You are the person I will be in contact with. I remember you feeling very sad and hurting yet feeling good at the same time. You were talking about how you have been meeting your pressure deadlines, and have been thinking about what a nice year it has been so far. Many things have changed for us both. I know you want to avoid doing my work for me and that is fine and you are tired of me making you assume what is in my mind without me having to say. When I first came to see you, I could not give. I just wanted to get from you and kind of took your presence for granted. Towards the end of December and January, I was absolutely petrified at the thought of somethings that were going on, and it felt like the absolute end of the World. And, you know, just the whole thing was—I went to sleep after that, and when I woke up I felt just really nice and warn and good. #RyanPhillippe 1 of 6

The warmth of closeness and the sadness of separation are very much in the foreground of our relationship at this moment. I feel like I want to hug you. It is a direct request, much different from me sitting passively and indirectly wanting responses. One of the things that is the very most important to me (we pick up after we hug each other) is that I can love you very, very much and not have to get frightened of it. Speaking of trust and openness, how does trust come in, I wonder? I guess, in part, knowing that we are not going to do anything that makes either of us guilty. What that day (when we fantasized being in front of the fireplace) meant to me was that I could be attractive without being irresistible. You are not going to lose control, nor do you have to maintain control.  #RyanPhillippe 2 of 6

You said it looked like I was going to play tennis in my white shirt, white shorts, and white shoes, and wanted to know how I decided on the outfit I was wearing. Well, it is new, something I had not warn before. I like it. It was a gift for my birthday you bought it for me from your last trip. I look nice in it. So it really kind of picks up a whole bunch of things. I am pleased with the multidimensional symbol. It is the newness. You said I looked really nice in it, not seductive, but attractive. But you also talked about tying up the past and wanted to talk about the future: What are my plan? What are my projects? What am I working on? And in turn, I asked what will you be doing.  I think you are so warm, enthusiastic, responsible, responsive, and consciously choosing human being.  #RyanPhillippe 3 of 6

In America, we have a long-standing habit of being very earnest and serious about our psychological and spiritual development. We feel compelled to communicate without any hint of inconsistency or inner contradiction. This habit comes from our Greek philosophical heritage. If we are seen to be saying one thing in one sentence and contradicting ourselves in the next, we fear that people will judge us negatively. They might think we are confused, superficial, or even crazy! Unfortunately, this is a very limiting way of thinking. Look from left, right, front, and behind; look rightly, obliquely or up and down; you are the loveliest no matter how I look at you. May you be happy forever. Sunshine is bright and green grass is plentiful. On these lively days, may warmth, quietness, joy and happiness be in your heart.  #RyanPhillippe 4 of 6

In the old World, people move fluidly and confidently in the paradoxical domain without any trace of self-consciousness or distress. They know from their experience that paradox and contradiction are inevitable when we enter the space of unconditioned awareness. They welcome the paradox because it points to the reality that cannot be captured by our thoughts. Paradoxes can arise in two different ways. First, if we try to describe the unconditioned mind with real accuracy and precision, we are often led to use sentences that contain internal contradictions. The more rigor and clarity we bring to our descriptions, the more we are compelled to use paradoxical formulations. God within the mind, this internal monitor. It is not an easy matter to hit a conscience exactly between wind and water. #RyanPhillippe 5 of 6

Second, if we speak from within an experience of the unconditioned mind about the unconditioned mind, paradoxes can flow forth as a joyful and exuberant expression of mental energy that is usually trapped by the requirement to appear sane and sensible. In a group setting, an engagement with these paradoxes can also produce an explosion of hilarity and laughter that shatters our seriousness and releases the energy that gets tied up in maintaining a rigid image of ourselves and of others. If we let go of our requirement for conceptual consistency, these paradoxical thought-forms can lead us directly into the unconditioned mind. They also allow us to experience the unconditioned mind as a highly discerning and dynamic state of consciousness. We can never be betrayed—the pure, localized experience of boundless awareness is with us. We are true to our worth.  #RyanPhillippe 6 of 6