Examine yourself to see if you have forgotten how to be truly repentant. One of my negative traits is that I am too curious. However, it does not help to pretend to be a different person to get people to like you. Your partner and psychologist will find out easily. Just be yourself and be relaxed. Walk by faith and not by sight, and do not think about the outcome in life, but do your best to live an honest and peaceful life. This will reduce your stress level. As you know, God is the perfection of human beings. In loving God as our supreme value, we are really loving ourselves. As our consciousness rises, due to the letting go of negativity, this energy tends to rise to higher centers so that, at the level of love, the energy liberates our soul, and the energy counterbalances the negativity of the personality. In loving God, we are really loving ourselves and it leaves unexplained certain facets of one’s complex love life. However, when we have an affection for what is to our advantage (affectio commodi), which corresponds to the drive for the welfare of the self, it inclines one to seek one’s perfection and happiness in all that one does. #RandolphHarris 1 of 5

If this tendency to seek our own perfection and happiness alone were operative, we would love God only because he is our greatest good, and man’s perfect self (albeit perfected by union with God in knowledge and love) would be the supreme object of one’s affection; it would be that which all else is loved for its own sake and for the sake of which all else is loved. Nevertheless, there is a second and more noble tendency in the will, an inclination or affection for justice (affection justitiae), so called because it inclines one to do justice to the objective goodness, the intrinsic value of a thing regardless of whether it happens to be a good for oneself or not. There are several distinguishing features of this affection for justice. It inclines one to love a thing primarily for its own sake (its absolute worth) rather than for what it does or can do for one (its relative value). Hence, it leads one to love God in oneself as the most perfect and adorable objects, irrespective of the fact that God happens to love us in return or that such a love for God produces supreme delight or happiness in a human as its concomitant effect. #RandolphHarris 2 of 5

We will have moments of profound peace where the time and the World will seem to suddenly stop, and we have come in contact with the Infinite. It enables one to love one’s neighbor literally as oneself (where each individual is of equal objective value). Finally, this love is not jealous of the beloved but seeks to make the beloved loved and appreciated by others. Whoever loves perfectly, desires co-lovers for the beloved. Recall the tendency to make others admire the beautiful or the sorrow felt when something perfectly lovely is unloved, desecrated, or destroyed. If the affectio commodi tends to utter selfishness as a limiting case, the first checkrein on its headlong self-seeking s the affectio justitiae. This affection for what is just is the first tempering influence on the affection for what is to our advantage. And inasmuch as our will need not actually seek that towards which the latter affection inclines us, nor need we seek it above all else, this affection for what is just, I say, is that liberty which is native or innate in the will, since it provides the first tempering influence on our affection for what is to our own advantage. #RandolphHarris 3 of 5

The will’s basic liberty, in short, is that which frees it from the necessity of nature, the need to seeks its own perfection and fulfillment above all else. Here is the factor needed to account for the generous and genuinely altruistic features of human love inexplicable in terms of the physicalist theory. There is a difference between the will with respects to its natural inclinations and the will as free. The former is the will considered as the seat of the affection for the advantageous. It views everything as something delightful, useful, or a good for oneself and leads to the love of desire (velle concupiscentiae). As free or rational (in accord with right reason), the will is the seat of the affection for justice that inclines us to love each thing honestly or as a bonum honestum, that is, for what it is in itself and hence for its own sake. Since only such love recognizes the supreme value and dignity of a person and finds its highest and most characteristic expression when directed toward another, it is usually called the love of friendship (velle amicitiae) or of wishing one well (amor benevolentiae). #RandolphHarris 4 of 5

When we stop loving, a great anxiety comes. That anxiety is perhaps is beauty drained from the World, converted into subjective energy. When we stop loving, there is a sense of death, the sense that nothing is happening. It is the will of God that human beings should get into a right-standing relationship with Him, and His covenants are designed for this purpose. When I really transacted business with God on the basis of His covenant, there is no sense of personal achievement—no human ingredient at all. Instead, there is a complete overwhelming sense of being brought into union with God, and my life is transformed. With continual surrender, we begin to experience these states of peace with ever-increasing frequency. At times, they may become quite profound and of greater and greater duration. When the clouds are removed, the Sun shines forth and we discover that peace was the truth along. Surrender is the mechanism that uncovers the true nature of our existence. Repentance is a gift from God. If you ever cease to understand the value of repentance, you allow yourself to remain in sin. #RandolphHarris 5 of 5