Men love not the remembrance of their crimes; firm friendships can be never founded on the basis of guilt; hence the wicked have no sympathy for each other in the hour of adversity. Everyday, you keep trying harder and harder for things to get better and they do not. There is no rectitude in being miserable; the road to misery is often through the most pleasing path. I had everything going for me, opportunities for eternity, so many options that I got to pick and choose everything, from the brand of car, type of clothes, houses, and vacation spot.

A few years later, I found myself, one who never cries, in bed, crying like a baby, for hours on end. Gloomy is my soul; and all nature round me partakes of my gloom! I was crying because my life is not going right. I tried to establish a relationship, but the individual just used and exploited me, and I do not want to go through that again. My misfortunes have taught me how little the caresses of the World, during a man’s prosperity, are to be valued by him. The cold and nakedness, of our own creating, are infinitely more intolerable than those real misfortunes, which it is not in our power to prevent.

Now, I am in pain, alone, my parents are getting older and the future looks scary. Contemplating dark thoughts…I reflect upon my mother’s words and what the pastor says, “Honey, this will pass, you are beautiful and made in God’s image.” Remember, we walk by faith. Sometimes I feel that we are closer to Heaven than others. The Earth is spinning 1,036 miles per hour, yet it appears to be flat and standing still.

So just because individuals’ who have hurt you are not being prosecuted by man, they are already being punished, in their minds, and it is coming out. That is why they are so sinister and ugly—they are in more pain that you realize because of the things they have done and looking to project that pain onto you. The child of misery receives great addition to his woes by the sneers and scandal of his neighbors. Ill news soon reaches the unwelcome ear.

Get hold of yourself! I entertain the hope that in out venturing, we shall get addicted to wonder and know the joy of constantly feeling something a little new. Grief can take care of itself, but to get full value of a joy, you must have somebody to divide it with. Life is just not pecuniary. Emotions are not as simple as they may sound.

Like your neighbors, emotions often gang up on you. If we simply felt one feeling at a time, that might be easier to deal with, but it is not unusual, at all, for a person to experience several emotions, at once, or one right after another. To people who are comfortable with their emotions, being deluged with feelings, like a winter’s storm, is not a serious problem. However, to those who are unused to feeling much, or who do not like or want emotions, such an experience may be like an attack of illness.

Sometimes it is necessary to control strong emotions, at least temporarily. How do we do it? If I am aware that some emotions get out of hand, or that other people may be more frightened of my emotional responses than I am, how do I deal with this? Emotions are the means by which we make contact. We make talk angrily or warmly toward another; both are good contact or potential contact, for contact is established only if it has the support of our emotions. The whole crusade for control of the emotions is, of course, emotionally grounded, and it is prosecuted in a most emotional fashion. The price we pay for avoiding the pain of being fully alive is that we are excluded from the pleasure as well.

Ironically, this image tells you what American Christmas is all about.

Randy knew and appreciated the fact that in addition to a good mind, he also had a healthy set of emotions, including a temper that could blow. He was generally pretty up-front about his emotions, but in his job, as a Market Research Analyst, Randy encountered a dozen sources of frustration, disgust, amusement, and anger every day and could not only give vent to many of his feelings. For instance, he had many women customers, who asked why so many people were embarrassed to set foot in their nicely decorated stores, and why so many of the neighbors were ashamed of them? When Randy recognized the tendency that these women were being dishonest with themselves, and living in a day dream, he was usually able to play the game with them.

However, sometimes community members bawled him out because it is a very expensive neighborhood, and he is one of the most recognizable people from the building, and they held him responsible for the looks, smells, sounds and people coming from that building, unaware that he had no control over them and refused to report anyone to management, as they are all grown adults, and he does not want to engage. Occasionally, Randy got furious over being bawled out, and sometimes his feelings showed.

However, he never intentionally told his customers how he felt.  He knew that there are some friendly, cooperative customers, as well as those who get up early to see how many analysts lives they can make miserable that day. When he got home, Randy always told his wife about his day’s experiences and wanted to her about hers, too. They shared the good and funny things. However, they also made a compact that they would unload some of the repressed uglies to each other so they could get them out of the way and not let them build up.  The way to love other people is to express what we feel—anger and love—without aiming to hurt feelings. Open but reverent communication is how to make love in our lives.

The traditional ideal of many societies is to hold back on strong or unpleasant emotions for the sake of others. However, held-in feelings are likely to come out in some way—often an inappropriate one, such as sarcasm. So you are really not doing the other person much of a favor by trying to cover up your feelings. They will come out anyhow.

And, even if they did not, some consideration has to be given to the emotional balance of the person with the feelings! If Randy had told the ladies, in the store, that their decorations are tacky and make the building look like a hospital, maybe they would have stopped. However, he did that and the next day they put up even more decorations. Those people are what you call vindictive, and they are also violated their leases and rental agreements.

So it seems the problem is the manager is not enforcing the terms of the lease. They more or less check everyone to see if their units are in working order and they have insurance for their cars. However, as far as enforcing the rules, the manager just lets the tenants run wild, so there is nothing that Randy could do to convey why so many are uncomfortable with the building. Just count your blessings and be grateful and enjoy what you have and God will make you ruler over many. The movies, like Randy Rides Alone and Blue Steel, portrayed strong, silent heroes for years, but we think now is the time to do away with that ideal. Speak up, you do not have to be angry, but voice your concerns so you are not trapped in a prison of sarcasm and ill will.

We are often made uncomfortable by our own strong feelings or those we find in other people. Many of us still do not know how to handle it when someone cries. Very often, the person crying out of grief, fear, exhaustion, or depression is more in need of a sympathetic listener or shoulder to cry on, than he is in need of hearing the right words. Sometimes, we handle these feelings best by just letting them happen, by accepting them, and by helping the other person to realize that he is not alone, that others have similar feelings, and that nobody thinks badly of him for his emotions. And a person who habitually blocks off his emotions may find himself in great difficulties.

Make room for us in your hearts. We have wronged no one, we have corrupted no one, we have exploited no one.

I know some of you have tried to be good people and have done everything right, and you keep getting lumped in with others, who are having hard times, who have stolen money, hurt people on purpose, and just done some very ugly things, and when you talk about what you are going through, others say well, they are too. However, you do not deserve it and maybe the others are paying for the things they did wrong. I will get personal for a moment. On no level am I getting what I need. Even my doctor will not give me the medication I want to help me feel better, so I have to struggle to keep going, and am so ready to give up. Before I moved here, I did not even need medication for anxiety or depression, but these people are rude, vindictive and cunning and there is nothing I can do about it.

Of course not everyone who denies his emotions explodes in so violent a fashion. Some people get physically sick instead, developing disorders like ulcers, migraine headaches, or digestive tract problems. Others develop different emotional disturbances. Some of us are at our wits end and really ready to make the transition. I simply cannot find someone to supply me with lasting uppers and my resources are depleted. I do not even feel like doing this anymore, I simply do not care, but a lady asked me to. I have given up hope, in everyone and everything. I think everyone on this planet is a lost cause, including myself.

We do know that some of our behavior is caused by factors that are part of our physical existence. However, much more study will be needed before we understand fully what these inborn motives are, and we must also look for other causes that many be inherited. The fact of the matter is people are aware that they are hurting others, but they do not care because it brings them great joy and satisfaction to make your life hard.

It seems that many humans beings are content to operate at the level of lower animals—to simply have their physiological needs met, to seek pleasure, to reduce the pain or tension of drivearousal. No child is born hostile or aggressive. It becomes so only when its desires to be loved and to love are frustrated , that is, when its expected satisfactions are thwarted—and the thwarting of an expected satisfaction is the definition of frustration.

You all spent so long slandering, hurting and talking about others and now thing things you said are coming back to haunt each and every one of you. As you can tell, I am nearing my end of writing and becoming more apathetic, than I was. Just know that for most of you, pressures of society and fears and insecurities keep many of you from every fully realizing your greatest potentials.

If you want make this coffee every morning, spend all this money and time decorating common areas, and policing the lobby, why not get a job as a security guard, or at a coffee shop or day care because you just make life harder on young adults? There are no kids here. And many of the adults would like to live somewhere that looks more professional, but who can afford to just up and move? I do not care, and I am done writing for good. You guys like trash, dysfunction, and ugliness because not one of you is doing anything to make a different, but you all add to it. Abused prosperity is oftentimes made the very means of our greatest adversity. Just remember, one who can heroically endure adversity will bear prosperity, with equal greatness of soul.

For those of you who have been assaulted several times and the police do nothing about it, paranoia will set it, it is the minds way of protecting itself because it knows you have no defense. So it is natural. There is a reason for emotional issues, it is the bodies way of protecting itself. The autonomic nervous system is the part of your nervous system that operates without your conscious control.

It regulates the endocrine glands and internal changes in your body. The central nervous system consists of the brain and the spinal cord. Unwelcome as I am, it is inevitable that I should sometimes feel like a shadow walking in a shadowy World. When this happens, I like to go home. Always, I return home weary, but I have the comforting certainty that mankind is real and I, myself, am not a dream.