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The Ring of Fear

Many young people try drugs to fill voids in their lives, but this decision always leads to broken hearts and bodies. Whether they feel a need for friends, or peace, or happiness, or love, these teens always find drugs to be an unfulfilling substitute for what they really need. Turning to the Lord and to our families, instead of to other sources, will truly fill our needs. Abusing drugs can never do that. Another reason people do drugs is because states like California legalized recreational use of marijuana, and as it goes, the excuse is “weed is okay, everyone does it,” but if that were true, the federal government would not consider marijuana an illegal substance. It is absolutely important to teach your children to obey all laws, as best you can. So, marijuana should not be a substance that is considered acceptable in your home. Nevertheless, youth also turned to marijuana because adults they admire use it. If you use drugs, as an adult, you should never use them in front of children or other impressionable people because it could lead to them becoming addicted to marijuana and making some unsavory choices in life. Marijuana could also land your child behind bars or cause them to have an accident that could cost someone their life. Continue to nurture your connections with trusted peers and trusted adults. This is critical. Develop the self-awareness to recognize the connection between being tempted and feeling a need for acceptance. #RandolphHarris 1 of 22

No aspirant is asked to remain emotionally neutral regarding his personal hopes and fears. He is asked to strive for impartiality in his decisions, to recognize that it is wrong action which secures his own enjoyment at the cost of other people’s suffering or his own gain at the cost of their rights. He is to try at all times to see directly into his own personal situation without being misled by emotions, blinded by passions, or confused by suggestions; that is, he is to see it just as it really is. This practice is intended to help disentangle him from his ego. When you feel that need, it is important to fill it in healthy, gospel-centered ways. Stay close to your family and the Church. The same human characteristic of emotion which enslaves and even harms him when it is attached to Earthly things alone, exalts and liberates him when it is disciplined and purified by philosophy. Just as inordinate fear evoked by sudden catastrophe could drive someone quite insane, so clam resignation evoked by sudden bereavement could bring a glimpse of full spiritual sanity. He who keeps a silent tongue in his head when the air is filled with anger is on the way to holding down his own wrath. However, he who keeps a silent mind will conquer it more quickly and easily. There is the caution which comes from timidity and the caution which comes from experience. They are not the same. He must keep a part of himself in such reserve that no event and no person can ever touch it. #RandolphHarris 2 of 22

In the case of an ordinary man, the emotional reaction to a situation is all he is conscious of during the situation itself.  If at all, the intellectual or intuitional judgment of it comes some time afterwards. However, in the disciple’s case, his self-training should be directed toward a side-by-side working of the two at one and the same time. The silent, taciturn, reserved man makes fewer friends but guards his present and future better. To be cautions in speech and writing today—whether private or public—is to save trouble tomorrow. A single indiscretion may mar a lifetime’s honourable reputation. The same act which is wrong when done in anger and on impulse may become right when done in calmness, after due reflection. Such an act might be, for instance, the protection of other persons against an unjust invasion of their rights or a violent aggression against their bodies. At a certain stage of one’s evolutionary development, personal emotions form the greatest obstacle of all. It is extremely difficult and painful to stand aside from one’s emotional nature at a time when it wants most to be insistent—but, if he does, that is the very time the quickest progress can be made. One should try, so far as possible, to avoid anxiety about his problems, whether they are of a Worldly or spiritual nature. It is necessary to develop a calm, hopeful attitude toward the future. #RandolphHarris 3 of 22

Anything that may be written or thought at a time when one is plunged in pain or grief must be evaluated again after enough time has elapsed to allow the upheaval of emotions to subside, lessening the hurt. Only then can a calm, philosophical appraisal of the entire situation be satisfactory achieved. Inner strength of a remarkable nature can be shown in the manner in which one responds to disappointment. One could so easily become wildly hysterical at the breakdown of his hopes. We are forced into admiration for the way in which another may take the breakdown of his dreams. Nothing should ever be done in a great hurry or in a sudden outburst of enthusiasm. He should sleep on his decisions and discuss them with older people who have themselves demonstrated by their own success that their judgments are worthwhile. Mastery resides at the core. The life of a master is lived at the core and through the core. To help in our understanding of how this happens, it might be useful for us to borrow a concept from philosophy. In the early 1800’s, the German philosopher Georg Hegel developed the idea of thesis-antithesis-synthesis. Basically, this idea (often called Hegel’s Dialectic) holds that when one force (the thesis) comes into contact with its opposite force (the antithesis), the result is a third force (synthesis) which is unlike the first two. A common way of imagining this is to picture driving down a road (thesis), then reaching a stop sign (antithesis), and making a sharp left and going up hill (synthesis). #RandolphHarris 4 of 22

Thesis and antithesis are “synthesized” into a new, entirely different thing. For example, when the colour yellow is mixed in equal proportions with the colour blue, they produce green. Thesis (yellow) meeting antithesis (blue) produces synthesis (green), which is neither yellow nor blue, yet contains both. The colour green is a new “thing” which has resulted from the combination of the two old “things.” In the journey to mastery, this process takes place within us. It involves our thoughts, our feelings, and combinations of thoughts and feelings, which are called “values.” The word “value,” may have a broader meaning than you would normally attach to it. It consists of an intellectual element and an emotional element, a thought and a feeling. When a thought and a feeling come together, they synthesize into a “value”: Picture the thought as the starting point on the road, the feeling as a stop sign further down the road, and the value as the destination after reaching the stop sign and making a sharp left uphill. Through the entire realm of experience consists of countless thoughts, feelings, emotions and values in infinite variety, to simplify matters, we can say there are eight basic values: Strength, weakness, anger, love, criticalness, support, control, dependency. To imaging this graphically, picture a daisy flower with eight petals and each value being a petal. #RandolphHarris 5 of 22

Therefore, strength and weakness, anger and love, criticalness and support, control and dependency are all values, that is, emotionally laden ideas about life. This might conflict with traditional notions about feelings. Having considered anger, for example, a pure feeling or emotion, you might find it hard to think of anger as a “value.” Yet that is what it is. When you were a children and first displayed anger as a pure emotion, you might have been told it was not nice to be angry, that it made people feel uncomfortable and you ought to “hold your temper.” Thus, a value judgment became attached to the feeling of anger. From that time on, whenever anger came up, you felt it and also mentally shut it off because your anger was a “bad” feeling to have. Anger became something in addition to the feeling; it became a value. Values are more than simple feelings in that they consist of intellect and feeling. Theya re ideas charged with the power of feeling. They are similar to attitudes. Viewed in this way, values eliminate the apparent conflict between the thinking and feeling sides of your nature. In experiencing your values, you use your mind and your heart simultaneously. You are being human. When one value—anger, love, strength, weakness, criticalness, support, control or dependency—is exaggerated and used to the exclusion or minimization of every other, manipulation is a result. #RandolphHarris 6 of 22

If, for example, you relied consistently upon your strength, you would almost become your strength. You would constantly be showing the World a mask of strength, while denying your weakness. In so doing, you render yourself incapable of using your weakness in situations that demand it. You become like an eight-cylinder engine of a BMW 740iL, constantly trying to run on only one cylinder. Like that engine, you can chug along, but only with great effort and at the expense of smooth, effortless operation. To be fully expressive and totally alive, to run on all your cylinders, to be a real BMW 740iL, a master, to be the Ultimate Driving Machine you must experience all of your values and be a fully functioning 4.4-liter M62B44 V8 engine. And this experience requires the process of synthesis. For example, when strength and weakness are experienced at the same time, they synthesize into courage, like this: strength is a starting point down the road, weakness is the stop sign down the road, and courage is obeying the law and making a sharp left up a hill and reaching the point of courage. Each time a synthesis occurs, it occurs at the core. So, just imagine once you arrive at the point of courage up the hill, there is a radius at the courage point which contains the core and you will notice that the road to courage and strength start to run parallel, but in more of the form of an angle. Much like an isosceles triangle without a bottom. #RandolphHarris 7 of 22

Similarly, anger and love synthesize into assertiveness. Criticalness and support become appreciation of differences. Control and dependency become interdependence. To reach the core, to achieve the synthesis, you must be willing to experience all of your values. Yet this can be a terribly frightening prospect. Most of us stick to one value because somewhere in our development we found that it worked for us, it helped us to get what we wanted. We have become comfortable with it and extremely uncomfortable with some or all of the others. If, to further highlight this illustration, as a child, you had a father who melted when you treated him lovingly, who gave you things when you fawned over him adorningly, you may have hit upon the notion that the way to succeed in life by being lovable. You placed an exaggerated value on love. If you were surrounded by people who cowered and gave in when you got angry, you may have decided that anger gets you what you want, and thus you put an exaggerated value on anger. Every value which you, as a human being, are capable of feeling and expressing, can serve you. However, if you come to rely on one value to the exclusion of others, if you begin to call upon that value in every situation—whether it is appropriate or not—you have formed a pattern of manipulation. It is a pattern which can—and already may have severely damaged your relationships with yourself and others. #RandolphHarris 8 of 22

Yet in spite of the harm these patterns cause, you stick with them. They are comfortable and safe. They are easy to justify by claiming, “Well, that is just the way I am.” However, I disagree with your claim. You as a manipulator, might act that way, but it is not the way you really are. It is not who you are. Who you are is a great deal more than one or two comfortable values. You are more than an engine that is able to operate on only one or two cylinders. Who you are, deep in your core, is a fully expressive, totally alive human being—a master. A master of yourself and your relationships, not a slave of your manipulations. There is a concept called the “ring of fear”; all of us are fearful of expressing our polarities. Thus, fear becomes a barrier. However, it can be penetrated. The first step involves admitting you are afraid to express the fear, because the very act of expressing it is frightening in itself. This usually causes the other person to invite you to express it anyway. Once you express the fear, the way is open for you to experience the polar value. Picture the daisy, each of its eight petals represents a value either positive or negative: anger, control, strength, support, love, dependency, weakness, criticalness. Now, all of these petals are attached to the pistil of the daisy and around the outer ovary of the pistil is fear, at the center of the pistil is the core. The pistil is the ring of fear, and in the center of the ring of fear is the core. #RandolphHarris 9 of 22

Though the ring of fear initially acts as a barrier, keeping us from experiencing the values on the other side, this effect is temporary. Once we have penetrated the barrier, we can experience the opposite value and arrive at the synthesis or “integrated value” in the core. This is called a transforming experience, or an Experience of Mastery. After such an experience, imagine the daisy with the eight petals, and the pistil of the daisy representing courage. Now, from the petal of strength there is a road that goes through the pistil of the daisy at about a 15 degree decline across to the petal of weakness, then at a 15-degree angle goes back to the pistil of the daisy at a 15-degree angle which is the point of courage. In the experience of mastery, you live from your core and through your core. You express rhythmically between polar opposite values. You become truly alive, not passive or indifferent. Rather than remain a slave to one exaggerated value, you become a channel for the free and natural expression of all of them. You make contact with the real person in others and you discover that unique individual who is the real you. The emotional hurts which meant so much and felt so deep when you were spiritually juvenile, will come to signify less and less as you become spiritually adult. For you see increasingly that they made you unhappy only because you allowed them to do so, only because, from two possible attitudes, you chose the little ego’s with its negative and petty emotionalism as against the higher mind’s positive and universal rationality. #RandolphHarris 10 of 22

Real-life injunctions do not take effect by magic, but depend upon the physiological properties of the human mind. It is not enough to say once, “Do not eat those apples!” or “Do not open the chest!” Any Martian knows that an injunction given in that way is really a challenge. For an injunction to be locked in solidly in the mind of a child, it must be repeated frequently and transgressions must be punished, although there are exceptional cases, as with battered children, where a single shattering experience may engrave an injunction for life. The injunction is the most important part of the script apparatus, and varies in intensity. Hence, injunctions can be classified in the same way as games, into first, second, and third degrees. There is a tendency for each type to produce its own kind of person: winner, nonwinner, or loser. (These terms will be explained in more detail later. A nonwinner is someone who neither wins nor loses, but just manages to come out even.) First-degree injunctions (socially acceptable and mild) are straight directives reinforced by approval or discouragement. (“You have been nice and quiet.” “Do not be too ambitions.”) With these it is still possible to grow a winner. Second degree (devious and tough) are crooked directives crookedly enforced by a kind of blackmail of seductive smiles and threatening frowns, which is the best way to raise a nonwinner (“Do not tell your father.” “Keep your mouth shut.”) Third-degree (very rough and harsh) are unreasonable stoppers enforced by fear. #RandolphHarris 11 of 22

Words become screams, facial expression become nightmarish distortions, and physical chastisement becomes viciousness. (“I will knock your goddam teeth in and turn your pockets inside out.”) This is one of the surest ways to produce a loser. The injunction, like a payoff, is complicated by the fact that most children have two parents. Thus, one may say “Do not act smart!” and the other “Do not make me knock you out! Stop acting stupid.” Such contradictory injunctions put the child in a difficult position. However, most people who marry have compatible injunctions, such as “Do not act smart!” and “Keep quiet or I will knock your goddam brains out!” which make a sad combination. Stoppers are implanted at such a tender age that the parents look like magical figures to the little boy or girl. The part of the mother who gives out injunctions (her Controlling Parent or Child) is called colloquially “the fairy godmother” is she is benevolent, or “the witch mother” is she is not. In some cases, “mother’s crazy Child” seems the most suitable label. Similarly, the Controlling Father is called “the jolly green giant,” “the ugly troll,” or “father’s crazy Child,” whichever is appropriate. There will be times when he, who built on philosophic coolness through the years, who thought himself proof against tears, will yield to them all too readily and all too helplessly. Even when everyone else seethes with violent emotion and bitter prejudice, he should keep a cool, philosophical perspective. Even when everyone else submerges his own in a fashionable party or a popular group, he should preserve his independence. #RandolphHarris 12 of 22

It is most comfortable for us to understand human robot-hood by looking at others. Thus, we notice that in “primitive” tribes young children perform baby-care. Older girls help with agriculture while older boys guard the flocks. After puberty, temporal caste assignments change dramatically. In all societies adolescent males pass through a warrior stage. In civilized societies technology and complex labour divisions have diminished the survival value of child-castes. Thus, the elaborate culture of organized play and extended education to prepare youngsters for warrior and post-warrior status. In Lucretius’ epic poem, Epicurus himself becomes the proud rebel he never actually was. “When in the eyes of all mankind humanity was leading an abject existence on Earth, cursed beneath the weight of a religion whose hideous aspect peered down from the heights of the celestial regions, the first to dare, a Greek, a man raised his mortal eyes and challenged the gods…In this way religion, in its turn, was overthrown and trampled underfoot, and this victory elevates us to the Heavens.” Here we can sense the difference between this new type of blasphemy and the ancient malediction. The Greek heroes could aspire to become gods, but simultaneously with the gods who already existed. At that time, it was simply a matter of promotion. Lucretius’ hero, on the other hand, embarks on a revolution. By repudiating the unworthy and criminal gods, he takes their place himself. He sallies forth from the armed camp and opens the first attack on divinity in the name of human suffering. #RandolphHarris 13 of 22

In the ancient World, murder is both inexplicable and inexpiable. Already with Lucretius, murder by man is only an answer to murder by the gods. It is not pure coincidence that Lucretius’ poem ends with a prodigious image of the sanctuaries of the gods swollen with the accusing corpses of plague victims. This new language is incomprehensible without the concept of a personal god, which is slowly beginning to form in the minds of Lucretius’ and Epicurus’ contemporaries. Only a personal god can be asked by the rebel for a personal accounting. When the personal god begins his reign, rebellion assumes its most resolutely ferocious aspect and pronounces a definitive no. With Cain, the first act of rebellion coincides with the first crime. The history of rebellion, as we are experiencing it today, has far more to do with the children of Cain than with the disciples of Prometheus. In this sense it is the God of the Old Testament who is primarily responsible for mobilizing the forces of rebellion. Inversely, one must submit to the God of Abraham, Issac, and Jacob when, like Pascal, one has run the full course of intellectual rebellion. The mind most prone to doubt always aspires to the greatest degree of Jansenism. A schizoid friend and his wife are in constant difficulties. She approaches things intellectually, while he gets tired of words, tired of the misunderstandings that come about through words, tired of the very sound of words going on and on (no silences, no pauses). Sometimes he says that he is giving them up, to live with music for a while. His wife said to me, in complete puzzlement, “How can you communicate without words?” However, her husband’s words do not communicate to her easily. #RandolphHarris 14 of 22

Even in very simple things, she had to struggle. When he referred to a jazz musician as a “skin and bones drunk” she was baffled. She tussled with it, working it out in her head, and then she said, “Oh, I see. You mean that he is thin and gets drunk. You see, I didn’t understand the modifier.” She teaches English, which can be a limitation. When I was working as a university press editor, I mentioned to a most lovable English professor that a five-line sentence in his manuscript did not say anything. He read it and agreed, but then went over it phrase by phrase, clause by clause, adjective by adjective, and showed me that the sentence was absolutely correct, so therefore it should remain. It seems to me that most psychologists must do something like this with people: they do not seem to read people very well. I do not even know what a modifier if. I think that my friend’s husband probably does not know either, but he has a great respect for the education that he has not had, that his wife has. That is how mixed up we get—all of us, in one way or another. Actually we get mixed up in so many ways that I do not see any way out of it but to go by our own experience, and to limit ourselves to that. I do better when I know that if I have not had the experience, I cannot know anything about it, and can neither approve nor condemn. If interested, I can only explore and inquire. “No one may condemn another until he has walked in his moccasins for ten days.” And then, of course, I will not. This sound passive, and “passive” is a bad word in our society (another tabu). However, to experience “passive” is to know being very much alive, and it is the source from which my right actions spring. #RandolphHarris 15 of 22

To think about anything without experience is nothing. To be close to another person physically and emotionally, to be held tightly, to share one’s deepest self-secrets—all of these represent a basic need largely ignored by most behavioural scientists. This tender need seems to be uniquely human in its manifestation. Obviously related to the needs of pleasures of the flesh, intimacy yet has a meaning of its own that includes the physical union, but that can be expressed and can be experienced in the psychological realm alone. Its opposite is true loneliness—just being in the presence of others is insufficient. The need is for a real closeness that affirms the existence of the person. One’s existence as an individual is not only highlighted, like a back-lit photograph, in separation from others, but is also manifested in the phenomenon of intimate closeness. Deprivation of challenge is experienced as boredom, or as emptiness in existence. The need for challenge manifests itself most keenly when a person has made a “successful adjustment” to life, when he or she has been able to fulfill the material needs, and cannot then find anything to do. Without challenging goals, people eat or drink to excess or pass the time getting high on marijuana. The mission of the Sacramento Fire Department is to prevent the loss of life and property in the community due to fire, medical emergencies, and other natural or man-made disasters and catastrophes. This is accomplished through direct mitigation during these types of occurrences and through community wide prevention efforts. The Sacramento Fire Department will assume command of such incidents and will staff and maintain the force with professional, highly trained personnel. #RandolphHarris 16 of 22

The Sacramento Fire Department is prepared competently with cognitive, psychomotor, and affective skill levels to handle any challenge. “It was Christmas Day, Christmas before last. I had worked nighttime, eleven to seven, and I had just come home from work. I was having some coffee with my mother, and the radio alarm came in, saying, ‘Reported structure fire, occupants trapped.’ I drove to the firehouse, only a couple of miles up the road, and since there was no traffic that early in the morning I was the first one there. I saw the column of black smoke only a few blocks from the station, and I knew it was a bad one. The radio said the police were already there. I got geared up while Assistant Chief X and driver Y arrived. So we hopped on the engine and drove to the scene. We saw good-sized flames shooting up in the air toward the street. People told us they had seen people at this bedroom window, but they weren’t there anymore. The window was on the second floor, above the garage. There was a ladder there, and the chief told me to go ahead and use it to get to the window. I climbed up, but fire was coming through the garage door, so I had to jump back down. He went to get an inch-and-a-half to knock that down, and I got another inch-and-a half to try to make the doorway. Well, I couldn’t do that, but he had his fire knocked down, so he said, ‘Come on, get back up there. Let’s try it.’ #RandolphHarris 17 of 22

“I got up there, the window was already broken by the heat, and I hopped through. The window was so small that, after the fire, the guys said, ‘I don’t know how you fit through there.’ It was divided into panes by metal strips that you couldn’t break unless you had the right tool. So I jumped through there and landed on a bed. And the room was totally black—black like you never experience, not even when you put tape over your mask for training. I got low to the floor, staying close to the wall, trying to go over in my mind everything I was trained to do in this situation. My job was to go in, look for victims, and rescue, if possible. I crawled along the wall, felt under the bed with my left hand while keeping my right hand on the wall. I came to the foot of the bed, and I felt something on the floor, real spongy, kind of moist, like Playdough or Silly Putty. I picked it up, and it was kind of heavy, but I didn’t know what it was. I dropped it, and you could hear it thump. Then I picked it up again, and I could feel that it was a person. I had picked up the arm. The bedroom doorway was near there, and she had tried to get out the doorway, but she had dropped right there. I tried to pick her up—talk about dead weight, that was really dead weight. She only weighed about 120 pounds, but she felt like a ton. I couldn’t throw her over my shoulder for a fireman’s carry, so I had to bear-hug her with all my strength and carry her back toward the window. And she was slipping away from me. I got another grip, using all my strength, and carried her toward the window, where the bed was. I started to hyperventilate from the excitement and exertion, and I had to take a break. So I set her down on the bed. #RandolphHarris 18 of 22

“I was breathing so heavily that my mask couldn’t keep up with me until I could regain my composure and slow my breathing down. I said to myself, ‘Okay, this is what you’re supposed to do. Come on, you can do it.’ The whole house was involved. The fire had started in the basement and traveled through the whole house. The only rooms not burning at the time were two bedrooms, the one I had entered and the one beside it. So I regained my composure, got her in a bear hug again, and put her out the window. At first I thought I had thrown her out and she had fallen to the ground. That was all I needed! The smoke was billowing out the window, I couldn’t see two feet in front of me. And I thought, ‘Oh, my God, there’s nobody here to help me.’ I was yelling, and I lifted my face mask to yell louder. My body was so demanding of oxygen that I accidentally took in some hot air and gasses. The woman had been sort of hanging out the window, then all of a sudden she wasn’t there. The truck company had arrived and put up their own ladder, but they couldn’t see much better than I could. They just happened to reach out and feel the woman’s arms, and they just took her without me even knowing it. So then she wasn’t there, and I thought to myself, Well, it’s time to get out. I climbed over the windowsill onto the ladder I had used to get up there. I started to step down, and there was a rung missing. I hadn’t seen the fire department ladder, so I was on the wrong ladder. I lost my balance and fell backwards about fifteen feet, landing on the air bottle on my back. They thought I had spinal injuries. #RandolphHarris 19 of 22

“They dragged me up on the sidewalk, cut the air pack straps, put on a cervical collar, and strapped me on a backboard. I started coming to, and they said my eyes were all glassy and rolled back. Then I started to cough severely, brining up black mucus. Just one or two breaths of gas and hot air was enough to do that. I kept asking about the woman, is she okay, is she okay? They said they were doing CPR on her in the next house. They put me in the first ambulance, because they were afraid I had a broken back. They put her in the next one. I was in a daze. I remember the lights flashing over my head as they wheeled me down the hall at the hospital. Then the doctor and a group of nurses worked on me, getting my clothes off, examining me, drawing blood, hooking up IVs, putting oxygen on me. It was a mass of work being done on me all at once. It was really confusing. I was in the hospital for two days. I had a minor shoulder bruise from landing cockeyed, but basically it was for smoke inhalation. I still had no fear, I still didn’t worry about how bad a situation I had been in. The only time I came to that realization was when a fire chief with about twenty-five years in the service said it was the worst fire he had ever seen, and he couldn’t believe that I had gone in there. I was happy to hear that the woman was still alive, though she had to go the UCD burn center. But I felt kind of guilty because there were two other people in the house who did perish, he daughter and her husband. I hadn’t known they were in there. The woman is now living out of town with the rest of her family. She never came to the firehouse, but I did meet her son, and he thanked me. #RandolphHarris 20 of 22

“I heard that the woman was shock-blind for a while. She was in so much shock that she was blind. She later got her sight back. I guess God had a plan for me, and I did what he wanted me to do. I feel closer to him. I have no fear of dying if that’s how God wants me to go. What I do fear is the day when I’m faced with a really bad fire and I say to myself, hey, that’s even too bad for you, there’s no way you can go in there. Am I going to go in there and maybe die, or catch myself before I react? I’ll be testing myself. I kept replaying the fire. The guys at the firehouse kept wanting me to tell the story again, what was it like inside. It was like everybody’s dream, and they wanted to be part of it. I mean, it’s the dream of every fireman to make a successful rescue, to save some human life. And I was lucky enough to have done that.” The leadership of the Sacramento Fire Department are good stewards of taxpayer’s funds. They strive to be fiscally responsible with City funding and make prudent financial decisions. The Sacramento Fire Department is a well-trained and educated workforce and those qualities are essential to an effective fire department. They provide their firefighters and professionals with knowledge support and opportunities to improve their physical health, wellness and fitness in order to enhance job performance and an overall healthy personal lifestyle. Great people can liberate great feelings in others or lift them toward acceptance of true ideas. You can help the Sacramento Fire Department in their mission of saving lives and the community by donating. #RandolphHarris 21 of 22

Few people know what love really means because with nearly all it is filtered through the screens of bodily and selfish considerations. In its pure native state, it is the first attribute of the divine soul and consequently it is one of the most important qualities which the seeker has to cultivate. Remember parents, please teach your children to love American, to be proud to be American and to be patriotic. It is also important to buy American made cars and other goods and services produced by Americans, like beef, poultry, produce, steel and more. This will ensure that we save American manufacturing jobs, American farms, and the American auto industry. It is also important to teach your children the importance of respecting law and order and showing dignity and concern towards their elders. Also, education is by far one of the best gifts American children have been blessed with and will be an asset in their lives. I bear you my witness of the divinity of the Saviour of the World and of His redemptive love and power to heal, strengthen, and lift us when we are earnestly striving to come unto Him. Conversely, there is no way we can move with the crowd and also toward Jesus. The Saviour has defeated death, disease, and sin and has provided a way for our ultimate perfection if we will follow Him with all of our hearts. “We believe in being subjects to kings, presidents, rulers, magistrates, in obeying, honouring, and sustaining the law,” reports the Articles of Faith. Respect is an expression of our sense of universal brotherhood or sisterhood—a testimony of our membership in the human family. It acknowledges our common humanity and shows our reverence for children of God. The gospel teaches us that we are to hold the same esteem for others that we would hold for ourselves. Acting disrespectfully suggests we do not esteem the other person as ourselves. #RandolphHarris 22 of 22

The Winchester Mystery House

The house known as The Winchester Mystery House has become a museum of the most twisted and macabre kind. It is a monument to its own infamous past. On display inside were once wax figures of its victims. However, some people do not believe The Winchester Mystery House even exists. They are convinced that it is a huge hoax, an elaborate tourist trap. While 160 of the 500 to 600 rooms remain, through some are off limits, The Winchester Mystery House is very real. Will you dare to enter the house at night, when the tourists have gone? When are the ghosts and demons rumoured to come out?

About two decades ago, I got my hands on this really ancient diary that was written in 1899 by Sarah L. Winchester. I found the diary under mysterious circumstances in one of the rooms of The Winchester Mystery House. Nobody knows I have it. Sarah Winchester is the woman who built this labyrinth, and she goes into all kinds of details about how the hauntings manifested, and what they are like, and everything. I mean everything. The diary also goes into the first murder and let me tell you, this is sure not the stuff they tell you on tour!

Please come and enjoy a delicious meal in Sarah’s Café, stroll along the paths of the beautiful Victorian gardens, and wonder through the miles of hallways in the World’s most mysterious mansion. For further information about tours, including group tours, weddings, school events, birthday party packages, facility rentals, and special events please visit the website: https://winchestermysteryhouse.com/

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Why Should Evil be Punished When Goodness is Not Rewarded?

To look only for pleasant effects upon the ego’s feelings, whether it be our own or other people’s, is a mistake. Emotion is expert at inventing reasons for its aversions and dislikes. One of the very important tasks of the Quest is to bring the emotional nature and the passional nature under control. If this is not done, it is certain that man will be so affected by the various persons, so changed by the various environments he meets with as the days move forward, that he will not be able to achieve that serene poise which is the Quest’s goal, nor depend on what he will be like tomorrow. That is, he will not be able to depend upon himself. There are feelings which should be distrusted. There are reasonings which should be discarded. Only when the philosophic discipline has purified the heart and tranquilized the head can we safely rely on ourselves for judgment. Most people are, in fact, very far from the stage where they can sagely trust their emotions or indiscriminately yield to their instincts. Besides the absence of traffic laws, this inner journey is different in many ways from any other you will ever take. It does not cover any ground, geographically. It is a journey inside yourself and inside other people. It may not involve any physical movement—any doing what so ever. The destination is also different, in that it is not a place. It is a process. #RandolphHarris 1 of 21

Mastery is the process of discovering who you really are—and daring to be that—every day. It is the process of discovering and making contact with the real person in others—and daring to let them be who they are. Accomplishing these things involves getting in touch with your core, a source of inner wisdom which we all possess, a special place—deep within you—that intuitively knows what is best for you. Where is your “core”? If you were to examine an x-ray of your body, you would not be able to see it. However, because you cannot see it does not mean that it does not exist. The same x-ray might reveal the shape and size of your muscles without showing the strength those muscles possess. Yet you feel that strength and know it is there without being able to observe it objectively on the x-ray. And so it is with your inner core. Without ever having seen it, people have described this core as being somewhat like that of an apple, centering around the abdominal area and extending upward to the area of the heart and downward into the genital region. Pictured thus, the core resides in our physical center. At this physical center, we integrate feeling, thinking and bodily responses to make our most significant decisions about ourselves and others. At this center, our spirituality and psychological functioning come together and synthesize with our physical selves. #RandolphHarris 2 of 21

This core is the seat of power: the power of our intuitive hunches, our deepest feelings of love, our “right” decisions. Here the power of “conscience” occurs, the power of experiencing our feelings most completely. Is it not better to take counsel of reason than to yield to the ardour of impulse, the throb of emotion, or the stir of passion? For if these are leading in a right direction, they lose nothing but, on the contrary, get confirmed by being reasoned out. If one has to meet other persons who tend to put one into a condition of unease, then the most practical wisdom is to have as little personal contact with them as possible. Emotions must be held within bounds. Intuition and intelligence must set those bounds. Otherwise, imbalance, fanaticism, narrow-mindedness will thrive like weeds in the human heart. Young Aaliyah Haughton, brilliant cinema-acting genius, model, and singer, was not protected by the golden Saint Christopher medal, given her by Joe Lara, which was found close to her battered and broken body at the scene airplane crash which ended her short life. This tragic result was directly caused by some reckless temperament of her crew; it was the bitter fruit of a defect in their character. No religious medal could avert the result itself; only a modification of the temperament of her crew, a correction of their weaknesses, could have done so. To believe otherwise is to believe in superstition. #RandolphHarris 3 of 21

Incompatibility is inevitable, but not unconquerable. Our private emotions need not less control than our public behaviour. The aim of the self-denial and self-discipline is to bring the aspirant through the period of emotional adolescence into the healthy state of emotional maturity. Are you still hanging on to labels? I am not interested in their single information level. I push enthusiasm and its side effects. If that script is accurate, it will get you free. If I can help you by splitting, I will do it. If you want me to drive the escape car or hide you out, I will do that. If you want me to just go away and leave you alone, tell me. Just do not blow my cover and leave me here. I have no money for bail and no way to free myself. Whisper is just a prison script. If I were a better engraver, I would print the thirty thousand dollars and the ID. I told you it was risky to smuggle that script out. To decompose is to live too. Alone among his contemporaries, Lucretius carries this logic much farther and finally brings it to the central problem of modern philosophy. He adds nothing fundamental to Epicurus. He, too, refuses to accept any explanatory principle that cannot be tested by the senses. The atom is only a last refuse where man, reduced to his primary elements, pursues a kind of blind and deaf immortality—an immortal death—which for Lucretius represents, as it does for Epicurus, the only possible form of happiness. #RandolphHarris 4 of 21

He has to admit, however, that atoms do not aggregate of their own accord, and rather than believe in a superior law and, finally, in the destiny he wishes to deny, he accepts the concept of a purely fortuitous mutation, the clinamen, in which the atoms meet and a group themselves together. Already, as we can see, the great problem of modern times arises: the discovery that to rescue man from destiny to man—a historical destiny this time. Lucretius has not reached this point. His hatred of destiny and death is assuaged by this blind Universe where atoms accidentally form human beings and where human beings accidentally return to atoms. However, his vocabulary bears witness to a new kind of sensibility. The walled citadel becomes an armed camp. Menai mundi, the ramparts of the World, is one of the key expressions of Lucretius’ rhetoric. The main preoccupation in this armed camp is, of course, to silence hope. However, Epicurus’ methodical renunciation is transformed into a quivering asceticism, which is sometimes crowed with execrations. Piety, for Lucretius, undoubtedly consists in “being able to contemplate everything with an untroubled mind.” However, nevertheless, his mind reels at the injustices does to man. Spurred on by indignation, he weaves new concepts of crime, innocence, culpability, and punishment into his great poem on the nature of things. #RandolphHarris 5 of 21

In it he speaks of “religion’s first crime,” Iphigenia’s martyred innocence, and of the tendency of the divinity to “often ignore the guilty and mete out undeserved punishment by slaughtering the innocent.” If Lucretius scoffs at the fear of punishment in the next World, it is not as a gesture of defensive rebellion in the manner of Epicurus, but as a process of aggressive reasoning: why should evil be punished when we can easily see, here on Earth, that goodness is not rewarded? In many cases, it is a grandparent who controls the payoffs in a child’s life, either directly or through the parent. Grandmother may save the patient from a father’s death decree by offering a “life membership” instead. Or she may give mother a Medea script (or “overscript”), which forces her to drive her children to their deaths in one way or another. All this is fed into the Parent of the little boy or girl, and is likely to stay there for life: someone’s gentle hope that he will live forever, or a harsh voice urging him closer to his death. Sometimes there is no animosity in the death decree, but just futility or despair. However, since he drinks her wishes in from the day he is born, it is usually mother who makes the decision for him. Father may join or contradict her later: add his weight to her curse, or commute it. Patients can usually remember their childhood responses to payoff directives, things they did not say out loud. #RandolphHarris 6 of 21

Mother: “You are just like your father.” (Who got a divorce and lives in a room by himself.) Son: “Good. Smart guy, father.” Father: “You will end up like your aunt.” (Mother’s sister, who is in a mental hospital or experienced death by suicide.) Daughter: “If you say so.” Mother: “Drop dead.” Daughter: “I do not want to, but if you say so I guess I have to.” Father: “With your temper, you will kill somebody some day.” Son: “Well, if it cannot be you, it will be somebody else.” The child is very forgiving, and only makes his decision to follow the directive after dozens or even hundreds of such transactions. One girl from a very confused family, where she got no support from her patents, described very clearly the day she made her final decision. When she was thirteen, her brothers took her out in the barn and put her through all kinds of sexual stunts, which she went through in order to please them. After they finished, they began to laugh at her and talk about her. They decided that now she would either have to become a hooker or go crazy. She thought about it very carefully for the rest of the night, and by morning she had decided to go crazy, which she did very effectively, and stayed that way for years afterward. Her explanation was very simple. “I did not want to be a hooker.” While the script payoff is bestowed or decreed by the parents, it will not take effect unless it is accepted by the child. #RandolphHarris 7 of 21

His acceptance speech will not have the fanfare and finish of a Madison Avenue presidential inauguration, but he will say it as clearly as he dares at least once. “When I grow up, I am going to be like mommy” (= get married and have children), or “When I am big, I am going to do what daddy did” (=get killed in a war), or “I wish I was dead.” The patient should be asked: “What did you decide to do with your life when you were little?” If he gives a conventional answer (“I wanted to be a fireman”), this should be clarified with: “What I mean is, how did you decide you would end up?” Since payoff decisions are often first made earlier than he can remember, he may not be able to give the desired answer, but it can be inferred from some of his later adventures. Human beings need to feel recognized and approved by other members of the groups within which they live. Without such recognition, they tend to feel inferior. The quest for power and prestige is universal, though the means of attaining status differ from society to society. A man or woman may work to the point of exhaustion, neglecting personal health and the needs of his or her family, in order to purchase a Rolls Royce. The status symbolized by the Rolls seems worth the cost. The person may not enjoy the work, may not enjoy seeing his or her family suffer from neglect, the limousine may not transport the family any better than a less costly vehicle, but so urgent is the quest for status that the person is willing to pay the price. #RandolphHarris 8 of 21

Let us not underrate the strength of the status drive in modern humans. The puzzling thing, is how does it become so powerful? One hypothesis is that the fanatic quest for status is in compensation for lack of love or for physical deprivations associated with poverty. It is as if the “success-starved” person is trying to make up in adult years for childhood privations and can never get enough. Related is human beings’ need for a feeling and experience of competence, a confidence that they can control their environment. Humans needs varying degrees of freedom to conduct their lives according to their own wishes and plans. Many wars have been fought in the name of freedom. We can distinguish between objective freedom, which refers to the relative absence of real restrictions on one’s behaviour, and the feeling of freedom. The latter refers to persons’ estimates of how free they are to express themselves. Healthy personalities find an environment within which there is the greatest possible amount of objective freedom. Unhealthy personalities may dread both objective freedom and the feeling of freedom. They find it anxiety-producing. They can only carry on as long as they feel that they are under authoritarian rule or in surrender to charismatic leadership. Human beings not only need room to move and to express their unique ways; they need personal space for solitude and to facilitate uninterrupted intimacy with others. #RandolphHarris 9 of 21

In the absence of such assured space, people tend to become irritable and chronically defensive. As we enter an age of vastly increased population and the concentration of this population in crowded cities, the need for more space becomes increasingly urgent. Parallel to the need to love and care for others is the need to be alone for predictable periods of time. The crowding of cities, the constant interaction with other humans, require periods of time for an individual to contemplate the self, to consider personal growth, and to place self in perspective with the rest of the World. It is for this reason that Christians and other ascetics seek long periods of solitude. The popularity of transcendental meditation is partly ascribable to the deprivation from the solitude experience. This solitude is not the same as loneliness, which is a result of deprivation from the company of others. A solitude experienced is created by a healthy person out of a beneficial need to be alone for contemplation or intense meditation. Solitude is harder to create for oneself than is the companionship of a good friend and requires careful planning in our heavily socialized culture. Moustakas has suggested that such experience is essential to the development of the healthy personality. Woman can postpone maternal-matron-morality. The “youth-cult,” that produced middle-aged teeny boppers and married guys sporting Generation X hairstyles and wearing satin football hero satin shirts is another by-product of the newly won control of our neurogenetic brain sequences. #RandolphHarris 10 of 21

School children between the ages of five to eleven years old also play a crucial role in the human hive. Young students keep the enormous educational industry going. Schools become bureaucratic paper-factories keeping teachers busy, school administrators occupied, and counselors engaged. The whole insectoid apparatus is designed to imprint the young robots with role-models, making them ready to take their places in a bureaucratic-socialist centralized hive civilization where everyone is trained to play a role. The Barbarian Teenager Caste similarly plays a vital role in the human anthill by providing warriors in times of war. Indeed, teenagers encourage war. Every dictator knows that they way to keep the restless students from rioting in the university is to get them fighting on the border. In times of peace the crime rate rises. More than half of all reported crimes are committed by those under eighteen. During peace time the tasks of teenagers is to keep the police establishment and the judiciary going. If unreported vandalisms, blood-letting fights and automobile wheel coups were included, we would see that 90 percent of all crimes are committed by barbarian teenagers or unmarried, pre-domestic males. If adolescence were eliminated from the human cycle, there would be no Red Brigades, no rock-concert riots. The monolithic police bureaucracy would immediately crumble and in its anguished collapse would take the entire society down with it. Every caste has to be kept occupied. #RandolphHarris 11 of 21

This imperfection of science is a most attractive one; for it reflects the fact that science is not monstrous and monolithic, but is a very human enterprise, exhibiting the same lively and useful diversity which one finds in philosophy, art, music, etcetera. We mut bring science back into life as a human enterprise, an enterprise that has at its core the uncertainty, the flexibility, the subjectivity, the sweet unreasonableness, the dependence upon creativity and faith which permits it, when properly understood, to take its place as a friendly and understanding companion to all the rest of life. There must be something simpler; there must be something more in accord with our time. Some things have been harmful but at the same time quite seriously harmful. Many have accepted that harmful and seriously harmful things are “inevitable”—a “fact of life” because they notice it is happening all over. However, now it is becoming clear that rationalizing wrong is not reality. Science is a product of man and in itself is not either human or inhuman: it is according to the humanness or lack of it in the people who use it. The same information on the effects of nuclear fallout is used by one scientist in a way that commits him to work toward disarmament, and by another to insist that we must develop more bombs. When one excludes any part of self their humanness is decreased. #RandolphHarris 12 of 21

When my son graduated from Beijing Language and Culture University, I watched the men of his class marching up the central aisle to the platform, and something that I saw in their young faces filled me with such sadness that all of me was weeping. The tears began to flow. What I had “seen” that made me weep was all the young men marching through the centuries from the time of the first academic processions, young men bright with hope and with accomplishment after so much effort, so much giving up of life to this—for what? They marched through history (in my head) as though to slaughter. This could be interpreted as a “vision.” I suppose that the word “mystic” should go along with that. However, I do not like that interpretation so it is not for me. I prefer to see it as like my dreams which tell me what I know but have not been noticing. When I did see this knowing that I already knew, it overwhelmed me. I stopped my tears for the same reason that so often I stopped my words—because I would be seen in reverse. My knowing and my feeling, that produced my tears, was both personal and impersonal, with the personal in place as a small part of the whole—not lost, much present, but not exaggerated to become the whole which it is not. However, others would see in my tears my son and me alone within an alien (to me) context—within some arrangement (according to each person’s own thinking at the time_ of the proud/sad/happy/Father at his son’s Commencement, his graduation from a particularly honoured school. #RandolphHarris 13 of 21

To have my tears misunderstood, to be comnforted for what I am not uncomfortable about, to be “understood” through another person’s understanding which is not mine, to be read backwards—this jangles me. It takes me out of what I am in—the source of my tears, the reality of me at the moment, the totality of myself—and because I cannot accept what others think that I am in which is not the truth of me, I am left in nowhere. A connection has been broken. I reject the other, shut him out, so that I can re-concept with the truth of me. A celebrity friend said yesterday on the telephone that it seemed to her that when there is a serious family quarrel, non-verbal communication is being ignored. I told her what I have already put in some of the reports, about the doctor who told me “I’m glad this happened to you, not someone else!” and she laughed joyously that her knowing was shared. I had given her only the sketchiest picture of what happened, but she understood totally. With some people I had to give many more details, and some puzzle over it and never really understand, because there is only intellectual understanding. That is like knowing that a plant needs sunshine or shade, water, an appropriate soil, but never having a feeling for the plant as needing these things in the way that I need what I need. There is no responding to this plant, noticing and observing it, caring for it—not overly, excessively, even neglecting it at times or going against the “rule” of its behaviour when this seems right. #RandolphHarris 14 of 21

When I do this, using all of me, not only intellectual knowing, then I have a “green thumb.” In Hawaii where this is also recognized, as it probably is the World over, it is called lima ulu which means “the growing hand.” The major over air news networks, also known as Obama News, are called a “racial-Nationalist” mouthpiece and they have all the strengths connected with such institutions, but also all the faults and weaknesses. The Obama News Stations are being called the Ethnic Observer or People’s Observer. They are specifically and exclusively the Democratic Party, which tends to be affluent Whites. These networks use propaganda which is far below Mr. Hitler’s IQ and is totally unreasonable and downright the publications of lies and fantasies. The reporters are defensive, belligerent, have impotent arguments and make no strong statement, which is completely contrary to his theories on propaganda. They also do not provide any visual imagery to prove their statements, in fact, most of the images they use contradict their proofs. Obama news is basically like watching the Jerry Spring show, it is low brow, and only for entertainment purposes, as there is no educational value, nor facts to the programs. Going to further into actual research, Obama News ignores the subjects and meaning of life. If the Ku Klux Klan produced news like Obama News, they would be under investigation and cancelled by popular culture, but people still tune into the sleezy gossip. #RandolphHarris 15 of 21

So often the “truths” we tell ourselves are merely fragments of the truth, and sometimes they are not really the truth at all. Part of our problem in the quest for truth is that human wisdom has disappointed us so often. We have so many examples of things that mankind once “knew” were try but have since been proven false. In some way, we are all susceptible to such strange thinking. The “truths” we cling to shape the quality of our societies as well as our individual characters. All too often these “truths” are based on incomplete and inaccurate evidence, and at times they serve very selfish motives. Part of the reason for poor judgment comes from the tendency of mankind to blur the line between belief and truth, thinking that because something makes sense or is convenient, it must be true. Conversely, we sometimes do not believe truth or reject it—because it would requite us to change or admit that we were wrong. Often, truth is rejected because it does not appear to be consistent with previous experiences. When the opinions or “truths” of other contradict our own, instead of considering the possibility that there could be information that might be helpful and augment or complement what we know, we often jump to conclusions or make assumptions that the other person is misinformed, mentally challenged, or even intentionally trying to deceive. Unfortunately, this tendency can spread to all areas of our lives—from sports to family relationships and from religion to politics. #RandolphHarris 16 of 21

The truth is different from belief. It is different from hope. Absolute truth is not dependent upon public opinion or popularity. Polls cannot sway it. Not even the inexhaustible authority of celebrity endorsement can change it. I believe that our Father in Heaven is pleased with His children when they use their talents and mental facilities to earnestly discover truth. Over the centuries many wise men and women—through logic, reason, scientific inquiry, and, yes, through inspiration—have discovered truth. These discoveries have enriched mankind, improved our lives, and inspired joy, wonder, and awe. Even so, the things we once thought we knew are continually being enhanced, modified, or even contradicted by enterprising scholars who seek to understand truth. The adversary has many cunning strategies for keeping mortal from the truth. They offer the belief that truth is relative; appealing to our sense of tolerance and fairness, they keep the real truth hidden by claiming that one person’s “truth” is as valid as any other. Sometimes the adversary entices to believe that there is an absolute truth out there somewhere but that it is impossible for anyone to know it. For those who already embrace the truth, the adversaries want to spread seeds of doubt. For example, they have caused many members of the Church to stumble when they discover information about the Church that seems to contradict what they had learned previously. If you experience such a moment, remember that in this age of information there are many who create doubt about anything and everything, at any time and every place. #RandolphHarris 17 of 21

Sometimes untrue claims or information are presented in such a way that they appear quite credible. However, when you are confronted with information that is in conflict with the revealed word of God, remember that the blind men in the parable of the elephant would never be able to accurately describe the full truth. We simply do not know all things—we cannot see everything. What may seem contradictory now may be perfectly understandable as we search for and receive more trustworthy information. Because we see through a glass darkly, we have to trust the Lord, who sees all things clearly. Yes, our World is full of confusion. However, eventually, all of our questions will be answered. All of our doubts will be replaced by certainty. And that is because there is one source of truth that is complete, correct, and incorruptible. That source is our infinitely wise and all-knowing Heavenly Father. He knows truth as it was, as it is, and as it yet will be. “He comprehendeth all things, and He is above all things, and all things are by Him, and of Him.” Our loving Heavenly Father offers His truth to us, His mortal children. Now, what is this truth? It is His gospel. It is the gospel of Jesus Christ. Jesus Christ is “the way, the truth, and the life.” If we will only have enough courage and faith to walk in His path, it will lead us to peace of heart and mind, to lasting meaning in life, to happiness in this World, and to joy in the World to come. The Saviour is “not far from every one of us.” If we seek Him diligently, we have His promise that we will find Him. #RandolphHarris 18 of 21

Through professionalism, dedication, integrity and training the Sacramento Fire Department works to safe guard the lives and property and to enhance the quality of life of the people of Sacramento. This is accomplished by providing a vast range of emergency services, strong public relations and fire safety education. They also protect and preserve the health of their membership and return their personnel safely to their families. I had just gotten my EMT (Emergency Medical Technician) verification in the mail, and I was excited about it. Not ten minutes later, I responded, to the hall for a medical emergency. I got into the truck, and there were two guys in there with me. They just sat there waiting. I thought of my good news, and I said, ‘By the way, guys, I just got my EMT verification in the mail.” And all of a sudden the truck took off. ‘That’s what we were waiting for,’ they said. ‘An EMT.’ So we’re going down the road, and I’m trying to get my mind prepared, going down the list, oxygen, medical kit, suction. Then everything just started to gel, all my training and all my books, and I knew I was ready. I knew what I had to do in case of a heart attack or any other emergency. When we got to the scene, I was excited and grabbed all my equipment and walked into the house. There was a gentleman sitting in a chair. This man had been dead for at least twelve hours. Rigor mortis had already set in. My trained eye noticed that the blood had pooled, and I said to myself, ‘Oh, well, I can’t save this guy.’ #RandolphHarris 19 of 21

“One of the guys came up to me later and said, ‘You did a good job on him, Davey.’ And I felt so embarrassed. I had been so excited, and it just didn’t happen the way I wanted it to. I had a case recently where a lady died. She had gone into full arrest, and we responded to the call. We started CPR (cardiopulmonary resuscitation) and gave her oxygen. The whole time we were driving to the hospital, I kept thinking to myself, what a beautiful woman this must have been. She was seventy years old, and her husband, who was following the ambulance, was in his seventies, too. And you could just tell that the two of them had been together for a long time. I get very personal with these people in my mind. Even though she was not responding to CPR, I kept her hair out of her face, and I made sure that she was comfortable. And the ride was pretty rough on me, a lot of curves and some bumpy roads. But I felt that is I was going to be the person to be with her in the last few moments of her life, I was going to make sure she was happy and comfortable. I talked to her in my mind, like mental telepathy, telling her that her husband was right behind us, that he must love her very dearly, and not to worry about anything, that we were doing the best ww could. And I touched her face, just rubbing her cheek, and she was so soft. I could just imagine what a wonderful woman she must have been in her life. #RandolphHarris 20 of 21

“They continued the CPR in the hospital, but there was no response, and she never came around. But I felt good, I really did. Maybe it’s all in my mind, but I felt that I made a difference in her life to her. I would sure like somebody like me when me when I die. I really would like someone to care. And I hope that I never lose the sense of human touch…and care.” The Sacramento Fire Department strives to sustain and improve the health, safety, convenience, and welfare of the citizens of Sacramento and to plan for the future development of the community. You can help save lives and property by donating to the Sacramento Fire Department. And remember parents, please raise your children to love America, to be patriotic, to love God and Jesus, respect law and others, treat others with dignity and respect, and remind them of the importance of education. To help America survive the global recession and bring manufacturing jobs back to America and to get American wages at pace with inflation, it is important to buy America cars, American meat, American produce and other American made goods and services. I pledge allegiance to the flag of the United States of America, and to the Republic, for which it stands, one nation, under God, indivisible with Liberty and Justice for all. Our Father, our King, be gracious unto us and answer us, for we are wanting in good deeds; deal with us in charity and lovingkindness, and please save us. #RandolpHarris 21 of 21

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