When your mind starts commenting and interpreting and drifting into stories, gently guide yourself back to your body. You may find this practice unfamiliar and uncomfortable, but you will gradually grow to enjoy it. The light seen in front on a long way is hope, and the light seen in the cold Winter is warmth. My God (Jehovah, Allah, LORD Almighty), you are that light on the way of life, which gives me warmth and hope. It seems all news cut off after we left each other for several years. The yearning to you let me hardly want to eat anything. Even dirt and flying birds miss me, my dearest men! If you are standing by the lake, if you are looking at the White Squall, each wave is my yearning—my yearning! If you see the ardent beckon? If you hear calling full of deep love, calling for you, I wish it flies towards you with pleasure and laughter every day in the coming year. A pleasant mood and the ensuing good health are the biggest capital for happiness. Wish you a cheerful mood and longevity. You will soon start to feel real again and learn to include the thoughts and feelings that passed through your awareness. One will regain a sense of the peace and joy that you experience many years before. The human mind has a powerful hold over the being. Is it really true that you are such an awful person? Is it really true that nobody loves you? Is it really true that your son hates you? Is it really true that the last thirty years have been wasted?  What effect does it have on you and your life to hold such negative beliefs? And who would you be without them? 

Little by little we are beginning to cut through the dense clouds of cognition and beliefs that made up you and World construct system—and little by little they are beginning to loosen their hold over you, as you grow to realize that they were, indeed, just stories and that they caused you tremendous suffering. Begin to discriminate between your projections onto reality and reality itself, which enables one to choose reality over fiction and unreality. As the clouds of stories and beliefs thin out, the radiance of presence, with which you had reconnected in our earlier work, shined through more and more. Before our meetings, you believed, in accord with our psychological culture, that we have to “work through” all the anger and resentment and unresolved issues of a lifetime in order to experience any real happiness. We were both working at Cambridge Hospital (one of Harvard’s teaching hospitals) and, sharing an interest in how trauma had affected the lives of our patients, we began to meet regularly and compare notes. We were struck by how many of our patients who were diagnosed with borderline personality disorder (BPD) told us horror stories about their childhoods. Because the task of being happy seemed so overwhelming, you had given up in despair and resorted to suicidal ideation as your only real solace. BPD is marked by clinging but highly unstable relationships, extreme mood swings, and self-destructive behavior, including self-mutilation and repeated suicide attempts. However, no one knows what was happening to you, nor what people were saying and doing and showing you, until now. 

Now, you know that nothing needs to be worked through nor eliminated—you can merely see your stories for what they are without getting caught by them. If they grabbed hold, you can always inquire using the four questions we talked about above to loosen up with grip. (Because you had once seen quite vividly that your true identity had nothing to do with your personality, you could hold the stories in a bigger space). This realization afforded you enormous relief, and your suicidal ideation stopped. Where is your depression right now? Can you show it to me? How do you know your depression exists? And where is your miserable childhood right now? Does it exist now, or is it in the past? And where is this past located? In this moment, can you find any problem? You do not have a radical inquiry and I am helping strengthen the realization that your so-called problems are the constructions of your mind. Rather than being deep-rooted neuroses requiring long-term psychotherapy, as many conventional psychological theories teach, your problems ceased to exist for you in those moments when you stopped investing them with psychic energy and identification. And that is why these thugs in this building, those reporters and the critics keep slandering you. They know they created these problems and hurt you and they see they no longer have any power over you and that the truth is out there and roaring like Ben Crawford. What these people have put out there will come back to them. Play your video games and love life.