While functioning in the World is possible at the higher vibrations of love (500s), we may end up leaving the ordinary arena of commerce and abandoning our prior social milieu and occupation. How does the scale work? Well, imagine you have a scale of 1 to 1,000, with 1,000 being the highest state a human being can attain. If you reach this level, you would be and Enlightened Master. At the lowest end of the spectrum is someone who is not thriving at all. Right now, the average level on Earth is around 207—and this is because throughout many people’s lives they accumulate hidden energy blockages and negative condition that holds them back from higher vibrations. By continual surrender, we experience the state of unconditional love (calibrates at 540), which is rare and occurs in less than half a percent of the population. This energy is miraculous, effortless, radiant, devotional, saintly, diffuse, merciful, and selfless. It is characterized by inner joy, faith ecstasy, patience, compassion, persistence, essence, beauty, synchronicity, perfection, surrender, rapture, vision, and openness. #RyanPhillippe 1 of 7

We relinquish seeing the personal self as a causal agent. Everything happens effortlessly by synchronicity at the level of 500, and above, and this is the vibration of love. It is not something that you can buy, it is something that is inside of you and has to be organic and authentic. When you vibrate at this level life becomes drastically different. Love, joy, and abundance are suddenly within your grasp. Pain, stress, and struggle seem to melt away and you become a magnet for what you truly desire. And research has shown that your energy does not just affect you, but the people around you, too. We are conduits of love. Spiritual progress is known to be the result of Grace, which is the free and unmerited favor of God, as manifested in bestowal of blessings. Grace means God moving Heaven and Earth to save people who could not lift a finger to save themselves. Grace means God sending His  Son to descend into hell on the cross so that the guilty might be reconciled to God and received into Heaven. #RyanPhillippe 2 of 7

Gratitude for the state replaces pride of accomplishment. How do you know what a person can do if you do not know them? It is easy to look at a person and say you can do this or that, and I was not being condescending towards Walmart employees. I am being serious, if I could to work at department store and work 60 hours a week, I would. If I could tolerate grass and pollen, I would mow lawns. I do what I can to achieve more than what I have. And all I am saying is if you are a graphic designer or a Stanford graduate, then why is it you spend so much time online and do not have gainful employment? And there is so much more content in the research that I produce besides formalities or definitions, it is not a blog, it is actually journalism. There are facts, news, current events and research in here. A blog is just opinions and a horrible word. It sounds so ugly and is a way to cheapen what someone does and make them feel inadequate. The process of surrender continues ever more deeply, as we let go of all doubt, all belief systems, all perceptions, all positions, all opinions, and all attachments.  #RyanPhillippe 3 of 7

To return to the inescapable question of Salvation, yes, I do remain rooted in a relativistic Universe, no matter how spectacularly defined I have become as to form and function, and I find myself within the same dimension in which I existed before my transformation, and therefore I must ask: am I perforce outside the economy of grace established before His Crucifixion, both events which I firmly believe to have occurred within human history and chronology, and to be knowable through both, and to be knowable through both, and commanding a response in both? Or can the Sacraments of Holy Mother the Church redeem me in my present state? I must conclude on the face of it, from my short experience, from the ecstasy and abandon which have so rampantly replaced all pain and suffering within an organism which I am, that I assume that I stand excommunicated from the Body of Christ by my very nature. We become willing to surrender all attachments, even attachment to the exquisite state of Ecstasy, which is beyond description. #RyanPhillippe 4 of 7

It could be that I am never to know the answer to this question, no matter how thoroughly I investigate the World and myself, and does not this very unknowing only bring me all the closer to full existential participation in humankind? Out of humility, all opinions about others are surrendered. In a certain way, nobody can help being other than what they are. Love knows this truth and takes no position. Love augments the benefits about others rather than their defects. It focuses on life’s goodness in all of its expressions. Yet, I cannot figure out why many of you hide and move so slowly and pretend not to know what you did wrong. No matter how much you have gained, through your corruption and unlawful behavior, in your heart and soul, you are vibrating at a low level and it diminishes your attractiveness to others. Unconditional love is a love that does not expect anything from others. When we have become loving, we have no limitations or demands on others that they should be a certain way in order to be loved. #RyanPhillippe 5 of 7

We are to be fountains through which God can flow as rivers of living water in blessing to everyone. As surely as we receive blessings from Him, He will pour out blessings through us.  It is not a blessing that you pass on, or an experience that you share with others, but a river that continually flows through you. Stay at the Source, closely guarding your faith in God and Christ and your relationship to Him, and there will be a steady flow into the lives of others. The river of the Spirit of God overcomes all obstacles. I am tired of waiting for people to pay for what they did, sick of answering the same questions over and over again, so what is the hold up? My life is private and not a book open for debate, you made a choice and decision to torture me and illegally obtain my information, and now you must pay. Never focus your eyes on the obstacle or the difficulty. It was useless to say anything at this juncture. It was not a vampire that they had just seen. They knew and suspected nothing of supernatural origin here. It was this spectacular “recovery” which had them in total disbelief.  #RyanPhillippe 6 of 7

The back parlor was best for such gatherings, having no bookshelves and a deep velvet sofa and lots of tolerable Queen Anne chairs. Of course there was ormolu and inlaid wood everywhere, and a blazing new wallpaper of wine and beige stripes, and the garlands of flowers in the carpet seemed to be having convulsions, and the Impressionist paintings on the wall in their thick encrusted frames were like windows into a far, far better, sun-filled Universe, but it was a good room. I shut off the overhead chandelier immediately and switched on two of the smaller corner lamps. It was softly dim now, but not uncomfortably so, and I directed everyone to sit down. The obstacle will be a matter of total indifference to the river that will flow steadily through you if you will simply remember to stay focused on the Source. Never allow anything to come between you and Jesus Christ—not emotion nor experience—nothing must keep you from the one great sovereign Source. The enumeration in the Constitution of certain rights shall not be construed to deny or disparage others retained by the people. The right of the people to be secure in their persons, houses, papers, and effects, against unreasonable searches and seizures, shall not be violated. #RyanPhillippe 7 of 7

We went down the passage and out onto the rear balcony and down into the courtyard and found a couple of iron chairs. I realized that I have never used these chairs. They were pretty after a fashion, Victorian, ornate. I did not own anything that I was not pretty after a fashion, or downright beautiful, if I could not help it. According to the view of the ancient Persian kings, it was they who, in a special way, were the representatives of the Earth of the cause and will of the Lord of Light. And so we find that in great multiracial and multicultural empire of the Persians—which, in fact, was the first such empire in history of the World—there was a religiously authorized imperialistic impulse, to the end that, in the name of truth, goodness, and the light, the Persian King of Kings should become the leader of mankind to the restitution of truth. The idea is one that has had a particular appeal to kings and has been taken over, accordingly, by conquering monarch everywhere. #RyanPhillippe 1 of 6

The garden enclosed of with its high banana trees and its night blooming flowers. The music of the water in the fountain mingled with the distant sound of Akasha writing, and Akasha whispering as she wrote. I could hear the whole damned city if I tried. The sky was a faint lilac color now, overcast and reflecting the city glow. In India, the mythic image of the Chakravartian for instance, the Universal king, the illumination of whose presence would bring peace and will-being to mankind, is a figure inspired largely by this thought. It is to be recognized in the royal emblems of the first Buddhist monarch, Ashoka, ca. 262-248 Before Christ. And in China, immediately following the turbulent period known as Chun Kuo, “of the Warring States,” the first ruler of a united empire, Shih Huang Ti (221-207 Before Christ), governed, according to his claim, by the mandate of Heaven, under Heaven’s law. #RyanPhillippe 2 of 6

If Aunt Queen somehow knew what really happened to me, what I had become, as we always say so delicately, that finally Heaven and Earth had moved. The energy of love has the capacity to heal our bodies when conditions are appropriate. On the physical level, because of the prevailing beneficial mental state, physical illnesses often resolve themselves. Some ailments automatically heal without any particular attention being paid to them, and those that still remain usually respond to consciousness techniques. Persistent ailments that are unresponsive to treatment are viewed as a karmically, symbolically, or spiritually significant. Overall, there is a decreasing awareness of the body, which now goes about its business and seems to take care of itself on its own. We are no longer identified as a body. There is a loss of interest in dealing with health matters on a purely physical level, and there are times when awareness of the body disappears altogether, unless we focus on it for some particular reason, but in the Blood you go where nobody wants to go. That is the horror of it. That is the beauty of it. #RyanPhillippe 3 of 6

Could it really have been so freakish, so abnormal? You know, years ago, I told you…I went to dinner at the William Randolph Hearst Castle. There was some secret, some dark hidden story present there the whole time. As we move on year by year in this life, we learn that telling does not necessarily purge; telling sometimes merely is a reliving, and it is a torment. Intuitive understanding progressively replaces assumption, which begins to disappear. Over times, assumption and its mental process are replaced by spontaneous, intuitive knowingness. Logic is by passed. This occurs because, at the highest level of vibration, everything in the Universe is connected with everything else. Our understanding unfolds as revelations from this inter-connected field. The knowing is holistic rather than limited. I must confess that it has already become undeniably clear to me, though I have existed in this exalted state for only two nights, that the very nature of my powers and the means of existence attest to the ontological supremacy of a sensualist philosophy having taken up residence within me, as I proceed from moment to moment and from hour to hour both to apprehend the Universe around me and the microcosm of my own self. #RyanPhillippe 4 of 6

Because of the inner quiet, we have the ability to perceive the thoughts and feelings of others on a nonverbal level. Nonverbal communication with others become possible and commonplace. Negative emotions are no longer experienced because of the small self has been transcended, absorbed into the greater Self. Emotional phenomena are thereby transformed. This requires of me an immediate redefining of the concept of mystical, which I have heretofore mentioned to include a state both elevated and totally carnal, both transcendent and orgasmic, which delivers me when strengthen my life force or gazing at a lighted candle beyond all human epistemological constraints. To return to the question of Salvation, yes, I do remain rooted in a relativistic Universe, no matter how spectacularly defined I have become as to form and function, and I find myself within the same dimension in which I existed before. The energy of motor performance is inexhaustible. We may dance with ecstasy all night in a candlelit chapel, as if being danced by the Source of Life itself. #RyanPhillippe 5 of 6

It seems wise to accept, in deepest humility and with an aim towards a validating spiritual perfection at the onset, that I may never hope at any juncture of y wandering, be they for untold centuries or for a few short years of near unendurable ecstasy, to know whether I share in the Savior’s Redemption, and that that very unknowing may be the price I pay for my extra-human sensibility and inherently blood thirsty triumph over the pain I once suffered, over the imminent death that once tyrannized me, over the ubiquitous threat of human time. However, I wonder why some people are so hopelessly egregious. They seem patently unworthy of all the philosophical considerations that the Bible has lavished upon them! The very ink has not dried up in the circuits of my cruel preternatural brain. If, to please the people, we offer what we ourselves disapprove, how can we afterwards defend our work? Let us raise a standard to which the wise and the honest can repair. The event is in the hands of God. #RyanPhillippe 6 of 6

The Sacramento Kings arena is so scandalous, the cost of the thing just increased to $560 million today, but many of you did not ask where the money came from or how it will change the culture of the city. It is like a movie. The next scene was the “big six” World Class City Leaders of Sacramento meeting with the city council. And they were told that their money-wrangling in public was damaging their image. $5,000 was donated to find out who killed some black boy, Deston Garrett, at a local high school, while the because the “Black Lives Matter Movement” was a trendy way to quail the public. Now, what had that instantly achieved black unity? The white man’s money. What string was attached to the money? Advice. Not only was there this donation, but another comparable sum was promised, for some time later on…obviously lives, which are priceless are being bought, and selective justice is being applied because no public official offered a reward for the white boy, Joshiah Humpreys, who was beaten to death, in Midtown, his own family did, but without political pressure, no one has solved that murder. #RyanPhillippe 1 of 10

Many of you may want to be thankful that Colin Kaepernick sat down and peacefully protested injustice that is happening right here in America. As the United States of America announces it will meet the goal of admitting 10,000 Syria refugees a month ahead of time. Meanwhile, we also have an unlawful immigration problem and it is costing lives. Denis Yasmir Amaya Rodriguez, a 37-year-old Honduran national who lived largely in the United States of America as an undocumented immigrant was allegedly driving a party bus in Baton Rouge, Louisiana USA that smashed into an accident scene, killing two—including a local fire department chief—and injuring 41 others. The men and women belonging to power structures in thousands of communities across America know that we are right, there is a problem. I am describing what has been the true pattern of a system that has done more hard to America than an invading America would be because we have people who do not have our best intentions at heart working with our lives and government. So many people are downtrodden, jobless, and hungry. #RyanPhillippe 2 of 10

Is history repeating itself? The Jewish people, were said to be making greater contributions to Germany than Germans themselves had. Jewish people had won over half of Germany’s Nobel Prizes. Every culture in Germany was led by a Jewish person; they were publishing the greatest newspapers. Jewish people had some of the best artist, the greatest poets, composers, and stage directors. However, those Jewish people made a fatal mistake—they ignored reality and pretended nothing was wrong, turned a blind eye to the problems that were going on in Germany. From World War I to Adolph Hilter’s rise, the Jewish people in Germany had been increasingly intermarrying. Many changed their names and many took other religions. Their own Jewish religion, their own rich Jewish ethnic and cultural roots, they anesthetized, and cut off…until they began thinking of themselves as “Germans.” And they next thing they knew, there was Hilter, rising to power from the beer halls—with his emotional “Aryan master race” theory. And right at hand, a group made to bear blame, was the self-weakened, self-deluded “German” Jewish people. #RyanPhillippe 3 of 10

Most mysterious is how did those Jewish people—with all of their brilliant minds, with all of their power in every aspect of Germany’s affairs—how did those Jewish people stand almost as if mesmerized, watching something which did not spring upon them overnight, but which gradually developed—a monstrous plan for their own murder. Their self-brainwashing has been so complete that not long after, in the gas chamber, a lot of them were still gasping, “It cannot be true!” If Hitler had conquered the Word, as he meant to—that is a shuddery thought for every Jewish person alive today. The Jewish people will never forget their lesson. Masses of Americans weakened, lulled, and deluded allowing refugees and illegal immigrants to come to American to rule, while we are $19.5 trillion in debt. And spontaneously, suddenly, now, that idea has caught on. Overalled rural Southern Americans, small town Americans, Northern ghetto Americans, even thousands of brainwashed Americans are now coalesced into silence, living in Shame and hiding in the shadows, and for what? People are forced to live in rundown shacks where they have to sleep with the windows close so their kids do not get contact high from the person next door smoking meth or crack. #RyanPhillippe 4 of 10

Many of you are in rickety old cars (rain buckets), on buses, hitch-hiking—walking and there is a national bitterness because so many are working and can barely pay the bills. They go home at the end of the day, exhausted, and their bodies in pain because they are working so hard to get out of a region of space having a gravitational field so intense that no matter nor radiation can escape; a place where people or things, especially money, disappear without a trace. It is important to realize that American is in debt by $19.5 trillion. This means America is broke, we have no money, we are borrowing to pay our own bills. American citizens are already having a hard time finding jobs and supporting themselves with the jobs that they do have. We have people sleeping on the streets, I was walking and almost stepped on one the other night, and kids cannot afford to do their homework because it now requires that they have computers and are able to go online to complete assignments. Many parents are having a hard time paying the bills and buying food, heck, some cannot even afford to pay the electricity bills so their kids can go online to do their homework. And even if they have computers, many parents did not grow up with the technology and are not able to help their children navigate websites. #RyanPhillippe 5 of 10

While many people choose not to look at the reality that hyperinflation, a lack of skills, and a lack of jobs is the reason for gun violence, they are still hollering gun control. However, as many of you know, people often times commit crimes because they cannot afford to make a living the honest way and have to hustle, deal dope, or prostitute to make a living and when they are a victim of a crime, they cannot go to the police and admit they were robbed because they were doing an illegal activity to make a living. Instead, these people are forced to defend themselves. And while the Orlando nightclub massacre was very tragic, these type of events have been going on in cities like Chicago, Illinois for decades and it is totally overlooked. In fact, the murder rate in Chicago, Illinois USA is up by 72 percent in 2016, and shootings have increased more than 88 percent this year. In Chicago Illinois, USA 90 people are shot each week. There have been 2,818 people shot in Chicago from 1 January 2016 to 29 August 2016 and most are young men, some innocent victims on their way to register their children for school, or just on their way to work. #RyanPhillippe 6 of 10

In, over this past weekend, 67 people were shot in Chicago, Illinois USA, and 11 of the died. And as you know, once a person is shot it takes time to recover and their bodies many never be the same again. They might lose the ability to walk, suffer brain damage, or their organs many be so thrashed that even eating becomes a challenge. Chicago has a population of 2.6 million and has reported a total of 487 homicides this year already, and last year 2,988 people were shot, so in 2016, it is likely they will break the record consider it is only August and 2,818 people have been shot already. In comparison, New York, New York USA has recorded population of 8.406 million people, 222 homicides and 760 shoot victims in 2016. Los Angeles, California USA has a population of 4 million people, 176 people have been slain, and 729 people have been shot, as of August 2016. The Gun violence in Chicago has been credited to poverty and because of rapid competition for scares resources. #RyanPhillippe 7 of 10

Even one life is too much to lose. I know many of your fear when your family member walks out the door, he or she may not make it home, especially if you know they are being targeted or have been a target of violence in the past. Meanwhile, I think that it is important to point out, while we are inviting people from other countries over to live in America, we cannot even afford to take care of our own people. And yet Sacramento, California USA has spent at least $560 million dollars to build a sports complex, and they already had one. To build this new sports complex, which is expected to raise rents and increase street parking to $20, it is important to note that the arena has no parking, there are already traffic problems in the area, the project was deemed unsafe because of the large numbers of people it will draw to this already densely packed area, and the city also tore down the Downtown Plaza, which was a fairly new, state of the art mall. So not only will these people have no were to live, park, but now they will have no mall to shop at. #RyanPhillippe 8 of 10

And furthermore, many people critics Colin Kaepernick for sitting down during the National Anthem, but be thankful it was a peaceful protest because the religion of many of the people you are inviting over to America, to look cool, and win votes have a different ideology. Some religions teach people that a Holy War is their duty, and that during periods of Great Conquest, men of a certain religion, who is free, of full age, in full possession of his intellectual powers, and physically fit for service is a warriors and, “Fighting is prescribed to you,” we read in the Holy Koran, Sura 2 verse 216. “True, you have an antipathy to it: however, it is possible that your antipathy is to something that is nevertheless good for you. God knows, and you know not. To fight in the cause of Truth is one of the highest forms of charity. What can you offer that is more precious than your own life?” These people truly believe that all “the territory belongs to Islam (dar al-Islam) and are to be conquered and are known, therefore, as the territory of war (dar al-harb). I am commanded to fight until men bare witness, there is no god, but God and his Messenger Mohammad.” #RyanPhillippe 9 of 10

Clearly, I love America, as I am sure Colin Kaepernick does, but the fact is we need to wake up to the injustice that is going on in our own country and realize that there are poor Americans, and it is not funny. People who have fought to serve America come home and are killed. There are some reporters who has spent over a decade terrorizing a certain citizen and that has yet to make news. And a beautiful young black Queen, Nykea Aldridge, a cousin of NBA star Dwyane Wade was shot and killed as she took her baby in a stroller on Chicago’s South Side on Sunday. So, it is time to wake up and realize that we need change in America. It is time to shut our doors and deal with our problems instead of ignoring what is going on and repeatedly backsliding, rejecting, and even slaying the United States Constitution and Human Rights for Americans. We need to be aware that we have unwittingly become injustice collectors. We are unconsciously programmed to believe that injustice collecting is normal. However, this habitual pattern, which is destructive and weakening America. “There is far too many of you dying. You know we have got to find a way to bring some lovin’ here today.” -Marvin Gaye #RyanPhillippe 10 of 10

Envision yourself, tired after a rotten day, watching the evening news on TV with David Muir. The first story, following an endless string of commercial, is about genetically modified foods, a newly cloned species, and the controversy over human cloning. What would you do? I had been waiting for almost a week before I finally got the call I had been expecting from my mother. She left a vague message with Ava that she had something that she wanted me to pick up at her house. Of course, this drove Ava crazy, but it was the first time my mother had received deliveries for e and refused to share any information with my daughter. She loved Ava, but was very good about protecting my interests. Besides, the things I had delivered to my mother’s house were normally just gifts for Ava and Deacon that I did not want them to open before their birthdays, so my mother’s secret-keeping was pretty innocent, at least until now. I knew that this time the delivery would be the results of the deoxyribonucleic acid (DNA), which is the double-stranded molecule that contains the genetic code. DNA is a main component of chromosomes. The DNA molecule is composed of two chains of even smaller molecules called nucleotides. A nucleotide, in turn, is made up of three components: a sugar molecule (deoxyribose), a phosphate unit, and one of four nitrogenous bases. #RyanPhillippe 1 of 6

We live in an age when genetic discoveries and genetically based technologies are advancing daily, and they will have a profound affect on your life. In a deoxyribonucleic acid (DNA), nucleotides are stacked on top of one another to form a chain that is bonded along its bases to another to form a chain that is bonded along its bases to another nucleotide chain. Together the two twist to form a spiral, or helical, shape. The resulting DNA molecule, then, is two-stranded and is described as forming a double helix that resembles a twisted ladder. If we follow the twisted ladder. If we follow the twisted ladder analogy, the sugars and phosphates represent the two sides, while the bases and the bonds between them form rungs. Because it directs all cellular functions, DNA is the very basis of life. The exact physical and chemical properties of DNA were unknown until 1953 when, in Cambridge, England, an American researcher named James Watson and three other British scientists, Francis Crick, Maurice Wilkins, and Rosalind Franklin, developed a structural and functional model. It would be difficult to overstate the importance of their achievement because it completely revolutionized the fields of biology and medicine and forever altered our understanding of biological and evolutionary mechanisms. The official body to which all may belong is the vision that infuses the dramas; it is not an easy one, and it cannot be so if its community is true. #RyanPhillippe 2 of 6

The results of the DNA test, which were supposed to be sent in a plain envelop without the company logo on it, were of the utmost importance. With the unmarked envelope, I was confident my mother had no idea what she was keeping for me in her house. I had decided to have the results sent to my parents’ house instead of my house because I did not want someone to steal my mail while I was at work or on vacation and I could not be sure someone gossip tabloid would not open the letter before I had a chance to pick it up. The call from my mother had come in the morning, and the wait to go over there and get it felt like torture. I wanted to go as soon as possible to get an answer about this reporter’s paternity, but I could not leave until late in the afternoon, when Deacon was off at Little League practice, and Ava went to rehearsals for Legally Blonde, the Broadway play. They loved my parents, mostly because they spoiled their grandkids, and seeing their roots in Wilmington, Delaware USA gave them a sense of identity; so if they knew I was going to my parents’ house, they would have insisted on going with me. The sense of community, when it is sound, gives men an equal sense of order and of disruptive forces. Surely that is conveyed again and again in the body of my vast work. At some point, you or someone you love will probably need lifesaving medical treatment, perhaps for Spina Bifida and this treatment will very likely be made possible by genetic research. #RyanPhillippe 3 of 6

When I pulled up in front of my mother’s house, a wave of nostalgia washed over me. This was the house I grew up in, and memories flooded me as I sat, my engine idling. I looked up at the roof where I “broke” my left arm. My eyes traveled to the porch I used to jump from with my skateboard, then I saw my old surfboard. Those were the good old days, when life was simple…not the mess my life was not. I felt like a little boy again, and although I did not want to admit it, I wanted to move back to the house with my parents again. I was beyond exhaustion. I had been crying and crying because I was trying so hard not to beat this bitch ass for making a mess of my life and my family, while she was trying to use me to become famous. Man, my mother warned me of these gold digging hoes. The chills came again. A wild vision possessed me of snatching her up and away from this place, as my teeth pressed to her neck, her blood mine, all the chambers of her soul yielding to me. I banished it. I had told this woman not to talk to me or my kids every again. I do not want to be shown as a miserable victim, I am a man of a single-track mind. I am a powerful king, secure, free and in my own palace. A single man often creates a community, and a reverent one. #RyanPhillippe 4 of 6

And the community was in an uproar about this alleged journalist son of mine. A little shock went through m when my eyes met his, and suddenly when I turned to look in his direction again, he had vanished. He was wearing something, I supposed. What was it? Oh, yeah, the de rigueur Delaware white linen three-piece suit. Hmm. So this mortal sees ghosts. People were examining me all too closely. I do not know. There is something wrong with the way ghost act. And the same holds true for angels. I am not saying there is not an afterlife, but why is he acting so elusive, like he is sacred of me or I make him nervous? Nonetheless, I am only maintaining that those entities who come down here so beneficently to meddle with us are more than a little cracked. I am sick of people back there, in Hollywood, California USA, stalking and studying me. Why could I not just talk to this young man for a moment, comfort him, vanish with him upstairs, watch 2 Broke Girls, Supernatural, Grimm, and American Gothic, his favorite Shows, then tear this house apart, fly with him to another part of the World, and build a palace deep in the Amazon jungles for my family to rest in peace? There was something defenseless about this guy. I notice he was also studying me with a sharp angry expression on his face. So what? #RyaPhillippe 5 of 6

Like it or not, you already eat genetically modified foods, and sadly, you may soon see genetically altered bacteria and viruses used to make biological weapons, which is why it is important to get vaccinated, and if you are going to have the sex, use protection like a condom and frequently wash your hands. Fortunately, many people great social and mental hygiene and you will also see many of the secrets of evolution revealed through genetic research. So even if you have not been particularly interested in genetic research and genetic issues, you should be aware that they affect your life on a daily basis. So, are you going to change the channel? Leave the room? Go to sleep? Or do you follow the story? And if you do follow it, do you understand it? Do you think it is important or relevant to you personally? I am not another hustling preacher-pimp to be found in every ghetto, the ones with some little storefront churches of mostly hardworking antiquated women, who keep their “pretty boy” young preacher dressed in “sharp” clothes and driving a fancy car. I have to quickly let you know how serious I am with this, and put the old talking streets at ease, and we had a great reunion. We laughed until we cried. (www.thedeedle.com) #RyanPhillippe 6 of 6

I want to close my eyes; I can feel the ocean tickling the toes on my feet. Trickling, slowly moving, waves flowing into the sea, it will exist forever, although losing itself. You dedicate yourself silently without leaving a fame, but the value of life will exist forever with your career. You say love is the seas’s magnificence and grandiosity, but I say you have the sea’s character and spirit. It surmounts broken cliffs, crossing grassland, throwing rosy clouds, taking stars, singing to the distance…it advances towards the fixed destination and enjoys the bestowment by the nature heartedly. When our lips separated so that we might breathe what was left of the air, I could feel the gravity of power, smell the flavor of the sea breeze in a creator and see the capacity of creating ability in you. You are a real eagle as you are being baptized in your fight against the storm. And we have readiness for the larger mystery that is not snuffed out by the mundanely factual in the unresolved sentimental indulgence. What justifies the sense of mysterious event that makes it seem, not a teasing and unresponsive puzzle, but a breaking-through of transcendental reality.  #RyanPhillippe 1 of 7

In a freer state, desire is chosen and manifests in our life effortlessly. We surrender the emotion of nympholepsy and, instead, merely choose the goal, the photo is lovingly allowing it to happen because we see it is already ours. I admire the rock standing by the sea, which meets the erosion of the wave. You are the rock which is still unherbed and straight after beaten by the tidy of life. Elegance is the reflection of one’s bringing up and the essence of the beauty of the human body. May you keep the present grace and let the grace stay with you forever. What we hold in mind tends to manifest. We are heartfelt, generous, nurturing, affectionate, steadfast, and forgiving. Love is protective energy that radiates more than any other emotion or thought—it has an everlasting state of being. You can transfer your sadness, happiness, fear, hope, doubt, advise and anything in your heart to me.  Some such experience may be provided reputably by the spirits, the visions, all the strange existences and events beyond nature that God keeps coming back to and setting forth for our contemplation. #RyanPhillippe 2 of 7

Through mystery, that ism we grasp a little more of the totality which there is revelation to add to your faith and virtue and virtue to knowledge. I appreciate your principle of living, you make working as an entertainment, while making entertainment your work. You are the happiest person in the World. Love is what we have become through the pathway of surrender. It is a way of being in the World that say: “How can I be of help to you? How can I comfort you?” What fortitude the soul contains, that it can so endure the accent of the capacious sea. Between eternity and time, your consciousness is with me. When the Sun is with me, I feel a beautiful reminiscence and you have impressed in my mind the purity of the sacred mirror. Once one has gained friendship, hardship and agony will decrease and mirth and happiness will increase many times. I hide myself within the flower in your heart. I would toss it yonder like a rind and taste eternity. If you were coming in the fall, I would brush the Summer by with half a smile. Indeed, the more rational the ordering of existence, the greater the thirst for mystery; and our own is unslaked. For if these things are yours and abound, you will be neither barren nor unfruitful. #RyanPhillippe 3 of 7

I want to tell you—you are a special gift in my heart; I want to thank you—for giving me friendly hands in wind and rain; I want to wish you—be accompanied by happiness and safety. I did always love, I bring thee proof: that till I loved, I did not love enough, and life hath immortality. And later in August it may be, but romantic love is only a minor part of human lifetime. There are many opportunities to contribute to the beauty and harmony of the World by showing kindness to all living things with the lovingness that we use to light the World. Love facilitates healing and it transforms life. Once you become vampirize by amour, we transcend the smaller aspects of ourselves by accepting all the miracles of life. We are thankful for bright crowds of flowers. I say, as if this little flower to Eden wandered in—what then? Why, nothing, only your inference therefrom! I am running on your love, sailing your heart, drifting into your heart, the boat to take me home. To be loved, to be one, to be loved. It is imaginable that in some way we accept these marvels—not merely by the naturalizing process to which we are prone, since it is not often applicable; nor by the symbolizing process, which must too much tax our inventiveness; nor by that gracious suspension of disbelief that permits the work to live. #RyanPhillippe 4 of 7

It is imaginable, rather, that we accept what in some obscure manner answers to something in us—to an inclination for, and a sense of, mystery that does not quite surrender to the commandind patters of rationalistic life. Touch your soul, I feel your heart rise, as far as you are is as far as I see. With your trust, you feed my hunger, and you can take anything you want from me. And I, could stand by and see you freeze, without my right of frost love’s privilege? Because you saturated sight, and I had no more eyes for sordid excellence as Paradise. And you were lost, I would be, though my name rang loudest on the Heavenly frame. And were you saves, and I condemned to be where you were not, that self were hell to me. So we must keep apart, you there, I here, with just the door ajar that oceans are, and prayer, and that pale sustenance, despair! There came a day at Summer’s full entirely for me; I thought that such were for the saints, where revelation be. Time never changes my deep love for you and just deepens my love. I shall expect the happiness of another encounter all because of your smile. Happy birthday to you! (10 September 2016). The Holy Spirit reveals to me that Aallah loved me not because I was lovable, but because it was God’s nature to do so. #RyanPhillippe 5 of 7

Stop hesitating—take the first step. Be determined to act immediately in faith on what God says to you, and never reconsider or change your initial decision. If you hesitate when God tells you to do something, you are being careless, spurning the grace in which you stand. Take the initiative yourself, make a decision of your will right now, and make it impossible to go back. Burn your bridges behind you saying, “I will write that letter” or “I will pay that debt”; and then do it! Once we lose sight of God, we begin to be reckless. We simply begin to act on our own initiative. If we are doing things solely on our own ingenuity without expecting God to come in, we are on a downward path. We have lost the vision. Is our attitude today an attitude that flows from our vision of God? Are we expecting God to do greater things than He has ever done before? Is there a freshness and a vitality in our spiritual outlook? Yes, and it is felt in the essence of life. And in reminder: mystery and totality are attributes of the reality ordinarily called religious. God offers comprehensive, multiple modes of experiences that we can denote the word “community.” #RyanPhillippe 6 of 7

You came and made my life complete with your love so sweet, you gave your love to me, and do not let me go. Your love is all I ever need, you are my destiny, this love was meant to be. We will find a paradise for two, a place for me and you, we will make our dreams come true. One cannot use the term without risk. It may encourage self-consciousness in realm where what is authentic has to be spontaneous; it may seem too grand; it may imagine something schmaltzy, that is, a cosy sort of fraternity where all conspires toward the insulated safety and ease of the individual. However, the concept of community will not become sentimental if the shared experience has the breadth and depth implied when we speak of totality. The greater that which is held in common, the more exacting the participation; the myth of the transcendental enlarges that in which we hold membership, and demands a more onerous responsiveness. The simplest and most accessible manifestations of the community are the ceremonial public gathers in which all me may receive presented myths—myths, that antique as they are, still seem not simply evocative archaisms but live orderings of reality. (www.thedeedle.com)  #RyanPhillippe 7 of 7

A well-lighted drive through the winding streets, during the day, made the highway trip easy. Guards were at intervals when we approached the mansion, along the way I made a sign, they took one look at the car, and we passed through, never even having to slow down. I was, all at once, thrilled, important, humble, and thankful. When we entered the mansion, it reminded me of the House of God, it seemed as ancient time itself. I was beyond astonished; my vocabulary cannot describe the architectural beauty. The columns supporting the structure were placed relatively close together, the was done for practical reasons, since if stone lintels, especially of marble, were required to pan too great a distance, they were likely to crack and eventually collapse. The Corinthian columns were work of art, but rarely used by Greeks themselves, but later became the standard order in Roman architecture. The geometrical order of the Greek temple suggests a conscious desire to control the natural World. So strong was this impulse that their architecture seems defiant in its belief that the intellect is superior to the irrational forces of nature. I could tell it had this impact on them. #RyanPhillippe 1 of 5

The mammoth terraces were as if it were literally the Roman Empire itself, wrapping around the temple and engulfing the landscape below. However, despite is enormous size, the temple seems to fit into the valley it occupies, as if in harmony with the landscape, not in opposition to it. As a temple to Fortune, or Fate, it seems to assert the inevitability of empire, the destiny of America to control and oversee the entire World. It is as if the America state is so large, so magnificent, it is nature. The crown on top of the temple was a dome. Conceived as a temple to celebrate all their gods, every interior dimension appears equal and proportionate, even as its scale overwhelms the viewer. The architectural inventions of the Romans provided the basis for building construction in the Western World for nearly 2,000 years. And at 55,000 square feet, with a cost (adjusted for inflation) of $152,111,022.85, the idealism, even the mysticism of the temple, with its evocation was built in response to the dark and dreary climate outside, the interior of the temple rises to incredible height, lit by windows that transform a dull day with warm and richly radiant light. The ethereal space, soaring upward, as if toward God, is realized. This certainly was a place that deserved the utmost respect, much like a church. #RyanPhillippe 2 of 5

I have never before seen sincere and true fellowship practiced by all colors together, irrespective of their ethnic background as I did in this temple. What I have seen in this temple, and experienced, has forced me to rearrange much of my thought-patterns previously held and toss aside some of my previous conclusions. Light and dark have traditionally had strong symbolic meaning in Western culture. In Heaven there is only pure light, but the fact we can experience color—which, according to the laws of optics promises us at least the hope of salvation. I have always kept an open mind, which is necessary to the flexibility that must be in close association with every form of intelligent search for the truth. Never have I been so highly honored. Never have I been made to feel more humble and unworthy. Who would believe the blessings that have been heaped upon me? Never would I have even thought of dreaming that I would ever be a recipient of such honors—honors that would be bestowed upon a king. Psychological research demonstrates that religious faith and supernatural thinking serves psychological functions. It increases people’s sense of control when they feel uncertain or stressed out. #RyanPhillippe 3 of 5

Religion also helps people find a sense of meaning in life, the feeling that one’s existence has purpose and value. People can derive meaning from life without religion, but psychological studies offers a Worldview that people have a destiny and we engage these magical Worlds and exercise the self-discipline taught by the Ten Commandments in the Bible. Higher levels of self-control are associated with lower levels of aggression, and when people are angry and feel the urge to hurt others, their level of self-control determines whether or not they act upon these urges. And although you may feel someone has wronged you, it is not your God given right to seek revenge on them because in doing so you are creating a vortex of negative energy around you that will cause bad things to happen in your life. One of the most important principals is to treat others as you want to be treated and enjoy this time today, for tomorrow is not promised. You may want to play games and feel that someone will always be around and that you have time to take care of your responsibilities at a later date, but that may not be the case. #RyanPhillippe 4 of 5

We are using these Worlds to probe basic questions about our own existence, our own fears, and desires—essential aspects of human sapience. Through storytelling, we explore our humanity and, among others things, our spiritual and psychological nature. Heroes and villains are largely defined by their treatment of others. Throughout history, it has been the inaction of those who could have acted, the indifference of those who should have known better, the silence of the voice of justice when it mattered most, that has made is possible for deviance to triumph. Even today, we see entire nations under the rule of dictators whose sense of morality seems almost deviant, when compared to our own. Another factor influencing decision-making—one that may be somewhat less intuitive—has to do with social connection, one’s sense of having beneficial social relationships with other beings. People faces with moral dilemmas are more like to make consequence-based choices if they are in the presence of, or reminded of, a friend or a loved one than if they are alone. Since I am already screwed, here is a message to you, my heart is wide open. I am just not getting through to the lover in you, yet I am still hoping. (www.thedeedle.com) #RyanPhillippe 5 of 5

Bending down to stay belong window level, I reached for my keys to open the door, but thankfully common sense prevailed. The interior of the house had been sheetrocked, the ceilings textured. The family room opened into a breakfast area adjoining the kitchen, all of it one large flowing space without partitions. Oak cabinets had been installed in the kitchen, but the title floor had not yet been put down. The air had the lime odor of drywaller’s mud, with an underlying scent of wood stain. The dining room was to the left, beyond the kitchen, then the living room, the entrance foyer, and a den. If you went into the hallway that led out of the breakfast area, you would find a laundry room, the downstairs bath, a coat closet, then the foyer. I walk away from the door and headed to my car. Oh, do not get me wrong, I was going to kill both of them. Jesus Christ himself could not stop me from doing that. However, I was not about to rush in there with my bare hands to do it. For all I knew, that fool in there with her could have been a kick boxer, or some type of thug with a gun. I had to go in there prepared. #RyanPhillippe 1 of 8

I opened the trunk to my BMW and pulled out the spare tire as quickly as possible. Underneath it was a wooden box I have been hiding for years. Inside the box was a black nine millimeter semiautomatic handgun with two fully loaded clips. I stared at the gun, wondering how the hell had things come to this. I had been a good faithful husband. Yes, I liked to look at women’s asses, but I have never strayed, event when it came to breakfast at Tiffany’s last week. I guess Kristi would never really knew how much I loved. Well, she was about to find out. I stuck the gun in my belt, then covered it with my shirt. I stood at the door and pulled the gun out of my pants. I still could not make out the conversation behind the door, but at this point. I really did not care. Surprisingly, I was a lot calmer than I would have thought. I hated the idea that things had some this far, but I loved Kristi, and if I could not have her, nobody would. I took out my key and quietly stuck it in the door as I went over my plan in my head. #RyanPhillippe 2 of 8

Then plan was to surprise Kristi and her friend, possibly even catch them in the act of intimacy. I was going to shoot the man first because brothers were always trying to play the hero. Kristi I was not worried about because she was only five-five, a hundred and fifteen pounds, so if she jumped bad, I could take care of her with one hand. Once I shot the dude, I would make Kristi explain to me where things went wrong between us, then I would take one last look at that phat ass of hers before blowing her away. Once that was all said and done I would go in the kitchen and grab a cold beer, and chug it down. I would probably smoke one last cigarette before sticking the gun into my mouth and pulling the trigger. The door was standing half-open, and the flashlight showed only oak cabinets and the spaces where the water and dryer would be placed. I went toward the front of the house and headed for the double entrance doors, which were still closed. #RyanPhillippe 3 of 8

Turning the knob slowly, I pushed the doors open. The short, portly brother sitting on my sofa, sweat dripping off his face, and using my towel to dry his face, and watching my TV did not even notice me as I crept up next to him. The first question that came to my mind was, “What the fuck did she see in him?” As I put my pistol to his head, I said, “You are a lot fatter than I expected,” in a low whisper. I had the gun pointed at the side of his temple. “Oh, shit. Please do not kill me, sir,” he pleaded. He shut up when I pushed the tip of the pistola past his fat ass lips and into his mouth. I finally put something more in his mouth than just some gossip. I could not help it. I laughed when I saw the puddle forming on the leather sofa and realized he had pissed on himself. “Damn, you a nasty mutha fucka. You fat son of a bitch.” I continued to laugh, but stopped abruptly when I remembered it was my couch he has pissed on, and it smelled like some old cat piss at that! #RyanPhillippe 4 of 8

I had to hold my breath, then I asked him, “Do you know how much this sofa cost?” He did not say anything, and I did not have time to dwell on stupid shit that would not matter in ten minutes. Besides, piss stains on the couch were not half as bad as the stains his brains were going to make he got lit like Christmas. “Where is she?” I demanded. I could not believe he had not attempted to move out of that lake of cat piss he was sitting in. Infidelity is breaking a promise to remain faithful to a sexual partner. That promise can take many forms, from married vows sanctified by the state to privately uttered verbal agreements between lovers. As unthinkable as the notion of breaking such bonds may be, infidelity is common. And when it does happen, it raises thorny and painful questions. Should I stay? Can trust be rebuilt? Can I and should I forgive and move on? I just wanted to know what the hell was going on. And where was my wife? #RyanPhillippe 5 of 8

As she came out of the bathroom, I motioned with the gun for her to sit down next to them man who reeked of cat piss. He actually started to cry. “Please, master, you can have everything I got. Shit, you can even have her. She does not suck dick, but the pussy’s pretty good. Just do not hurt me, man.” Clearly, he did not know Kristi was my wife. “You trifling, punk-ass little bitch!” Kristi shouted. “I did not suck your dick because it is so small, I cannot hardly find it. Ben, will you shoot this motherfucker, please?” I laughed. These two were like a comedy act. Only problem was, I did not have time to catch the show. People who need to approach their painful memories through some kind of activity instead of intellectual contemplation often prefer to use the process of investigation and verification. Once I felt that I was in control of the situation, by absorbing all the information I could gather, I was slowly able to drop my weapon, and allow the emotional impact to surface. #RyanPhillippe 6 of 8

When the awful ordeal ended, when the grip of dope was broken, I comforted my best friend Dave by letting him stay in the guest house, feeding the weak ex-addict soups and broths to get him on his feet again. He will never forget how I stood by him during this time, although he was creeping with my wife. He will never forget how my program rescued him from the special hell of dope. An estimated $12 million dollars could have been lost to this dope fiend if I let him wreck my marriage. An addict does not work to supply his habit, which may cost anywhere from $100.00 to $5,000.00 a day. How could he earn that much? No! The addict steals, he hustlers in other ways; he prays upon other human beings like a hawk or a vulture. He was psychologically unsuited to a job, even if he was offered one. As the addict’s new image of himself builds, inevitably he begins thinking that he can break the habit. For the first time, I made him feel the effects of this narcotics self-pride and let him know he was the mud of society. #RyanPhillippe 7 of 8

Understanding the life-threatening nature of the lack of dialogue makes it easier to comprehend the radical, often violent manner in which people flee from situation of deteriorated dialogue. Sometimes individuals who have been married for years suddenly sense that they are being slowly choked to death in their currently environment, that their very existence is being threatened. This is not a particularly easy idea to accept, especially for those who have gone through the trauma of divorce, for it is always easier psychologically to blame the other person problems than to search for one’s own contribution. This idea is neither particularly new nor radical. Psychoanalysts spend years in personal analysis trying to understand their own personalities, because they recognize that if they are not aware of their own anxieties, then their own insecurities will block them from communicating those thoughts and feelings, and this reciprocity can be burdensome, anxiety provoking, depressing, exhilarating, and dangerous. #RyanPhillippe 8 of 8

There are more things in Heaven and Earth than are dreamt of in your philosophy, but there is also much in philosophy which is found neither in Heaven nor Earth. As I sit here, I find myself thinking that I wish I never interacted with the media, but experience consists in experiencing what one does not care to experience. Human life is divided into two halves; during the first, one looks forward to the second, and during the second, one looks backward to the first. The attributes of the greatest men were all united in himself. Like Alexander, his head was titled to one side; like Caesar, he always had something in his hair. He could drink coffee like Leibnitz, and once settled in his armchair, he forgot eating and drinking like Newton, and like him, he had to be awakened. He wore a wig like Dr. Johnson, and like Cervantes, the fly of his trousers was always open. We are smarter than the rest of the World, we penetrate markets anywhere if desired.  #RyanPhillippe 1 of 7

Thought must concern itself with the connecting-paths between ideas without allowing itself to be misled by their intensities. Every relationship has a procedural grammar to feed in new ideas and experience. I would watch the faces of those intellectual and professionals growing grave, and set—as the truth hit home to them. Like the alcoholic, the junkie can never start to cure himself until he recognizes and accepts his true condition. You are a hooked man! It might take months before the addict come to grips with this. You have to realize why you take dope. Every addict takes junk to escape something. Some people are trying to narcotize themselves against the reality that they are human. You cannot go around scratching like a money, smelling all bad, living mad, hungry, stealing and running and hiding from reality. It had become clear that when the World can no longer be made a coherent, either through explanation or action, then many seek coherence elsewhere. #RyanPhillippe 2 of 7

In a World gone mad as the result of overwhelming complexity, the need for coherence does not diminish. Its need becomes even greater. If we cannot find coherence in ideas or intellectual patterns alone, then we seek it in alternate forms, in a cult of personalities; in pseudo pop heroes; in entertaining and amusing faces that soothe over our need for satisfying explanations. If the latter part of the century has succeeded in anything, it is in the deliberate manufacturing and distribution of celebrities on a wide scale. Many have developed a fascination with celebrities that borders on the sociopathic. It is precisely on account of this generation of affect that these ideas are not accessible even by way of the preconscious thoughts to which they have transferred the energy of the wishes connected with them. Many confuse active participation with warmth and friendliness, but more of that later. Indirectly, we have known that for centuries, as seen in accumulating evidence to support the physiological base of the polarities in human understanding. #RyanPhillippe 3 of 7

They are traitors: nice honorable men! Or when someone transcribes a collection of unheard-of brutalities and cynicisms as expressions of people with temperaments, this, too, is a representation through opposite. After the plane landed, I ran straight through the baggage claim area to the exit for the cab stand. I did not give a damn about my luggage. I would get that later. Once in the cab, I gave the driver my address and told him to step on it. Of course, you know, I tried to call my house again, but I still got the answering machine. For the next fifteen minutes, I stared blankly out the window. When we pulled in front of my apartment, my hands started shaking so badly I could not pull out the money to pay the driver. I was scared, more scared than I have ever been in my life, but that fear was overridden by my desperation to see if my family was still in our home. When I stepped in front of my apartment, I heard voices coming from behind the door. I could not make out what they were saying, and I felt my heart sink. #RyanPhillippe 4 of 7

My mind had been clouded ever since the delivery man dropped off my stuff along with the Dear John Letter (often a letter letting you know someone broke up with you and left before you even realized the relationship was over). However, this was no longer designated as wit, but as irony. Indeed, the only technique that is characteristic of irony is representation through the opposite. Besides, one reads and hears about ironical wit. Hence, there is no longer any doubt that technique alone is not capable of characterizing wit. There must be something else which we have not yet discovered. On the other hand, the fact that the reduction of the technique destroys the wit still remains uncontradicted. For the present, it may be difficult for us to unite for the explanation of wit the two strong points which we already gained. #RyanPhillippe 5 of 7

I am not sure what you all take away from this essay, they are all different, but I certainly enjoy preparing them from you. It has actually helped to restore a sense of peace to my life and each and every day things get better. I have learned to detach from people, dates, images, events, and other symbols people try to use to hurt us. These are the moments of breaking through into the experiencing of our real inner being. We except that when we turn on the kitchen faucet, beer will not pour out, but water will. We assume that working overtime will eventually lead to a raise. And we trust that spades will be black, not red. The stronger these assumed relationships are, the more automatically and actively our minds foist them upon whatever we encounter. The only way we can manage the flood of perception is by creating and automatically deferring to working theories of what we are going to encounter—beliefs about the World, in the broadest sense. That is how we cope with unreality. How the pain causes the original nature to break through all the strata of education, and how an important decision is rightly made dependent upon a seemingly inconsequential utterance. #RyanPhillippe 6 of 7

Thought is powerful because it has a high rate of vibration. A thought is actually a thing; it has an energy pattern. The more energy we give it, the more power it has to manifest itself physically. Superimposed around the physical body is an energy body whose form is very much like that of the physical body, which forms a celestial sphere around you, and whose patterns actually control the physical body. This control is at the level of thought or intention. Advanced sub-atomic quantum physics has shown, similarly, that observation influences sub-atomic high-energy particles. Some of the things I have seen recently, I really do not understand, and not speaking on a metaphysical level. Just some of the things people do and the times they do them makes me wonder. Even the Muses are not well disposed to him, he has at least the genius of speech in his power, or rather he knows how to violate him; for he lacks the free love of this genius, besides he must perseveringly run after this youth, and he knows only how to grasp the outer forms which in spite of their beautiful rotundity, never express themselves nobly. #RyanPhillippe 7 of 7