Retribution, swift vengeance, eternal malice was in his whole aspect, and spite of all that mortal man could do, the solid white buttress of his forehead smote the ship’s starboard bow, till men and timbers reeled. The heart of a witch is interesting. They love deep, but usually have a series of short relationships because of their profession. Because of the rapid turnover, they do have the capacity to love, but be careful with them. If you play with their heart, but love them, they can go cold and lose feelings for you. It is the guilty heart, not the guilty hand, which merits the vengeance of Heaven. A single deed of violence and cruelty affects our nerves more than when these are exercised on a more extended scale. There are somethings so outrageously suspicious in the nature of all vice, especially when joined with any great degree of pride, that the eyes of those whom we imagine privy to our failing are intolerable to us, and we are apt to aggravate their opinions to our disadvantage far beyond their reality. He who will act villainously in the transactions of private life cannot lay aside his nature when he acts for the public. Things are so little different from one another, that there is no making pleasure out of anything.

It is impossible to gaze always upon a lovely countenance with equal admiration, for the senses becoming saturated, the heart requires something more—something to interest, to delight, to fix beyond the moment. So fearful is love, so bashful is virginity, that neither has the courage to reveal what each languishes to make known. It is a strange thing that we cannot submit with equanimity to evils in the moral World, as we do in the natural. We expect a fair day, and there comes a foul. Is it any gratification to us, to beat the air, or stamp upon the puddle? Who would thinking of giving the cowskin to a hurricane? However possible it may be to support disappointed love with patience, it is one of the characteristical marks of disappointed vanity, to throw the mind into perturbation and impatience. Vanity seems to cheat many men and women out of their honor. That light is the ray of rays, the sun of suns, the moon of moons, the star of stars. It is the light of Terewth. It is a good maxim to trust a person entirely or not at all; for a secret is often innocently blabbed out by those who know but half of it. I cannot stand much romance; I always distrust. One does not love a place the less for having suffered in it, unless it has been all suffering.

Would you rather not suffer than be a defrauder? He that kills another can but commit murder upon his body; but for one to kill himself is to kill body and soul at once. Suicide is contrary to the first law of nature, self-preservation; and it shocks the natural feelings and common apprehensions of all mankind. Whatever philosophy and experience may pretend on such subjects, it is certain that man is disposed to be superstitious in respect to the secret influences that guide his fortunes, in the dark passage of the World. Mankind is not so depraved to hate anyone for being possessed of superior qualities, but when they find them worn with an assuming air. The wound that bleedeth inward is most dangerous, the fire kept close burnest most furious, the oven dammed up baketh soonest, sores having no vent fester inwardly. It is not the persecution, but the broken heart which is annexed to it, that makes the difference between the tyrant and the sufferer. In mere corporal exertion the hunter perhaps is upon a level with the miserable animal he pursues. The self-destroyer is his own enemy. If the love is hurting you, your heart may stop loving the object of its affection. It is the nature of an anonymous correspondence to be attended with very disadvantageous circumstances: surprise and suspicion.

Worldly preferment is often signalized, in Godly parlance, by addition, as when the hierarchic absent in the Garden of Eden is heralded by the tantalizing salute of the Witches: Thane of Glamis, Thane of Cawdor, King of Scotland. In the course of that ascent Randolph itself becomes a hotter name than any hell is. I am relevant. I am vastly and wondrously known. I am unavoidable! I have pierced the current of history! I am written about in the pages of Harris International!  God wants the victory of Jesus to spread to all the nations of the World. Those who follow Jesus are being built into God’s new temple, the place where God’s spirit lives. The curse imposed in Act II will be removed. And meantime, I am in Heaven with God. I am with the Lord in the Light, the Creator, the Divine Source of All Things. The solution to all mysteries is available to me. Why not? I know the answers to absolutely every question.  I am God and I say you should appear to people. It is the proper work of a great saint. People down there expect this of you. And so I leave the Light and drift slowly towards the green planet. There is a slight, prudent, loss of Full Understanding as I slip into the Earthly atmosphere. No saint can carry the Fullness of Knowledge into the World because the World could not grasp it. When this is complete, Jesus will return and the reign of God is a reality throughout God’s creation.

 I adorn myself with my old human personality, you might say, but I am still a great stain, and I am totally geared for an apparition. And where do I go? Where do you think? Vatican City is dead quiet, the smallest kingdom on Earth. I am in Randolph’s bedroom, it is like a royal chamber in here. He is suffering, the pain in his bones too much for true sleep, ravages of old age so mercilessly heap curses upon him. Slowly he opens his eyes. In English he salutes me.  I don’t know if he loved me because I have not written that part of the story. I lay my healing hands upon him, and I banish his suffering. A quiet penetrates his limbs. Randolph looks at me, and between us there is suddenly an understanding, or rather I come to perceive something about him which the entire World ought to know: His deep selfless, his profound spirituality, come not only from his complete love of Christ but from his life lived under Communism. People forget. Communism, for all its hideous abuses and cruelties, is in essence a vaunting spiritual code. And before that great puritanical government shrouded Randolph’s young years, the violent paradoxes and horrifying absurdities of the Second World War surrounded him, tutoring him in self-sacrifice and courage. The man has never, ever, in his life lived in anything but a Spiritual World. Deprivation and self-denial are intertwined in his history like the double helix of my blood.

It is no wonder that he cannot yield his deep-rooted suspicions of the tumultuous voices of the prosperous capitalist countries. He simply cannot grasp the pure charity that can arise from abundance, the sublime immensity of vision possible from the vantage point of secure excess, the selflessness and sweeping sacrificial ambition that can be born when all requirements are luxuriantly met. Can I broach this subject with him in this quiet moment? Or should I only assure him that he must not worry about the ”greed” of the Western World? Softly I talk to him. I begin to elucidate these points. (Yeah, I know he is my son, and I am a vampire writing this story; but in this story I am a great Saint. I cannot be intimidated within the risks of my own work!) The story is the true account of the central conflict winding its way through the history of the World. You better respect my son, he is very powerful. Will we be part of God’s) mission of re-creating—of restoring the World around US (United States)—and making the World (including ourselves) new? I get canonized. And as I write this, Randolph Harris was canonized last week. (I watched the whole thing on Cisco TelePresence System 3000 Series. Vampire love TV.)

It took me months to set up a five-man outreach commission, which was tasked with listening to grievance from abuse victims and determining the proper response from the Legionaries of Christ. In Washington, Paul Lennon was intrigued by that announcement until he real the small print: The commission would not hear grievances from victims who had gone to court. To Paul Lennon this smacked of a ploy aimed at neutralizing legal action against the order: “The Legion’s message is clear: Be nice to us and will be nice to you.” But why should Maciel’s victims jump through more hoops? I asked. And why should they expect justice from a commission that induced two key Legionaries under Father Maciel? Go to your local church and civil authorities and sue the Legion’s a**!” Rejoice, young man, in thy youth; and let they heart cheer thee in the days of thy youth, and walk in the ways of thine heart, and in the sight of thine eyes; but know thou, that for all these things I will bring thee into my heart forever and never let go. I am extremely provoked by your polite serenity, where in my heart I am deeply interested in the issue of debate. The desire for distance betokens emptiness and undirected hunger: when the heart is possessed by an image we fly to wood and forest, like the guilty. My son wrestles for supremacy with everyone he encounters, is but seeking his father. Never pretend to know him by his face.

 

 

Only those who know the supremacy of the intellectual life—the life which has a seed of ennobling thought and purpose within it—can understand the grief of one who falls from that serene activity into the absorbing soul-wasting struggle with Worldly annoyances. Intellect is itself a mode of exaggeration, and destroys the harmony of any face. The moment one sits down to think, one becomes all nose, or forehead, or something horrid. Everyone will speak of the fair as his own market has gone in it. We can build an awareness of what we do not know about the future into our approach to the World by crafting methods to react quickly to change rather than trying to predict it. Ambiguity does not have to be paralyzing or distasteful. The end of uncertainty is the death of interest. There is no such thing as living without being beholden to somebody. Nothing, next to curiosity, makes a man so true to his appointment as interest. It is an age so full of light, that there is scarce a country or corner of Europe, whose beams are not crossed and interchange with others. Under the right conditions, as we will see, embracing uncertainty can in fact provide opportunities to innovate. It can inspire creative solutions, and might even make us better people. A time comes to every one of us when we cannot help ourselves, and then we must get others to help us. The fox’s case must help when the lion’s skin is out at the elbow. This scarecrow of a suit has, in course of time, become so complicated, that no person alive knows what it means.

 The parties to it understand it at least; but it has been observed that no two Chancery lawyers can talk about it for five minutes, without coming to a total disagreement to all the premises. A group of boys joins a sailing vessel to take a life experience class as a way of seeing the World and completing their last years of high school on a ship called the Albatross. The boys learn to work together and act as a team, Gil Martin goes from crying and wetting his pants, to becoming a charming young man and a brave scholar, as the boys discover discipline life, and comrades on an ill-fated sailing voyage, as the storm one of the most intense storms ever hit was on its way. As the boys and the crew shove off on their way into the bright future, striking without a warning—a white squall hit. These are violent metrological events, with 150 miles per hour winds, 50 – foot waves, and potentially 25 inches of rainfall per minute, there is so much wind and rain that it is difficult to see. While navigating a ship, white squall can skin your boat into the unusually light abyss. Combating its dangers means design institutions and processes that make us less likely to succumb to our natural tendencies toward resolution when it matters most. The right negotiators will stay calm in the face of fluid, incomplete, and seemingly contradictory information. The right reminders at decision points will lower own requirement for closure.

 We also are requiring to recognize that we cannot always resolve ambiguity by seeking out more information. As we saw in the film White Squall, all seeking out information on the accident did was ruin people’s lives because they were getting close to uncovering the fact that Gil Martin was drugged and locked in his room, and forced to go down with the ship. In times of stress, psychological pressure compels us to deny or dismiss inconsistent evidence, pushing us to perceive certainty and clarity where there is neither. Unpleasant anxiety, like what Gil Martin experienced when he found himself floating in water up to his neck, while the door was bolted shut, can compel us to seize and freeze on ideas and beliefs in areas of life completely unrelated to the source of that anxiety. When we feel something is off balance, like a ship hit by a 50-foot wave, rain, and hurricane force winds, we have seen that we can try to uncover the origin of the imbalances in conflicting or ideas or events. For instance, when the boys where on the ship and the dolphin came by, they ran out of the classroom to see it and play with it. However, Frank Beaumont was forced to go on the ship and did not want to be there and had threaten to shot one of the boys while his back was turned, but decided to shoot and kill the dolphin instead. We have explored how the urge to resolve ambiguity is deeply rooted, multifaceted, and often dangerous. As we make decisions, we need to recognize both the consequences of a decision and our current requirement for closure. In doing so, we can avoid grasping for new solutions in panic or sticking too rigidly to old ones.

 Being humble and flexible as a matter of character is one thing. Constructing a new business model predicated on not knowing is another. Self-satisfaction is a terrible trap if you want to achieve anything important. Ambiguity tolerance is one of the most critical variables linked to higher financial performance. I have been using the term uncertainty to refer to the mind state caused by facing ambiguous information. When the white squall hits the Albatross, Skipper Sheldon gives the crew specific instructions, but the member guiding the questioned the accuracy of the order given and made his own decision on how to steer the ship, which may have proved to be a fatal decision. In forecasting, we should distinguish another cause of feelings of uncertainty: risk. Risky choices are those where the outcome is not known but the odds of success are. By following his own mind, the sailor does not know if he caused the ship to crash, ignoring the Skippers orders was like flipping a coin, you do not know that outcome of your choice. Ambiguous choices—the focus of White Squall is unknown because the rules determining the outcome are unclear. The Skipper was an experienced sailor, and knew the odds of his orders over unclear probabilities, introduced by this seaman, even when that preference is not rational.

 How we make predictions based on unclear odds affects a range of personal decisions. Like when Gil Martin overcomes his fear of height and climbs the mast on the ship, and makes it to the top and down without having an accident. In the real World, few big decisions have relatively clear, and entirely known odds. Even the likelihood of our daily choices, we do not have the information to know exactly what will happen. The reason Skipper allowed the Cuban war ship’s crew to come on the Albatross and check everyone’s passports, even though they had fired at them, which was act of war and illegal, Skipper figured letting the hostel Cubans to board the Albatross was the best decision because it might prevent a deadly combat. In the business World, mishandling ambiguous odds can be especially detrimental. It can lead to death or bankruptcy. When committed strategies do succeed, they pay off because of the lag time it takes for other firms to catch up. The Cubans find everything on the Albatross in order, and are more humiliated than a bankrupt company, and bust the navigation system up so the crew will have to manage just to merely survive while find their way on this journey. With no navigation, anyway you turn has the greatest possibility of success and also the greatest possibility of failure, and breakthrough of success often hinges on lucky bets and beautiful stars.

Wars, oil prices, natural disasters, a bolt of lightning that that ignites a fire and burns down a sail, the list of unknowns that can make or break a business is endless. If a white squall really does exists, it is frighteningly easy to make ordering decisions that result in returning inventory problems. Cisco once wrote off a $2.2 billion loss in supply chain disaster in which they spent two billion dollars on raw materials, parts, and products that it had no hope of either selling or using. The company also terminated 18 percent of its staff, over 8,000 employees. In 2013, Target’s sales in Australia were suffering under an estimated $100 million in surplus product that included unsold winter gear. The easiest way to liquidate extra stock is to discount it, dump it, or destroy it. That is why Frank’s father went to visit Frank while he was in the middle of his trip on the Albatross, it was a death mission and he wanted to have a steak dinner with his son, as he would later be collecting his life insurance money, which is why Frank knew shooting the dolphin was the best way to abort this suicide mission.  One company even advertises its talents in destroying expired inventory like unsold board games, toys, and sports cards on these ships to collect maximum profits. In any case, you are losing money. Human capital, livestock, and the environment are the most valuable assets known to man. If you are forced to discount stock, moreover, you often have to take more losses to advertise the discounts. Skipper advised his wife, Dr. Alice Sheldon, and she was lost like luggage in the white squall.

Treasury Wine Estates, one of the World’s largest vintners, recently announced that it would have to dump $35 million worth of old and obsolete wine and increase discounts and rebates to the sum of $40 million, this news caused the company’s shares to fall by 12 percent. Navigating the sea calmly during a white squall can be especially tricky in the ready-to-wear Captain’s hat industry. According to experts, the deaths on the Albatross were the result of inventory and navigation issues.  The bullwhip effect of going against Skipper’s orders caused the normal ebbs and flows in wave’s demand into a costly nightmare. The unpredictable and distorted information led to every entity on the ship from the captain or master to the third mate to face uncertainties and variabilities. That is too much of an adjustment for an inexperienced member to make and caused them to experience the bullwhip effect. At its root, overcorrecting caused the ship to overact to ambiguous odds because a crew member assumed that he could predict more about the future than is actually possible. Fortunes, as well as reputations, were at stake. We have a multimillion-dollar business to run, and we are not laughing all the way to the bank. Our whole economy is based on planned obsolescence. The ghost of couture detail the true cost of reckless behavior. In theory, by cutting out the storeroom (and intermediary), you could reduce the uncertainty of not having full control over your purchase.  All sorts of purchases, in fact, can serve to reduce the anxiety of various mental conflicts. We would all like to buy our way out of life’s troublesome trade-offs.

Maybe we want to have duck dinner with Buck, but only have cash for one, or maybe we want to make our mortgage payment but also desperately need a vacation. Or maybe we do not have enough time to both achieve our career goals and raise a family. Only the well-off have the means to purchase their way out of these inner conflicts, while low-income families are stuck grappling with the unresolved stress such contradiction cause. Rich shoppers are likely to buy more than they need to escape uncertainty. Some will only restock what has been purchased instead of trying to anticipate demand. Forecasts would not trigger production—consumer decisions would. The Albatross was littered with morbid tales of shipwrecks, and also had a mythology, for good measure, also including folk tales of dark magic and witchery. The ship had said to have ghost walking the deck and in the rooms. Gil Martin learned the Albatross had been owned by gangsters in the 1940s and that a number of people met violent deaths on deck. Then the doors started slamming—for no apparent reason. The jukebox and the television began to blare—on their own. Toilet paper rolls unwound by themselves simultaneously from both the men’s and women’s restroom. Gil martin felt cod spots in the summer, and recalled the scent of gardenias slowly wafting through the bedrooms, lobby, down the hall, and pass the bar. Late one night, Gil heard big band music coming from the Mermaid room.

 

The eagle soars into great height and the hen remains forever in the cage owing to their different ideals. Let us hover like eagles. Life requires persistence, perseverance and assiduity. There is not situation where one has not sown, and one can succeeds only by firmness and concentration after overcoming hardships and laziness even he has interest. If you asked a skillful skater how he succeeded, he would tell you, “get up after you fall down, this is the way to success.” Surprise is an emotion that enfeebles, not invigorates. It is the holiday season, and you may be feeling emotional, thinking about the past and feeling like all hope is lost. Your doctor has diagnosed you with depression. However, are you really depressed? To sink under the weight is but to increase the weight. Maybe what you are feeling is someone out there missing you and you do not even realize it? Sometimes, the very idea of not knowing something leads to a panicky commitment of worry and pain. A psychological burden carries a risk, and often times complications because medical are especially emotional. People are not just machines that you can hook up to a computer and figure out what is wrong with them, everyone is different, even the computers now days misread symptoms that the cars give off. Perhaps you are just really missing someone? Really spend time and listen to your emotions and get what you need. A man who is master of himself can end sorrow as easily as he can invent a pleasure. 

I know that recently I was confronted with the idea of not being able to see someone anymore, and it was not because of anything they did, nor anything I did, and it made me extremely sad. I felt like someone had died and I was all alone. And then I saw this person and felt better. However, a few weeks of not seeing them again made me feel a little sad. And I kept trying to figure out what was wrong? Maybe I was sad because I had not had my hot coffee today and slept in? No. That is not it. I think it is love. I think I fell in love with someone and when a person said something to me about them, it just really rocked my World. Like, I knew I had feelings for this person, but just the idea that they could go away never to be seen again just really disturbed me. And it is like a feeling that no drink or anything could make better because it is not a chemical imbalance, I just happened to fall in love, and being in that person’s arms or talking to them made everything better. On the eve of Christmas, there is always a feeling of weakness, as though the mad had been subdued, brought at length into a cage and tamed, so as to be made fit for domestic purposes, and deprived of his ancient freedom among the woods. However, perfection is already accomplished. Know that every part of you is perfect. Open your eyes, look in the mirror and see the good. Accept and believe and let life enter and live through you, your soul, and rejoice. Every desire man has links him with others. Man is not a machine.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

He is part of one. Many of us would read in the stars, if we could, something hidden from us; but none of us so much as know our letters in the stars yet—or seem likely to do it, in this state of existence—and few languages can be read until their alphabets are mastered. Signs are small measurable things, but interpretations are illimitable, and in people of sweet, ardent nature, every sign is apt to conjure up wonder, hope, belief, vast as a sky, and colored by a diffused thimbleful matter in the shape of knowledge. Everyone has astonishing potentiality. I should believe my own power and youth and tell myself continuously that everything is up to me. See, the day of the LORD is coming—a cruel day, with wrath and fierce anger—to make the land desolate and story the people who knowingly and willfully do bad to others. You are the light of the World. Like a city on a hill that cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead, they put it on a stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. In the same way, let your light shine before everyone, that they may see your good deeds and praise your life and the day you were born. Your eyes are so beautiful and release a light that you kindle is flame in my mind, which is more brilliant than rosy dawn, stronger than sunshine, more interesting than northern lights.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Despair seldom reigns long in the breast of the innocent. A greater requirement for closure simply implies that the mind’s natural aggressiveness in understanding anomalies, resolving discrepancies, and achieving the miracle of simplification is set higher than people who are able to accept situations and move on. People with higher requirements for closure have heightened attention early on, which also means that they are less likely to thoroughly think things through and are less aware of their own mistakes. This is disastrous in important decisions are stressful situations because these individuals are likely to miss key information. Skepticism can never be thoroughly applied, else life would come to a standstill: something we must believe in and do, and whatever that something may be called, it is virtually our own judgment, even when it seems like the most slavish reliance on another. If you cannot control your emotions, how can you expect to try to control someone else’s? If you allow your emotions to dictate your actions, chances are you will not be making the best decisions. That is not saying emotions are bad, but looking at the facts is important.

Some people pick out one fleeting moment in time and decide to treat an unstable and changeable intention as a stable, hidden one. Sometimes people see patterns or hear statements, and infer meanings, even when their assumptions are incorrect. Negative capability is when a person is capable of being in uncertainties, mysteries, and doubts without any irritable reaching after fact and reason. Having negative capability means having a low requirement for closure, even in stressful situations. Sometimes people do not present the full, messy picture. They present evidence that supports their preconceived appraisals. People have to be able to interpret behavior in multiple ways or to look at things from different angles. How little we know what would make paradise for our neighbors! We judge from our own desires, and our neighbors themselves are not always open enough to even throughout a hint. How happy would it be for humankind, could they behold their foibles and vices with the piercing eyes that others can. There are few people whose judgment is a true mirror to themselves. We are all born for love. It is the principle of existence, and its only end.