At times, I feel them. You might say we feel each other. Jesus was called a physician, and it is the physician for whom we ask first when we are looking for health. And this is good. For, as all generations knew, there is healing power in nature. And if this power is wisely used and skillfully assisted, much healing is possible. Those who despise this assist and rely on the power of their will ignore both the destructive might and the constructive friendliness of nature. They do not know that our body contains not only the forces of discord between its elements but also forces of concord. The great physician is one who does not easily cut off parts and does not easily suppress the one function in favor of the other, but one who strengthens the whole so that within the unity of the body the struggling elements can be reconciled. And even if deep traces of former struggles in our body remain, this is possible as long as we are live. You have launched upon a quest from which there is no turning back. You have embarked upon a journey which will demand from you the utmost patience and deepest faith, the strongest determination and cultivation of the keenest intelligence lying latent within you. This Quest is not an undertaking of a few weeks of months. It is, as I have often said, a lifetime’s work: patience is required from us and must be given by us. #RandolphHarris 1 of 15

Yes, one may discover the elusive secret of life—but one must first work for it. The gods sell anything to everybody at a fair price. Take a few minutes off each day to find yourself, to question yourself, to awaken yourself—that is part of the price demanded. The physician can help, one can keep us alive, but can one make us whole? Can one give us salvation? If discord, cleavage, restlessness rule our mental life, if there is no unity and therefore no freedom in our soul, if we are possessed by compulsions and fantasies, by disordered anxiety and disordered aggression, if mental disorder or disease are threatening or have conquered us, certainly not. Time and growth are needed before a mortal can sign that absolute commitment of mind and life for which it asks. Spoiled plans or disappointed hopes may turn a mortal toward this quest but only appreciation of peace or love of truth can keep one on it. If we want to be healed, we ask for help of friends or counselors or analysts or psychiatrists. And they, if they know what to do, try to assist the healing powers of our soul. They do not appeal to our will power; they do not ask for removal or suppression of any trend, but they work for reconciliation, reconciliation of the struggle forces of our soul. They accept us as we are and make it possible for us to look at ourselves honestly and with clarity, to realize the strange mechanisms under which we are suffering and to dissolve them, reconciling the genuine forces of our soul with each other and making us free for thought and action. #RandolphHarris 2 of 15

Only when one’s quest becomes a whole-heartedly single-minded enterprise, working for a solitary end, disregarding all else yet retaining the sense of balance is it likely to succeed. No vow of secrecy will be required of one, no pledge of loyalty demanded from one; one must enter the scattered formless order by a silent act of one’s whole heart, not by a vocal utterance of one’s fleshly lips. It is too presumptuous for an ordinary mortal to attempt to follow the philosophic path? We answer that no mortal who feels the need of truth to support or guide one’s life should be regarded as presumptuous in this matter. One need not be discouraged. One need may dabble or penetrate deeply. The path is for one also. However, it is so only to the extent that one is willing to pay the cost—no more. One is free to pay as little, and get as little, as one wishes. No one has the right to force one to give more. The counselor and psychiatrist can help; one can liberate us, but can one make us whole? Can one give us salvation? If we are not able to use our freedom and if we are conquered by the tragic conflicts of our existence, certainly not. None of us is isolated. We belong to our past, to our families, classes, groups, nations, cultures. And in all of them health and infirmary are fighting with each other. #RandolphHarris 3 of 15

How can we be whole if the culture is split within itself, if every value is denied by another one, if every truth is questioned, if every decision is good and bad at the same time? How can we be whole if the institutions in which we live create temptations, conflicts, catastrophes too heavy for each of us? How can we be whole if we are connected, often intimately connected with people who are in discord with themselves, in hostility against us, or if we have to live with people, individuals, groups, nations who are irreconciled and sick? This is the situation of all of us, and this situation reacts on our personal life, disrupts the concord we may have reached. The reconciliation in our souls and often even in our bodies breaks down in the encounter with reality. Who heals reality? Who brings us a new reality? Who reconciles the conflicting forces of our whole existence? We look at those who are most responsible for our institutions, for our historical reality, the leaders, the political leaders, the wise administration, the educated, the good people, the revolutionary masses. There are healing powers in all of them, otherwise there would be no more history. And it is understandable that in the period of Jesus just rulers were called saviors and healers. They can maintain human life on Earth; but can they make us whole, can they bring us salvation? #RandolphHarris 4 of 15

They cannot because they themselves need wholeness and are longing for salvation. Who heals the healer? There is no answer to this antiquated reality. Everybody and every institution are infected, the healer and the healed. Only a new reality can make us whole, breaking into the old one, reconciling it with itself. It is the humanly incredible, ecstatic, often defeated, but never conquered faith of Christianity that this new reality which was always at work in history, has appeared in fullness and power in Jesus, the Christ, the Healer and Savior. This is said of Christ because Jesus alone does not give another law for thought or action, because Christ does not cut off anything or suppress anything that belongs to life, but because Jesus is the reality of reconciliation, because in Christ a new reality has come upon us in which we and our whole existence are accepted and reunited. We know, even when we confess this faith, that the old reality of conflict and infirmary has not disappeared. Our bodies ail and die, our souls are restless, our World is a battlefield of individuals groups. However, the new reality cannot be thrown out. We live from it, even if we do not know it. For it is the power of reconciliation whose work is wholeness and whose name is love. “And he called him his twelve disciples and gave them authority over unclean spirits, to cast them out, and to heal every disease and every infirmity,” reports Matthew 10.1. #RandolphHarris 5 of 15

People find truth only to the degree that they are entitled to do so. Their aspiration is not enough by itself to determine this degree; their mental, moral, and intuitional equipment also determines it. Whether one is able to follow regular periods of prayer or not, one may still have the basic essential for spiritual advancement. This is the fundamental mood of aspiration, a strong yearning to gain the consciousness of one’s innermost being. The traveler on this quest is a mortal who uses one’s consciousness and one’s will to better one’s character and purify one’s heart. The aspirant who comes to the Quest out of pure disinterested love for it rather out of a hunger for occult powers or a thirst for occult experiences, who seeking to know and do the right thing, will go ahead much more quickly and encounter much fewer dangers than the others who are not. If one has not become convinced of one’s weakness and wickedness, one cannot even set foot on this path, for only then will one be really rather than vocally willing to desert narcissism. There are not many who are ready for such independence of attitude and life. A certain inner strength is necessary for it first of all, and of course a natural or acquired willingness to desert the herds if necessary. When a mortal is ready to confess one’s ignorance, one is ready to begin one’s study of philosophy. #RandolphHarris 6 of 15

Very few people want to be lonely. Most try to find love. No one really wishes to live in constant interpersonal chaos or to be the cause of frequent disruptions of human relationships. Loneliness is ultimately an internal, subjective human experience. Therefore, in order to effectively combat its lethal influence, medicine must adopt techniques and approaches that go beyond the current scientific-objective approach of infirmary. Medicine must move beyond science to deal with this problem. We must use scientific objectivity to hep us understand human relationships as a philosophical attitude widely shared in our society that is causing rather than alleviating loneliness. Some people find that they are satisfied by the sheer pleasure of being in the midst of activity. They need to be around people, to absorb that colour and vitality of lives being actively lived. Many people want to feel like they are part of the human race. To feel that their lives are worthwhile, others need to participate in something larger than themselves. And not everything is about finding romance nor romantic love. People need to know that somewhere, at least for a few hours a week, their presence is expected and their efforts make a difference.  #RandolphHarris 7 of 15

 When a mortal is ready to drop the distorting influence of the emotions and passions which actuate one, one is ready to begin the study of philosophy. Life with spiritual beings—here the relation is wrapped in a cloud but reveals itself, it lacks but creates language. We are no You and yet feel addressed; we answer—creating, thinking, acting: with our being we speak the basic word, unable to say You with our mouth. However, how can we incorporate into the World of the basic word what is possessed outside language? In every sphere, through everything that becomes present to us, we gaze toward the train of the eternal You; in each we perceive a breath of it; in every You we address the eternal You, in every sphere according to its manner. I contemplate a tree. I can accept it as a picture: a rigid pillar in a flood of light, or splashes of green traversed by the gentleness of the blue silver ground. I can feel it as movement: the flowing veins around the sturdy, striving core, the sucking of the roots, the breathing of the leaves, the infinite commerce with Earth and air—and the growing itself in its darkness. I can assign it to a species and observe it as an instance, with an eye to its construction and its way of life. I can overcome its uniqueness and form so rigorously that I recognize it only as an expression of the law—those laws according to which the elements mix and separate. #RandolphHarris 8 of 15

I can dissolve it into a number, into a pure relation between numbers, and eternalize it. Throughout all of this the tree remains my object and has its place and its time span, its kind and condition. However, it can also happen, I will and grace are joined, that as I contemplate the tree I am drawn into a relation, and the tree ceases to be an It. The power of exclusiveness has seized me. This does not require me to forego any of those modes of contemplation. There is nothing that I must not see in order to see, and there is no knowledge that I must forget. Rather is everything, picture and movement, species and instance, law and number include and inseparably fused. Whatever belongs to the tree is included: it form and its mechanics, its colors and its chemistry, its conversation with the elements and its conversation with the stars—all this in its entirety. The tree is no impression, no play of my imagination, no aspect of a mood; it confronts me bodily and has to deal with me as I must deal with it—only differently. One should not try to dilute the meaning of the relation: relation is reciprocity. Does the tree then have consciousness, similar to our own? I have no experience of that. However, thinking that you have brought this off in your own case, must you again divide the indivisible? What I encounter is neither the soul of a tree nor a dryad, but the tree itself. #RandolphHarris 9 of 15

One who knows that one has been ignorant of truth, and still is, has begun to enter the knowledge of truth. This is not for those who are so satisfied with themselves that they want to preserve their egos just as they are. It is for those who feel the need of self-improvement, and feel it so keenly that they are willing to work hard for this objective and to take time for it. The Quest is for those who have looked at their own faults and turned their head away from the unattractive and disconcerting sight with downcast eyes. However, although their weaknesses have clung in the past to them like limpets, philosophy bids them take hope and take to the Quest which can liberate and strengthen them in the future. Those who had had their fills of society, who have found its gaiety and its friendship to be all on the surface, who have evaluated it as bogus, sham, and unreal, may be prepared to listen more heedfully to the description of a life that is offered as being much more worthwhile. In a mortals higher yearnings, in one’s wishes for a better holier calmer self, one shows evidences of intuition. Our capacity as human beings to imagine, to think, to wonder, to be conscious are all degrees of freedom. In the realm of the mind, there is no limits. In our imaginations we can instantaneously transport ourselves back three thousand years and listen to blind antiquated Homer reciting his tales around a campfire in Macedonia. #RandolphHarris 10 of 15

Or we can take our place, again instantaneously, on a stone seat in the theater of Dionysus in classical Athens and be enthralled by the drama of Sophocles and Aeschylus. Or we can project ourselves into the future any number of years we wish. The fact that all of these acts can be done instantaneously—that we can conquer space and time simultaneously—is itself indicative of the nature of freedom. Personal freedom can be soon as the range of movement possible for the organism. Saint Thomas Aquinas stated that there are four kinds of existence. First are inert things, like rocks, which simply exist. Second are the things that exist and grow, like plants and trees. Third are things that exist and grow and move about, like animals. Fourth are creatures that exist, grow, move, and think, like human beings. (For us the term consciousness would be more accurate.) Each of these stages represent a radically increased freedom, seen in the range of movement, over the preceding one. As Swiss biologist Adolf Portmann phrased it, we are born with freedom in the sense of the potentiality for movement of the infant. “The free play of the limbs, which gives to the human nursling so much richer possibilities than the new-born monkey or ape reminds us that our own state at birth is not simply helpless but is characterized by a significant freedom.” This freedom of movement, which, contemporary experiments demonstrate, begins even in the uterus, is given a great boost when the umbilical cord is cut, and continues as the new born grows. #RandolphHarris 11 of 15

One leaps ahead in the infant’s range of movement is when the child can crawl, another leap when it learns to walk, another when he or she does off to school. All of these are quantum increases in the range of movement of the human child—in nautical terms, the cruising range. The movement is increasingly psychological as well as physical, the psychological having its roots in the great leap in the child’s learning to talk. All of these leaps from birth on, these events in which one differentiates oneself from parents, can be seen as psychological rebirth experiences. Hence, they are anxiety-creating as well as challenging. At adolescence there are other quantum leaps that increase the young person’s range of movement, most notably in the realm of pleasures of the flesh. One experiences the alarming possibility of being able. Going off to college, marrying, earning a living, moving to a new city—all can be seen as increases in the person’s range of freedom. Freedom is a moving out while retaining the human bond to the persons, particularly the mother, at home. There is a delicate balance between these two poles. If there is too little wandering out and too much dependence on the home, freedom is being surrendered in favor of security, which turns out then to be an escape from freedom. If there is too much wandering out and too little security at home, the person may get pathologically anxious and may retrench in other ways that cut off his or her freedom. #RandolphHarris 12 of 15

Each of these new levels of movement consists of the enlarging of one’s cruising range by cutting the biological ties with home and mother and father and establishing psychological and spiritual ties in their place. We saw, in the case of Louis de Pointe du Lac, as he came to terms with past and present in his talk with his mother, that he no loner talked about what she should have done for him, but rather what she did do for him. He admired and valued her. Obviously his mother had not changed: the change in memory really came from a change in Louis’s attitude. At his stage in life, the dynamic question is very rarely “What happened?” but rather “What is your attitude toward what happened?” The achievement of freedom now makes it possible for Louis to change the context for viewing his mother. It is freedom of being. The last and ultimate leap in this growth of movement, in this pilgrim’s progress, occurs one’s death bed, when we go through the last stage of differentiation. In therapy—the central purpose being, as I have said, to help the patient discover, establish, and use one’s freedom—I find it important, when the patient pleads total powerlessness, to remind one that one put one foot in front of the other to get to my office. And one can leave. On that range of freedom, minute as it is, we can begin building. #RandolphHarris 13 of 15

Each step in the growth in differentiation carries a new sense of responsibility equivalent to the new freedom. The sense of response-ability, as the word may be understood, involves an awareness of others’ needs as we live in the community of the family or the village together with a capacity to respond to the needs also of one’s own self. We choose our way of responding to the other people who make up the context in which our freedom develops. The paradox that one can be free only as one is responsible is central at every point in freedom. However, the converse is just as true: one can be responsible as one is free. This is the reason why the argument that we are totally determined breeds irresponsibility. You have to have some sense that your decisions genuinely matter to take responsibility for them. The sense of responsibility begins in the relation of infant to mothers: as he grows older, the infant learns that mother has her own needs. She does not come every time he cries, and he does not inflict pain on his mother because he sees the eliciting look of pain in her face. Thus growth always has two simultaneous sides: freedom and responsibility, one equivalent to the other, one necessary for the other. We do not let our three-year-old child cross Zhongshan Road in Shanghai to get to the Bund by himself; he has not yet developed sufficient responsibility to be permitted this freedom. #RandolphHarris 14 of 15

The aim of art, the aim of la life can only be to increase the sum of freedom and responsibility to be found in every person and in the World. Since it limits freedom, responsibility is one aspect of the destiny pole. So long as we are born of woman (in contrast to cloning) we shall have to come to terms with mother not only as a source of food, not in the sense Egyptians did before mummification, but increasingly as a person carrying one’s own destiny. Freedom for oneself increases as one’s awareness of the destiny of others increases. It is significant that the new capacity for freedom related to movement is actualized as a form of art. Human beings dance—ballet and folk and jazz and ballroom and the flamingo—as an expression of aesthetic possibilities. Each art form is developed as a ritual to express one’s exhilaration and freedom. To us, rock music represents freedom…the freedom to feel, to be one with a higher collective force, to move together in one cosmic rhythm. One dances for joy, or to express passion or religious feelings, as in the whirling of Aaliyah in the Are You That Somebody music video, to drum up emotion for battle, like the war dances of the Native Americans. Movement and the expansion of freedom are symbolic expressions of the individual’s career from birth to death. #RandolphHarris 15 of 15