Many people are looking for creative ways to make themselves more attractive to employers. I used to want to go into journalism, and so I started doing research and writing to get the attention of an employer. However, what I was producing, at one point was demanded, and not really what I wanted to do. Fortunately, a couple of news stations stepped in and stopped the exploitation. So then I started taking pictures and writing and I found that exciting. However, after this situation with Ryan Phillippe, I am so tired that I find myself almost falling over, and I wake up tired, but nothing is wrong with me.

My apartment is rather small and all I do is write and watch the news and go for the same walk everyday. Because of the rumors spread by the media and others, I am isolated and have no friends. When I do go out, people say really mean things to me and hit me and stuff like that, and I find it really taxing. I am tired of pretending to be thankful and in a happy relationship. I am happy, but just physically tired. I cannot imagine ten more days of this. I would really like to make a friend, who actually loves me, for who I am, and would like to spend time with me.

I am kind of over the hopes of writing to attract an employer because it seems like an exploitative situation.  My dream would be to have a large private house, with a yard, so I could relax and enjoy myself. This situation has been very stressful for me, and it is getting to the point where I have to make a change. I am literally so weak, I cannot even drive. I am so tired that after breakfast I have to lay down. However, what I will do is pray to God and try to find ways to occupy my time until investigators are finally done doing their job, and the people who participated in this conspiracy are punished and I get my reward.

Everyone is making money off of this game and laughing and having fun, but it is also negatively affecting so many people. It is causing others to have problems in their marriages because they pick up on the emotions and their partners cannot understand what they are going through. This game has almost caused a loving couple to divorce because he could not understand why his wife was so sad, and she felt like he was not the man she married. God bless us all. I cannot do this anymore.