I will never forget your kind words, directing me to the right way. I will never forget when you were distressed, you still worked and taught us how to answer challenging solutions. I will never forget when we blundered, you helped us up. I wish the blessing can express our earnings to you. It was so hard to get back on the train this time. Not that parting was every easy before, but it is especially hard now that I know what it is to be separated from you. The last time we parted and I got on that train, heading for a boat to take me across the channel, my mind was so full of you but at the same time so full of anticipation and uncertainty. Most people think of Sun when surprised with bright colour of the rainbow. I first think of you when I win applause and flowers. This time, I am sitting and gazing out at the English countryside blurring by the window and all I can think about is that every hedgerow and neat green field we pass is one more hedgerow and neat green field between us. We hear the shells, sometimes see them when they fall on the roads, but that is as close as we get to the action. We live vicariously through the stories we hear from the blesses. Sometimes I feel as if we are hanging around outside the cinema, trying to piece together the flicker from the bits and pieces we overhear as the patrons come out of the theater. #RandolphHarris 1 of 9

That time I ran up the ridge to help the wounded brancardier, in full view of the Boaches and their guns, the familiar prickles of danger and excitement grabbed me. I felt so alive. It was as if I were scrambling up the wall with those squirrels again. To be doing something instead of just waiting back and watching others do it. I tell you, it was so hard to go back to my usual work after getting out of the hospital. The scar left me by my service, I wake to run my finger along its seam. It many respects, dignity leaves us lonely. Do you understand why I could not tell this all to you? You would have wrapped those surprisingly strong arms of ours around me and not let go. Not that I would have minded too terribly being held captive by such a jailer, but, like I told you I need to finish out my year. I have to accomplish something in my life. If I cannot stick it our for a whole year, then what can I stick out? You do not want a man who cannot finish anything. When the setting Sun gilds the clouds and the scenery on the horizon and the approaching twilight adds some melancholy to my heart, I have already turned what I want to say to you into poems written on the meadow. Happiness is not hidden in the situation, but in the yearning. I always ask you how far it is from the eyes to the heart. Speaking of the future, I cannot believe you got a Cresleigh Home at Cresleigh Domain. You knew what it would mean to me. I also love the Cresleigh Homes at Rocklin Trails. #RandolphHarris 2 of 9

For a guy who has been living out of an ambulance, to walk up and see those lace curtains at the window, it was just like coming home to the very well educated, affluent suburbs. You are graceful like white clouds coming into my dream every night, you are as beautiful as flowers in my eyes every day, and pure as the river running into my heart every moment. The inborn grace and charm possessed by your character leave in my heart permanent sanctity and loveliness. God is that which nothing greater can be thought Of, whether you give this the name God or not, can be thought of, and therefore exits in the mind even of those who denies its existence anywhere else. And to exist outside the mind as well as in it is a greater thing than to exist in the mind only, the maximum cogitabile is not the maximum conitabile at all; it is therefore self-contradictory to deny real existence to that than which nothing greater can be thought of. Greater in this argument means, in part, better, so it is no answer to say that of some things it might be better for them not to exist. If God is by definition everything that a being ought to be, then such a being ought to be, among other things, real; and to think of God as not being real is therefore to think of him as not being all that he ought, and thus is not to be really thinking of God. #RandolphHarris 3 of 9

The thought of an unreal God is internally incoherent, so if God can be thought of at all (and the person who thinks God does not exist does think of him), God must be, if we are to be consistent, be thought of as real. I am still tired, but I would much rather be tired from digesting the scriptures than from an excess of work. I did not want to waste a moment of my time with you on sleeping. That is what the train journey back to Folsom, California is for. Despite my tiredness, I do feel like a new man. Clean, well fed, clothes washed and mended, warm new greatcoat. Body and spirit sated. You laughed at me, but I have to save up my satiations! I have gone so long without that I wanted to put in extra stock, the memories to be pulled out and savored as needed. If the Sun is the source of all life and strength, then you are the unsetting Sun in my heart. Whether it is during the day or at night, and whether it shines or rains, your gift to me always flickers in my heart. You entered my life like a falling star coming into my atmosphere. I could see you in the dawn of a cold night and needed something to warm my heart and light up my life. You are a beautiful fairy in a fairy tale, bringing spring to my life. You are like jade, pure and natural with no disguise, laughing when you are happy, crying when you are in sorrow, living simple and free life. #RandolphHarris 4 of 9

Even that one incident could not spoil things for me. I know you were upset, but you did nothing wrong. He should not have said the things he did, but I am sure he did not mean anything by them. I hope you have gotten past it. I will close my eyes and pull out one of those aforementioned memories. If my love is a beautiful rose and I am a green leaf, we will live together rain or shine. Understanding or misunderstanding, agony or mirth, beginning or ending, intoxication or freedom, reunion or separation are all for love. In every work of design, the work must be conceived before it is executed—that is, before it exists. The book of Judges (in the Christian Bible) recounts a cycle that repeated itself multiple times during the reign of judges. Because the Israelites failed to remove wicked influences from the promised and, they became entangled in sin and were conquered and afflicted by their enemies. After the Israelites cried unto the Lord for help, he sent judges to deliver them from their enemies. However, the Israelites soon returned to their sins, and this cycle was repeated. There was great lawlessness and disorder among the tribes of Israel under the judges as they placed their trust in the wisdom of people and chose to disobey the commandments of the Lord. #RandolphHarris 5 of 9

In the closing sentence of the book of Judges, the writer reports, “In those days there was no king in Israel: every person did that which was right is his or her own eyes,” Judges 21.25. People rationalized sins. Kids were raised with no restriction and did whatever they wanted to do. Micah and the Danites created sanctuaries dedicated to idol worship, and Levite concubine is abused and killed. However, to prevent sin from ravaging the land and our lives, our choice is to obey God’s standard of morality, as it will largely determine our happiness in life. Our God—he needs to speak only once on the issues of morality, and that one declaration trumps all the opinions of the lower courts, whether uttered by psychologists, counselor, politicians, friends, parents, or would-be moralists of the day. It is almost unbelievable to think that God has given to his children the power that is most prized and sacred to him—the power to create life. Because God gave us this power, he, and he alone, has the right to prescribe how it should be used. “The power of the Holy Ghost is gift of God unto all who diligently seek him,” reports 1 Nephi 10.17. #RandolphHarris 6 of 9

Contrary to much public sentiment, there is nothing negative or restraining about God’s moral standards. Rather, they are optimistic, uplifting, and liberating. Our covenants with God build relationships of trust, they enhance self-esteem, they foster a clear conscience, and they invite the Spirit of the Lord to bless individual and married lives. God’s moral standards are the proven ideals for happy marriages and stable communities. Civilizations are built on moral foundations. When people are morally strong, they do it well; when they are morally weak, they suffer. Freedom cannot outlive morality and freedom is not free—it must be earned. People may change again and again, but mandates from God never change. They remain the same because the fundamental principles of good behaviour are everlasting and never change. The Lord has given us direction through the scriptures as to how we should behave to enrich our lives, to being peace to our souls, to strengthen our families, and to uplift the dignity of humanity. “Wherefore, hear my voice and follow me, and you shall be a free people,” reports Doctrine and Covenants 38.22. Faith is belief in revealed truths. Ultimately the object of faith is God himself, who is not, however, known by the human mind in his divine simplicity but only discursively and by means of propositions. #RandolphHarris 7 of 9

These revealed truths are authoritatively presented in the creeds. Thus, to have faith means to believe the articles of faith summarized in the credal affirmations of the church. “Blessed is the nation whose God is the Lord,” reports Psalms 33.12. Fait is an act of the intellect assenting to divine truth at the command of the will moved by the grace of God. That is to say, whereas in knowledge the intellect is moved to assent by the object itself, known either directly or by demonstrative reasoning, in faith the intellect is moved to assent through an act of choice, where by it turns voluntarily to one side rather than to the other. Faith does not, however, represent an arbitrary or unmotivated decision. It is a response, under the influence of divine grace, to certain external evidence, particularly miracles. As such, it is sufficiently determined by the evidence to be rational and yet sufficiently undetermined and free to be meritorious. “The Lord will deliver you out of bondage, according to his power,” reports Mosiah 7.33. It may be that God can or will disclose himself only to one who shows such an initial faith and is willing to venture in trust beyond what has been established by scientific proof or philosophical demonstration. In other words, it is possible that in order to gain the religious knowledge upon which our personal good depends, we must give rein to our passional desire to believe. #RandolphHarris 8 of 9

In every advance from sense data to the perception of an ordered World or from the projection of a scientific hypothesis to its observational verification, as in every successful voyage of discovery or in the invention of some new kind of machinery, there must be not only an act of theorizing or of insight but also a sustained effort of will which carries the operation through to completion. “If thou wilt call on God’s name in faith, thou shalt receive hope thou desirest,” reports Alma 22.16. A very important connection has long been recognized between faith and what may be called the cognitive freedom of the human mind in its relation to God. And not merely in works, but also in faith, has God preserved the will of humans free and under his own control.  God is willing to appear openly to those who seek him with all their hearts, and to be hidden from those who flee from him with all their hearts, he so regulates the knowledge of himself that he has given signs of himself, visible to those who seek him, and not to those who seek him not. “May the LORD repay you for what you have done. May you be richly rewarded by the LORD,” reports Ruth 2.12. Awake with an overwhelming sense of gratitude; let it be like a sixth sense. #RandolphHarris 9 of 9