Thinking of you fills me with energy. I longed to be to you something more than a piece of sentient prettiness, a passing diversion to your eyes and brain; and the longing betrayed itself in my reply. Take a few minutes to relax your body and mind. Begin to think about something that makes you happy. Now think about something in the past week that bothered you. It could be something that happened at work, or something a friend told you, or something that annoyed or disappointed you. It could be something you read or saw in the newspaper that upset you. Now, move back in time. Allow yourself, without thinking too long about it, to pull up a memory from your childhood, one that is not really bad or good—something more or less routine. Detach yourself from the experience by pretending that you are the cameraman filming this event for a movie. I was wondering if I should be able to have a work with you before the special snatched us away. The appeal of your helplessness touched in me, as it always did, a latent chord of inclination. It would have meant nothing to me to discover that my nearness made you more brilliant, but this glimpse of a twilight mood to which I alone had the clue seemed once more to set me in a world apart with you. Now, put yourself into the mind of someone who wants to get all the details right. What does the camera see when it films you as a child? Do not go back and become part of this. To my exasperated observation you were only too completely alive to them. You were perfect to everyone: subservient, good-naturedly watchful, brightly companionable, and you harmonized yourself with your surroundings.

We have not since Sunday walked at the castle, and that episode was still so vivid to me that I could hardly believe you to be less conscious of it. However, your greeting expressed no more than the satisfaction which every young man expects to see reflected in masculine eyes; and the discovery, if distasteful to my vanity, was reassuring to my nerves. Hang it, Ryan, I thought you had given me the slip: I have been hunting all over for you. You seem disdainful by your acquaintances. When you saw me, you became alert and expectant, and your lips parted in a smile at whatever I was about to say, and your very back conscious of the privilege of being see with me. You leaned against the window, a detached observer of the scene, and under the spell of your observation, I felt myself powerless to exert my usual arts. I continued to face you in silence, my glance was vacant. Opposing forces, values, and interest are balanced in such a fashion as to keep pleasure in check, and the means to this balance is the budget. Economics becomes the management of pleasure. It is natural to seek more and more satisfaction by consciously, deliberately maximizing all gains at a given moment through budgeting. This position, where we are now, opens the door for consumer economics: the manipulation of goods and services through attaching them to pleasurable states. It also leads to the situation in which money itself becomes a commodity to be sought after, money doing business on its own detached from any relation to the soul of the World.

The psychic starvation brought about by removing soul from the World produces insatiable greed, for when the World is no longer surrounded with soul a vast emptiness intervenes that must be filled. Over the last four hundred years the people in the World have become psychopathic—very successful, very adapted, very clever, but lacking the feeling of affliction. The reduction of soul to economic psychology has made the World sick. Now there is so much sickness to care for it may force us to forget ourselves and return to the World to recover its soul. We are provided with an opportunity to enter into a new age of the soul, a new care of the World soul. As the individual freedom becomes more conscious, group life become less so. However, as freedom strengthens so does the seeds for a new kind of group life, a conscious community of soul with the World.  We can learn another one of the laws of consciousness: Fear is healed by love. High levels of consciousness are in themselves capable of healing, transforming, and enlightening others. Letting go the block to love, our capacity to love increases progressively, and loving energy has the capacity to heal ourselves as well as others. The only drawback to these types of healings is that often the healing is sustained while in proximity to a person capable of radiating high levels of love, but the illness returns when people leave that presence, unless they themselves have learned to elevate their own consciousness. With your love, you create a warm and friendly group.

In this big family, the Sunshine, the sound of the song, and cheerful laughter are everywhere and every moment. I missed you, respected teacher! Cherished in my heart are your urgings like the Spring breeze, the drizzling rain, a bunch of bells ringing in my heart forever. As masters, they appear in a supreme form in which every personal element has been converted into something supersonic, almost remote from the World, or at least not involved in it. One rarely, if ever, meets the happy or suffering individual, through whose joy-filled, sorrow-filled eyes the other Worldly glimmers in a unique personal sense. In this intimacy we find ourselves undivided. When we experience being our wholeness, we are not afraid to experience the truth of the moment, regardless of how things look to the judging mind. The words heal. You taught me how to welcome what feels unwelcome, and that has made all the difference in my life. What I want is to be awake and directly experience deep intimacy with what is. To experience something directly is not to discharge it, deny it, act it out, redirect it, repress it, represent it, judge it, analyze it, make commentary about it or understand it with mind.  We might picture love to be like Sunlight and negative thoughts like clouds. As we consistently let go of resisting our fears and allow them to be surrendered, the energy that was tied up in the fear is relinquished and now becomes available to shone forth as the energy of love.

My love is complete within me, and the Love of God binds itself to me, and will not let go, and we shall journey through life hand in hand. I shall sit in your Presence and learn the wondrous things you will tell me; for you are God. Love sits within me. The increasingly dehumanizing aspects of many jobs and, perhaps, the threat of nuclear or environmental disaster are other sources of uncertainty and anxiety. Thus, people have become more and more anxious, and more willing to admit their feelings of uncertainty. Many are looking for ways to be more open in their expression of affection toward other people (and to receive affection in return), partially as an antidote for this increased anxiety. A person who has experienced a great deal of love early in life has fewer fears and a head start, and this love is intrinsic within all of us. By the very nature of our being and by the very nature of the life energy that flows through us and empowers us to breathe and to think we all have that same vibrational energy level of love within us. As we discover love, we discover true happiness. The greatest good which his mind is able to conceive should be affirmed as a part of his everyday experience. The light of love shines on our daily life and the lighting turns the mediocre gullies and lush forest into legendary mirages. So deep is my love that I am controlled by emotion instead of reason. Your love-lit eyes are like sparkling stars, dispelling loneliness from my heart. All who rage against you will surely be ashamed and disgraced; those who oppose you will be as nothing and perish.