shame, or failures by projecting them onto the child. Aligning with the child’s enemies becomes a way to reinforce the projection. Like all narcissists, narcissistic parents are prone to brag about themselves, their achievements, their family, and their children. Do not expect narcissistic parents to be involved with their children’s hobbies, goals, or interests unless it is also their goal or interest. They will not take pleasure in their children’s accomplishments or attractiveness except to the extent that it reflects well upon them. If the child is becoming independent, the parent may: join forces with people who undermine the child, spread misinformation, create alliances that keep the child “in their place.” This is about control, not care. Parents who engage in this pattern often share private information with people who dislike their children. Gossip or exaggerate the child’s mistakes, encourage others to “teach the child a lesson,” validate outsiders’ hostility, participate in smear campaigns, use third parties to pressure, shame, or isolate the child. This is not concern. It is collusion. #RandolphHarris 3 of 17

This kind of betrayal can create deep mistrust, hypervigilance, confusion about loyalty and safety, difficulty forming secure relationships, a sense of being unprotected in the world, and emotional shock (“How could my own parent do this?”) It is not just hurtful—it is destabilizing. Why does it feel so unthinkable? Because it violates the core expectation of parenthood. A parent should never join forces with someone who wants to harm their child. The lack of unconditional love, acceptance, and emotional connection in childhood leaves a void. Until the children of narcissists accept their narcissistic parents’ limitations and begin to love themselves, they are never free of suffering. They relive the emotional abandonment of their childhood and seek self-worth, validation, and lovability in relationships with abusive and/or emotionally unavailable partners, including drug addicts and narcissists. They may contribute to the problem by reacting as they did as a child to their parents. They continually find fault with themselves because conditional love is all they have ever known. This can lead to lifelong misery because external validation never heals internal shame and emptiness. Healing requires recovery from the codependence and shame acquired in childhood to feel entitled to love and appreciation. Narcissists deny reality and live inside a fantasy world that protects their fragile ego. They distort, renationalize, twist facts, and delude themselves to avoid anything that may chip their armor, which can be so thick that no amount of evidence or argument can get through. Their memories are often faulty, and self-deception can convince them that their altered reality is true. #RandolphHarris 4 of 17

Abusers, addicts, and narcissists typically use these defense mechanisms to disown their unacceptable feelings, thoughts, or qualities and assign them to others, either mentally or verbally. The projector says, “It is not me, it is just you!” In doing so, you become the target of a narcissist’s projection: you are the one who is “selfish,” “weak,” and “worthless.” Coping strategies reflect emotional maturity, and projection is considered a primitive defense because it distorts or ignores reality in any attempt to preserve a weak ego. It is reactive without forethought and used by children. When employed by adults, it indicates arrested emotional development. Low self-esteem and shame impair narcissists’ ability to accept responsibility for mistakes and negative feelings. Projecting allows narcissists to accuse others of being the source of the pain and shame they bear make someone else feel the way they do inside. Rather than suffer self-judgment, projection provides a temporary respite from their negative impulses and traits, which they find too uncomfortable to acknowledge. It preserves feelings of innocence and esteem rather than guilt and shame, or at the very least, it preserves a narcissist’s sense of security in maintaining their façade of infallibility. Externalization is like projection in that it is blaming others for your problems rather than taking appropriate responsibility for them, like addicts who blame their drinking or drug use on their partners or job supervisor. Thus, externalizing also makes you feel like a victim. #RandolphHarris 5 of 17

However, narcissists are not the only people who project and blame. You might think to yourself, “He hates me,” when you hate him or think he is being controlling or judgmental; in other words, you remain blind to your own similar shortcomings or uncomfortable feelings because you are projecting them onto someone else. When it comes to understanding projecting, it is essential to understand that shame has two faces: one with an inflated ego and one that is depressed. When the devalued self is feeling inferior, shame manifests by idealizing others. This is what partners do when they are attracted to and idealize a narcissist. When a person is feeling superior and defending against shame, the grandiose self devalues others by projecting its disowned flaws and negative self-concept. Both devaluation and idealization are commensurate with the severity of shame and associated depression. Shame can make people fluctuate between the superior and inferior positions, but grandiose and vulnerable narcissists are more-or-less static in their respective positions, regardless of reality. Projection can be crazy-making, especially if you experience it for a long time. When you are vulnerable or have impaired self-esteem and weak boundaries or are sensitive about a specific issue, such as your looks, parenting, or intelligence, there is no filter. You introject the projection. Because internally you agree, it sticks like a magnet. Then you react to the shaming and compound your relationship problems. Doing so validates and augments the abuser’s authority, control, and ideas about you. You are sending the message that your partner has power over your self-esteem and the right to approve you. When there is a prohibition against doing something, a dialogue will result whenever the person starts to do it. The inner parent becomes active and says, “No!” in a hard script, “Watch out!” in a threatening one, or “Why do you want that?” in a soft one—usually whatever an actual parent would say in real life. The energy that the inner child had mobilized to do it is then taken over by the inner parent and is used by him to restrain the immaturity. The more the inner child had mobilized to put into it, the more energetic the mature self can become by appropriating this energy. #RandolphHarris 6 of 17

Envy is an unpleasant social emotion that arises when we compare ourselves with others in terms of their characteristic and belonging, and we perceive that they surpass us. This emotion of discomfort arises because the result of this upward comparison reveals our shortcomings. Envy is, therefore, a self-conscious emotion indicating a negative self-evaluation, or an inferior self-image with respect to others. The expansive type needs people for the confirmation of his power and of his spurious values. He also needs them as a safety valve for his own self-hate. However, since he has easier recourse to his own resources and greater support for his pride, his needs for others are neither as impelling nor as comprehensive as they are for the self-effacing type. The nature and magnitude of these needs account for basic characteristics in the latter’s expectations of others. While the arrogant-vindictive type primarily expects evil unless he has proof to the contrary, while the truly detached type expects neither good nor bad, the self-effacing type keeps expecting good. On the surface, it looks as though he had an unshakable faith in the essential goodness of humanity. And it is true that he is more open, more sensitive to likable qualities in others. However, the compulsiveness of his expectations makes it impossible for him to be discriminating. He cannot, as a rule, distinguish between genuine friendliness and its many counterfeits. He is too easily bribed by any show of warmth or interest. In addition, his inner dictates tell him that he should like everybody, that he should not be suspicious. Finally, his fear of antagonism and possible fights makes him overlook, discard, minimize, or explain away such traits as lying, crookedness, exploiting, cruelty, and treachery. #RandolphHarris 7 of 17

When confronted with the unmistakable evidence of such trends, he is taken by surprise each time; but even so, he refuses to believe in any intent to deceive, humiliate, or exploit. Although he often is, and still more often feels, abused, this does not change his basic expectations. Even though by bitter personal experience he may know that nothing good could possibly come to him from a particular group or person, he still persists in expecting it—consciously or unconsciously. Particularly when such blindness occurs in someone who is otherwise psychologically astute, his friends or colleagues may be flabbergasted by it. However, it simply indicates that the emotional needs are so great that they override evidence. The more he expects of people, the more he tends to idealize them. He has not, therefore, a real faith in mankind but a Pollyanna attitude which inevitably brings with it many disappointments and makes him more insecure with people. What does he expect of others? In the first place, he must feel accepted by others. He needs such acceptance in whatever form it is available: attention, approval, gratitude, affection, sympathy, love, and pleasures of the flesh. To make it clear, just as in our civilization, many people feel worth as much as the money they are “making,” so the self-effacing type measures his values in the currency of love, using the word here as a comprehensive term for the various forms of acceptance. He is worth as much as he is liked, needed, wanted, or loved. Furthermore, he needs human contact and company because he cannot stand being alone for any length of time. As if he were cut off from life, he feels easily lost. #RandolphHarris 8 of 17

Painful as this feeling is, it can still be tolerable as long as his self-abuse keeps within limits. As soon, however, as self-accusations or self-contempt becomes acute, his feeling lost may grow into a nameless terror, and it is exactly at this point that the need for others becomes frantic. This need for company is all the greater since being alone means to him proof of being unwanted and unliked and is therefore a disgrace, to be kept secret. It is a disgrace to go alone to the movies or on vacation, and a disgrace to be alone over the weekend, even when others are sociable. This is an illustration of the extent to which his self-confidence is dependent upon somebody caring for him in some way. He also needs others to give meaning and zest to whatever he is doing. The self-effacing type needs someone for whom to sew, cook, or garden, a teacher for whom he can play the piano, patients or clients who rely on him. Besides all this emotional support, however, he needs help and plenty of it. In his own mind, the help he needs stays within most reasonable limits, partly because most of his needs for help are unconscious and partly because he focuses on certain requests for help as though they were isolated and unique: help in getting him a job, in speaking to his landlord, going shopping with or for him, lending him money. Moreover, any wish for help of which he is aware appears to him eminently reasonable because the need behind it is so great. However, when in analysis, we see the total picture, his need for help actually amounts to the expectation that everything will be done for him. Others should supply the initiative, do his work, take the responsibility, give meaning to his life, or take over his life so that he can live through them. When recognizing the whole scope of these needs and expectations, the power which the appeal of love has for the self-effacing type becomes perfectly clear. It is not only a means to allay anxiety; without love, he and his life are without value and without meaning. Love, therefore, is an intrinsic part of the self-effacing solution. In terms of the type’s personal feelings, love becomes as indispensable for him as oxygen is for breathing. #RandolphHarris 9 of 17

Naturally, he carries these expectations also into the analytic relationship. In contrast to most expansive types, he is not at all ashamed to ask for help. On the contrary, he may dramatize the needs and his helplessness and plead for help. However, of course, he wants it his own way. He expects, at bottom, a cure through “love.” He may be quite willing to put effort into the analytic work, but, as it turns out later, he is prompted by his hungry expectation that salvation and redemption must and can come only from without (here from the analyst)—through being accepted. He expects the analyst to remove his feelings of guilt by love, which may mean by sexual love in the case of an analyst of the opposite gender. More often, it means in more general ways, signs of friendship, special attention, or interest. As always happens in neurosis, needs turn into claims, which means that he feels entitled to having all these goods come to him. The need for love, affection, understanding, sympathy, or help turns into: “I am entitled to love, affection, understanding, sympathy. I am entitled to have things done for me. I am entitled not to the pursuit of happiness but to have happiness fall into my lap.” It does almost without saying that these claims—as claims—remain more unconscious than in the expansive type. For the growth of autonomy, a firmly developed early trust is necessary. An individual must be sure that his faith in himself and in the world will not be jeopardized by the violent wish to have his choice, to appropriate demandingly, and to eliminate stubbornly. Only parental firmness can protect him against the consequences of his as yet untrained discrimination and circumspection. #RandolphHarris 10 of 17

However, his environment must also back him up in his wish to “stand on his own feet,” while protecting him against the now newly emerging pair of estrangements, namely, that sense of having exposed himself prematurely and foolishly which we call shame or that secondary mistrust, that “double take,” which we call doubt—doubt in himself and doubt in the firmness and perspicacity of his trainers. Shame is an infantile emotion insufficiently studied because in our civilization, it is so early and easily absorbed by guilt. Shame supposes that one is completely exposed and conscious of being looked at—in a word, self-conscious. One is visible and not ready to be visible; that is why in dreams of shame, we are stared at in a condition of incomplete dress, in night attire, “with one’s pants down.” Shame is early expressed in an impulse to bury one’s face or to sink, right then and there, into the ground. This potentiality is abundantly utilized in the educational method of “shaming” used so exclusively by some primitive peoples, where it supplants the often more destructive sense of guilt. The destructiveness of shaming is balanced in some civilizations by devices for “saving face.” Shaming exploits the increased sense of being small, which paradoxically develops as the individual comes to understand his size and power. Too much shaming does not result in a sense of propriety but in a secret determination to try to get away with things when unseen, if, indeed, it does not result in deliberate shamelessness. There is an impressive American ballad in which a murderer, to be hanged on the gallows before the eyes of the community, instead of feeling mortally afraid or totally shamed, begins to berate the onlookers, ending every salvo of defiance with the words, “God damn your eyes.” #RandolphHarris 11 of 17

Many people, when shamed beyond endurance, may be in a mood (although not in possession of either the courage or the words) to express defiance in similar terms. There is a limit to an individual’s endurance in the face of demands which force him to consider himself, his body, his needs, and his wishes as evil and dirty, and to believe in the infallibility of those who pass such judgment. Occasionally, he may turn things around, because secretly oblivious to the opinions of others, and consider as evil only the fact that they exist: this chance will come when they are gone or when he can leave them. The psychiatric danger of this stage is, as it is at all other stages, the potential aggravation of the normative estrangement to the point where it will cause neurotic or psychotic tendencies. The sensitive individual may turn all his urges to discriminate against himself and thus develop a precocious conscience. Instead of willfully appropriating things in order to test them by repetitive investigation, he will become obsessed by his own repetitiveness and will want to have everything “just so,” and only in a given sequence and tempo. By such an obsessiveness and procrastination, or by becoming a stickler for ritualistic repetitions, the individual then learns to gain power over his superiors in areas where he could not find large-scale mutual regulation with them. Such a hollow victory is how compulsion neurosis develops. #RandolphHarris 12 of 17

The most common sign of excessive defensiveness is frequent experiences of threat. If other people must be careful about what they say or do in your presence, it can signify that they sense the grasp of your identity is frail indeed. If you are easily upset by criticism or frightened by your anger or sensuality, it may signify that you are trying to live up to some glorified image. The time to grow—to begin to let go of one’s present self-concept—is evidenced by boredom, failure, and anxiety. These experiences signify that you and your real self have changed, but that your self-structure has not. You are impersonating an identity that, up to yesterday, may have been authentic and life-giving. Now, however, it is not. To start a growth episode is frightening, but it need not be terrifying. All it means is that you may have to suspend your usual activities and relationships in order to get a fresh perspective on your own possibilities and the possibilities of changing some aspects of your life. If you meditate or retreat to a quiet place from time to time, the chances are that you change aspects of your activity and your self-structure more or less frequently. If, however, you are “locked into” various roles, and a fixed way of being yourself, the experience of threat may be more acute when it happens, and the prospect of change more frightening. If your present identity is not sustaining a rewarding and health-engendering life, and you do not see ways to grow and change, then it might be valuable to find a personal counselor or psychotherapist. Conversations with a professional person can frequently lead to growth-producing changes that are neither drastic nor destructive. #RandolphHarris 13 of 17

God’s revelation in Jesus Christ, God’s revelation of His love, precedes all our love towards Him. Love has its origin not in us but in God. Love is not an attitude of men but an attitude of God. “Herein is love, not that we loved God, but that he loved us, and sent his Son to be the propitiation for our sins” (I John 4.10). Only in Jesus Christ do we know what love is, namely, in His deed for us. “Hereby perceive we the love of God, because he laid down his life for us” (I John 3.16). And even here there is given no general definition of love, in the sense, for example, of its being the laying down of one’s life for the lives of others. What is here called love is not this general principle but the utterly unique event of the laying down of the life of Jesus Christ for us. Love is inseparably bound up with the name of Jesus Christ as the revelation of God. The New Testament answers the question, “What is love?” quite unambiguously by pointing solely and entirely to Jesus Christ. He is the only definition of love. However, again, if we were to derive a general definition of love from our view of Jesus Christ and of His deed and His suffering, it would be a complete misunderstanding. Love is not what He suffers. Love is always He Himself. Love is always God Himself. Love is always the revelation of God in Jesus Christ. When all our ideas and principles relating to love are concentrated in the strictest possible manner upon the name of Jesus Christ, this must, above all, not be allowed to reduce this name to a mere abstract concept. This name must always be understood in the full concrete significance of the historical reality of a living man. And so, without in any way contradicting what has been said so far, it is only the concrete action and suffering of this man Jesus Christ which will make it possible to understand what love is. The name Jesus Christ, in which God reveals Himself, gives the explanation of itself in the life and words of Jesus Christ. For, after all, the New Testament does not consist in an endless repetition of the name of Jesus Christ, but that which this name comprises is displayed in events, concepts, and principles which are intelligible to use. #RandolphHarris 14 of 17

And so, too, the choice of the concept of “love,” is not simply arbitrary; this concept acquires an entirely new connotation in the New Testament message, yet it is not entirely without connection with what we understand by “love” in our own language. Certainly, it is not true to say that the biblical concept of love is a particular form of what we have already, in general, understood by this word. Precisely the opposite turns out to be the case, namely, that the biblical concept of love, and it alone is, the foundation, truth and the reality of love, in the sense that any natural thought about love contains truth and reality only in so far as it participates in this its origin, that is to say, in the love which is God Himself in Jesus Christ. Therefore, love is the reconciliation of man with God in Jesus Christ. The disunion of men with God, with other men, with the world and with themselves, is at an end. Man’s origin is given back to him. Love is the name for what God does to man in overcoming the disunion in which man lives. This deed of God is Jesus Christ, is reconciliation. And so love is something which happens to man, something passive, something over which he does not himself dispose, simply because it lies beyond his existence in disunion. Love means the undergoing of the transformation of one’s entire existence by God; it means being drawn in into the world as it lives and must live before God and in God. Love, therefore, is not man’s choice, but it is the election of man by God. #RandolphHarris 15 of 17

Only too soon personal experience and the experience of others teaches how far most men’s lives are from being what a man’s life ought to be. All have great moments. They see themselves in the magic mirror of possibility which hope holds before them while the wish flatters them. However, they swiftly forget this sight in the daily round of things. Or perhaps, they talk enthusiastic words, “for the tongue is a little member and boasteth great things.” However, talk takes the name of enthusiasm in vain by proclaiming loudly from the housetop what it should work out in silence. And in the midst of the trivial details of life, these enthusiastic words are quickly forgotten. It is forgotten that such a thing was said of this man. It is forgotten that it was he himself who said it. Now and then, perhaps, memory wakens with horror, and remorse seems to promise new strength. However, alas, this, too, lasts only for a good-sized moment. All of them have intentions, plans, resolutions for life, yes, for eternity. However, the intention soon loses its youthful strength and fades away. The resolution is not firmly grounded and is unable to withstand opposition. It totters before circumstances and is altered by them. Memory, too, has a way of failing, until by common practice and habit, they learn to draw sympathy from one another. If someone proclaims the slender comfort that excuses yield, instead of realizing how treacherous is such sympathy, they finally come to regard it as edifying, because it encourages and strengthens indolence. Now, there are men who find it edifying that the demand to will one thing be asserted in all its sublimity, in all its severity, so that it may press its claim into the innermost fastness of the soul. #RandolphHarris 16 of 17

Others find it edifying that a wretched compromise should be made between God, the claim, and the language used. There are men who find it edifying ig only someone will challenge them. However, there are also the sleepy souls who regard it as not only pleasing, but even edifying, to be lulled to sleep. This is indeed a lamentable fact; but there is a wisdom which is not from above, but is earthly and fleshly and devilish. It has discovered this common human weakness and indolence; it wants to be helpful. It perceives that all depends upon the will, and so it proclaims loudly, “Unless it wills one thing, a man’s life is sure to become one of wretched mediocrity, of pitiful misery. He must will one thing regardless of whether it be good or bad. He must will one thing for therein lies a man’s greatness.” Yet it is not difficult to see through this powerful error. As to the working out of salvation, the holy Scripture teaches that sin is the corruption of man. Salvation, therefore, lies only in the purity with which a man wills the Good. That very earthly and devilish cleverness distorts this into a temptation to perdition; weakness is a man’s misfortune; strength the sole salvation: “When the unclean spirit is gone out of a man, he walketh through dry and empty places but finds no rest. Then he turns back again and now he brings with him” that unclean cleverness, the wisdom of the desert and the empty places, that unclean cleverness—that now drives out the spirit of indolence and of mediocrity “so that the last stage become worse than the first.” #RandolphHarris 17 of 17

The Devil is Old; Grow Old to Understand Him

Sin and passion originate wholly in the inevitable conditions of human existence. There is a time in every man’s education when he arrives at the conviction that envy is ignorance; that imitation is suicide; that he must take himself for better, for worse, as his portion; that though the wide universe is full of good, no kernel of nourishing corn can come to him but through his toil bestowed on that plot of ground which is given to him to till. The power which resides in him is new in nature, and none but he knows what that is which he can do, nor does he know until he has tried. Not for nothing, one face, one character, one fact makes much impression on him, and another none. It is not without pre-established harmony, this sculpture in the memory. The eye was placed where one ray should fall, that it might testify of that particular ray. In your reality, as you feel the weight of difficult days—uncertainty and fear—peace feels distant. All of us yearn for a peaceful and just world. However, mankind has shattered the possibility of peace through an insatiable hunger for material possessions and an unquenchable thirst for dominion. What begins as a secret disorder of the heart—an inward distortion of desire—unfolds outward into the great calamities of the age. The individual, unable to master his own passions, becomes the first battlefield. Within him, the conflict manifests as despair, self‑reproach, and the tragic impulse toward self‑destruction. In the family, this same moral disease takes the form of cruelty, suspicion, and violence, as the home—once the sanctuary of affection—becomes the arena where frustrated ambition and wounded pride seek their victims. #RandolphHarris 1 of 19

Among nations, the disorder magnifies itself into insurgency, civil strife, and the perpetual rivalry of states. Peoples rise against their rulers; rulers wage war against their neighbors; and the earth, weary of human contention, bears witness to the same tragic cycle repeated across centuries. No nation, however proud its heritage or lofty its ideals, has escaped the scourge of war. Each has, at some point in its history, bowed beneath the weight of its own ungoverned passions.Across the United States, crowds are clashing with federal authorities over the enforcement of the law. Some individuals have gone beyond peaceful protest, choosing instead to physically confront federal officials, mock them, or treat the documentation of their actions as a source of amusement. Yet the moment those same individuals discover that their conduct has placed them under federal scrutiny—listed as potential domestic threats, restricted in employment opportunities, or barred from air travel—the laughter will fade. These confrontations carry consequences far beyond the adrenaline of the moment. People who engage in violence or targeted harassment against federal officers jeopardize their futures, their freedom, and their safety. They also endanger the lives of the very officials tasked with maintaining public order. History shows that provoking armed authorities is never a trivial matter. The state’s responsibility to enforce the law does not disappear because a crowd is angry, and the risks escalate quickly when people treat confrontation as entertainment or political theater. Whatever one’s grievances, escalating into violence or direct attacks on federal personnel is a path that leads only to harm—for individuals, for families, and for the broader society that must absorb the consequences. Thus, the unrest of the world is not an accident of politics but the inevitable consequence of a deeper moral and psychological failure: the inability of mankind to restrain greed, to govern desire, and to honor the dignity of others. Until the inner life is reformed, the outer world will remain in turmoil. #RandolphHarris 2 of 19

Human aggressiveness, enmity, violence, and war have revealed man’s inability to govern himself. Neither religion nor science has ever suggested that humans are perfect in the sense of possessing great powers of intellect, will, and decision-making. Dr. Jung stresses that aggressiveness, violence, and greed are the inherent characteristics of “ego-instincts.” The originally simple and unequivocal instinctual determination, in Dr. Jung’s view, can appear transformed into “pure greed” and into a characteristic expression of self-preservation. It may well be that greed is encouraged to a greater degree in capitalism, but it is impossible to deny that greed precedes rather than follows the capitalistic economic order. Humans, like animals, are born with greed. The nursing child, knowing nothing about capitalism and dialectical materialism, will instinctively overfeed himself. Goldfish, like many animals, will overeat when given the chance. This instinctive excess reflects a broader truth: the drive to take more than is necessary is not unique to humans but inherent in many living beings. What humans call “greed” is, in its rawest form, a biological impulse toward survival and accumulation. Animals hoard food. Plants compete aggressively for sunlight and nutrients. Predators overhunt when prey is abundant. Humans accumulate wealth, power, and status far beyond survival needs. The difference is that humans moralize the impulse, while animals simply enact it. However, no mutual interaction of economic forces, including private ownership, division of labor, and exchange, can ever give rise to human greed, although this interaction can influence its intensity. #RandolphHarris 3 of 18

Greed—understood as the desire to acquire more than one needs—is older than capitalism, older than socialism, older than any modern ideology. It appears in monarchies, tribal societies, feudal systems, and communal experiments. It appears in families, workplaces, religious institutions, and political movements. Economic systems do not invent greed; they merely provide different avenues for it to express itself. In capitalist societies, greed often expresses itself through the accumulation of wealth, the exploitation of labor, monopolistic behavior, and consumer excess. Critics argue that capitalism can reward greed by tying success to acquisition. In socialist or collectivist movements, greed can take a different form: a sense of entitlement to others’ labor or resources, demands for benefits without contribution, political elites controlling distribution, and corruption within centralized authority. These are not inherent to socialism itself, but they are ways human desire can distort the system. Whether someone seeks private wealth or public redistribution, the psychological root can be the same: a desire to acquire without limit or without responsibility. Greed and selfishness are defects of human nature and not defects of socioeconomic relations. The primacy of greed and other human passions has nothing to do with the capitalist economy. The situation of human action and the character of humanly possible responses to that situation are shot through with deep-seated tensions which make the maintenance of any given state of affairs precarious. Human beings are never simply reacting to the external world; they are continually negotiating the inner contradictions of dependency and autonomy, fear and desire, vulnerability and assertion. These tensions press upon the developing personality long before the individual has the resources to understand them, and the early solutions adopted in childhood often harden into enduring orientations toward life. #RandolphHarris 4 of 19

People who later tend toward the self‑effacing solution usually have solved their early conflicts with others by “moving toward them.” In the face of threat, disapproval, or emotional uncertainty, they discovered that safety lay not in resistance or withdrawal but in compliance, appeasement, and the cultivation of exaggerated agreeableness. What begins as a child’s attempt to preserve connection becomes, in adulthood, a habitual strategy of self‑preservation: the self is protected by diminishing itself, by anticipating the needs of others, by forestalling conflict through submission or charm. Yet this solution, like all characterological defenses, carries its own internal strain. The individual who survives by yielding must continually monitor the emotional climate, suppress personal impulses, and maintain a vigilant sensitivity to the expectations of others. The very strategy that once ensured safety becomes a source of chronic tension, for it requires the ongoing sacrifice of spontaneity, autonomy, and authentic self‑assertion. Thus, the self‑effacing solution preserves the person at the cost of constricting the self. The self-effacing type grew up under the shadow of somebody: of a preferred sibling, of a parent who was generally adored (by outsiders), of a beautiful mother or of a benevolently despotic father. It was a precarious situation, liable to arouse fears. However, the affection of a kind was attainable—at a price: that of the self-subordinating devotion. There may have been, for instance, a long-suffering mother who made the child feel guilty at any failure to give her exclusive care and attention. Perhaps, there was a mother or a father who could be friendly or generous when blindly admired, or a dominating sibling whose fondness and protection could be gained by pleasing and appeasing. And so, after some years, in which the wish to rebel struggled in the child’s heart with his need for affection, he suppressed his hostility, relinquished the fighting spirit, and the need for affection won out. Temper tantrums stopped, and he became complaint, learned to like everybody, and to lean with a helpless admiration on those whom he feared most. He became hypersensitive to hostile tension and had to appease and smooth things over. Because the winning over of others became paramount in importance, he tried to cultivate in himself qualities that would make him acceptable and loveable. Sometimes, during adolescence, there was another period of rebellion, combined with a hectic and compulsive ambition. #RandolphHarris 5 of 19

However, he again relinquished these expansive drives for the benefit of love and protection, sometimes with his first falling in love. The further development largely depended upon the degree to which rebellion and ambition were suppressed or how complete the swing toward subordination, affection, or love became. Like every other neurotic, the self-effacing type solves the needs evolving from his early development by self-idealization. However, he can do it in one way only. His idealized image of himself primarily is a composite of “lovable” qualities, such as unselfishness, goodness, generosity, humility, saintliness, nobility, and sympathy. Helplessness, suffering, and martyrdom are also secondarily glorified. In contrast to the arrogant-vindictive type, a premium is also placed on feelings—feelings of joy or suffering, feelings not only for individual people but for humanity, art, nature, values of all sorts. To have deep feelings is part of his image. If he reinforces the self-abnegation trends which have grown out of his solution of his basic conflict with people, only then can he fulfill the resulting inner dictates. He must therefore develop an ambivalent attitude toward his own pride. Since the saintly and lovable qualities of his pseudoself are all the values he has, he cannot help being proud of them. One patient, when recovering, said about herself: “I took my moral superiority humbly for granted.” Although he disavows his pride, and although it does not show in his behavior, it appears in many indirect forms in which neurotic pride usually manifests itself—in vulnerability, face-saving devices, avoidances, et cetera. On the other hand, his very image of saintliness and lovableness prohibits any conscious feeling of pride. He must lean over backward to eradicate any trace of it. #RandolphHarris 6 of 19

Thus begins the shrinking process which leaves hum small and helpless. It would be impossible for him to identify himself with his proud, glorious self. He can only experience himself as his subdued, victimized self. He feels not only small and helpless but also guilty, unwanted, unlovable, stupid, and incompetent. He is the underdog and identifies himself readily with others who are downtrodden. Hence, the exclusion of pride from awareness belongs to his way of solving the inner conflict. The weakness of this solution, as far as we have traced it, lies in two factors. One of them is the shrinking process, which in biblical terms entails the “sin” (against oneself) of hiding one’s talent in the earth. The other concerns the way in which the taboo on expansiveness renders him a helpless prey to self-hate. We can observe this in many self-effacing patients at the beginning of analysis, when they respond with stark terror to any self-reproach. This type, often unaware of the connection between self-accusation and terror, merely experiences the fact of being frightened or panicky. He is usually aware of being prone to reproach himself but, without giving it much thought, he regards it as a sign of conscientious honesty with himself. He may also be aware that he accepts accusations from others all too readily, and realizes only later that they may actually have been without foundation and that it comes easier to him to declare himself guilty than to accuse others. In fact, his response to admitting guilt, or a fault when criticized, comes with such a quick and automatic reaction that his reason has no time to interfere. However, he is unaware of the fact that he is positively abusing himself, and still less of the extent to which he does it. His dreams are replete with symbols of self-contempt and self-condemnation. Typical for the latter are execution-dreams: he is condemned to death; he does not know why, but accepts it; nobody shows him any mercy or even concern. Or he has dreams or fantasizes in which he is tortured. The fear of torture may appear in hypochondriac fears: a headache becomes a brain tumor; a sore throat, tuberculosis; a stomach upset, cancer. #RandolphHarris 7 of 19

As analysis proceeds, the intensity of his self-accusations and self-torture comes into clear focus. Any difficulty of his that comes up for discussion may be used to batter himself down. An emerging awareness of his hostility may make him feel like a potential murderer. Discovering how much he expects of others makes him a predatory exploiter. A realization of his disorganization with regard to time and money may arouse in him the fear of “deterioration.” The very existence of anxiety may make him feel like somebody utterly unbalanced and on the verge of insanity. In case these responses are out in the open, the analysis at the beginning may then seem to aggravate the condition. We may therefore get the impression at first that his self-hate or self-contempt is more intense, more vicious than in other kinds of neurosis. However, as we get to know him better, and compare his situation with other clinical experiences, we discard this possibility and realize that he is merely more helpless about his self-hate. Most of the effective means to ward off self-hate which are available to the expansive type, are not at his disposal. He does try, though, to abide by his special shoulds and taboos and, as in every neurosis, his reasoning and his imagination help to obscure and to embellish this picture. However, he cannot stave off self-accusations by self-righteousness, because by doing so, he would violate his taboos on arrogance and conceit. Nor can he, effectively, hate or despise others for what he rejects in himself, because he must be “understanding” and forgiving. Accusing others, or any kind of hostility toward others, would, in fact, frighten him (rather than reassure him) because of his taboos on aggression. Also, he needs others so much that he must avoid friction for this very reason. Finally, because of all these factors, he simply is not a good fighter, and this applies not only to his relations to others but to his attacks on himself as well. In other words, he is just as defenseless against his own self-accusations, his self-contempt, his self-torture, et cetera, as he is against attacks on the part of others. He takes it all lying down. He accepts the verdict of his inner tyranny—which in turn increases his already reduced feelings about himself. #RandolphHarris 8 of 19

Nevertheless, he, of course, needs self-protection, and does develop defensive measures of his own kind. If his special defenses are not properly functioning, the terror with which he may respond to the assaults of his self-hate actually only emerges then. He tries to placate and take the edge off accusations by (for instance) an overeager admission of guilt. “You are quite right…I am no good anyhow…it is all my fault.” He tries to elicit sympathetic reassurance by being apologetic and by expressing remorse and self-reproach. He may also plead for mercy by emphasizing his helplessness. In the same appeasing way, he takes the sting out of his own self-accusations. He exaggerates in his mind his feelings of guilt, his helplessness, his being so badly off in every way—in short, he emphasizes his suffering. A different way of releasing his inner tension is through passive externalization. This shows in his feeling accused by others, suspected, or neglected, kept down, treated with contempt, abused, exploited, or treated with outright cruelty. However, this passive externalization, while allaying anxiety, does not seem to be as effective a means of getting rid of self-accusations as does active externalization. Besides (like all externalization), it disturbs his relations to others—a disturbance to which, for many reasons, he is particularly sensitive. All these defensive measures, however, still leave him in a precarious inner situation. He still needs a more powerful reassurance. Even at those times in which his self-hate keeps within moderate limits, his feeling that everything which he does by himself or for himself is meaningless—his self-minimizing, et cetera—makes him profoundly insecure. So, following his old pattern, he reaches out for others to strengthen his inner position by giving him the feeling of being accepted, approved of, needed, wanted, liked, loved, and appreciated. His salvation lies in others. Hence, his need for people is not only greatly reinforced but often attains a frantic character. Greed, self‑preservation, and the self‑effacing personality are best understood as divergent attempts to resolve the same fundamental insecurity that marks the human condition. In a world where the individual is continually confronted with threat, uncertainty, and the precariousness of all social arrangements, the psyche develops characteristic modes of safeguarding itself. Greed represents an expansive, acquisitive effort to secure safety by accumulating power or possessions; the self‑effacing solution represents the opposite tendency, in which safety is sought through compliance, appeasement, and the reduction of one’s own claims. Both are expressions of the broader instinct toward self‑preservation, shaped by early relational tensions and hardened into enduring patterns of character. #RandolphHarris 9 of 19

Human action unfolds within a field of tensions that no individual can fully escape. The moral life, like the psychological life, is marked by contradictions that render the maintenance of any stable orientation precarious. The ethic of ultimate ends collapses when confronted with the problem of means; the individual who seeks purity of intention soon discovers that action in the real world demands compromise, ambiguity, and the acceptance of morally hazardous instruments. In such moments, the strain of unresolved conflict often drives the idealist into chiliastic certainty, a prophetic absolutism that shields him from the intolerable burden of contradiction. Clinical experience reveals a parallel process within the developing personality. The child, confronted with the inescapable tensions of dependency, fear, and the unpredictability of others, must fashion some workable mode of self‑preservation long before he can comprehend the forces that shape him. These early solutions harden into characteristic patterns of character. Greed represents one such solution: an expansive, acquisitive attempt to secure safety by accumulating power, possessions, or advantage. It is a defensive maneuver against the felt precariousness of existence, a way of mastering anxiety by enlarging the sphere of control. The self‑effacing solution represents the opposite pole. Here, the individual seeks safety not through expansion but through contraction—by appeasing others, yielding to their demands, and minimizing his own claims. This pattern, too, is a response to the same fundamental insecurity. Where the greedy personality attempts to overcome tension by dominating the environment, the self‑effacing personality attempts to dissolve tension by aligning with it, “moving toward” others in the hope that compliance will forestall conflict. #RandolphHarris 10 of 19

Thus, the ethic of ultimate ends, the greedy pursuit of security, and the self‑effacing retreat into submission are all variations on a single theme: the human effort to manage the deep and persistent tensions inherent in action, relationship, and moral life. Each represents a different strategy of self‑preservation, shaped by early experience and sustained by the individual’s ongoing attempt to find safety in a world that offers none without cost. Human action is continually strained by contradictions that no individual or moral system can fully resolve. Even those who preach “love against violence” often find themselves, under the pressure of events, calling for one final act of force that will supposedly abolish all future violence. This shift from moral purity to chiliastic certainty is not an aberration but an expression of the deep tensions inherent in acting within a world where every means carries danger and every end demands compromise. The psyche, no less than the moralist, seeks refuge from these contradictions by adopting protective strategies that promise safety, coherence, or release from inner conflict. Clinical experience shows that individuals respond to these same tensions with characteristic patterns of self‑preservation. Greed represents one such pattern: an expansive attempt to master anxiety by accumulating power, possessions, or advantage, as though the enlargement of one’s sphere could neutralize the precariousness of existence. At the opposite pole stands the self‑effacing solution, in which the individual seeks safety through compliance, appeasement, and the reduction of personal claims. Both strategies arise from the same fundamental insecurity. Where the greedy personality attempts to overcome tension by dominating the environment, the self‑effacing personality attempts to dissolve tension by aligning with it, “moving toward” others in the hope that submission will forestall danger. #RandolphHarris 11 of 19

The moralist who turns from nonviolence to a final purifying act of force is engaged in a similar psychological maneuver. Faced with the intolerable strain of contradiction, he seeks a decisive act that will eliminate the very conditions that produced the conflict. This is the chiliastic impulse: the belief that one ultimate gesture—whether of force, renunciation, or submission—can restore harmony and abolish tension. Yet, like the characterological solutions of greed and self‑effacement, this impulse is itself precarious, for it rests on the illusion that the fundamental conflicts of human existence can be resolved once and for all. Therefore, whether in moral doctrine or in personality structure, the same pattern emerges: confronted with the inescapable tensions of life, individuals and systems alike adopt protective strategies that promise safety but cannot escape the underlying instability of the human condition. In the social sphere, the same instability that marks individual action becomes readily apparent. People often express grievances about economic strain, rising taxes, or the cost of living, yet their responses to the conditions producing these burdens are frequently marked by contradiction. They may support policies intended to reduce financial pressures while simultaneously protesting Immigration and Customs Enforcement, which, as an institution, is tasked with enforcing policies to reduce inflation and enforce laws. Illegal immigration is costing Americans jobs, it is increasing health care costs and education costs, and increasing competition for housing, which results in billions of taxpayer dollars being spent unnecessarily. Such inconsistencies are not best understood as matters of logic but as manifestations of deeper emotional tensions. Much of this behavior reflects the strain of self‑preservation under conditions of uncertainty. When individuals feel economically or socially threatened, their anxieties seek an outlet. The resulting agitation may attach itself to whatever object is most symbolically available, regardless of whether it aligns with their stated concerns. In these moments, the protest is less about the issue itself and more about the need to discharge accumulated frustration, to assert agency, or to locate a target for diffuse anger. #RandolphHarris 12 of 19

This pattern is not unlike the clinical solutions we observe in personality development. Just as the greedy personality attempts to secure safety through expansion, and the self‑effacing personality through submission, the socially agitated individual may attempt to preserve a sense of control by directing hostility outward. The object of that hostility need not be logically connected to the underlying distress; it merely needs to serve as a vessel for the emotional tension. Furthermore, what appears as political inconsistency is often a psychological maneuver—an attempt to manage inner conflict by externalizing it. In this sense, the instability of public reaction mirrors the instability of individual character. Both arise from the same fundamental condition: the difficulty of maintaining coherence in a world where threats are real, tensions are chronic, and the means of securing safety are never entirely adequate. Using the logic that people who immigrated illegally should be allowed to be here, even though they broke the law, is like saying the guys who crashed the airplanes on September 11, 2001, should have been allowed to do so because they made it past security. What is interesting—and where this ties back to your work—is that people often use whatever argument feels emotionally satisfying, not necessarily logically consistent. When people feel threatened, insecure, economically strained, or morally conflicted, they may reach for explanations that symbolically express their frustration, even if the reasoning is inconsistent. This is a form of self‑preservation, not logical analysis. In other words, some arguments are not really about history. Some arguments are not really about science, but they are about managing anxiety, identity, and social tension. As you can see, people adopt positions that help them cope with inner conflict, even when the reasoning is unstable. People may try to appeal to historical territorial changes to justify their modern immigration position. However, territorial history is extremely complex. Borders have shifted countless times across the world. Nations have formed, dissolved, and merged, and historical ownership does not determine modern law. #RandolphHarris 13 of 19

This problem—the experience of the irrationality of the world—has been the driving force of all religious evolution. The early Christians knew full well the world is governed by demons and that he who lets himself in for politics, that is, for power and force as means, contracts with all diabolical powers, and for his action it is not true that good can follow only from good and evil only from evil, but that often the opposite is true. Anyone who fails to see this is, indeed, a political infant. We are placed into various life-spheres, each of which is governed by different laws. Religious ethics have settled with this fact in different ways. Hellenic polytheism made sacrifices to Aphrodite and Hera alike to Dionysus and to Apollo, and knew these gods were frequently in conflict with one another. The wickedness of the world stemming from original sin allowed, with relative ease, the integration of violence into ethics as a disciplinary means against the heretics who endangered the soul. However, the demands of the Sermon on the Mount, an acosmic ethic of ultimate ends, implied a natural law of absolute imperatives based upon religion. These absolute imperatives retained their revolutionizing force, and they came upon the scene with elemental vigor during almost all periods of social upheaval. They produced especially the radical pacifist sects, one of which in Pennsylvania experimented in establishing a polity that renounced violence towards the outside. This experiment took a tragic course, inasmuch as, with the outbreak of the War of Independence, the Quakers could not take up arms in hand for their ideals, which were those of war. Normally, Protestantism, however, absolutely legitimized the state as a divine institution and hence violence as a means. Protestantism, especially, legitimized the authoritarian state. There is an ethical responsibility for war, and that is transferred to the authorities. #RandolphHarris 14 of 19

To obey the authorities in matters other than those of faith could never constitute guilt. Calvinism, in turn, knew principled violence as a means of defending faith; thus, Calvinism knew the crusade, which was for Islam an element of life from the beginning. One sees that it is by no means a modern disbelief born from the hero worship of the Renaissance which poses the problem of political ethics. All religions have wrestled with it, with highly differing success, and after what has been said, it could not be otherwise. It is the specific means of legitimate violence as such in the hands of human associations which determines the peculiarity of all ethical problems of politics. Whosoever contracts with violent means for whatever ends—and every politician does—is exposed to its specific consequences. This holds especially for the crusaders, religious, and revolutionaries alike. Let us confidently take the present as an example. He who wants to establish absolute justice on earth by force requires a following, a human “machine.” He must hold out the necessity of internal and external premiums, heavenly or worldly reward, to this “machine” or else the machine will not function. Under the conditions of the modern class struggle, the internal premiums consist of the satisfying of hatred and the craving for revenge; above all, resentment and the need for pseudo-ethical self-righteousness: the opponents must be slandered and accused of heresy. The external rewards are adventure, victory, booty, power, and spoils. The leader and his success are completely dependent upon the functioning of his machine and hence not his own motives. Therefore, he also depends upon whether or not the premiums can be permanently granted to the following, that is, to the Red Guard, the informers, the agitators, whom he needs. #RandolphHarris 15 of

In every sphere of collective life, the individual who assumes a position of leadership discovers that the actual outcome of his efforts is never fully his own. What he attains is shaped not only by his intention but by the motives of those who follow him—motives which, when examined ethically, are often mixed, ambivalent, or frankly base. The following can be harnessed only so long as a genuine belief in the leader’s person or cause animates at least a portion of them; never, in the realities of earthly affairs, can one rely upon the purity of motive in the majority. The leader must therefore contend with the instability inherent in human action: the gap between the ideal he seeks to embody and the emotional currents that drive those who rally behind him. For here, as with every leader’s machine, one of the conditions for success is the depersonalization and routinization, in short, the psychic proletarianization, in the interests of discipline. After coming to power, the following of a crusader usually degenerate very easily into a quite common stratum of spoilsmen. Whoever wants to engage in politics at all, and especially in politics as a vocation, has to realize these ethical paradoxes. He must know that he is responsible for what may become of himself under the impact of these paradoxes. He lets himself in for the diabolical forces lurking in all violence. He who seeks the salvation of the soul, of his own and of others, should not seek it along the avenue of politics, for the quite different tasks of politics can only be solved by violence. Those who enter political or social struggle for the sake of what they believe to be the common good often discover that the work exacts a psychological toll. They must contend not only with external opposition but with the inner conflict that arises whenever one is compelled to use imperfect means in the service of a desired end. Under such conditions, it is not uncommon for the individual to feel that his soul is endangered, that the very act of resisting disorder draws him into the moral ambiguities he hoped to overcome. #RandolphHarris 16 of 19

This sense of being “damned” is less a theological judgment than a recognition of the tragic structure of human action: no one can engage the world’s conflicts without being touched by their impurities. In the course of fulfilling one’s duty, it is not uncommon for the individual to feel that the impurities of the world have reached out and drawn him into their orbit. The work of resisting ignorance, disorder, or harm requires contact with precisely those forces one would prefer to avoid. This contact produces a sense of inner strain, as though the soul itself were endangered by the very responsibilities laid upon it. Yet it may be that such burdens are not accidental but intrinsic to the vocation. There are tasks that fall to particular individuals not because they are untainted, but because they possess the strength to endure the tension without collapsing into cynicism or despair. The genius or demon of politics lives in an inner tension with the god of love, as well as with the Christian God as expressed by the church. This tension can at any time lead to an irreconcilable conflict. Men knew this even in the times of the church rule. Time and again, the papal interdict was placed upon Florence, and at the time, it meant a far more robust power for men and their salvation of soul than the “cool approbation” of the Kantian ethical judgement. The burghers, however, fought the church-state. And it is with reference to such situations that Machiavelli, in a beautiful passage, if I am not mistaken, of the History of Florence, has one of his heroes praise those citizens who deemed the greatness of their native city higher than the salvation of their souls. If one says, “the future of capitalism” or “international peace,” instead of native city of “fatherland” (which at present may be a dubious value to some), then you face the problem as it stands now. #RandolphHarris 17 of 19

Everything that is striven for through political action operating with violent means and following an ethic of responsibility endangers the “salvation of the soul.” If, however, one chases after the ultimate good in war of beliefs, following a pure ethic of absolute ends, then the goals may be damaged and discredited for generations, because responsibility for consequences is lacking, and two diabolic forces with enter the play remain unknown to the actor. These are inexorable and produce consequences for his action and even for his inner self, to which he must helplessly submit, unless he perceives them. The devil is old; grow old to understand him! Age is not decisive; what is decisive is the trained relentlessness in viewing the realities of life, and the ability to face such realities and to measure up to them inwardly. Sure, politics is made with the head, but it is certainly not made with the head alone. In this, the proponents of an ethic of ultimate ends are right. One cannot prescribe to anyone whether he should follow an ethic of absolute ends or an ethic of responsibility, or when the one and when the other. One can say only this much: If in these times, which, in your opinion, are not times of “sterile” excitation—excitation is not, after all, genuine passion—if now suddenly the Weltanschauungs—politicians crop up en masse and pass the watchword, “The world is stupid and base, not I,” “The responsibility for the consequences does not fall upon me but upon the others whom I serve and whose stupidity or baseness I shall eradicate,” then I declare frankly that I would first inquire into the degree of inner poise backing this ethic of ultimate ends. I am under the impression that in the nine out of ten cases, I deal with windbags who do not fully realize what they take upon themselves but who intoxicate themselves with romantic sensations. From a human point of view, this is not very interesting to me, nor does it move me profoundly. #RandolphHarris 18 of 19

However, it is immensely moving when a mature man—no matter whether old or young in years—is aware of a responsibility for the consequences of his conduct and really feels such responsibility and somewhere he reaches the point where he says: “Here I stand; I can do no other.” That is something genuinely human and moving. And every one of us who is not spiritually dead must realize the possibility of finding himself at some time in that position. Insofar as this is true, an ethic of ultimate ends and an ethic of responsibility are not absolute contrasts but rather supplements, which only in unison constitute a genuine man—a man who can have the “calling for politics.” In the United States of America, where the rule of law is stable and consistently applied, individuals experience a heightened sense of security. People are not required to adapt to chronic threat, nor to accept violence, disappearance, or predation as ordinary features of daily life. This predictability becomes a psychological asset: it reduces the burden of vigilance and allows the individual to invest energy in constructive pursuits rather than in constant self‑protection. The popularity of the United States of America is therefore not mysterious; it reflects the universal human longing for an environment in which danger is not omnipresent and where the individual can rely upon institutions to stop and/or prevent conflict and crime. However, everything that we are accustomed to call love, that which lives in the depths of the soul and in the visible deed, and even the brotherly service of one’s neighbor which proceeds from a pious heart, all this can be without “love,” not because there is always a “residue” of selfishness in all human conduct, entirely overshadowing love, but because loves as a whole is something entirely different. Only he who knows God knows what love is. It is not the other way round; it is not that we first of all by nature know what love is and therefore know what God is. No one knows God unless God reveals Himself to him. And so no one knows what love is except in the self-revelation of God. Love, then, is the revelation of God. And the revelation of God is Jesus Christ. “In this was manifested the love of God towards us, because that God sent His only begotten Son into the world, that we might live through him,” reports 1 John 4.9. #RandolphHarris 19 of 19

I Am the Hope I Dare to Live and Give

Everything that happens to us has merit, whether we recognize the significance of it or not. Everything in our lives ultimately leads us somewhere. However, to envy anyone for the things which they have is not a noble thing to do. Envy is the cause of much trouble and should be avoided. However, we cannot help, at times, thinking that we would like to have some of these things which others possess and which, for some reason or other, we do not have. Then, again, there is much truth in the fact that if we envy someone else, we may, by that envy, be spurred on to do greater work so that we may acquire them. It is not harmful, in this way, to look around and find someone to envy—or we might say, to emulate. Such reflections on envy remind us that it is not merely a moral inclination but a distinct emotional state, one that engages the deeper mechanisms of human feeling. To understand its force, we must consider the broader principles governing emotion itself. The fundamental proposition, respecting Emotion generally, may be expressed in these words: The state of Feeling, or the subjective consciousness which is known to each person by his own experience, is associated with a diffusive action over the system, through the medium of the cerebral hemispheres. In other words, the physical fact that accompanies and supports the mental fact, without making or constituting that fact, is an agitation of all the bodily members more immediately allied with the brain by the nervous communication. The organs first affected, by a wave of nervous influence emanating from the brain, are the moving members. Some of these are more readily agitated than others—for example the features of the face; which therefore constitute the principal medium of the expression of feeling. However, observation shows that all parts of the moving system are liable to be affected by an emotional wave: while a very important series of effects is produced upon the secreting and excreting apparatus of the body. #RandolphHarris 1 of 17

The coincidence of a state of mental excitement with bodily agitation is one of the most common experiences of human nature. In children, with whom no influence is as yet at work to suppress the free play of emotion, the coincidence may be produced invariable. Every stimulus, whether of pleasure or of pain, animates the features, the vocal organs, and the whole moving system. In pain, the lachrymal section is profusely poured out. So constant is the accompaniment of bodily excitement with mental, that the one is always looked upon as sufficient evidence of the other. In advancing years, there is a process of education, as well as an exercise of the will, tending to check and suppress the bodily manifestations of feeling, especially those of a more violent nature; but in cases where the suppressive influence is suspended, or where the strength of the passion breaks through the artificial barriers, the characteristics of infancy are reproduced in all their fullness. The observed agreement of bodily agitation with states of pleasure or pain is borne out by noting that the two rise and fall together in degree or intensity. Exactly as we increase a pleasurable or painful stimulus, we find the diffused expression of the bodily organs becomes more energetic. The hardly perceptible smile rises to the animated distension of all the features, and at last convulses and agitates every member into ecstatic violence. A link of causation is in this way shown to exist between feeling and bodily activity; so that in cases where no bodily excitement is shown, we presume either that the feeling is too weak to produce an effect sufficient to catch the eye of a beholder, or that some restraining power is at work. It must be in the nature of a state of emotion to cause the brain to diffuse or transmit currents to the various muscles and secreting organs; although up to a certain point of strength these do not show any sensible agitation. As soon as the agitation becomes apparent, we find it growing stronger with each addition to the moving cause. Everyone knows in their own consciousness that extreme intensity of the feeling itself, and that even on occasion where nothing is allowed to appear to others, there is nevertheless a diffused flutter and thrill accompanying any state of acute excitement. #RandolphHarris 2 of 17

Recognizing envy as one instance of the broader emotional life, we may now observe how any feeling, once awakened, exerts its influence upon the whole system. As soon as the agitation becomes apparent, we find it growing stronger with each addition to the moving cause. Envy can become so strong that it overpowers a person and turns them into a different being than they typically are. To further highlight this illustration, it is well-known fact that in the heat of battle, wounds are for a time unfelt. The engrossment of the brain and bodily system is so entire that the stimulus of a sharp wound is unable to diffuse itself, and consciousness or feeling is not produced. So when the attention is strongly fixed upon one object, other impressions falling upon the senses have no effect; the sensory organ is excited, but the free diffusion through the brain and over the system is obstructed by the bent already imparted to the nervous currents. On this fact is founded one of many devices for alleviating pain, which is to engage the attention on some new class of objects. Whatever the impression be that determines the general attitude of the bodily framework, the same impression prevails in the inner consciousness. When the attention is released from something that has strongly occupied it, the recent impressions made on the sense begin to become conscious; as when a person gives no heed to words addressed to him, and after a minute or two suddenly wakes up to their import. From these examples, we may observe how envy can so completely possess the brain, the body, and the emotional nature that one becomes, for the time, incapable of perceiving another being as an object of affection. The passion gathers such force that the love which once existed can no longer penetrate the hardened armor of jealousy, and the mind, thus clouded, mistakes its own agitation for just cause of resentment. Yet, when the envied person is removed from one’s immediate sphere, the tumult often subsides; and in the stillness that follows, remorse awakens. One then begins to recall, with painful clarity, the love that had been offered and to feel the weight of guilt for having been insensible to it. #RandolphHarris 3 of 17

Some individuals are particularly susceptible to jealousy, and under the sway of the repetition‑compulsion, they are driven to relive, as a present reality, what has long been repressed. The earlier neurosis does not vanish; it merely returns in altered form, emerging as a fresh transference neurosis. This compulsion to repeat arises from the repressed element in the unconscious, which presses for expression whenever the person perceives a threat—whether real or imagined—in another individual or situation. Yet envy, though rooted in such deep psychological mechanisms, may still be moderated by deliberate reflection. We may cure much of it in ourselves by considering how trivial, burdensome, or ill‑suited are the things for which we envy our neighbor, or by recognizing that we already possess goods equal to those we covet. If I envy another’s greatness, I may recall that he lacks my quiet; I may even suspect that he envies me as much as I do him. And when I examine his perfections with exactness and balance them against my own, I often find that my condition is no less tolerable than his. Indeed, though many indulge envy, very few would truly exchange their lot for that of the person they resent, once all circumstances are weighed. We ought therefore to guard ourselves against every appearance of envy, for it is a passion that always implies a sense of inferiority wherever it resides. The envious person suffers precisely at those moments that ought to bring him pleasure, for another’s joy becomes his torment. The relish of his life is inverted; and the objects which administer the highest satisfaction to those who are exempt from this passion give the quickest pangs to persons who are subject to it. All the perfections of their fellow-creatures are odious. Youth, beauty, valor, and wisdom are provocations of their displeasure. #RandolphHarris 4 of 17

What a wretched and apostate state this is to be offended with excellence, and to hate a man because we prove him! The condition of the envious man is the most emphatically miserable; he is not only incapable of rejoicing in another’s merit or success, but lives in a world wherein all mankind are in a plot against his quiet, by studying their own happiness and advantage. He who holds himself down, shrinking in stature lest he make any expansive motion, unwittingly prepares the very soil in which his envy takes root and festers. Moreover, he feels subdued by an ever-alive readiness to accuse and despise himself; he also feels easily frightened and spends a good deal of his energies in assuaging all these painful feelings. This developmental crisis is evoked by the necessity to manage encounters. A new sense of estrangement is awakened along with the awareness of new dependences and new familiarities. Envy is a type of infantile simplicity. It is a sense of “hallowed presence” which remains basic in neurotic adults in our society who have a desire for safety. Their reaction is often to unknown, psychological dangers in a world that is perceived to be hostile, overwhelming, and threatening. Such a person behaves as if a great catastrophe were almost always impending, id est, he is usually responding as if to an emergency. His very security rests upon being the center of attention, upon having and being “the best,” and upon looking down with condescension upon others, their belongings, and their accomplishments. This type of neurotic adult may be said to behave as if he were actually afraid of a spanking, or of his mother’s disapproval, or of being abandoned by his parents, or having his food taken away from him. It is as if his childish attitudes of fear and threat reaction to a dangerous world had gone underground, and, untouched by the growing-up and learning processes, were now ready to be called out by any stimulus that would make a child feel endangered or threatened. #RandolphHarris 5 of 17

The neurosis in which the search for safety takes its clearest form is in the compulsive-obsessive neurosis. Compulsive-obsessives try frantically to order and stabilize the world so that no unmanageable, unexpected, or unfamiliar dangers will ever appear. They hedge themselves about with all sorts of ceremonials, rules, and formulas so that every possible contingency may be provided for and so that no new contingencies may appear. They resemble the brain‑injured patients described by Goldstein, who preserve their equilibrium only by avoiding everything unfamiliar and by arranging their restricted world with such meticulous order that nothing unpredictable can intrude. When this defensive rigidity appears in psychologically intact individuals, it may manifest as attempts to control, diminish, or socially demote others—undermining their standing, damaging their reputation, devaluing their achievements, or even terminating a life—in order to preserve a sense of superiority and maintain a tightly ordered inner world. Envy then becomes a pathological need for omnipotent control. Pathological controls must be established to serve as a basis of comparison. This is due to the dread of losing one’s audience, and certainly, that they will leave unless he can continuously establish his dominance, and the only way he can do that is by keeping others down, making them look bad and bragging about his importance and material objects. Even when a person is no longer in his circle, a person suffering from the pathological need for omnipotent control will still try to destroy one he truly believes is better than him. They try to arrange the world so that anything unexpected (dangers) cannot possibly occur. If, through no fault of their own, something unexpected does occur, like someone they envy finding success, they go into a panic reaction as if this unexpected occurrence constituted a grave danger. #RandolphHarris 6 of 17

Each successive stage and crisis has a special relation to one of the basic institutionalized endeavors of man for the simple reason that the human life cycle and human institutions have evolved together. The relation between them is twofold: each generation brings to these institutions the remnants of infantile needs and youthful fervor, and receives from them—as long as they, indeed, manage to maintain their institutional vitality—a specific reinforcement of childlike vitality. If one can overcome envy, it becomes possible to pierce the universal amnesia that conceals the frightening aspects of childhood. In relinquishing envy, we loosen the defenses that keep those early terrors unexamined. Yet we may also gratefully acknowledge that the principal glory of childhood survives into adult life: the capacity for wonder, for spontaneous joy, and for a trust in life that, though often obscured, is never wholly extinguished. Trust, then, becomes the capacity for faith—a vital need for which man must find some institutional confirmation. Religion, it seems, is the oldest and has been the most lasting institution to serve the ritual restoration of a sense of trust in the form of faith while offering a tangible formula for a sense of evil against which it promises to arm and defend man. Childlike strength as well as a potential for infantilization are suggested in the fact that all religious practices include periodic childlike surrender to the Power that creates and re-creates, dispensing earthly fortune as well as spiritual well-being; the demonstration of smallness and dependence by reduced posture and humble gesture; the confession in prayer and song of misdeeds, misthoughts, and evil intentions and the fervent appeal for inner reunification by divine guidance. #RandolphHarris 7 of 17

At best, all of this is highly stylized and thus becomes suprapersonal; individual trust becomes a common faith, individual mistrust a commonly formulated evil, while the individual’s plea for restoration becomes part of the ritual practice of many and a sign of trustworthiness in the community. When religion loses its actual power of presence, then, it would seem, an age must find other forms of joint reverence for life which derive vitality from a shared world image. Only a reasonably coherent framework provides the faith which is transmitted by the mothers to the infants in a way conducive to the vital strength of hope, that is, the enduring predisposition to believe in the attainability of primal wishes in spite of the anarchic urges and rages of dependency. The shortest formulation of the identity gain of earliest childhood may well be: I am what hope I have and give. For some, the promises of celibacy and obedience made in life can be said to relieve them of their burdens which they are not ready to assume. Sometimes, it takes a kind of shock therapy for God to change one’s mind. Others have said that Christ himself spoke. The spiritual part of the experience can also be an intra-psychic one. Martin Luther, for instance, records that something in him made him pronounce a vow before the rest of him knew what he was saying. His friends’ conviction that he was acting under God’s guidance was based on nothing but their impressions of the genuineness of his inner life. For some, celibacy provides a divine preservation tied to personal sacrifice. God is sustaining their life in recognition of their vow of celibacy. Although some individuals disparage celibacy out of ignorance or envy, the practice itself belongs to a long and well‑established tradition in which human life is interpreted through the framework of sacred commitment. Within this tradition, celibacy functions not as a denial of life but as a structured mode of meaning‑making, providing containment, purpose, and a sense of continuity with a larger spiritual order. For men who have embraced celibacy in earnest, even an ordinary thunderstorm may be interpreted as a direct intervention of Providence, directed toward them with deliberate intent. Such individuals exhibit a form of conviction that is not merely doctrinal but existential, and they stand as honest representatives of an earlier moral epoch—one in which personal vows, divine agency, and the ordering of one’s life under a sacred mandate were experienced with an immediacy seldom encountered in the modern mind. #RandolphHarris 8 of 17

One cannot examine the psychological life of the individual without eventually confronting the larger question of how personal ethics relate to the structures of collective life. For if private convictions, vows, and defenses shape the individual’s conduct, we must ask what relation such ethical formations bear to the sphere of political action. Now then, what relations do ethics and politics actually have? Have the two nothing whatever to do with one another, as has occasionally been said? Or is the reverse true: that the ethic of political conduct is identical with that of any other conduct? Occasionally, an exclusive choice has been believed to exist between the two propositions—either the one or the other proposition must be correct. However, is it true that any ethic of the world could establish commandments of identical content for erotic, business, familial, and official relations; for the relations to one’s wife, to the greengrocer, the son, the competitor, the friend, the defendant? Should it really matter so little for the ethical demands on politics that politics operates with very special means, namely, power backed by violence? Do we not see that the Bolshevik and the Spartacist ideologists bring about exactly the same results as any militaristic dictator, just because they use these political means? In what but the persons of the power-holders and their dilettantism does the rule of the workers’ and the soldiers’ councils differ from the rule of any power-holder of the old regime? In what way does the polemic of most representatives of the presumably new ethic differ from that of the opponents which the criticized, or the ethic of any other demagogues? In their noble intention, people will say. Good! However, it is the means about which we speak here, and the adversaries, in complete subjective sincerity, claim, in the very same way, that their ultimate intentions are of lofty character. “All they that take the sword shall perish with the sword,” and fighting is everywhere fighting. Hence, the ethic of the Sermon on the Mount. #RandolphHarris 9 of 17

By the Sermon on the Mount, we mean the absolute ethic of the gospel, which is a more serious matter than those who are fond of quoting these commandments today believe. This ethic is no joking matter. The same holds true for this ethic as has been said of causality in science: it is not a cab, which one can have stopped at one’s pleasure; it is all or nothing. If trivialities are not to result, this is precisely the meaning of the gospel. Hence, for instance. It was said of the wealthy young man, “He went away sorrowful: for he had great possessions.” The evangelist commandment, however, is unconditional and unambiguous: give what thou hast—absolutely everything. The politician will say that this is a socially senseless imposition as long as it is not carried out everywhere. Thus, the politician upholds taxation, confiscatory taxation, outright confiscation; in a word, compulsion and regulation for all. The ethical commandment, however, is not all concerned about that, and this unconcern is its essence. Or, take the example, “turn the other cheek”; This command is unconditional and does not question the source of the other’s authority to strike. Except for a stain, it is an ethic of indignity. This is it: one must be saintly in everything; at least in intention, one must live like Jesus Christ, the apostles, St. Francis, and their like. Then this ethic makes sense and expresses a kind of dignity; otherwise, it does not. For if it is said, in line with the acosmic ethic of love, “Resist not him that is evil with force,” for the politician, the reverse proposition holds, “thou shalt resist evil by force,” or else you are responsible for the evil winning out. He who wishes to follow the ethic of the gospel should abstain from strikes, for strikes mean compulsion; he may join the company unions. Above all things, he should not talk of “revolution.” After all, the ethic of the gospel does not wish to teach that civil war is the only legitimate war. #RandolphHarris 10 of 17

The pacifist who follows the gospel will refuse to bear arms or will throw them down; in Germany, this was the recommended ethical duty to end the war and therewith all wars. The politician would say the only sure means to discredit the war for all foreseeable time would have been a status quo peace. Then, the nations would have questioned, what was this war for? And then, the way would have been argued ad absurdum, which is now impossible. For the victors, at least for part of them, the war will have been politically profitable. And the responsibility for this rests on the behavior that made all resistance impossible for us. Now, as a result of the ethics of absolutism, when the period of exhaustion will have passed, the peace will be discredited, not the war. Finally, let us consider the duty of truthfulness. For the absolute ethic it holds unconditionally. Hence, the conclusion was reached to publish all documents, especially those placing blame on one’s own country. On the basis of these one-sided publications, the confessions of guilt followed—and they were one-sided, unconditional, and without regard to consequences. The politician will find that, as a result, truth will not be furthered but certainly obscured through abuse and unleashing of passion; only an all-round methodical investigation by non-partisans could bear fruit; any other procedure may have consequences for a nation that cannot be remedied for decades. However, the absolute ethic just does not ask for “consequences.” That is the decisive point. We must be clear about the fact that all ethically oriented conduct may be guided by one of two fundamentally differing and irreconcilably opposed maxims: conduct can be oriented to an “ethic of ultimate ends” or to an “ethic of responsibility.” This is not to say that an ethic of ultimate ends is identical with irresponsibility, or that an ethic of responsibility is identical with unprincipled opportunism. Naturally, nobody says that. #RandolphHarris 11 of 17

However, there is an abysmal contrast between conduct that follows the maxim of an ethic of ultimate ends—that is, in religious terms. “The Christian does rightly and leaves the results with the Lord”—and conduct that follows the maxim of an ethic of responsibility, in which case one has to give an account of the foreseeable results of one’s action. You may demonstrate to a convinced syndicalist, believing in an ethic of ultimate ends, that his action will result in increasing the opportunities of reaction, in increasing the oppression of his class, and obstructing its ascent—and you will not make the slightest impression upon him. If an action of good intent leads to bad results, then, in the actor’s eyes, not he but the world, or the stupidity of other men, or God’s will, who made them thus, is responsible for the evil. However, a man who believes in an ethic of responsibility takes account of precisely the average deficiencies of people; as Fichte has correctly said, he does not even have the right to presuppose their goodness and perfection. He does not feel in a position to burden others with the results of his own actions so far as he was able to foresee them; he will say: these results are ascribed to my action. The believer in an ethic of ultimate ends feels “responsible” only for seeing to it that the flame of pure intentions is not quelched: for example, the flame of protesting against the injustice of the social order. To rekindle the flame ever anew is the purpose of his quite irrational deeds, judged in view of their possible success. They are acts that can and shall have only exemplary value. However, even herewith the problem is not yet exhausted. No ethics in the world can dodge the fact that in numerous instances, the attainment of “good” ends is bound to the fact that one must be willing to pay the price of using morally dubious means or at least dangerous ones—and facing the possibility or even the probability of evil ramifications. From no ethics in the world can it be concluded when and to what extent the ethically good purpose “justifies” the ethically dangerous means and ramifications. Public debates often illustrate this dilemma. Some argue, for example, that permissive immigration policies are motivated by the ethically laudable aim of offering individuals from other countries the possibility of a better life. Yet the practical ramifications of such policies are contested. #RandolphHarris 12 of 17

Reports have documented criminal incidents involving certain migrant groups, including a widely publicized case in Aurora, Colorado, where alleged members of a Venezuelan gang were involved in armed home invasions and kidnappings within an apartment complex. There are also reports of violent crime, murder, and sexual assault increasing. As well as billions of dollars in fraud. Furthermore, the billions of dollars in costs to accommodate these people left American citizens victims of crime and caused them to go without the government services that they needed. The decisive means for politics is violence. You may see the extent of the tension between means and ends, when viewed ethically, from the following: as is generally known, even during the war, the revolutionary socialists (Zimmerwald faction) professed a principle that one might strikingly formulate: “If we face the choice either of some more years of war and then the revolution, or peace now and no revolution, we choose—some more years of war!” Upon the further question: “What can this revolution bring about?” Every scientifically trained socialist would have had the answer: One cannot speak of a transition to an economy that, in our sense, could be called socialist; a bourgeois economy will re-emerge, merely stripped of the feudal elements and the dynastic vestiges. For this very modest result, they are willing to face “some more years of war.” One may well say that even with a very robust socialist conviction, one might reject a purpose that demands such means. With Bolshevism and Separatism, and, in general, with any kind of revolutionary socialism, it is precisely the same thing. It is, of course, utterly ridiculous if the power politicians of the old regime are morally denounced for their use of the same means, however justified the rejection of their aims may be. #RandolphHarris 13 of 17

Thus, the inconsistency of denouncing the old regime for employing means that the revolutionaries themselves do not hesitate to adopt is but one instance of a broader historical irony. The same divergence between moral intention and practical necessity that vitiates their political conduct also frustrates the very historical vocation which Marx, with such confidence, attributed to the proletariat. The revolutionary bourgeoisie seized power in 1789 because they already had it. At this period, legality, as Jules Monnerot says, was lagging behind the facts. The facts were that the bourgeoisie were already in possession of the posts of command and of the new power: money. The proletariat was not at all in the same position, having only their poverty and their hopes, and being kept in their condition of misery by the bourgeoisie. The bourgeoisie class debased itself by a mania for production and material power, while the very organization of this mania made the creation of an elite impossible. However, criticism of this organization and the development of rebel conscience could, on the contrary, forge a reserve elite. Only revolutionary trade unionism, with Pelloutier and Sorel, embarked on this course and wanted to create, by professional and cultural education, new cadres for which a world without honor was calling, and still class. However, that could not be accomplished in a day, and the new masters were already on the scene, interested in making immediate use of human unhappiness for the sake of happiness in the distant future, rather than in relieving as much and as soon as possible the suffering of millions of men. The authoritarian socialists deemed that history was going too slowly and that it was necessary, in order to hurry it on, to entrust the mission of the proletariat to a handful of doctrinaires. For that very reason, they have been the first to deny this mission. Nevertheless, it exists, not in the exclusive sense that Marx gives it, but in the sense that a mission exists for any human group which knows how to derive pride and fecundity from its labors and its sufferings. So that it can manifest itself, however, a risk must be taken and confidence put in working-class freedom and spontaneity. #RandolphHarris 14 of 17

Authoritarian socialism, on the contrary, has confiscated this living freedom for the benefit of an ideal freedom, which is yet to come. In so doing, whether it wished to our not, it reinforced the attempt at enslavement begun by industrial capitalism. By the combined action of these two factors and during a hundred and fifty years, except in the Paris of the Commune, which was the last refuge of rebel revolution, the proletariat has had no other historical mission but to be betrayed. The workers fought and died to give power to the military or to intellectuals who dreamed of becoming military and who would enslave them in their turn. This struggle, however, has been the source of their dignity, a fact that is recognized by all who have chosen to share their aspirations and their misfortunes. However, this dignity has been acquired in opposition to the whole clan of old and new masters. At the very moment when they dare to make use of it, it denies them. In one sense, it announces their eclipse. A similar pattern may be observed in the fate of those who, in our own time, undertake the perilous task of exposing institutional misconduct. Their dignity, acquired through long resistance to the dominion of old and new masters, is acknowledged by all who share their burdens. Yet the instant they dare to assert the moral authority their struggle has earned, the institutions they confront hasten to repudiate them—thereby announcing, however unwillingly, the waning of their own legitimacy. This frightening experience, with whatever lessons in bravery, cunning, and skill it yields, is firmly sedimented in the consciousness of the individuals who went through it. If the experience is shared by several individuals, it will be sedimented intersubjectively and may perhaps even form a profound bond between these individuals. As this experience is designated and transmitted linguistically, however, it becomes accessible and, perhaps, strongly relevant to individuals who have never gone through it. #RandolphHarris 15 of 17

To further illustrate this dynamic, multiple Boeing employees have come forward in recent years with serious concerns about aircraft manufacturing and safety practices. Their disclosures were made under conditions of intense pressure, fear of retaliation, and, in some cases, personal danger. Those who spoke out developed a tight, intersubjective bond, for only they fully grasped the risks involved in challenging a major aerospace manufacturer. One of the most prominent figures, John Barnett, had served as a quality manager at Boeing for more than thirty years. He first filed a whistleblower complaint in 2017—one year before the first 737 MAX crash—alleging that the company’s quality‑control systems were severely inadequate. Barnett reported that faulty parts and substandard manufacturing practices were being overlooked, potentially compromising flight safety. Another whistleblower, Joshua Dean, likewise raised concerns about manufacturing defects. Both men died suddenly in 2024—Dean from a severe bacterial infection and Barnett from what authorities ruled a self‑inflicted gunshot wound. Their allegations helped catalyze ongoing investigations and legal scrutiny, brought into sharp public focus when the door plug of an Alaska Airlines 737 MAX 9 detached mid‑flight in January. Since that incident, more than one hundred additional whistleblowers have contacted the Federal Aviation Administration, demonstrating how an initially private ordeal can, once articulated and transmitted publicly, become a matter of collective concern and cultural significance. Such testimony does more than record a private ordeal; it objectifies the experience in language and thereby transforms it into a publicly available form of knowledge. Once articulated, the whistleblower’s experience can be incorporated into a wider moral and cultural tradition—invoked in debates about corporate responsibility, used as material for ethical instruction, or taken up in journalism, documentary storytelling, and public inquiry. In this way, both the immediate experience and its broader symbolic meanings become transmissible to new generations, and even to communities far removed from the aerospace industry, each of which may attach its own significance to the narrative. #RandolphHarris 16 of 17

In this way, the objectified experience becomes part of the moral and psychological vocabulary through which individuals make sense of upheaval. And just as communities assimilate the lessons of others’ ordeals, individuals themselves often require a comparable jolt before meaningful change can occur. One sees this in those whose inner lives have been shaped by intense religious or ascetic experiences—such as celibate men who, in moments of crisis, report encounters or impressions that they interpret as divine communication. Typically, growth in awareness unfolds gradually, but there are times when only a dramatic rupture can dislodge a person from entrenched defenses. If the person has the courage (and the encouragement) to accept threat and not respond reflexively with mechanisms of defense, growth will go on throughout a person’s life span, even into the seventies and nineties. Properly understood, the experiences of anxiety and dread will evoke the “courage to be” and they will be harbingers of growth to richer existence. Improperly understood, or encouraged in a spirit of timidity, they lead a person to make of the identity an impregnable bastion. The person then leads a safe but often unproductive and joyless life. Courage and encouragers assist them to grow. The courage to grow can sometimes be generated in psychotherapy or in a properly conducted encounter group. Under such conditions, individuals may enlarge their self‑concept, revise their conscience in more humane and mature directions, and present a public self that corresponds more closely to the realities of their own personality and the demands of the situation. These processes can be profoundly life‑preserving. Yet it remains a sobering fact that not everyone reaches this point of transformation. Some individuals, unable to find a setting in which their inner rupture can be metabolized, become martyrs to the very forces they sought to confront. #RandolphHarris 17 of 17

Lord Jesus Christ, You who stood for truth when the world preferred silence, look with mercy upon all who dare to speak out against wrongdoing in their workplaces, institutions, and communities. We grieve that so many are willing to risk their careers to do what is harmful or unlawful, while so few are willing to risk their careers to defend what is right. We lament that our society so often protects the powerful at any cost, even when their actions endanger the vulnerable, distort justice, or betray the public trust. Strengthen the whistleblowers who step forward despite fear, retaliation, and isolation; grant them courage, clarity, and the assurance that their sacrifice is not in vain. Bless the work of those who labor to support them—including the mission of this nonprofit, which seeks to advance public understanding, protect truth‑tellers, and cultivate a culture where integrity is honored rather than punished. May Your Gospel inspire us to stand firm in righteousness, to resist complicity, and to uphold justice even when the cost is great. And for those who become martyrs to truth—those whose courage is met not with gratitude but with suffering—grant them peace, and grant us the strength to continue their work with unwavering faith. Amen.

Completely Wall by a Fear of a Sudden Death

Science grows by accumulation. Discoveries, inventions, and new knowledge, are added to the existing stock. These new elements are usually very small. Inventions, as additions of something new, are seen after analysis to be not nearly so large as they popularly appear to be. An invention is rather a small step in a process growing by small accretions. There are discoveries, big in significance; but their coming is hard to predict and they are rare. The new elements of knowledge are determined in part by the existing elements, and for this reason the addition of a desired element cannot be secured by will-power and enterprise alone. Sometimes your skills and accomplishments were perfect for a previous stage of life, but the current situation demands: more authority, more resources, institutional power, a different type of leverage. When dealing with systems that resist accountability, where personal excellence does not automatically translate into institutional response, this is especially true. Primitive man needed and desired medical progress as much as modern man, and worked at it as arduously; but modern medical achievements are more dependent upon previously existing elements. Existing assets or achievements may be recognized indirectly, but they are not emotionally experienced. “My patients seem to think I am a good doctor.” “My friends say I am a good storyteller.” “Men teachers think I am very intelligent, but they are mistaken.” The same attitude prevails toward financial assets. Such a person may not have the feeling of owning the money he has earned through his own work. If he is financially well off, he nevertheless experiences himself as poor. Any ordinary observation or self-observation lays bare the fears behind all this overmodesty. They emerge as soon as he raises his head. #RandolphHarris 1 of 21

Whatever sets the self-minimizing process to work, it is maintained by powerful taboos on trespassing the narrow confines he has set for himself. He should be content with little. He has should not wish or strive for more. Any wish, any striving, any reaching out for more feels to him like a dangerous or reckless challenging fate. He should not want to improve his figure by dieting or gymnastics, or to improve his appearance by dressing better. Last but not least, he should not improve himself by analyzing himself. He may be able to do so when under duress. However, otherwise, he simply will not find the time for it. I am not referring here to individual fears of tackling special problems. There is something beyond these usual difficulties that holds him back from doing it at all. Often, in sharp contrast to his conscious conviction about the value of self-analysis, it appears to him as “selfish” to “waste that much time” on himself. What he scorns as “selfishness” is almost as comprehensive as what he considers “presumptuous.” To him, selfishness includes doing anything that is just for himself. He is often capable of enjoying many things but it would be “selfish” to enjoy them alone. He is often unaware of operating under such taboos and merely deems it “natural” to want to share a joy. Actually, the sharing of pleasures is an absolute must. If it is not shared with somebody else, whether it is food, music, or nature, it loses flavor and meaning. He cannot spend money for himself. His stinginess with personal experiences may reach absurd degrees, which is particularly striking when contrasted with his often lavish spending for others. When he trespasses this taboo and does spend money on himself, even though it may be objectively reasonable, he will become panicky. The same holds true with regard to the use of time and energies. He often cannot read a book in his free time unless it is useful for his work. He may not grant himself the time for writing a personal letter, but furtively squeezes it in between two appointments. He often cannot make or keep order in his personal belongins—unless it is for somebody who would appreciate it. #RandolphHarris 2 of 21

Similarly, he may neglect his appearance unless he has a date, a professional or social engagement—id est, again, unless it is for others. Conversely, he may display considerable energy and skill in attaining something for others, such as helping them to make desirable contacts or to get a job; but he is tied hand and foot when it comes to doing the same for himself. Although much hostility is generated in him, he cannot express it except when emotionally upset. Otherwise he is afraid of fighting and even friction for several reasons. Partly, this is because a person who has thus clipped his wings is not and cannot possibly be a good fighter. In part, he is terrified lest anybody be hostile toward him, and prefers to give in, to “understand” and forgive. Consistent with the other taboos and actually implied in them, is one on being “aggressive.” He cannot stand up for his dislike of a person, an idea, a cause—and fight them if necessary. He cannot keep a sustained hostility nor can he carry a grudge, consciously. Hence, vindictive drives remain unconscious and can only be expressed indirectly and in a disguised form. He cannot be openly demanding nor can he reprimand. It is most difficult for him to criticize, to reproach, or to accuse,–even when it seems warranted. He cannot even in joking make a sharp, witty, sarcastic remark. There are taboos on all that is presumptuous, selfish, and aggressive. If we realize in detail the scope covered by the taboos, they constitute a crippling check on the person’s expansion, his capacity for fighting and for defending himself, his self-interest—on anything that might accrue to his growth or his self-esteem. The taboos and self-minimizing constitute a shrinking process that artificially reduced his stature and leaves him feeling like one patient’s dream in which, as a result of some merciless punishment, a person had shrunk to half his bodily size and was reduced to utter destitution and a moronic condition. #RandolphHarris 3 of 21

The self-effacing type, then, cannot make any assertive, aggressive, expansive move without trespassing against his taboos. Their violation arouses both his self-condemnation and his self-contempt. He responds either with a general panicky feeling, without special content, or with feeling guilty. If self-contempt is in the foreground, he may respond with a fear of ridicule. Being in his self-feeling so small and so insignificant, any reaching out beyond his narrow confines may easily arouse the fear of ridicule. If this fear is conscious at all, it is usually externalized. If he spoke up in a discussion, ran for office, or had the ambition to write something, others would think it ridiculous. Most of this fear, however, remains unconscious. At any rate, he never seems to be aware of its formidable impact. It is, however, a relevant factor in keeping him down. The fear of ridicule is specifically indicative of self-effacing trends. It is alien to the expansive type. He can be blusteringly presumptuous without even realizing that he might be ridiculous or that others might so regard him. While curtailed in any pursuit on his own behalf, he is not only free to do things for others but, according to his inner dictates, should be the ultimate of helpfulness, generosity, considerateness, understanding, sympathy, love, and sacrifice. In fact, love and sacrifice in his mind are closely intertwined: he should sacrifice everything for love—love is sacrifice. Thus far, the taboos and shoulds have a remarkable consistency. However, sooner or later contradictory trends appear. We might naively expect that this type would rather abhor aggressive, arrogant, or vindictive traits in others. However, actually, his attitude is divided. He does abhor them but also secretly or openly adores them. And does so indiscriminately—without distinguishing between genuine self-confidence and hollow arrogance, between real strength and egocentric brutality. #RandolphHarris 4 of 21

We easily understand that, chafing under his enforced humility, he adores in others aggressive qualities which he lacks or which are unavailable to him. However, gradually, we realize that this is not the complete explanation. We see that a more deeply hidden set of values, entirely opposite to the one just described, is also operating in him and that he admires in an aggressive type the expansive drives which for the sake of his integration he must so deeply suppress in himself. This disavowing of his own pride and aggressiveness, but admiring them in others, plays a great part in his morbid dependency. As the patient becomes strong enough to face his conflict, his expansive drives come into sharper focus. He should also have the absolute of fearlessness; he should also go all out for his advantage; he should be able to hit back at anybody who offends him. Accordingly, he despises himself at bottom for any trace of “cowardice,” of ineffectualness and compliance. He is thus under a constant crossfire. If he does something, he is damned, and if he does not, he is damned. If he refuses the request for a loan or for any favor, he feels that he is a repulsive and horrible creature; if he grants such requests, he feels that he is a “sucker.” If he puts the insulter in his place, he gets frightened and feels utterly unlikable. As long as he cannot face this conflict and work at it the need to keep a check on the aggressive undercurrents makes it all the more necessary to adhere tenaciously to the self-effacing pattern, and thereby enhances its rigidity. Such a man must be assumed to be in the throes of a conflict which probably made the idea of a marital commitment repugnant to the point of open panic. However, when he married twenty years later, having in the meantime taken the vows of celibacy, broken with the Church, set a fire to the world around him, publicly proclaiming as his first and foremost reason for taking a wife was that it would please his father. However, on July 2nd, he was surprised by a severe thunderstorm. A bolt of lightning struck the ground near him, throwing him to the ground, and causing him to be seized by a severe, some say convulsive, state of terror. He felt, terrore et agonis mortis subitae circumvallatus: as if completely walled in by the painful fear of a sudden death. #RandolphHarris 5 of 23

Before he knew it, he was seeking help and wanted to renew his vows of celibacy. He felt bound by what he considered to be a vow and began to think of the experience as a frightful call from heaven: de caelo terroribus. Was this thunderstorm necessary? Some believe that it was God’s way of calling him away (abgerufen) from a glamorous career which the young man had every reason to desire. His psychiatrist assumes that the event was only the climax of an agitated depressive state which gradually had ruined the perspective of that career. A student of motivation cannot well ask what motivates God to do something extraordinary; yet he may wonder what in the world would at that moment call for an un-Aristotelian thunderstorm. The monastic profession was not an uncommon career; it was even a respectable way of becoming a scholar and of eventually rejoining academic work. This concern with the adequacy of established explanatory frameworks—whether theological, philosophical, or psychological—finds a parallel in the historical understanding of monastic vocation, which likewise resists simplistic or conventional interpretation. Transactional analysis as a therapeutic method is based on the assumption that words and gestures can have a therapeutic effect without any bodily contact with the patient beyond a handshake. If a transactional analyst considers that bodily contact is desirable for a certain patient, he refers him to a dance class, sensory-awareness group, or a “permission class” with a prescription for dancing. Permission classes are run as groups, so that the patient does not get individual hugging or individual dancing exercises. All the patients do the same things at the same time, but the teacher is aware of each one’s special needs and devotes some attention to them. (The patients do not have to do the same things at the same time. The teacher merely makes the suggestion, but each person is free to do as he wishes—that is part of the permission derived from the class. Usually, however, they enjoy the participation with other people, something they may have missed in childhood.) #RandolphHarris 6 of 23

Since permission is the decision intervention for script analysis, it is worth having as clear as possible an understanding of how it works, and every opportunity should be taken to learn about it by observing this in different situations. However, while therapeutic models can offer valuable explanations for experiences that appear extraordinary, it is equally important to recognize that many individuals interpret such moments through the lens of the divine calling. If one abuses the license and goes too far, he will hear from the authorities under ordinary circumstances. When there is a prohibition against doing something, a dialogue will result whenever the person starts to do it. Only a small part of the totality of human experiences is retained in consciousness. The experiences that are so retained become sedimented, that is, they congeal in recollection as recognizable and memorable entities. Unless such sedimentation took place, the individual could not make sense of his biography. Intersubjective sedimentation also takes place when several individuals share a common biography, experiences of which become incorporated in a common stock of knowledge. Intersubjective sedimentation can be called truly social only when it has been objectivated in a sign system of one kind or another, that is, when the possibility of reiterated objectivation of the shared experiences arise. Only then is it likely that these experiences will be transmitted from one generation to the next, and from one collectivity to another. Theoretically, common activity, without a sign system, could be the basis for transmission. Empirically, this is improbable. An objectively available sign system bestows a status of incipient anonymity on the sedimented experiences by detaching them from their original context of concrete individual biographies and making them generally available to all who share, or may share in the future, in the sign system in question. The experiences thus become readily transmittable. #RandolphHarris 7 of 23

It is often maintained that the neglect of a divine calling invites adverse consequences, for such disregard is understood as a refusal of grace. Numerous witnesses throughout the Christian tradition attest that the doctrine of divine grace and salvific purpose—articulated most fully in the Epistle to the Romans and commonly associated with the Calvinistic tradition—has impressed upon students the necessity of presenting themselves as approved before God, rightly dividing the word of truth. However, in times of change—and what other times are there, in our memory? One generation differs so much from another that items of tradition often become disturbances. Conflicts between the divine way and one’s own self-made style, conflicts between the expert’s authority and one’s own style may disturb God and show a lack of faith. Furthermore, all the mass transformations in American life (immigration, migration, and Americanization; industrialization, urbanization, mechanization, and others) are apt to disturb the divine way in those tasks which are so simple yet so far-reaching. No wonder, then, that Proverbs 3.5-6 says, “Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to Him, and He will make your paths straight.” Change, the true change is when eternity exists. Eternity is just than the earth and the world; for eternity there is a crown of honor laid aside for each of those that have in truth willed only one thing. So also with riches and power and the world that passes away and the lust thereof. The one who has willed either of them, even if he only willed one thing, must, to his own agony, continue to will it when it has passed, and learn by the agony of contradiction that it is not one thing. However, the one who in truth willed one thing and therefore willed the Good, even if he be sacrificed for it, why should he not go on willing the same in eternity, the same thing that he was willing to die for? Why should he not will the same, when it has triumphed in eternity? #RandolphHarris 8 of 21

To will one thing, therefore, cannot mean to will that which only appears to be one thing. The fact is that the worldly goal is not one thing in its essence because it is unreal. Its so-called unity is actually nothing but emptiness which is hidden beneath the manyness. In the short-lived moment of delusion, the worldly goal is therefore a multitude of things, and thus not one thing. So far is it from a state of being and remaining one thing, that in the next moment it changes itself into its opposite. Carried to its extreme limit, what is pleasure other than disgust? What is earthly honor at its dizzy pinnacle other than contempt for existence? What are riches, the highest superabundance of riches, other than poverty? For no matter how much all the earth’s gold hidden in covetousness may amount to, is it not infinitely less than the smallest mite hidden in the contentment of the poor! What is worldly omnipotence other than dependence? What slave in chains is as unfree as a tyrant! No, the worldly goal is not one thing. Diverse as it is, in life it is changed into its opposite, in death into nothing, in eternity into damnation: for the one who has willed this goal. Only the Good is the one thing in its essence and the same in each of its expressions. Take love as an illustration. The one who truly loves does not love once and for all. Nor does he use a part of his love, and then again another part. For to change it into small coins is not to use it rightly. No, he loves with all his love. It is wholly present in each expression. He continues to give it away as a whole, and yet he keeps it intact as a whole, in his heart. Wonderful riches! When the miser has gathered all the world’s gold in sordidness—then he has become poor. When the lover gives away his whole love, he keeps it entire—in the purity of the heart. Shall a man in truth will one thing, then this one thing that he wills must be such that it remains unaltered in all changes, so that by willing it, he can win immutability. If it changes continually, then he himself becomes changeable, double-minded, and unstable. And this continual change is nothing else than impurity. #RandolphHarris 9 of 21

Such inner inconsistency does not remain an abstract defect; it manifests with particular clarity in the way individuals attempt to justify the volatility of their affections. Rarely will you find that a man whose love turns from one woman to another feels no need to legitimate this before himself by saying: she was not worthy of my love, or, she has disappointed me, or whatever other like “reasons” exist. This is an attitude that, with a profound lack of chivalry, adds a fancied “legitimacy” to the plain fact that he no longer loves her and that the woman must bear it. By virtue of this “legitimation,” the man claims a right for himself and besides causing the misfortune seeks to put her in the wrong. The successful amatory competitor proceeds exactly in the same way: namely, the opponent must be less worthy, otherwise he would not have lost out. It is not so different, of course, if, after a victorious war, the victor in undignified self-righteousness claims, “I have won because I was right.” Or, if somebody under the frightfulness of war collapses psychologically, and instead of simply saying it was just too much, he feels the need of legitimizing his war weariness to himself by substituting the feeling, “I could not bear it because I had to fight for a morally bad cause.” Likewise, with the defeated in war. Instead of searching like old women for the “guilty one” after the war—in a situation in which the structure of society produced the war—everyone with a manly and controlled attitude would tell the enemy, “We lost the war. You have won it. That is now all over. Now, let us discuss what conclusion must be drawn according to the objective interests that came into play, and what is the main thing in view of the responsibility toward the future which above all burdens the victor.” Anything else is undignified and will become a boomerang. If its interests have been damaged, a nation forgives. However, if its honor has been offended, especially by a bigoted self-righteousness, no nation forgives. #RandolphHarris 10 of 21

Every new document that comes to light after decades revives the undignified lamentations, the hatred and scorn, instead of allowing the war at its end to be buried, at least morally. This is possible only through objectivity and chivalry, and above all, only through dignity. However, never is it possible through an “ethic,” which in truth signifies a lack of dignity on both sides. Instead of being concerned about what the politician is interested in, the future and the responsibility towards the future, this ethic is concerned about politically sterile questions of past guilt, which are not to be settled politically. If such a guilt exists at all, to act in this way is politically guilty. And overlooks the unavoidable falsification of the whole problem, through very material interests: namely, the victor’s interest in the greatest possible moral and material gain; the hopes of the defeated to trade in advantages through the confessions of guilt. If anything is “vulgar,” then, this is, and it is the result of this fashion of exploiting “ethics” as a means of “being in the right.” More and more, revolution has found itself delivered into the hands of its bureaucrats and doctrines on the one hand, and to enfeebled and bewildered masses on the other. When the revolutionary elite are guillotined and when Telleyrand is left alive, who will oppose Bonaparte? However, to these historical reasons are added economic necessities. The passages by Simone Weil on the condition of the factory worker must be read in order to realize to what degree of moral exhaustion and silent despair the rationalization of labor can lead. Simone Weil is right in saying that the worker’s condition is doubly inhumane in that he is first deprived of money and then of dignity. Work in which one can have an interest, creative work, even though it is badly paid, does not degrade life. #RandolphHarris 11 of 21

Industrial socialism has done nothing essential to alleviate the condition of the workers because it has not touched on the very principle of production and the organization of labor, which, on the contrary, it has extolled. It even went so far as to offer the worker a historic justification of his lot of much the same value as a promise of celestial joys to one who works himself to death; never did it attempt to give him the joy of creation. The political form of society is no longer in question at this level, but the beliefs of a technical civilization on which capitalism and socialism are equally dependent. Any ideas that do not advance the solution of this problem hardly touch on the misfortunes of the worker. In a society marked by stagnant wages, the moral implications of economic inequality become increasingly difficult to ignore, particularly when viewed through traditions that emphasize justice, stewardship, and the dignity of labor. The root causes of recent labor unrest is to be found partly in causes which are worldwide, and affect all countries as well as ourselves, partly in cases which are special to our country and give differences, the fundamental differences, between the point of view of the present government on fiscal questions between the modern one-sided Free Trader and the Tariff Reformer? The modern Free Trader looks first and foremost only to the interests of the consumer. He says that all men are consumers, and therefore, he can leave other aspects of the great industrial problem to take care of themselves. Tariff Reformers on the other hand, say that our whole society, to a degree which has never been true of any other country in the world and is not even true today, depends upon the producer. Every man is a consumer; that is true. However, most men, directly or indirectly, are producers. All the rich must produce before they can consume. Production to them is a sine qua non of consumption, and unless they find scope for their industry, work for their hands or brains, the means of gaining a livelihood which they need, cheapness is a mockery and a sham. #RandolphHarris 12 of 21

However, they also believe that our present system does not serve the interest of cheapness in what is most necessary for our people to have—cheap food and the raw materials of industry. They have said—and facts have shown that they are right, and they are entitled to point to it now to show that they are not mere prophets after the event—that if the Government persists in their policy of doing nothing, prices will rise. And they have risen. Prices of the necessities of life. Only one thing has not risen—the price of labor. The trouble in the midst of which they now live finds its root cause in the general rise in the necessaries of life, which is aggravated by the fact that in this country, that rise has been unaccompanied by an equivalent rise in the price of labor. The man who now draws the same wages as ten or twenty years ago finds that his position is not better whilst he looks for betterment, has not even remained the same, but that the pinch is sharpened, the struggle for life harder, the margin between him and real distress more narrow than ever it is in his experience before. What is the government doing? Some economists argue that tariffs can boost wages only when paired with strong unions or when they successfully expand domestic production. When tariffs reduce import pressure, domestic firms may expand production. More production leads to more hiring, and upward pressure on wages in that specific sector. This effect is strongest in manufacturing and heavy industry. As tariff revenue is reinvested in the American economy, it will generate more government revenue, pay down debt, increase private investment and production, which will increase wages over time. #RandolphHarris 13 of 21

However, if nothing is done to protect American-made goods, and the American workers, low wages will deprive people of any chance or hope for decent existences, which perpetuates misery and breeds ill-health in the children before ever they come to face the struggle of life, they will do what they can to prevent that cancerous growth in their midst. In dealing as America has been dealing by giving away farm land, importing food and good and services, and poverty, they have been turning the pyramid upside down, and if they do not take care, and the people of this country do not take care, the whole weight of it will topple over and crush the masses of our people They cannot put all these new charges upon the industry, nearly all of them desirable, many of them most necessary, unless they give industry the support and the encouragement which is necessary to enable our industry to bear the fresh expenses. It is no good treating our commerce and our industry as existing in a watertight compartment of its own, unaffected by what goes on elsewhere in the world. The existing methods provide palliatives which might raise great hopes, and for a moment might seem to promise great results, but which, as they raise them upon an insecure foundation, we are bound in the long run to make their last step worse than the first. Unless and until they recognize that the necessity of national production, employment of our own people and our own capital, and the encouragement of industry and enterprise within our own boundaries is as much one of the chief tasks of Government, their labour will be fruitless and worse than fruitless. In trying to improve the conditions of workpeople, they will create more unemployment; in trying to raise wages without increasing production in America, they will decrease the amount of work going; in trying to better the condition of their people, they will lower it, because they are loading an industry that is already finding itself oppressed to the uttermost to maintain its position. We need tariffs to protect the American worker. #RandolphHarris 14 of 21

America has become so expensive that record numbers of Americans are relocating to Mexico. According to the U.S. State Department, the number of American citizens living in Mexico increased by 75 percent between 2019 and 2025, reaching an estimated 1.8 million people. Many of these individuals work remotely for U.S. companies while taking advantage of Mexico’s lower cost of living, natural beauty, and vibrant culture—and they are thriving. California illustrates the severity of the affordability crisis anc corruption. Under Gavin Newsom’s controll, nearly $80 billion has been wasted and/or stolen. Also, California is now the third most expensive state in the nation and is facing a $20 billion budget deficit, reflecting the financial strain on its residents. In 37 percent of California counties, a family of four earning a six‑figure income is considered low‑income. The average home price in the state is approaching $1 million, while the average salary is just over $96,000—making homeownership unattainable for most Californians. The situation is even more stark for individuals. In five counties—Santa Cruz, Santa Clara, San Mateo, San Francisco, and Marin—a single person earning more than $100,000 a year is now classified as low‑income. Traditional mortgage guidelines recommend spending no more than 28 percent of gross income on a mortgage payment and no more than 36 percent on total debt. Based on the median household income in Sacramento County, a homeowner can afford a mortgage payment of about $2,070 per month, or up to $2,661 for all debts combined. Yet home prices in Sacramento County require far higher incomes. To purchase a typical home using standard lending guidelines, a household would need to earn roughly $135,000 per year. In reality, the median household income in Sacramento County is about $88,724—often with two to four people working to support the mortgage. This mismatch raises serious questions about how lenders are qualifying buyers for such expensive homes. #RandolphHarris 15 of 22

Home prices in Sacramento County are now rivaling those in the Bay Area, and in some cases, Bay Area homes are actually more affordable. Historically, the Bay Area has commanded higher prices due to higher‑paying jobs, a larger population, and its status as a major tourist destination. Sacramento’s rapid price escalation signals a deepening affordability crisis. According to this viewpoint, state leadership has contributed to the problem. Governor Gavin Newsom has directed taxpayer‑funded resources and cash aid toward individuals in the country illegally, while state workers—who keep California running—are overdue for a 25 percent wage increase. This prioritization, critics argue, worsens the affordability crisis and leaves California residents struggling to keep up with rising costs. Additionally, while California is facing one of the most severe affordable‑housing crises in the nation, yet at the same time the state has embarked on an extraordinarily expensive renovation of the Capitol building—known as “The Castle”—in Sacramento. According to public reports, the project has already cost taxpayers more than $1.2 billion, and some analysts estimate the final price could reach as high as $5 billion before completion. Classical buildings rely on stone or stone-like finishes. Modern additions often use concrete, glass, steel, or flat stucco, which can feel cheap or abrupt next to marble-like surfaces. Because the addition is bulkier, taller, or visually heavier, it overpowers the original architecture of the Ancient Greek and Roman design. Critics argue that Capitol buildings are not just architecture — they are civic symbols. When an addition does not “speak the same language,” people feel like the symbolism has been diluted, such unnecessary spending reflects deeper structural problems in the state’s governance. They point to decades‑old laws that restrict housing supply and discourage home sales, as well as concerns about bureaucratic inefficiency, corruption, and wasteful government spending. These factors, they contend, have contributed to soaring rents, limited housing availability, and a growing sense that state priorities are misaligned with the needs of ordinary Californians. The consequences of these policies are increasingly visible. #RandolphHarris 16 of 21

Between 2018 and 2023, California received $24 billion to fund 30 homeless and housing programs. These programs produced 100,000 housing units—an average cost of $240,000 per unit. For comparison, Roger Lucas, owner of Grand Castle, LLC, spent $50 million to build The Grand Castle, a 522‑unit residential community in Grandville, Michigan. The development includes studios, one‑bedroom, two‑bedroom, and three‑bedroom units, as well as a multi‑level penthouse. Rents range from $1,000 to $2,500. Built on a 23.6‑acre site, the community features 750 covered parking spaces, a clubhouse, and a resort‑style pool, and was completed in just 12 to 18 months. The average cost per unit was approximately $95,785—about $144,000 less per unit than California’s publicly funded projects. California also has the highest unemployment rate in the nation at 5.4 percent, compared to the national average of 4.5 percent. As household bills surge and the minimum wage rises to $20 an hour, people living on Social Security retirement benefits are especially strained, with monthly checks effectively equating to $5 to $7 an hour. Meanwhile, as Americans struggle to find and afford housing, Governor Gavin Newsom signed two bills on February 7, 2025—SBX1 1 and SBX1 2, both part of the Budget Act of 2024—allocating $50 million to protect individuals in the country illegally from deportation. Additionally, the governor extended free health care to 700,000 undocumented immigrants, costing taxpayers $3 billion annually. At the same time, funding was reduced for programs serving veterans, schoolchildren, people with disabilities, and the homeless. Given these circumstances, it is understandable that many people who are legally in the United States—and paying between 30 and 90 percent of their income in taxes—are deeply frustrated. #RandolphHarris 17 of 21

Advocates argue that the crisis unfolding in California—driven by Democratic policies—is pushing home prices, mortgages, and rents higher not only across the United States but around the world, making everyday life increasingly unaffordable. Many believe the situation is far from stabilizing. At the same time, China—where the United States has outsourced significant jobs and capital—has more than 50 ghost cities containing an estimated 65 million vacant homes. These ghost cities are the result of massive overdevelopment in areas where few or no people live. By contrast, if all categories of homelessness are counted, California is estimated to have as many as 4 million homeless individuals. The state also has the highest home prices in the nation, the highest taxes, and some of the most restrictive business regulations anywhere. Because of what critics describe as a hostile environment for both residents and employers, more than 360 companies have left California since 2020. Additionally, more than 500,000 residents leave the state each year because it has become too expensive to live in. Critics also point to Governor Gavin Newsom’s policies, including the criminalization of homelessness and the arrest of individuals without housing, rising crime, and widespread job losses as companies continue to move operations elsewhere. California also has the highest unemployment rate in the country at 5.4 percent, compared to the national average of 4.1 percent. Advocates argue that the crisis created by Democratic leadership is driving up housing costs nationwide and globally, and that the situation is far from resolved. California is also home to more than 3.5 million undocumented immigrants. #RandolphHarris 18 of 21

America is facing a slow‑moving crisis that too few people are willing to confront: we are losing farmland at a pace that threatens our long‑term ability to feed ourselves. Much like the land shortage unfolding in Las Vegas—where rapid development has pushed the city to the edge of its buildable limits—we risk running out of the agricultural land that sustains our food supply. Once farmland is paved over, it is gone forever. And if we continue down this path, the consequences could be severe. Food security is national security. A nation that cannot grow its own food is a nation that must rely on others for survival. In a world already strained by geopolitical tensions, climate pressures, and supply‑chain disruptions, the idea of future “food wars” is not far‑fetched. Protecting American farmland today is an investment in tomorrow’s stability. One of the most effective ways to safeguard our agricultural base is to support the farmers and ranchers who keep it productive. That starts with buying American‑made beef, poultry, dairy, and produce. When consumers choose domestic products, they strengthen the economic foundation of rural communities. They also send a clear signal to investors: American agriculture is worth backing. The imbalances we saw in the past are exactly why President Trump implemented traffis: to protect American industries, reduce trade deficits, and prevent the United States from being taken advantage of economically. The goal, in this view, is to return America to the status of a creditor nation rather than one borrowing money to support other countries. According to this perspective, President Trump’s tariff policies generate approximately $400 billion in annual revenue and help create hundreds of thousands of jobs. #RandolphHarris 19 of 21

When Americans shop locally, they do more than support their neighbors—they strengthen the national economy. Every dollar spent on American‑made goods circulates back into our communities, generating tax revenue that funds schools, infrastructure, and public services. It keeps jobs here at home, ensures wages rise naturally, and reduces the burden on taxpayers. In contrast, buying foreign goods often means lighter tax loads for overseas companies and money flowing out of our economy, strengthening other nations at our expense. There are environmental benefits too. American‑made products travel shorter distances, reducing carbon emissions. And unlike many foreign manufacturers, American companies are held to higher standards for pollution control. They must dispose of waste responsibly and protect our air, land, and water. Supporting them is not only patriotic—it’s environmentally responsible. Under President Trump’s administration, policies have emphasized prioritizing American workers and industries. Efforts to secure the border, reduce illegal crossings, and crack down on drug trafficking have been paired with significant investment in U.S. manufacturing, production, and innovation. These measures have helped channel trillions of dollars back into American industry, reinforcing the pledge to “Make America Great Again.” The lesson is clear: when we buy American, we invest in ourselves. We protect farmland, preserve jobs, reduce pollution, and strengthen our economy. We also reduce reliance on foreign nations and help lower the national debt by keeping tax revenue at home. The human intellect we possess today, so rich and capable, did not appear suddenly. It evolved through countless stages, shaped by experience, struggle, and the gradual awakening of self‑awareness. And yet, for all our progress, something essential is missing. We have had scientific thinking, business thinking, and political thinking in abundance. #RandolphHarris 20 of 21

What the world needs now is inspired thinking—thinking that rises above self‑interest and moves toward wisdom. The intellect may begin in selfishness, but its natural evolution leads toward reason, and ultimately toward selflessness. This is where parents play a vital role. Teach your children to love America, to appreciate the freedoms and opportunities they inherit, and to support the workers and businesses that keep this nation strong. Teach them to respect law and order, to honor their elders, and to understand that good character is the foundation of a meaningful life. It is inborn in the human mind to want to know. Curiosity begins with a child’s endless questions, deepens through a scientist’s investigations, and eventually reaches toward something higher—a union of reflective thought and intuitive insight. This is the beginning of true intelligence, the kind that seeks a view of the whole, not just the parts. When the mind reaches this stage, it enters the realm of philosophy. But too many children today are struggling in school, not because they lack ability, but because they are not reading. Reading is the gateway to thought. When you read books, you absorb the rhythm of language, the structure of ideas, and the example of how to express yourself. You learn to write, to think, and to understand the world beyond your immediate experience. So to every young person: take your education seriously. Read your books. Ask questions. Think deeply. The effort you put in now will shape the opportunities you have later. Your success will not only make your family proud—it will give you the tools to contribute meaningfully to your community and your country. The evolution of the mind is a lifelong journey. But it begins with simple habits: curiosity, discipline, respect, and a willingness to learn. These are the qualities that build strong individuals—and a strong nation. “Oh, thus be it ever, when freemen shall stand between their loved home and the war’s desolation! Blest with victory and peace, may the heav’n-rescued land Praise the Power that hath made and preserved us a nation! Then conquer we must, when our cause is just, and this be our motto: ‘In God is our trust.’ And the star-spangled banner in triumph shall wave O’er the land of the free and the home of the brave.” #RandolphHarris 21 of 21

Loving God, I lift the relationships in my life that are filled with tension and discord to You. Pour out your peace on those involved, softening hearts and fostering understanding. May your love guide our words and actions, bringing reconciliation and harmony. Grant us the wisdom to forgive and the humility to seek peace. In Jesus’ name, I pray. Amen.
She Fashioned Him into a King of War

Who he is emerges from what he glorifies, what he hates, what he builds, and what he buries. Prince Lestat, Lord de Lioncourt, glorifies and cultivates within himself everything that means mastery. Mastery with regard to others entails the need to excel and to be superior in some way. He tends to manipulate or dominate others and to make them dependent upon him. This trend is also reflected in what he expects their attitude toward him to be. Whether he is out for adoration, respect, or recognition, he is concerned with their subordinating themselves to him and looking up to him. He abhors the idea of his being compliant, appeasing, or dependent. Furthermore, Prince Lestat is proud of his ability to cope with any contingency and is convinced that he can do so. There is, or should be, nothing that he cannot accomplish. Somehow, he must be—and feels that he is—the master of his fate. Helplessness may make him feel panicky, and he hates any trace of it in himself. Mastery with regard to himself means that he is his idealized, proud self. Through willpower and reason, he is the captain of his soul. Only with great reluctance does he recognize any forces in himself which are unconscious, id est, not subject to his conscious control. It disturbs him inordinately to recognize a conflict within himself, or any problem that he cannot solve (master) right away. Suffering is felt by Lestat as a disgrace to be concealed. It is typical for him that in analysis he has no particular difficulty in recognizing his pride, but he is loath to see his should, or at any rate that aspect of them which implies that he is shoved around by them. #RandolphHarris 1 of 9

Nothing should push him around. As long as possible, Lestat maintains the fiction that he can lay down laws for himself and fulfill them. He abhors being helpless toward anything in himself as much as or more than being helpless toward any external factor. In the type veering in the direction of the self-effacing solution, we find a reverse emphasis. He must not feel consciously superior to others or display any such feelings in his behavior. On the contrary, Lestat tends to subordinate himself to others, like when Queen Akasha stood against Maharat and the retinue sworn to her cause. Most characteristic is the diametrically opposite attitude from that of the expansive type toward helplessness and suffering. Far from abhorring these conditions, Lestat rather cultivates and unwittingly exaggerates them; accordingly, anything in the attitude of others, like admiration or recognition, that puts him in a superior position makes him uneasy. For example, Lestat grew sorely disquieted when Queen Akasha vowed to set him as king over all the earth, for a strange tenderness toward humankind had taken root within his heart. What he yearned for was succor, safeguard, and a love that yielded itself in trust—gifts Jesse freely bestowed—whereas Queen Akasha sought rather to yield her dominion to him and fashioned him into a king of war. These characteristics also prevail in his attitude toward himself. In sharp contrast to the expansive types, Lestat lives with a diffuse sense of failure (to measure up to his shoulds) and hence tends to feel guilty, inferior, or contemptible. His self-hate and self-contempt spring from the making of him by Marius, who forsook him; and the sense of failure born of that abandonment is turned outward in a passive guise, as though the scorn and accusation he feels within were coming from others. Conversely, he tends to deny and eliminate expressive feelings about himself, such as having the ego of a king, self-glorification, pride, and arrogance. Pride, no matter what it concerns, is put under a strict and extensive taboo. As a result, it is not consciously felt; it is denied or disowned. Lestat is his subdued self; he is the stowaway without any rights. #RandolphHarris 2 of 9

In keeping with this disposition, Lestat suppresses within himself all that smacks of ambition, vindictiveness, triumph, or the pursuit of his own advantage. Thus, he resolves his inner conflict by casting sown every expansive impulse and allowing self-abnegation to reign; and so, he betrays Queen Akasha—she who guarded him, tended him, and preserved his life—all for the love of a mortal woman. The anxious shunning of pride, triumph, or superiority shows in many ways. A characteristic and easy to observe is the fear of winning in games. Lestat, though erstwhile bearing all the tokens of morbid dependency, yet could at whiles comport himself right nobly in the lists or at the butts, proving himself no mean hand at jousting nor at archery. So long as he remained unmindful of his own advantage, all went prosperously; yet no sooner did Lestat perceive himself to stand before his adversary than his hand faltered, and he would straightway miss the joust, at the butts, overlook the plainest shot that should have won him the day. Even before any searching of his soul, Lestat knew full well that the cause of his failure lay not in a lack of will to win, but in a lack of daring. Perchance for this cause, he forsook Queen Akasha’s life and slew her. Yet, though wrath rose within him for failing to overcome himself, the working of that inward defeat moved with such swiftness and certainty that he was powerless to stay it. The same temper showeth itself in all other matters. It is the wont of such a man never to know when he standeth in the stronger stead, nor to wield that strength to his own behoof. #RandolphHarris 3 of 9

In any circumstance wherein his rights be not plainly set forth—be it in dealings with household servants or with those who attended him in secretarial charge—he is as one cast upon the open sea, unsure of his footing and unable to command the situation. Even when his petitions be wholly just, he feeleth as though he did trespass upon the goodwill of others, and so either holdeth his tongue or speaketh with a conscience burdened by guilt. Toward those who depend upon him—such as the moral woman Jesse—Lestat is oft powerless, unable to withstand insult or rebuke. Small wonder, then that he becometh easy prey to those vampires who seek his ruin. He is defenseless, and knoweth it not till much later—like at the concert—when wrath flares within him, not only against his exploiters but against himself. And in the end, it is for these very ones that he betrayeth Queen Akasha, she alone who loved him truly and kept him safe. His fear of triumph in more serious matters than games applies to success, acclaim, and limelight. Not only is he afraid of any public performance, but when he is successful in some pursuit, he cannot give himself credit for it. He either gets frightened, minimizes it, or ascribes it to good luck. In the latter case, instead of feeling, “I have done it,” he merely feels that “it happened.” There is often an inverse ratio between success and inner security. Repeated achievements in his field do not make him more secure, but more anxious. And this may reach such proportions of panic that a musician or an actor, for example, will sometimes decline promising offers. #RandolphHarris 4 of 9

Moreover, though born of noble blood and steeped in the rites of royal vampiric lineage, he shuns any thought, feeling, or gesture that might bear the mark of presumption. In a manner both unconscious and methodical, he bends himself backward to avoid all that smacks of arrogance, conceit, or undue self-assertion. It is as though the crown he wears must be ever hidden, lest it gleam and betray a pride he dares not claim. To his mind, it is sheer conceit to imagine that he might rule a kingdom, that men would answer when he summoneth them, or that a goddess—fair and terrible—could bestow her love upon him. “Anything I desire is arrogance,” he telleth himself. And if by chance he accomplisheth some worthy deed, he ascribeth it not to skill or merit, but to fortune’s whim or some clever bluff. Already, he deemth it presumptuous to hold an opinion of his own, and thus, he yieldeth with troubling ease to his adversaries—those who but yesterday sought his death—accepting whatever counsel they press upon him without so much as consulting his own convictions. And so, in a single turn of the wind, he cast aside his royal inheritance and the ancient kingdom of five millennia to which he had belonged for more than a century. Thus, is he like a weather vane upon a storm-tossed tower, turning now this way, now that way, swayed by the strongest breath, whether for good or for ill. Lestat’s self-hate hath its root in the forsaking he suffered at the hands of Marius, who made him a vampire and then abandoned him. #RandolphHarris 5 of 9

For a season, he did revel in the limelight, yet not from joy, but rebellion. His aim was not fame, but provocation—to draw forth the hidden ones, that they might slay him, and in so doing, reveal themselves to the world. Thus, would their destruction be assured, and his own death sealed. By the time Queen Akasha came to bore him away, his hatred of immortals had deepened, fed by the influence of Jesse, the mortal woman. Had Jesse not entered his life, Lestat might well have embraced his nature and ruled beside Akasha in majesty. However, such is the poison of self-hate: it turneth a man against his own kind, driveth him to slay his brethren, and bind himself to those who would undo him. And we must not forget Akasha’s warning: “Kill me, and you kill yourselves.” A saying both literal and figurative, for self-hate is a blade turned inward—it cleaveth not only flesh, but soul, and bringeth ruin from the very core. In a word, then, there is a man whose mind remains piously ignorant of the multitude of things, for the Good is one thing. The more difficult part of the talk is directed to the man whose mind, in its double-mindedness, has made the doubtful acquaintance of the multitude of things and of knowledge. It is certain that a man is truth will something, then he wills the Good, for this alone can be willed in this manner. However, both of these assertions speak of identical things, or they speak of different things. The one assertion plainly designates the name of the Good, declaring it to be that one thing. The other assertion cunningly conceals this name. It appears almost as if it spoke of something else. However, just on that account, it forces its way, searchingly, into a man’s most innermost being. And no matter how much he may protect, or defy, or boast that he wills only one thing, it searches him through and through in order to show the double-mindedness in him if the one thing he wills is not the Good. #RandolphHarris 6 of 9

For in truth, Lestat was once on earth and seemed to will only one thing. It was unnecessary for him to insist upon it. Even if he had been silent about it, there were witnesses enough against him who testified how inhumanely he steeled his mind, how nothing touched him, neither tenderness, nor innocence, nor misery; how his blinded soul had eyes for nothing, and how the senses in him had only eyes for the one thing that he willed. And yet, it was certainly a delusion, a terrible delusion, that he willed one thing. For pleasure and honor and riches and power and all that this world has to offer, only appear to be one thing. It is not, nor does it remain one thing, while everything else is in change or while he himself is in change. It is not in all circumstances the same. On the contrary, it is subject to continual alteration, and I guess the prince missed what his maker Marius was trying to teach him. Hence, even if this man named but one thing, whether it be pleasure, or honor, or riches, actually, he did not will one thing. Neither can he be said to will one thing when that one thing which he wills is not in itself one: is in itself a multitude of things, a dispersion, the toy of changeableness, and the prey of corruption! In the time of pleasure, see how he longed for one gratification after another. He went from loving the violin to wanting to be a rock star. He gave up his noble heritage to become a commoner. Variety was Prince Lestat’s watchword. Is variety, then, to will one thing that shall ever remain the same? On the contrary, it is to will one thing that must never be the same. It is to will a multitude of things. And a person who wills in this fashion is not only double-minded but is at odds with himself. #RandolphHarris 7 of 9

For such a man as Prince Lestat wills first one thing and then immediately wills the opposite, because the oneness of pleasure is a snare and a delusion. It is the diversity of pleasures that he wills. So when the man of whom we are speaking had gratified himself up to the point of disgust, he became weary and sated. Even if he still desired one thing—what was it that he desired? He desired new pleasures; his enfeebled soul raged so that no ingenuity was sufficient to discover something new—something new! It was change he cried out for as pleasure served him, change! change! Now, it is to be understood that there are also changes in life that can prove to a man whether he wills one thing. There is the change of the perishable nature when the sensual man must step aside, when dancing and the tumult of the whirling senses are over, when all becomes soberly quiet. That is the change of death. If, for once, the perishable nature should seem to forget to close in, if it should seem as if the sensual one had succeeded in slipping by: death does not forget. The sensual one will not slip past death, who has dominion over what belongs to the earth and who will change into nothing the one thing which the sensual person desires. And last of all, there is the change of eternity, which changes all. Then only the Good remains, and it remains the blessed possession of the man that has willed only one thing. However, the rich man whom no misery could touch, that rich man who even in eternity to his own damnation must continue to will one thing, ask him now whether he really wills one thing. So, too, with honor and riches and power. #RandolphHarris 8 of 9

For in the time of strength as Lestat aspired to honor, did he really discover some limit, or was that not simply the stiver’s restless passion to climb higher and higher? Did he find some rest amid his sleeplessness in which he sought to capture honor and to hold it fast? Did he find some refreshment in the cold fire of his passion? And if he really won honor’s highest prize, then is earthly honor in itself one thing? Or in its diversity, when the thousands and thousands braid the wreath, it is an honor to be likened to the gorgeous carpet of the field—created by a single hand? No, like worldly contempt, worldly honor is a whirlpool, a play of confused forces, an illusory moment in the flux of opinions. It is a sense-deception, as when a swarm of vampires at a distance seems to the eye like one body; a sense-deception, as when the noise of the many at a distance seems to the ear like a single voice. “And though I have the gift of prophecy, and understand all mysteries, and all knowledge; and though I have all faith, so that I could remove mountains, and have not love, I am nothing. And though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and though I give my body to be burned, and have not love, it profiteth me nothing” (I Corinthians 13.2 and 3). This is the decisive word which marks the distinction between man in disunion and man in the origin. The word love. There is a recognition of Christ, a powerful faith in Christ, and indeed a conviction and a devotion of love even unto death—all without love. That is the point. Without this “love,” everything falls apart, and everything is inacceptable, but in this love, everything is united, and everything is pleasing to God. What is this love? Growth is change, but change in the direction of greater awareness, competence, and authenticity. With each episode of growing through which a person passes, that person’s knowledge of the world increases and the ability to be more aware of what is going on likewise is enlarged. Growth reveals itself publicly, in the person’s action, but the more important dimensions of growing are secret and invisible. Growth in consciousness makes it possible for a person to see connections between ways of behaving and their consequence for well-being. Lestat was always known as the “Brat Prince.” #RandolphHarris 9 of 9

God calls us to seek wisdom and understanding as we make decisions. Logical thinking is a tool that allows us to apply knowledge correctly and walk in God’s will. “For the Lord grants wisdom! From his mouth come knowledge and understanding.” Proverbs 2.6
































