The greatest sources of our suffering are the lies we tell ourselves, we have to be honest with ourselves about every facet of our experience. People cannot get better without know what they know and feeling what they feel. The farther the distance is, the deeper the yearning is. The longer we leave each other, the deeper we miss each other. When our yearnings can come to an end in the long night, real love is blind devotion, and a most wonderful teacher. Most human suffering is related to love and loss and people are required to acknowledge, experience, and bear the reality of life—with all its pleasures and heartbreak. I really miss you and the faces you used to make at me and the rapid movement of your eyes. I also miss your stern and grumpy demeanor and I enjoyed watching it transfer until you seemed proud and would trot around the park, like the proud and accomplished man you are.  #RyanPhillippe 1 of 5

By disclosing such simple human needs in myself it helps me recognize how basic they are to our lives. I wonder, is there anything you miss about me in person? Failure to attending to our needs results in a stunted experience, no matter how grand the Queen Anne Victorian thoughts of our imagination and World accomplishments are. Healing is contingent on experiential knowledge: We can be fully in charge of our lives, only if we can acknowledge the reality of our bodies, in all its visceral dimensions. To further illustrate this point, today I was laying in bed typing and feeling low energy, then I heard two groups of guys walk by and they sounded very healthy, mentally sound, happy and confident. And I jumped out of bed to look out the window so I could see them because that is the kind of energy I am drawn to. I went from feeling like a weak seedling, to feel as excited as one is when they get a new car. I have no idea what they were talking to, but was drawn to this healthy tones coming from them.  #RyanPhillippe 2 of 5

The tones coming from these men reminded me of the community I grew up in before all the sin, magic, witches, and evil had been ascribed to the city. These people used to love to go to work, provide for their families and protect their loved ones. It brought them a sense of pride. It was not all about status, looking cool, and money. Now it seems like we are stuck in a new community with an emerging paradigm of anger, lust, pride, greed, avarice, drunkenness and sloth—as well as all the other problems we humans have always struggled to manage. These disorders can be fixed by enforcing the laws and the administration of appropriate chemicals. Because the gossip and slander is not helping. Research has even indicated unequivocally that schizophrenic patients who received drugs alone has a better outcome than those who talked three times a week with the best the therapist in Sacramento. Many people are suffering from variable expressions of intolerable feelings and relationships due to a brain-disease. #RyanPhillippe 3 of 5

A psychiatrist administered lithium to a manic-depressive patient. On lithium, a man who had been manic every May for the past thirty-five years, and suicidally depressed every December, stopped cycling and remained stable for the three years he was under care of his doctor. This same doctor was also part of the first U.S. research team to test the antipsychotic Clozaril on chronic patients who were warehoused in the back wards of the old insane asylums. Some of their responses were miraculous: People who had spent much of their lives locked in their own separate, terrifying realities were now able to return to their families and communities; patients mired in darkness and despair started to respond to the beauty of human contact and the pleasures of work and play. These amazing results made us optimistic that we could finally conquer human misery. Antipsychotic drugs were a major factor in reducing the number of people living in mental hospitals in the United States, from over 500,000 in 1955 to fewer than 100,000 in 1996. #RyanPhillippe 4 of 5

Prior to these treatments with medications, these people had to be hosed down to remove filth from their naked bodies, as the lined up in their unfurnished dayroom, supplied with gutters for the runoff water. The doctor said visiting one of these high rises and walking through the dayroom, with people staring at your, making rude comments, and the physical attacks was more like a nightmare than something he witnessed with his own eyes. It was more of an institution than an affordable housing complex. The building was hot and musty, the greenhouses, and gardens had been replaced by a parking lot, and the workshops—most of them in ruins had been turned into a computer lab and a kitchen for the house slaves. Gradually, the sanctuary gradually took on a sinister connotation because it was a community where no one knew each other’s proper names and labeled each other with certain idiosyncrasies. Some suggested that in the near future the gates would be permanently locked and it would become a ghost town due to mismanagement. #RyanPhillippe 5 of 5