Divine interposition in our behalf…that hand that destroys the Constitution rends our Union asunder forever. Law does not seem like law at all when one knows the makers of it. Part of healing is time traveling, going back psychologically and emotionally (and consciously!) to the central scenes of our original wounding, scenes where we became a divided nation in order to proceed with our lives. In this, we go back not just in narrative (or everyday) memory, but also in, and sometime only in, emotional memory. All I ever wanted was to be successful, I recall being in elementary school, and the teacher wanted to make sure we all knew how to spell successful. She believed if she impressed the word in our heads that it would make a difference in our lives.

Success means different things for different people. To many, being successful means having a great career, making a lot of money, driving a nice car, and owing a big house, and having a saving account and a private retirement. That is what I was taught success was as a child. However, success has many different meanings. Often times, being successful simply means the accomplishment of an aim or purpose, which will benefit you and those around you, without implicitly hurting others. And to others, success means the attainment of popularity or profit. Or you may want to obtain success by achieving desired goals or attaining prosperity. For some, there desired goal may be to overcome a lifelong health problem, it could mean overcoming a drug addiction, or having a baby, so success looks different depending on who you are, or what your circumstances are.

However, life is unpredictable and sometimes we have to deal with unexpected situations, which may inhibit our goals, and we may have no idea how we are going to get through a particular situation. So, the important thing is to keep your faith. Sometimes we may have to postpone an old ambition to build a novel of our lives, so to speak. And your journey should fascinate you. Never let your life become an apocalyptic kind of story. Just understand you may have to defer, not abandon, that project; you will go back to it someday, but to do the theme justice you must invest your time and energy in overcoming another situation, and you will not be ready to do that for some years yet. It is as if we have found a control panel in the dark, bringing in enough light and presence to do some rewire, not to get rid of our painful memories, which is impossible, but to lessen their hold on us so that they cease being our default locale when we are suffering in circumstances that mimic those in which we originally suffered.

Whatever you will ultimately achieve as a living being is only to be guessed by others, but to you, your target must be unmistakable. And never yield to temptations that you know are wrong, know that you are going to be a success, and nothing can stop you now. You might come upon quite a few inviting windmills, and it may be against your nature to leave these undisturbed, and I supposed there is a lesson to learn, and not all lessons are negative, some are beneficial. Some people come into your life to bring you out of your shell, to teach you communication, to express who you are and what you want, and they will make you emotionally stronger. To the point when something goes wrong, you look at it as a situation, and not the end of the World. You will learn to control your environment and look at other options. Past, present future, such are neatly sequential trio, or so it seems.  However, it is not just the study of quantum mechanics that deconstructs and calls in question the apparent orderliness of time, but also the developmental dynamics of our lives. Events and behavioral patterns from our early years can easily determine how we operate, often colonizing our present with our past; this may be obvious externally, but not so obvious internally.

If, for example, we constantly feel violated because there are things going on in our lives, and happening to the people we love, and it seems to be the same types of things happening over and over, the purpose is to teach you to deepen your love for others and let go of being angry. We are learning to fuel or direction. So our past is often very much present in us, manifesting in the form of behaviors that first arose in response to difficult circumstances, and still arise, almost as if we are frozen in time, or listen to a scratched record that keeps moving forward, then jumping back to that same thread over and over and over and over again, when similar difficulties occur. Such behaviors are mostly automatic, featuring very predictable reactions, regardless of their outer trappings. Our unresolved wounds may be out of sight, but the behaviors associated with them, usually are not. We may have reacted strongly a few times in the past, but after going through the same situations, you realize, okay, my negative reaction is not going to change this situation; I have to let go and let God.

I know I am doing the right thing, so how can I go wrong? It is my critics who are messing up, and at some point they will attract the attention they deserve, and if people you love are getting hurt in the process, and you do not have the power, nor ability to change the situation, all you can do is learn to love your enemy and wish them the best. This will take any liability off of you. Once current circumstances have pushed us past a certain energetic threshold, old, conditioned responses can easily kick in and overtake. Not that we have to be victims of this, but we can do a little to stop such conditioning from initially seizing us. However, if we see it for what it is, we can alter our course, even though the characteristic sensations of such a takeover my persist quite strongly (changing course in the middle of the storm does not necessarily cause our agitation to immediately disappear!).

And it is not just our past that may take charge of or invade us (with our permission), but also the past of others with whom we are associated, and our collective past. They may be someone in your life who loves you and created a storm, and he may feel he was helping, but by your reaction he now feels like he made a mess of your life. Think of how challenging fear can be, and then factor in the reality of collective fear, not as a distant something on someone else’s horizon, but as a living force pervading our living space, carrying the message that we are, in various ways, threatened or endangered, no matter how removed we may be dark stuff of life. When the law of the land is weak, it is right the law of nature should be strong. Thank you. I just have to give respect and know when my time is. Thank God. The Universe is required to hear this message, the Universe orders up what it requires when it requires it. We are over it, let us just keep going. I just know that this is a very special moment. The fact that I can do this is the win.