Let me not mar that perfect dream by an auroral stain, but so adjust my daily night that will come again. One blessing had I, than the rest so larger to my eyes that I stopped gauging, satisfied, for this enchanted size. It was the limit of my dream, the focus of my prayer—a perfect, paralyzing bliss contented as despair. I knew no more of want nor cold, phantasms both become, for this new value in the soul, supremest Earthly sum. The Heaven below the Heaven above obscured with ruddier hue. Life’s latitude leant over-full; the judgment perished, too. Why joys so scantily disaburse, why Paradise defer, why floods are served to us in blows—I speculate no more. Humans are the same substance of God, every individual is capable of becoming divine. When this divinization is achieved, a person can no longer sin, for God is sinless. Thus, whatever one does, it would not be a sin. Commandments and conventional test of morality can no longer apply, and mysticism is therefore interpreted as justifying antinomianism (there are no binding moral laws, everything is relative). (Thus, it is not surprising that God is beyond good.)  The experience of the dark night of the soul is a periods of great despair in which one feels deserted by God. Moral sense functions only in the exceptional conditions of a crisis, and it is only in the painful functioning of that moral sense that one finds the gratification of one’s particular pleasure. I can feel compassion as well as guilt and I fear that someday I too may need the same pity other notable figures are imploring. It feels as if compassion being evoked for the evil villain in a somewhat Christian way. My poor soul is wrought of this misery is the saddest case of all. Not really distinguished feelings of love, but one can sense his emotions, as if my own purity will be defouled if I cross the border, and the scar I bare is often referred to as the mark of the beast. The holy water in my body sears and burns, for the stain is a sign of the evil infection that was caused by you expanding your circle of power and influence by using me as an innocent person to accomplish your aims. 

However, I feel more attractive and radiant than ever. The World acceptance expressed in the struggle for power. Since God cannot sin, neither can divinized men or women, however wrong their action may look from the standpoint of conventional morality. This means the purgation sent by God and the experience probably reflects the contrast between the bliss of union and the condition of striving for that bliss. You guessed from the way the sentence toiled, you could hear the bodice tug, behind you, as if it held but the might of a child; you almost pitied it, you, it worked so the attempt to repress the feeling of bliss accruing on the attainment of higher states of consciousness, in order to obviate the depression liable to occur upon their cessation. For it would split my heart. Father, I bring thee not myself—that were the little load; I bring thee the imperial heart I had not strength to hold. The heart I cherished in my own till mine too heavy grew, yet strangest, heavier since it went, is it too large for you?  Withdrawing from politics has been a blessing that has allowed me to harness self-mortification to the task of concentrating solely upon God. My service is to my inner life and the repetition of prayers enjoined allow me to focus my faith and remembrance of God. A Heaven of Heaven the privilege of one another’s eyes is a means towards inner illumination. Fear and obedience of God melted into a burning interior love of him that carried with it the hope that union with him might be gained through the negation of self. This interior knowledge is described in terms of light, and the so-called Light Verse: God is the light of the Heavens and of the Earth; His light is like a niche wherein there is a lamp, a lamp encased in glass, the glass as it were a glistening star. There is now a unifying vision, a sense that somehow all things are one and share a holy, divine, and single life, or that one’s individual being merges into a Universal Self, to be identified with God or the mystical one. Mystical experience involves the intense joyous realization of oneness with, or in, the divine, the sense that this divine One is comprehensive, all-embracing, in its being.  

The soul as a longing to return to God, as there is still a sense of overwhelming beatitude, of salvation, or of lost or transcended individuality. Some mystical experience occurs only at the end of a lengthy, arduous religious discipline, an ascetic path; others occur spontaneously (like much nature-mystical experience); since a mystical experience is discovery, a realization, of what is eternally true, union with God is unusually fresh, innocent, and aesthetically intense awareness of the created World and its beauty. It is only the initiative, the grace of God that bestows it. We might be familiar with the idea of God being above. Our concepts fail to grasp him precisely for this reason is this is our belief. Above being carries echoes of above the turmoil, above suspicion, above praise, with above indicating distance from and superiority to something. However, to be above, one must first of all be—and continue to be. Because God is superior, he is everywhere. Mystics of different periods and different parts of the World may express different experiences. A dream under nitrous oxide may strike the dreamer with the force of a satanic revelation, but on awakening and correlating the nightmare with the shock of an injury, one may have little temptation to judge the experience as a genuine disclosure. The feeling of revealedness can attach itself with equal intensity to incompatible contents. It was just a feeling of unreality. In the first place, the mystical experience is a vision of the World that is free, to a very usual extent, from the interposition of concepts. Normal perception is closely linked to practical projects; we see the World in terms of our needs and desires and our intention to manipulate it in various was. The entire knowable Universe is composed of natural objects—that is, objects which come into and pass out of existence in consequence of the operation of natural causes. Never worry about whether what you say sounds humble before others or not. However, be always humble before God and allow Him to be your all in all.

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