A kiss for a blow is always best, though not easy. What I would not do for kindness, I would not do for money. I am so used to having an object of affection, but I have been getting out a little more and my eyes are opening, and I am not sure that I am really ready to be fixed on one person.

I am so used to people coming into my life and like waiting on them, and this has been a pattern for like…nearly ten years. However, today I was out and talking with a few of the ladies and I saw someone who really caught my eyes, and it made me realize that I may not be ready to be on reserve for someone. Not only that, but I am starting to get to know myself better and I like myself a lot more.

Yet, I have some issues, nothing really too major, and I wonder how someone would respond to them, after getting to know me. It is really something personal and somethings not so personal. Nonetheless, that is the point of dating, do you care enough to be with someone who is not perfect. It is not anything too serious, but it is abnormal, but really not that big of a concern.

Still, you know most people are looking for money and someone perfect, and that is just not me. I have flaws, nor am I rich.  And also, I have to stop objectifying people. Like I place them on a soap box and think the best about them, and they really may not be that good. You know, I want to get to know someone, not just have encounters and fanaticize about how wonderful they are.  You know, for once I want someone to impress me and pay attention to me. I want someone to understand me and get to know me.

Though they had kicked me downstairs every day I presented myself at her door. That is my way of fascinating women. Let the man who has to make his fortune in life remember this maxim. Attacking is his only secret, Dare, and the World always yields: or, if it beat you sometimes, dare again, and it will succumb.