I just feel better.I should not have to beg or compete for your attention. You cannot even say, “Hello?” Nice to talk to someone and have them respond, I am not looking for anything more than a bond. Sometimes, people feel, not really lost, but disconnected. You have friends, and peers, but there is something special about the bond of a father and son. Do not get me wrong, mothers are wonderful, but I cannot help her arrange her jewelry box, pick out her clothes, or go get our nails done together.

However, there is something magical about a man, who wants nothing from you, but spends his life watching over you. It must hurt his feelings a little to see his son totally idolizing a guy who pays no attention to me. This guy shows up, gives me a dirty look, punches the parking meter, and walks away. Then, I like spend all this time gushing about how wonderful of a person he is, although, he will not even really talk to me.

It is kind of a complicated situation. Yes, my parents were married and I grew up with my dad, but something urgent came up, and his career path took him somewhere else. I have been trying for the longest time to find an employer, who will be so attracted to me that they are willing to work around my schedule, and lifestyles, so for the past ten years, I have been writing.

However, I really did not get intense until the past five years, and I used to do a lot of original research, but then it was like I could not put the information out fast enough. So I took another approach, I started sampling, editing, remixing, and putting different things, mixing and matching this and that because I felt they corresponded. Some would say I am like the Pharrell Williams of the newsroom.

I still do some original work, but I knew I needed to take my passion to another level. So last year, in the Summer of 2014, I decided to start getting into photography, so that way I could have original photographs to include in my writing. One day, I was just compelled to go into the Cathedral, while I was out, I was so hesitant. There were some ladies standing on the front steps, and I asked them if it was okay that if I went inside, and they encouraged me.

I looked around, and was so impressed at the beauty of the Cathedral, and I pulled out my camera and started snapping photos left and right. Little did I know, someone had been watching me the entire time, and he smiles at me and says, “It is beautiful, isn’t it?” I thought that I recognized him, and replied, “Yes, it is.” He got up, smiled, and walked away.

Next, I sent out a text message, on my phone, saying, “The scent is so fresh.” I am kind of people shy and wish I would have talked to him more.  When I got home and looked at the photographs they were some of the best that I had ever taken. So time went on, and I connected with him online, but did not know it was him. He started dropping hints about personal dates and things, but I kept ignoring him. Then tonight, I was laying in bed, looking at my phone, and he sent out a message, and I replied to it, then he replied back with more personal dates and information about cooking.

So I figured out, this must be him. I do not want to embarrass him, or disrupt his life, so I will share some of the photographs I will in his presence, and hope that I see him again someday soon. And I pray that you all cherish your parents, you will usually have more in common with the parent of the same gender, but honor both, respect them, and listen to their wishes. Once they are gone, the World looks very different, and you will search high and low for love, and will find a bunch of hypocrites, users, and manipulators. I wish you all the best and pray that love enters your life.

I have an inner friend who walks and talks with me daily. He is not afar off, but is within me, a constant companion. I shall never become lonely, for my friend is always near. I have but to speak and he answers. Before ever my lips spoke he told me of his love. Oh, my kind friend, how dear to me is thy presence. The spirit within me is my friend.

His eye is on the sparrow and I know he watched me. This is a blessing thought, for it means that we cannot wander from his presence, nor depart from his care. Always he will watch over us and comfort us. Forever we shall sit in his house and ceaselessly he will care for us. The All-Seeing eye cannot overlook any one, and all, all, shall be kept in his care.  I am exhausted, you know where to find me and are always welcome.