You need no mercy, and therefore know not how to show any. A single bad act no more constitutes a villain in life than a single bad part on the stage. Moral memory is a matter of the heart. I had not been a villain had she not been so much an angel. Here, we get closer to what memory is, its true function and magic. All this is yesterday’s event. Events of later date have floated from me to the shore where all forgotten things will reappear, but this stands like a high rock in the ocean. In our nature, there is a provision, alike marvelous and merciful, that the sufferer should never know the intensity of what one endures by its present torture, but chiefly by the pang that rankles after it. The actual experience of soul or of spirit cannot occur through persuasion that such realities exist. The felt sense of soul or of spirit is a memory coming from above and below. It is not possible to account for these experiences based on the past. Memorizing is an act through which something that is foreign and alien is folded back into oneself and becomes oneself; that which existed apart and alone is folded into the totality of the body. A similar process takes place with whatever we take in from the World. Digestion is not limited to food we consume. #RandolphHarris 1 of 6

We perceptually and cognitively take in events and they become experiences, and when they go deep enough, they become soul experiences that nourish the life of imagination. A reflection on the life of every memory shows the range of this process of psychic digestion very clearly, and where it can go wrong. Obsessions and psychic trauma are undigested memories. They keep coming back up in exactly the form in which the experience occurred. When we undergo events that are too strong, that overwhelm us, these experiences return as emotional, autonomous, automatic, fixed forms endlessly replayed, and we are haunted by what has happened. It is not so much undergoing trauma per se that makes for psychological difficulties; it is the fact that such experiences often cannot be digested. It is important to learn how to dissolve these experiences because later in life, these undigested experiences will turn into bodily ailments. It is like having something foreign in the body, sitting there for years, rotting, putrefying. Often times, these unwanted memories are painful and frightening and seem to have no known source. The good old theory of our forefathers that vice was in the naming of it. #RandolphHarris 2 of 6

I have had one or more bad experiences in my life that I have learned a lot from. However, once in a while, I still think about those bad experiences and thing about them is stifling my progress towards my own life goals. When helped me was admitting that I am a sinner and not perfect and asking the Lord for forgiveness. When a person does not like you, and wants nothing to do with you, it really upsets them if you keep appearing around them. If you notice every time you go looking for someone, and they run away, it is because you are encroaching on them and making them feel trapped. The worst thing you can do to a person is make them feel trapped. Someone you just have to recognize that your love, friendship, or whatever you think you have to offer may not be what someone else desires, and it is best to stay away from them. We need to learn to let go. We need to be able to forgive, so we can move on and be happy. Forgiveness does not mean that you erase the past, nor forget what has happened. It does not mean the other person will change his or her behavior, we can only control ourselves. All forgiving means is that you are letting go of the past and moving on to a better place. #RandolphHarris 3 of 6

When people are made to learn mechanically, without story or image or rhythm, then that material taken in cannot be transformed into soul nourishment. Undigested memories are a lot like trapping someone in a situation that they do not care to recall. It can be compared to a crying child, and all of the sudden, we feel immense waves of uncontrivable sorrow, yet it is not sorrow for the child, but sorrow for ourselves that will not go away and leave us alone. Sometimes these memories project rage and make a person upset. When people let go of things from the past, it is not good to constantly bother them of keep looking in their face like you lost your mind. Memory is a magical act in which things not present are evoked. What one loves, one does not forget because the event is take in and fully transformed into the eternal stream of love, to be retrieved at any time, full of life and feeling. However, if a situation did not work out in the past, twenty years later it is still not likely to workout. Modern people are different, they do not harbor old feelings or think “What if?” People let go and find new things to think about. Chances are if a person did not want anything to do with you in the past, they still do not, and you might get yourself in legal trouble or get physically hurt for persistently harassing them. #RandolphHarris 4 of 6

High pressure situations can make dealing with someone else’s ambivalence more unpleasant, but that does not make ambivalence less real. Not everyone needs closure. Confidence can actually be a bad thing when it comes to confronting contradictions. People with a higher need for closure tend to be the most confident and report the least fear of being wrong. They are also the least likely to interpret behavior in multiple ways or to look at things from different angles. The experience of the thinker, intent upon the value and significance of things, must guide an individual in confronting existence. Experience offers knowledge of God, the World, and people. This linkage helps people to discover the interrelationship and interaction of the elements life by way of an intricate logical construction. Creation denotes the action of God upon the World; revelation, the encounter of God and people; and redemption, the relation of people to the World. God is hidden in the mythical beyond, appears to give the World reality. However, creation implies tranistoriness, finiteness, death; the process of creation is renewed and perfected in revelation, through which God, in his love, turns to human beings the experience of this love evokes in human beings the consciousness of being a self and accords people reality. Vices are sometimes only virtues carried to excess. #RandolphHarris 5 of 6

Now because of the reality that God has blessed us with, our original isolation and dumbness are overcome; the human response to God’s love is our own love. Human beings translate their love for God into love for our neighbor, and by so doing we participate in leading the World toward redemption. Through the deeds of love the temporality of life and the finality of death are overcome. Ultimate redemption is anticipated, and a sense of eternity in time experience, primarily in the rhythm of the days which constitute the sacred aspect of faith, authentic, though different, manifestations of reality, and this is concerned with the existential situation of individual human beings. In contradistinction to abstract, timeless, purely logical, solitary thinking, the new existential thinking is grammatical: human language, the word, the name, dialogue, are keys to understanding of reality; the speaking thinker thinks for someone and speaks to someone. In such language-bound thinking, utmost importance is accorded to time; past, present, and future are actively involved in the process of thought. #RandolphHarris 6 of 6