We live in constant tension between the urgent and the important. The problem is that the important tasks rarely must be done today, or even this week. However, urgent tasks call for instant action—endless demands pressures every hour of the day. The momentary appeal of these urgent tasks seems irresistible and important, and they devour our energy. Nonetheless, in the light of time’s perspective their deceptive prominence fades; with a sense of loss we recall the important tasks pushed aside. We realize we have become slaves to the tyranny of the urgent. One of the characteristics of effective leaders is that they continually find joy in their jobs. This gives them the energy to energize others. They maintain an optimistic outlook and avoid burnout by focusing on what is right rather than what is wrong, constantly learning and growing on the job, making friends with what would normally be issues, picking the right dance partners (associating with winners), keeping their sense of humour and getting a life outside of their work. There is more to life than increasing its speed. The self-actualized will not be primarily concerned with one’s own personal welfare, but then one will also not be primarily concerned with humankind’s welfare. Both these duties find a place in one’s outlook, but they do not find a primary place. #RandolphHarris 1 of 18

The primary place is always filled by a single motive: to do the will, to express the inspiration of that greater self of which one is sublimely aware and to which one has utterly surrendered oneself. This is a point whereon many students get confused or go astray. The self-actualized does not stress altruism as the supreme value of life, nor does one reject egoism as the lowest value of life. One will act with the strength God gives one in each case, and will always act for the sake of what is in the best interest, as one is guided by the light of God. When the veil falls and the inner meaning of universal life is read, it is not enough for the illuminate. For one does not consider one’s own salvation complete while others remain unsaved. Consequently, one dedicated oneself to the task of trying to save them. However, in order to do this one has to reincarnate on Earth innumerable times. For people can attain the goal here alone and nowhere else. This changes the whole concept of salvation. It is no longer a merely personal matter but a collective one. It also alters the concept of survival. This is no longer a prolonged enjoyment of post-death Heavenly spheres but a prolonged labour through countless Earthly lives for the service of one’s fellow-creatures. And yet, even this somber path bears its own peculiar rewards. #RandolphHarris 2 of 18

This path of righteousness has peculiar rewards, for one shall receive the fraternal love of those who have been healed, the encouraging thought of those who are beginning to find a foothold in life, the pledged loyalty of those who want to share, with their lesser strength, the heavy burden through the untold incarnations. “Very truly I tell you, no one can see the kingdom of God unless they are born again,” reports John 3.3. This much evolution and some million years of prehistory may have given us; but to talk about satisfying one’s appetites for purity and heroism with a certain relish and style is not to say that this relish is itself the motive for the appetite. Dr. Freud thought it was human’s appetite that undid him, but actually it is his human limitations as we now understand it. The tragedy of evolution is that it created a limited being with unlimited horizons. Humans are the only being that is not armed with the natural instinctive mechanisms or programing for shrinking one’s World down to the size that one can automatically act on. This means that humans have to artificially and arbitrarily restrict their intake of experience and focus their output of decisive action. Humans have to keep from going made by biting small pieces of reality which they can get some command over and some organismic satisfaction from. #RandolphHarris 3 of 18

This means that their noblest passions are played out in the most narrow and unreflective ways, and this is what undoes them. From this point of view the main problematic for the future of humans has to be expressed in the following paradox: Humans are beings who must fetishize in order to survive and to have normal mental health. However, this shrinkage of vision permits one to survive also at the same time prevents one from having the overall understanding one needs to plan for and control the effects of one’s shrinkage of experience. A paradox this bitter sends a chill through all reflective people. If dr. Freud’s famous fateful question for the human species was not exactly the right one, the paradox is no less fateful. It seems that the experiment of humans may well prove to be an evolutionary dead end, and impossible being—one who, individually, needs for healthy actions they very conduct that, on a general level, is destructive to one. It is maddeningly perverse. And even if we bring Dr. Freud’s views on evil into lines with Dr. Hegel’s, there is no way of denying that Dr. Freud’s pessimism about the future is just as securely based as if humans did not actually have evil motives. However, it does influence the whole perspective on history which I am sketching here. History and its incredible tragedy and drivenness then become a record of folly. #RandolphHarris 4 of 18

History is a career of a frightened beings who must lie in order to live—or, better, in order to live the distinctive style that one’s nature fits for one. The thing that feeds the great destructiveness of history is that people give their entire allegiance to their own group; and each group is a codified hero system. Which is another way of saying that societies are standardized systems of death denial; they give structure to the formulas for heroic transcendence. History can then be looked at as a succession of immortality ideologies, or a mixture at any time of several of these ideologies. We can ask about any epoch, What are the social forms of heroism available? And we can take a sweep over history and see how these forms vary and how they animate each epoch. For primitive humans, who practiced the ritual renewal, each person could be a cosmic hero of a quite definite kind: one could contribute with one’s powers and observances to the replenishment of cosmic life. Gradually, as societies became more complex and differentiated into classes, cosmic heroism became the property of special classes like divine kings and the military, who were charged with the renewal of nature and the protection of groups by means of their own special powers. And so the situation developed where people could be heroic only by flowing orders. #RandolphHarris 5 of 18

People had given the mandate of power and expiation to their leader-heroes, and so salvation had to be mediated to them by these figures. In a primitive hunting band or a tribe the leader cannot compel anyone to go to war; in the kingship and state the subjects have no choice. They now serve in warfare heroism for the divine king who provides one’s own power in victory and bathes the survivors in it. With the rise of money coinage one could be a money hero and privately protect oneself and one’s offspring by the accumulation of visible gold-power. With Christianity something new came into the World: the heroism of renunciation of this World and the satisfactions of this life, which is they the pagans thought Christianity was crazy. It was a sort of antiheroism by a being who denied life in order to deny evil. Buddhism did the same thing even more extremely, denying all possible Worlds. In modern times, with the Enlightenment, began again a new paganism of the exploitation and enjoyment of Earthly life, partly as a reaction against the Christian renunciation of the World. Now a new type of productive and scientific hero came into prominence, and we are still living this today. More cars produced by Detroit, record high stock market prices, more profits, more goods moving—all this equals more heroism. #RandolphHarris 6 of 18

And with the French Revolution another type of modern hero was codified: the revolutionary hero who will bring an end to injustice and evil once and for all, by bringing into being a new utopian society perfect in its purity. Humans and animals share the biologically programmed, reactive-aggressiveness that serves the defense of their vital interests. In humans, however, there are kinds of aggressiveness that are not biologically given and do not serve the end of self-defense but are rooted in their character. The reasons why an individual develops that kind of aggressive character are complicated, and I cannot go into them here. However, aggressive characters of this sort are a reality and one that occurs only among human beings. What I want to focus on next is the phenomenon itself, the sadistic character of such. When we speak of sadism we often have only perversions of pleasures of the flesh in mind, cases in which, say, a human experiences arousal from pleasure of the fresh if one can beat or abuse a vulnerable person in some way. Sadism can also mean the passion or wish to do bodily harm to another person. The essence of sadism is, however, wanting to have control over another living being, complete and absolute control. The other creature can be an animal, youth, or another adult, but in every case the sadistic individual makes the other living creature one’s property, a thing, an object of domination. #RandolphHarris 7 of 18

If someone can make another person defenseless and force one to bear pain, that is an extreme form of control, but it is not the only one. That form of sadism occurs sometimes in teachers, sometimes in prison guard, sometimes in misfits, and so on. It is clear that this kind of sadism, though not involved in pleasures of the flesh, in a narrow sense of the word, is nonetheless what we might call a heated, sensual form of sadism. However, it is not the only form. Far more common is a cold sadism that is not at all sensual and has nothing whatever to do with pleasures of the flesh but still displays the same essential quality that sensual and pleasures of the flesh sadism do: Its goal is domination, complete control over another person, being able to mold and shape one as the potter does one’s clay. There are even benign forms of sadism with which you are all familiar. Such sadism can turn up in all sorts of people, but mothers and bosses are particularly prone to it. One person controls another not to one’s harm or disadvantage but to one’s advantage. One tells the other individual what one should do. Everything the subordinate should do is spelled out for one, and it is all good for one. It may indeed be good for one—or perhaps we should say profitable—but the problem with it is that one loses one’s freedom and autonomy. #RandolphHarris 8 of 18

The relationship of mothers to their sons or fathers to their sons are often coloured by that kind of sadism, and the sadistic individual is, of course, totally unaware of any sadistic intent, because one “means so well.” Even the victim of such sadism is unaware of it, because all one sees is how one is profiting from one’s situation. The one thing one does not see is that one’s soul is being damaged, that one is becoming a submissive, dependent, unfree human being. Now I would like to give you an example of an extreme form of sadism, a person possessed by a passion for absolute omnipotence, a person who wanted to be God. We find just such a portrait in the Camus’s play of Caligula. Caligula, the Roman emperor, was a tyrant with unlimited power. He may not have been so different from other people at first, but then he found himself in a situation where he felt we not subject to the normal conditions of human existence, for there were no limits put on his power. His friends do not just find this out—he himself lets them know it in no uncertain terms. However, they have to flatter him and pay him homage. Unless they want to be terminated, they must not ever let their anger or indignation show. Otherwise he will end their lives, first one, then another, whenever the mood strikes him. #RandolphHarris 9 of 18

Caligula will end their lives not because he cannot stand them any more but because being able to control the fate of whomever he wants is a sign of his power, his omnipotence. However, even that power does not satisfy his longing for omnipotence, for the ability to control the fate of others is ultimately limited, too. As a result, his desire for omnipotence takes the form of what we might call a symbolic wish, one that Camus presents very skillfully in the play. Caligula wants the Moon. If he were to say that today, we might find the expression rather odd. However, a few decades ago the expression meant something like: “I want the impossible. I want the kind of power than no human being can have. I am the only person who matters. I am God. I have power over everyone and everything. What I want I can have.” A person with the passion for absolute control will try to circumvent, to overstep the limits inherent in human existence, for it is part of the human condition that we are not omnipotent. And if a person should gain much too much power, death will show one how powerless one is in the face of nature, much like the Coronavirus is currently doing. Camus shows us very convincingly how Caligula is really not so different from other people until he becomes mad. #RandolphHarris 10 of 18

Because Caligula attempts to overstep the boundaries of human existence he does mad, as anyone will who makes such an attempt and cannot find his way back to human territory. We see from this example that madness is not really a disease in the sense that we normally think of disease but a certain way of solving the problem of human existence. The mad person denies the powerlessness inherent in us that torments us because, in his fantasies, he does not recognize any limits. He behaves as if no limits existed. However, because powerlessness is a reality one will necessarily lose one’s mind if one insists on pursuing one’s goal. If we wanted to put in this way, we could speak not of an illness but of a philosophy or—to be more precise still—a form of religion. Madness is an attempt to negate and deny human powerlessness by pretending to oneself, with the assistance of some very specific tactic, that one is not ultimately powerless. One hundred years ago we may still have believed that Caligulas existed only in Roman history. The twenty-first century since then has presented us with a whole new crop of Caligulas—in Europe, in American, in Africa, everywhere. And all those Caligulas are cut after the same pattern. #RandolphHarris 11 of 18

People get a taste of unlimited power, and they then remain irrevocably and passionately committed to solving their power. We can see that very clearly both in Jerry Brown and Gavin Newsom. The limitations of human existence are denied, and that opens the way for a certain kind of madness. Fortunately, most people with the sadistic longing for complete control over others have to be satisfied with indulging their cold sadism in more modest forms, though obviously in forms that still provide them with satisfaction. We know that parents can behave sadistically toward their children, trying to exert absolute control over them. That is not as common today as it used to be, because children are not as ready to put up with it any more. However, it was quite common seventy, eighty, ninety years ago. Doctors see many cases of children being brought to hospitals with serious injuries and missing teeth resulting from parental blows and abuse. The umber of cases of sadistic child abuse that come to light is only a very small percentage of the cases that actually occur. For both by law and by custom parents can do just about anything they want with their children as long as they can claim that it was done for the child’s good and as long as the evidence of physical abuse is not too horrendous. #RandolphHarris 12 of 18

Motive power is of two kinds. One, the appetitive power, commands motion. The operation of this power in the sensitive soul is not apart from the body; for anger, joy, and passions of alike nature are accompanied by a change in the body. The other motive power is that which executes motion in adapting the members for obeying the appetite; and the act of this power does nor consist in moving, but being moved. Whence it is clear that to move is not an act of the sensitive soul without the body. In religious teachings there is a paradox that we are holy and blameless in God’s sight. It seems betwixing  to state that we are holy in God’s sight. How can we who are not only guilt but morally filthy possibly be holy in the sight of One whose gaze penetrates our very hearts, who knows our every motive and thought as well as our words and actions? The answer is that because of our union with Christ, God sees His holiness as our holiness. In the person of Christ God beholds a holiness which abides His closet scrutiny, yea, which rejoices and satisfies His heart; and whatever Christ is before God, He is for His people. Many Christians grew up in homes where parental acceptance was based, too a large degree, on academic, athletic, musical, or perhaps some other standard of achievement. #RandolphHarris 13 of 18

Often, in that kind of performance environment, they youth never felt as if they measured up to expectations, regardless of how successful they were. Then they transfer that sense of inadequacy to their relationship with God. They continually wonder, Is God please with me? Is He smiling on me with Fatherly favour. The answer to that question is an unqualified yes. God is smiling on you with Fatherly favour. He is pleased with you because He sees you as holy and without blemish in Christ. Do you want to talk about performance? Then consider that Jesus could say matter-of-factly and without any pretentiousness, “I always do what pleases Him [the Father],” reports John 8.29. When our Father looks at us, He does not see our miserable performance. Instead, He sees the perfect performance of Jesus. And because of the perfect holiness of Jesus, He see us as holy and without blemish. “To the praise of the glory of His grace, wherein He hath made us accepted in the beloved,” reports Ephesians 1.6. Or to be more direct, God has made us acceptable to Himself through our union with Christ. You will never be accepted in yourself. You can never, to use a figure of speech, “scrub yourself clean.” #RandolphHarris 14 of 18

I always seek the Lord’s enabling and anointing on my messages, and I want my motive to be strictly to glorify God and build up His people. However, I know it never is, because deep down inside, I also want to succeed as a teacher. As hard as I try to dismiss that base motive, I know full well I never will completely. I can never “scrub clean” that motive. However, God in His grace has provided a perfect holiness in the person of His Son. Through our union with Him we have been made holy. Grant Thy servants, O God, to be set on fire with Thy Spirit strengthened by Thy power, illuminated by Thy splendour, filled with Thy grace, and to go forward by Thine assistance. Give them, O Lord, a right faith, perfect love, true humility. Grant, O Lord, that there may be in us simple affection, brave patience, persevering obedience, perpetual peace, a pure mind, a right and clean heart, a good will, a holy conscience, spiritual compunction, ghostly strength, a life unspotted and unblameable; and after having manfully finished our course, may we be enabled happily to enter into Thy Kingdom. “And now I, Nephi, being a man large in stature, and also having received much strength of the Lord, therefore I did seize upon the servant of Laban, and held him, that he should not flee. And it came to pass that I spake with him, that if he would hearken unto my words, as the Lord liveth, and as I live, even so that if he would hearken unto our words, we would spare his life. #RandolphHarris 15 of 18

“And I spake unto him, even with an oath, that he need not fear; that he should be a free man like unto us if he would go down in the wilderness with us. And I also spake unto him, saying: Surely the Lord hath commanded us to do this thing; and shall we not be diligent in keeping the commandments of the Lord? Therefore, if thou wilt go down into the wilderness to my father thou shalt have place with us. And it came to pass that Zoram did take courage at the words which I spake. Now Zoram was the same of the servant; and he promised that he would go down into the wilderness unto our father. Yes, and he also made an oath unto us that he would tarry with us from that time forth. Now we were desirous that he should tarry with us for this cause, that the Jews might not know concerning our flight into the wilderness, let they should pursue us and destroy. And it came to pass that when Zorman had made an oath unto us, our fears did cease concerning him. And it came to pass that we took the plates of brass and the servant of Laban, and departed into the wilderness, and journeyed unto the tent of our father,” reports 1 Nephi 4.31-38. We beseech Thee, O Lord our God, that the relief from anxiety which Thy mercy has bestowed upon us may not make us negligent, but rather cause us to become more acceptable worshippers of Thy Name; through Jesus Christ our Lord. #RandolphHarris 16 of 18

O Lord of grace, I have been hasty and short in private prayer, O quicken my conscious to feel this folly, to bewail this ingratitude; my first sin of the day leads into others, and it is just that Thou shouldst withdraw Thy presence from one who waited carelessly on Thee. Keep me at all times from robbing Thee, and from depriving my soul of Thy due worship; let me never forget that I have an eternal duty to love, honour and obey thee, that Thou art infinitely worthy of such; that is I fail to glorify Thee I am guilty of infinite evil that merits infinite punishment, for sin is the violation of an infinite obligation. O forgive me if I have dishonoured Thee, melt my heart, heal my backslidings, and open an intercourse of love. When the fire of Thy compassion warms my inward being, and the outpourings of Thy Spirit fill my soul, then I feelingly wonder at my own depravity, and deeply abhor myself; then Thy grace is a powerful incentive to repentance, and an irresistible motive to inward holiness. May I never forget that Thou hast my heart in Thy hands. Apply to it the merits of Christ’s atoning blood wherever I sin. Let Thy mercies draw me to Thyself. Wean me from all evil, mortify me to the World, and make me ready for my departure hence, animated by the humiliations of penitential love. #RandolpHarris 17 of 18

 My soul is often a chariot without wheels, clogged and hindered in sin’s miry clay; mount it on eagle’s wings and cause it to soar upward to Thyself. We Christians have a desire deep within us to be like God and to bring honour to His name. However, what are we to look like if we are to fulfill these desires? Clearly, the picture implies that a growing, vibrant disciple will be someone who values one’s intellectual life and works at developing one’s mind carefully. Do not neglect your critical faculties. Remember that God is a rational God, who has made us in His own image. God invites and expects us to explore His double revelation, in nature and Scripture, with the minds He has given us, and to go on in the development of a Christian mind to apply His marvelous revealed truth to every aspect of the modern and post-modern World. Leaders set aside a portion of each day (even if it is only a matter of minutes) for quiet time devoted to prayer, meditation, imagining, or just daydreaming. Quietude is an elixir that every leader needs. How simple it is to see that all the worry in the World cannot control the future. How simple it is to see that we can only be happy now. And that there will never be a time when it is not now. #RandolphHarris 18 of 18